Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Today is the day of the year I always despise. It's a day where my mind goes over all the "if only" thoughts. If only you hadn't gotten on that plane. If only you & Hank had been authorized to drive to the court martial. If only there hadn't been a storm. There are a million if only scenarios and on this date each year I relive them all. Then tomorrow the date arrives and I realize there were really no if only situations, that you were meant to be taken on that day. By tomorrow every year I get back to the reality of life to know that it couldn't have been changed but for today it is a horrible ache and so many tears because I just want to turn back time and to tell you not to go. I do love and miss you so much.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Wife

July 22, 2015

Happy anniversary, Bud. St. Patrick's Day will always hold happy memories. I am so thankful for the choices you made. I will love you forever.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

March 16, 2015

Happy birthday, Bud. Even though you lived only a few short years the world was truly a much better place because you were here. Love you forever.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

February 26, 2015

Today I miss you so very much that it aches. I love you beyond all belief.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

January 9, 2015

I love and miss you so much.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

September 30, 2014

You were so young and we had so many plans for the future. Why? I will never understand why you and Hank had to die. Over the years I've learned to handle this date fairly well and have been able to think of the good life we had. But this year it is so hard to get through the day. I am reliving the hours and events and wishing it could only be a nightmare that will end and you will still be here. It is as if it just happened and the pain is so fresh again. Someday I will see you again and we will be together. I love you so very, very much and I thank God for sending you into my life.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

July 23, 2014

Just thinking of you and smiling.
Love you.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

July 10, 2014

I am thinking of you during National Police Week. I am so proud of you and I love & miss you so much. Always will.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Wife

May 12, 2014

It's spring and the weather is beautiful. How I wish you could be here with us to enjoy it the way you always did. I wish you could share life with Debbie, Mike, and now with Rose. She would love her Grandpa as much as I do. Please watch over our family until one day when we are all together again. I love you, Bud.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

April 19, 2014

Missing you so much on our anniversary, March 17th. I love you just as much today as I did the day we married.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

March 16, 2014

Happy birthday, Bud. Today will always be a special day and the world was a much better place while you were here. Love you!

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

February 26, 2014

Bud, there is no way to tell you how much I miss you. You were, are, and always will be my true love. I do thank God for the years we had together. You left two wonderful babies for me to raise and I hope you would be proud.
Merry Christmas with so much love.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

December 24, 2013

Another year of loving and missing you. I love you, Bud.
Leannel

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife of SA E.M. Heggen, USACIDC

July 23, 2013

Today is not any special day, no special events, just a day when I am thinking of you more than usual. I am happy just to know that you loved me and I love you.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife of SA E.M. Heggen, USACIDC

June 18, 2013

Happy Anniversary on St. Patrick's Day! It was the best day of my life. Even after all these years I smile when I think of eloping and of the Chicago River dyed green. You said they did that just for us.
Love you now & forever!

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Wife

March 16, 2013

Tomorrow will be your birthday and I wish you were here to share it with us. The world was a much happier place because of you. Happy birthday, Bud---I love you!

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

February 25, 2013

To fully appreciate the heroes of the present, we must recognize our heroes of the past. Your heroism and service is honored today, the 40th anniversary year of your death. I am priviliged to leave a tribute to you. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer who was murdered in the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Time never diminishes respect. Your memory will always be honored and revered. Rest In Peace.

I pray for solace for all those that love and remember you for I know both the pain and pride are forever. Thanks to your wife for sharing your beautiful love story with her reflections.

Phyllis Lasater Loya
mom of fallen Pittsburg (CA) officer Larry Lasater

January 16, 2013

It is another new year, Bud, and I miss you. Our granddaughter turned 4 months old yesterday and is so healthy. You would have loved her so much. I wish you were here to share her with us. No matter how much time passes I will always love and miss you. You are the one great love of my life.
Leanne

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Wife

January 1, 2013

Thank you for your service and for helping to make America a safer place.

Deputy Brian Jones
Boulder County Sheriff's Office, CO

December 14, 2012

She is here safe & sound!! Our son is now a Daddy with his own baby girl. She will always be told stories of you and will be able to know you as she grows up. I missed you so much today and wish that you could have been here to share the day with us all. Please watch over her as she grows. I love you!

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

September 1, 2012

Hi Honey--tomorrow our first grandbaby will be born. Her name will be Pamela Rose Heggen Eckstein and she will sleep in the same cradle that you slept in and that our kids slept in. Please watch over them during the delivery and be with Mike to give him the knowledge that he will be just as good a Daddy as you were. I wish you were here with us for this special day. I love you so much and need you here with me.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

August 30, 2012

Today marks another year that you have been gone and another year that we have missed and needed you. We had always planned to go the same year--you would be 88, I would be 84, and we would spend the years on rocking chairs on a porch overlooking a river in Tennessee. I never thought that our plans and dreams wouldn't happen or that you would be gone so soon. You gave me wonderful babies but had to leave before they could really know you. Our first grandbaby, Rose, will arrive next month so there will be another Heggen generation. Please watch over her and over all of us. You will always be the love of my life and I thank God for putting you in my life. I love you, Bud.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

July 23, 2012

Missing you on Father's Day. I know that Mike will be an excellent father when their baby girl arrives in August. You set the bar very high and I am sure he will rise to the same level. You were the best Daddy for our to our kidsm and I will always be sure to help them remember that.
Love you, Bud!

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

June 17, 2012

In memoriam.

anonomyous
USN

May 27, 2012

I love you so much, Bud. That will never change.

Leanne Heggen Eckstein
Surviving wife

May 13, 2012