Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Merry Christmas in heaven Charlie. We all miss you. We will never forget you

December 23, 2007

Hey Bubby,
They got your stone in yesterday.. Its gorgeous. It really sticks out there.. Now when I got to see you I can see you smiling at me while I talk to you. When I was leaving JoJo was heading out there, so I turned around and then Nae showed up and the Katie.. Everyone had the same opinion. They did a really good job on the details, it looks just like the pictures did. Its not the same, but it will have to do. I really miss you, i'm almost done with my Christmas shopping, I kept seeing things that you would like. Its not the same, and it never will be. Keep watching over us all. Thinksing of you.. I Love You Bubby Bigger than the Sky! Love, Sissy

Kierstan
Sister

December 21, 2007

Bubby it's getting harder and harder!! I love and miss you very much! Nothings the same

kailee
little sister

December 19, 2007

Charlie, I'm taking your little man shopping for Mommy today. He's so excited. Last night (in his own sweet little way) he said "Mommy don't ask me cause it's a seeequet(secret)!" Too Cute!!
The kids had such a good time at the FOP Christmas Party Last Night. We missed you there....

Melissa Cook
Sister-in-Law

December 17, 2007

"Is daddy coming home soon?" asks a precious little face.
"It's past when he should be here.
Is he working on a case?"
Your dad's not coming home son.
He's working late tonight.
He's a policeman up in heaven, making sure we're all alright.
"But mommy, why'd he leave us?
I miss him when he's gone."
I know you miss him darling, but now we must be strong.
"Who's gonna teach me baseball, and help me fly my kite.
And help me with my homework,
and buy me my first bike?"
Your daddy loved you darling, and he didn't want to leave.
But a bad man took, your daddy, and left us all to grieve.
Be proud of who your dad was,
and how he earned his pay.
Because it's people like your daddy
that keep us safe each day.
"Mommy, when I get bigger, and if it's okay with you,
I'm gonna be like daddy, and be a policeman too."

December 16, 2007

I’ll be home for Christmas, or so the story goes,
is repeated year after year.
Regardless of weather or holiday traffic,
you’ll find your way home clean and clear.
Christmas is one of the times we’re together,
we smile and we talk and we eat.
By the end of the day we’re all stuffed to the gills.
and have trouble even seeing our feet!
We always meet at the homeplace and sit ‘round the tree,
the tradition has gone on for years.
Catch up on the news and what’s happening with us,
and laugh ‘till our eyes fill with tears.
Then we open our presents and show what we got,
what the paper and bows have kept hid.
It’s the one time of year we can let down our guard,
and behave once again like a kid.
Sometimes we’ll do fireworks or rock on the porch,
the weather determines our play.
If the temp is too cold or the sky’s filled with rain,
there are other fun things done today.
Like talking some more, or drinking some Joe,
or thinking of times that are gone.
This day, it reminds us if we don’t stand together,
then we never will stand all alone.
Finally, late in the evening when all things wind down,
we load up our cars and we leave.
But the memories we make on each Christmas day,
are memories that we always will keep.
Now forward your thinking to Christmas that’s here,
this year is not like before.
For you slipped away in June's past,
your presence is with us no more.
You won’t be home for Christmas, this year or the next,
only memories to share on this day.
And instead of the laughter and catching up on news,
we find words have become hard to say.
But we want to enjoy it, this time we’re together,
we want to inhale every sight.
We’re reminded how precious that each Christmas day is,
since the snuffing of your spirit’s light.
It seems sort of strange, and also so odd,
to act as if nothing has changed.
When we all must admit in our own unique way,
that our lives have now been rearranged.
We still talk and laugh, and share a great meal together,
all the turkey, the goodies and such.
Yet it all seems so different and somehow not right,
all these things that we once loved so much.
For you won’t be home this Christmas, that’s how it goes,
will be repeated now year after year.
And the things like weather and holiday traffic,
have nothing to do with the cheer.
You won’t be hindered, you cannot be delayed,
for you won’t even be here at all.
No matter our longing or even our wishing,
you won’t ever answer our call.
Can Christmas be the same as it has in years gone by?
Will the pain of your absence not cease?
We can only imagine and hope for the future,
that your life truly ended in peace.
So, while you won’t be home for Christmas, we will for sure,
in spite of the pain and our loss.
For the sadness we feel if we fail to connect,
will not justify the great cost.

Bubby,
I miss you soo badly... I don't feel like I can do this without you here.. I just dont understand why this had to happen to you.. You are such a wonderful man, you have a huge heart. You were never one to judge too quickly. You are loved by so many. Even though my heart is broken for you, you meant everything to me as my big brother and best friend, but there are people who barely knew you whose lived you have touched so dearly. You are my rock, the one thing that held me together through all the tough times, now that your gone, I just cant do it.. I Love You Bigger than the Sky Bubby!! Forever and Always, No matter what.. Promise.. Still #1..

Sissy

December 15, 2007

Christmas wont be the same.

December 14, 2007

Well Son, another week gone by. Getting closer to Christmas. The holidays just aren't the same any more. I put extra tape on the kids' gifts again this year, just like I used to do yours. And you tormented me about how much tape I'd go through every year. I have an awesome teddy bear for Trev, but you've seen it. I know he'll love it. It recites "The Night Before Christmas" and moves. Chuckles, I love you with all my heart and the entire family misses you so. Your dad is thrilled with having your truck. He'll never let go of that, just like he'll never let go of you. Please continue to help Poppy watch over all of us and keep us safe. I close my eyes and see that beautiful big smile and I know you're with me. I'm very proud of you Charlie, and I wish you were here to open another gift with way too much tape on it. Love you bigger than the sky, Chas!!!

LaVonne
Stepmother

December 14, 2007

We miss you Charlie.

December 11, 2007

" I'm Spending Christmas with Jesus this Year"

I see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below
with tiny lights like heaven stars
reflecting on the snow

The sight is so spectacular
Please wipe away that that tear
For I'm spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year

I hear the many Christmas songs
That people hold so dear
O', the sounds of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here.

For I have no words to tell you
of the joy their voices bring
for it's beyond description
to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart.
but, through our memories so dear..
We're never far apart.

I can't tell you of the splendor
or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas
with Our Savior.......face-to-face.

I'll ask him to light your spirit
As I tell him of your Love.
Then I'll pray for 'One another'
As you lift your eyes above.

So please let your heart be joyful
and let your spirit sing
for I'm spending Christmas in heaven
and I'm walking with the king.

I Miss you..... I Love You Bubby!!!! Bigger than the Sky forever and ever.. Promise...

Sissy

December 10, 2007

As we sit down to Thanksgiving dinner
with tears in his eyes
Grandpa's words ring true

we should not stop talking about you

hold on to the memories, he says
we should share with each other
and always remember the ones we love

all eyes brimming with tears
your dad's overflowing
as he softly whispers, "thank you"

stories and memories and talk of you
fill the room with love and laughter
and remembrance is no longer silent

Christmas without you
will be a painful one

we will remember how it was
from thousands of miles away
a huge box arrives with presents for all
sent with love from you and your family

and as we celebrated our Christmas
the tape rolled in the background
creating a memory to send and share with you

your brother, your parents
talked to you on the phone
and that was enough for them, to know
that you were alive and well

yet this Christmas
the knowledge that you are gone
a video made in vain, with no destination
no phone call to hear your voice
no picture in our minds of you enjoying Christmas with your family

the knowledge that you are gone
knowing you family is longing for
one more talk
one more hug
one more kiss
one more second
with you
tears at my heart

.... Life's miserable without you, please continue to watch over me, I wish this could be easier.. I wish you were here, I wish so many things, but none of them seem to come true.. I miss you.. I Love You Bigger than the Sky Bubby!!

December 10, 2007

Our first Christmas
Without you
What do we say...
What do we do...

Do we still hang lights
And play Christmas songs?
Do we put the tree
Where it always belongs?

Do we go Christmas shopping,
And greet strangers with a smile?
Do we stop just to feel
The spirit of Christmas awhile?

Do we say Merry Christmas
To people on the street?
Do we still give a dollar
To every Santa we meet?

Do we hang mistletoe
To sneak a kiss here and there?
Do we love the smell
Of turkey in the air?

Do we happily wrap presents
And top them with a bow?
Do we hope that for Christmas
We get lots of snow?

Do we still set the table
With candles and best dishes?
Do we still whisper to Santa
All our Christmas wishes?

We’ll still do all these things
Because we know you’d want us to,
But this and all our Christmases
Will be blue without you.

December 10, 2007

Bubby,
OMG...It's still getting harder and harder as the days go by without you. I can't stand these people bd mouthing i'm about to blow up bubby. I don't understand it..do they not have better things to do.? O'well you were the GREATEST person there could have ever been. So they're all dumb and need to shut their mouth because them people that are bad mouthing obviously didn't know you. Anyways bubby I LOVE YOU BIGGER THAN THE SKY and I HOPE its all better. Love You

kailee
sister

December 9, 2007

It does seem to hit all of a sudden, over and over again. Everytime I see your picture on the wed site or anywhere, I go back to the week we seemed to be living in the waiting room at KU Medical waiting for you to wake up and tell us hi. Most of us have never lost someone so close, so terribly. It is hard to believe how long it has been since I've gotten to see you and talk to you Charlie. Keep watching over us and protect us my brother. We deeply love and miss you. We will always remember.....

December 7, 2007

Hey buddy we miss you!!! You were the best son anyone could ever ask for! I'll never forget you, son. You helped me out so much as well as others. Wish i could bring you back, son. I miss your voice and that big grin you always had on that perfect face. I love you. I wish it didn't have to end so soon. But we all just have our time. And its always going to be a rocky road without you. It was just like it was yesterday watching you grow up and now I can't even see my son but you'll always be in my HEART son. I can't wait to see you again. I love you Charlie.

Dad

December 7, 2007

People are badmouthing you because Shields wants to rename the part of the belt after you.. In all of our eyes you deserve it, and there are people out there who are defending you too... You ARE a Hero... The pain of you not being around, the holidays, and people running off at the mouth combined just makes everything so much harder.. We all really miss you.. I feel so empty without my big brother around.. I need your advice on so many things, I would give anything to see your big smile and hear your voice again... I really miss you Bubby.. Continue to watch over us all.. Love You Bigger than the Sky!!

Kierstan
Little Sister

December 7, 2007

Ill have a blue christmas without you
Ill be so blue just thinking about you
Decorations of red on a green christmas tree
Wont be the same dear, if youre not here with me
And when those blue snowflakes start falling
Thats when those blue memories start calling
Youll be doin all right, with your christmas of white
But Ill have a blue, blue blue blue christmas
Youll be doin all right, with your christmas of white,
But Ill have a blue, blue christmas

The lyrics to your favorite Christmas song are all too real this year. Missing you!

Renee

December 7, 2007

I miss you, man. Weird how it can hit you all of a sudden. When you go from knowing that someone who is supposed to be here is not here, to genuinly missing someone. To feeling them, the lack of them, deep in your bones. Damnit Charlie. I love you, man.

A Brother

December 7, 2007

I look outside and Renee is starting to put up Christmas lights and I think about you out there decorating the yard. And the silly things you used to do to pick on me........ I'm telling ya the pink skeleton will always be the best one!! Trevor is getting so big and he does the CUTEST dance to Happy Feet. You gave Nae an AMAZING little guy. Continue to watch over everyone. We miss you Chas. Love you.

Ruthie

December 6, 2007

Now i know i didnt know him too well... but ive heard alot about him... and he was a deputy... so he MUST have done LOTZ of good in his life. My Best Friend, Brittany, was his sister in law... loved him dearly! and im not saying neone else didnt... but she was the only one i really talked to... she told me alot about him... what i have heard... he sounds really nice... i wish i could have met him... and got to know him... but to all the people who did... im sure you are REALLY sad.... and im sorry for everything... i wish i could do something... like bring him back or SOMETHING... but i cant... and i wish u all a merry christmas... and all that good stuff! so i sign off w/ this... good luck w/ everything and again im SO sorry!

JoLee Smith
long distance cuz... friends w/ his sister in law... brittany

December 5, 2007

The holidays are more painful than I imagined... Renee gave Daddy your truck for Christmas.... He misses you so badly, we all do.. But you were his baby boy.... There are times that we'll be sitting there and he'll start staring at your picture... He needs you Bubby.. Please continue to watch over us.. I miss you so badly, I love you.... Im sorry I didn't get around to come and see you last week, I had to work and I was already hurting... I cant stand to go and see you at the graveyard, thats not where your supposed to be.. Your supposed to be here with us... Every day seems like it never ends.. The day couldnt come soon enough for me to see you again.. My heart is in constant pain, it never seems to get any better.. I Love You Bigger than the Sky Bubby!!! Your still #1!! Love, Sissy

December 5, 2007

Stopped in again today, Son. We've all been thinking a great deal about you every day. You are in our hearts as well as our minds. Remember how much we all love you. BIGGER THAN THE SKY!!!!

LaVonne
Stepmother

December 5, 2007

On the night they found you there, your life was taken without a care. As every brother and sister arrived, uncontrollably we wept, we cried.

Knowing we have to make a start, to fill the void deep within our heart. Even tho' you have left us behind, you'll always be with us in heart, spirit and mind.

Reunited one day we shall be, No longer victims on the 'Streets of Misery'. But til' the day we meet again, I will cherish the memories of my brother, my friend.

Not going to sit at your grave and cry, instead I will smile...lookin' up to the sky. You'll be up where all angels in blue go, protecting your brothers and sisters below

December 3, 2007

HE WAS A MAN WHO LOVED US FROM THE BOTTOM OF HIS HEART
WE NEVER DREAMED SO SOON THAT WE WOULD HAVE TO PART
DEATH CAME KNOCKING ON HIS FRONT DOOR
HE COULD HAVE HAD SO MUCH IN LIFE BUT HE NEVER WANTED MORE HE LOVED US ALL EACH AND EVERY DAY
HE LOVED US NO MATTER WHAT OUR ODD WAY
HIS ARMS OPENED UP AND HIS LOVE SPREAD WIDE
HE WAS ALWAYS THERE TO STAND BY OUR SIDE
THINK OF HOW HE MADE YOU LAUGH AND HOW HE MADE YOU SMILE
THINK OF HOW HE WAS ALWAYS WILLING TO GO THAT EXTRA MILE
THINK OF HIM WHEN YOU CLOSE YOUR EYES AND DREAM
REMEMBERING HE IS STILL ON OUR SIDE AND ON OUR TEAM
PLEASE DON'T BE SAD, WIPE AWAY THOSE TEARS
THINK OF HOW HAPPY HE MADE US ALL THROUGH THE YEARS
PRAY TO HIM RIGHT NOW AND KNOW THAT HE CAN HEAR
FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU KNOW THAT HE WILL ALWAYS BE SO NEAR
AS TIME GOES ON AND WE WATCH THE DAYS PASS
OUR LOVE FOR HIM WILL ALWAYS LAST
SO NOW WE SAY GOOD-BYE TO A MAN THAT MEANT SO MUCH
BUT WE'LL NEVER FORGET HOW OUR LIVES HE COULD ALWAYS TOUCH

The memories hurt, but i'm glad that I have them..... Always remembering...

November 29, 2007

Once again.....another miserable day for all of us... I love you big guy... Missing you... I Love You Bigger than the Sky Bubby!!! Your still #1!!!! Love, Lil Sissy

Sister

November 29, 2007