Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Missing you more each day! One of your CHP brothers joined you in heaven yesterday. I know you were there to greet him! Two heros! Look out for Officer Sanders family and I know you are with Steph. This is a hard time for her as well!
I wish I could sit and just talk with you! So much to say, tell you about, but I know you see and know it all! I miss you with all of my heart!
Love you forever-Jenn

Jennifer Fenelli
Sister in law to John Miller CHP EOW 11-16-07

December 17, 2008

My thoughts and prayers are with your loved ones and friends on this first anniversary of your EOW. Continue to keep watch over them and those still out on patrol watching over the Thin Blue Line. You will never be forgotten

James Sheppard
Father of Sgt. Jason L. Sheppard EOW 12/7/06

November 17, 2008

Gianna walked today for the first time! How appropriate is that on the one year marking of your passing? I know you had something to do with this! I had a hard day and then she walked, AMAZING!!! I know you were with us today! I love you and miss you!

Jen
sissy

November 16, 2008

Well, little brother it has been a very long, sad year! Not one day goes by without you in it-all the way from heaven! When you were born you were my own little baby doll, then when you got a little older you were my best friend and playmate, and our teenage years, my own personal spy (for mom and dad)! When you became a man You became my hero,exactly what a real man should be, Now,you are my angel and every bit as important to me as the day you were born!! I love you forever!! I miss you, your sister, Amy Miller

Amy Miller
Sister

November 16, 2008

RIP hero.. gone but never forgotten...

Wife of LEO

Anonymous

November 16, 2008

One year...one year and I still can not believe you are gone. I miss you so much! Theres so much I'd like to tell you with no words to say it. One year ago today our lives were changed forever. You had such an impact on so many peoples lives and I am so grateful that I had you in my life for the time I did. You had and continue to have such an impact on my life! I hope you know I have always thought of you as my brother! I miss your voice, your laugh, your jokes...just you! Even one year later the pain is just like the day we heard, maybe worse. Not one day goes by that I do not think of you. You are always with me in my heart.

Steph and the kids miss you so much! A piece of you lives on in them and I am so happy I am a part of that. You would be so proud of them. Stephanie carries your name on with such dignity and honor. And she continues to be strong through all of this. When you passed on, she not only lost her husband but her best friend. Our lives were just shattered and it although we try to be strong the pieces of our lives will never fit together the way they did when you were here.

I miss you so much and love you so much. I see you in my dreams. I know you are okay up in heaven! Watch over us all and rest easy. Your memory lives on and we will always continue to honor that memory.

Oh, last night I saw 2 chippy motors pass by me on the freeway and I felt saddness, but at the same time a little bit of comfort that you are always with us.

I love you my brother and today I will celebrate the life we had with you!
Love-Jenn

Jennifer
sissy

November 16, 2008

Wow! I can't believe it's been a year already. I still remember the night my dad called to tell me you were gone. You are truly missed John. Every time i talk to your mom or think about your kids, my heart breaks for them. I'll never understand why you had to go. You were such an amazing guy and so many people cared for you and thought so too! We'll all always have the wonderful memories of you and you will always be in our hearts!

Karen
Cousin

November 15, 2008

My nephew John Miller will always be in my thoughts about what a great person and nephew and dad he was.I miss him everyday and on november 16 2007 he gave the ultimate sacrifice for all of us. I wish he was still here today so i could give him a big hug and keep him out of harms way.John was like a son to me.I miss you John. Uncle Alvin.

Alvin Williams
Uncle

November 15, 2008

This is now the one year mark and it still seems like it must be a horrible nightmare. I try not to believe it is true, that is the only way I can get through.
This letter is for you son:

There are lots of things I meant to tell you before you grew up and journeyed out into the world, I suppose you learned some of them for yourself: But there are things you needed to know and words you'll only hear from someone who's known you from the start...Someone who heard your first heartbeat, who held you and looked into your sweet eyes with amazement...Someone who relives the wonder and special moment of the day you were born...I want you to know that you are as deeply loved now as you were in my heart back then...And wherever you are now, that love will forever go with you, my dear son.

Our Prayer: (Our Family Prayer)

God Bless Everyone We Know And Love And Forgive Us Of Our Sins,
And Be With Us Always...Amen

As a child and even as an adult we thought this pretty much covered the way we wanted god to know how our hearts really felt, and I believe he does.
God Please Take Care Of My Son

Bye Sweet Son,

I Love and will miss You every moment of my Life.

Your Mom

Carolyn Miller
Mother

November 14, 2008

Ofcr Miller,
As it comes close to the 1year you left us, I wanted to say you are still missed and thought about often at dispatch. I have had the opportunity to meet and hang out with your lovely wife Stephanie. She is a awesome lady.
As the 16th comes around, be there for her, give her that extra strength to make it through the day. Let them feel the warmth of you watching over them. I know you are there with them every moment.
May you continue to rest in peace knowing your family is loving you and living each day the best they can.
We miss you, hearing your 10-8 and 10-10 on the radio.
Keep being there Angel with wings.
God Bless
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PSDII Sandy Sanchez
CHP

November 13, 2008

Remember when we went to Fudd Ruckers and you called it something else? You always made things so fun! I was just thinking of all the fun times we had together. We all miss you so much! Steph and the kids miss you so much too! We all talk about you all the time and how life just isn't the same without you! Watch over us all! I love you!

Jennifer Fenelli
sister in law

October 28, 2008

I can't believe it has been 11 months already. We miss you so much! Days aren't any easier even after almost a year. You constantly fill our minds. We are so grateful for our memories with you! Marco and I were just talking about when you guys went golfing. You always seemed to make us all laugh, and even after you're gone, we still laugh with you. All of our hearts are broken, but I know you are still with all of us! Steph and the kids are doing so good! I know you'd be so proud of her strength and courage. She is a great mom and has handled everything with such courage. You are never forgotten! We love you and miss you!
Marco, Jenn and Gianna

Jenn
sister in law

October 16, 2008

My Son,
Another month has gone by and I miss you so much that I hurt inside. Last year at this time we were trying to fit a lot a things into the end of the summer seemed like everything was a rush, and I know why now. Our time here was running out. Had I only been able to read all the signs that were being given to me, I stll couldn't have changed the outcome but oh God how I wish I could. Like our trip to Santa Cruz and you so proudly took Your nephew and "MoM" on a little tour of your new job in Dublin. I am and always have been so proud of you kid, just helping me in the kichen made me proud to be your mama. Just as you were dedicated to anything you did, I always and foremost put my John and Amy my babies first in my life. I have unending, forever always and always, LOVE for my babies always and I will have you with me again someday. As each month passes away so quickly I am very sad. but also I know that I am getting closer to seeing my loved ones again and this now gets me through my life. I miss you my sweet son, but mom will see you when God says it is time. Until then rest well, you so deserved it!!

Proud and Broken Hearted
11 months forever gone

mom

MOM

Carolyn Miller
Just your mama

October 16, 2008

You are missed and loved so much. You would be so proud of Stephanie,Chandler and Reese and how strong they have been.

Linda
Mother in law

September 29, 2008

Hi Bro, I miss you! People say time heals all wounds but today I read a quote that I feel is more appropriate! "Time does not heal all wounds time just takes us with it." I miss you everyday!

Jennifer Fenelli
sissy

September 18, 2008

John,
It is so hard to believe that it has been 10 months already. Time has went by so fast and yet so slow. Everytime I look at your picture on it I get feel a huge lump in my stomach. I still just can't believe you are gone. I think of you everyday, all day! We are trying our best to get Steph and kids through this terrible time, but we are just a poor substitute for you. You will never be replaced! I know you see how well she has handled this terrible situation and the kids. She shows us everyday how strong she is...and she carries on your memory with such honor, dignity and grace! I couldn't be more proud of her and I know you would be too! The kids are growing up so fast! They miss you so much! They talk about you everyday and say you are in their heart always! I see so much of you in both of them. I love you so much and miss you more than you can imagine!

Jennifer Fenelli
sister in law

September 16, 2008

Hey little brother, here it is 10 months since you left, and it hasn`t gotten any easier, I know it never will.You are worth every tear,I miss you every day, and thats the way it will be until we all meet again in heaven, that is what keeps me going through all this sadness, thank God this isnt the end! I really have a hard time writing to you, my head is full of things to say and I can`t seem to say much of anything, I guess that is because I know in my heart that you already know exactly what I am thinking. Your nephew is doing great, I am so proud of him, he is such a good boy-a true Miller!As a matter of fact he is planning on carrying on the family football tradition at Linden high, I know he will do great, its in his blood! I know you will be with him every punt, pass, and kick of the way, and with you for a guardian angel he has no choice but to be great! You would be so proud of mom, what a strong woman she is to be able to give us so much love out of that big, broken heart! Well, I just wanted to say I love you, and I miss you, and also thank you for being you- Until we meet again little brother, this is the best I can do!! Rest in peace, loveing you always,your sis Amy

Amy Miller
Sister

September 15, 2008

My Son,
Another month without my boy and just when is it ever going to hurt less? I miss you everyday my son. The last few have been especially hard. 9/11 I had to visit my husband, now 37 years, our anniversary, and you my son at the cemetary. While I was sitting by you at your resting spot I heard a blareing siren in the distance. I suddenly felt your presence even more and told you thanks son but just the sound of sirens makes me cringe now, and it stopped as suddenly as it started. You always wanted to let me know how much you are with me and love me and I still feel you now, thank god!! Today my heart again felt the horrible pain of loseing you when I ran into one of your best friends mom from your grammer school years. First she told me she was so sorry to hear about your dad, then asked about Johnny and Amy. Well I instantly fell apart so not much more was said. She also fell apart. Now she will be telling your friend and his sister that little Johnny has gone on to be with his dad. This also happened to me last week from another friend of yours and he also was in disbelief and very saddened to know that such a wonderful man is no longer here. He told me stories of how you made a difference in his life when he so desperately needed a friend to confide in. You were such a good, real, wonderful person. You liked almost everyone. Poor, rich, smart, not so smart, and you had true compassion for all. I hope God has put you to good use, because I know there was a mission that you just had to take over for him. I love you so much and only wish the world could have had you longer. Rest well my sweet boy, Your mamma

Mother of officer John P. Miller
Just Mom

September 15, 2008

A hero NEVER dies. You are and always will be my hero. I love and miss you dearly!

Jennifer Fenelli
sister in law

September 10, 2008

I am just missing you! I looked through some photos today, what a great life we had with you! Life just isn't the same without you. I hope you know how much we love and miss you! Mostly I miss the simple things, hearing your voice, your giant hugs, just seeing how great you were with Steph and the kids. You brought so much joy to our lives, and even though you aren't here, I feel your presence through Steph, Chandler and Reese! You'd be so proud of them!

Jenn
sissy

August 31, 2008

My son John Paul Miller
Another month has passed away since you went away. Time seems to be going so fast, but you are always close in our hearts. Nothing is the same and we miss you so very much. We had plans this summer my son, some I tried to make happen but it was to painful without you. You are with us I know but I want things so badly to be the same. It can never be again and now I just have to wait until the day I see you again. I look into the sunset and the sunrise and imagine you looking back and I feel you there. How beautiful from your direction it must be for you. I pray you can feel no sorrow or pain and I am told you won't , never again. I love you my son and have you with me everyday of my life.

Your Momma

Carolyn Miller
Mom

August 18, 2008

John,
It is nine months today since you were taken from us. We all miss you everyday! I know you are in heaven watching over us all now. I love you and miss you

Jennifer Fenelli
sister in law

August 16, 2008

Dear John;

I've had the wonderful opportunity to get to know Stephanie, Chandler, Reece, and your in-laws over the past few months. They are a wonderful tribute to the type of man you are. Although I've never met you, I think I have an idea of what type of person you are by my time with them.

I had the honor of standing alongside your family as well as Cathy Clearman (wife of CHP Officer Brent Clearman/ Oakland Area/E.O.W. 06 August 06) as the Alameda County Law Enforcement Memorial was dedicated last Saturday. It was a moving tribute to you and my other Brothers who's names appear on the wall...I'm always humbled to hear your names...and I'm honored to be in the presence of your families...such strong...amazing people...I take some peace in the fact that your name and Brent's are next to each other..

I want you to know something...something I think is important to all of us law enforcement officers, and the main reason I decided to leave this reflection...Your family...John, know they are well taken care of...I know you must look down with extreme pride at the way Mitch Mueller looks after Stephanie and your children. At one point after the services last Saturday, I looked over and saw him holding Chandlers' hand...Just the two of them standing there...I can't tell you how moved I was by this simple act of true Brotherhood...

I often feel sad that it took your passing to allow such wonderful people come into my life...but then again, maybe that's you, continuing to touch peoples lives in a positive way...knowing them makes me a strong, better person...I will be forever grateful for your sacrifices...Although I know in my heart your name will not be the last added to that wall, I pray that it will be...

Rest easy, rest well Brother....

RPD #1327

August 6, 2008

I found this poem today and it made me cry! I know you are with us everyday, but it is still hard! Tomorrow would have been your and Steph's 7th year anniversary. I know you will be with her tomorrow as you were every year! Hug her tight tomorrow...this will be another hard day! The day you married my sister was a great day in all of our lives! I can still remember the love and joy I felt from you two on that day (as well as everyday!) You two have a love that doesn't go away. You were perfect for eachother! You and I had many talks about how much you loved her! I know you are still loving her with all your heart in heaven, as she does you! I know tomorrow you would have woken up and said, "Stephie, I love you Honey, Happy Anniversay" I know you'll be saying this from heaven and although she may not be able to hear your voice...she will hear it and feel the love you two shared! I am forever impacted by the love you two have for eachother and thank you for letting me be such a big part of your lives to see it first hand. I love you both so much!!!! Happy Anniversary Stephanie & John

Poem-Unknown Author
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.

But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from Heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me and he said,'I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.'
God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night the days chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....In the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.
Because you are only human they are bound to bring tears.
But do not be afraid to cry: it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
If I were to tell you, you would not understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you, and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it by taking one step at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you to;
That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night...."My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented...that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low:
Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go...from that body to be free.
Remember you're not going...you're coming here to me.
I will always be with you!

Jennifer
Lil Sissy

July 20, 2008

My dear wonderful son,
Today I am missing you so much, not really anymore than any other day. I thought maybe time would make it a little easier but is doesn't. It only seems to hurt worse. I have been battling depression and sadness, and on the outside of me everyone thinks I am doing great. I put up a good front and really am trying to go on the best I can. Now I know in my heart I will never feel happiness again. I refuse to give up because my ultimate goal is to have my son and your daddy back with me again, forever, and we will be someday. That day will be a glorious day for all of us, but until then I will continue on. Everything has changed since that horrible day you had to go. I feel you watching all of us and sometimes I feel you right here with me baby. I miss you so much and I love you forever and ever. Rest well sweet boy until I see you again. Your Mama

MOM

July 16, 2008