Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Tomorrows the last day of school. Another terrible summers around the corner. Its almost the first year mark. I dont think it will ever get easier. I miss you more and more as each day goes by without your smile or hearing your laugh and voice. The pains still as unbearable as that night. I Love You Bigger than the Sky Bubby. Forever and Always no matter what. Best Buddies forever and ever. Please help me, because I dont think I can do it without you anymore.

Kierstan

May 21, 2008

CHARLIE, WE APPRECIATED THE DOVES AND THE BUTTERFLY, THESE ARE THE LITTLE THINGS THAT WE NOTICE, THAT GIVE US COMFORT, TO KNOW YOU ARE OK; AND ALSO WE ARE GOING TO BE OK TOO.......WE MISS YOU CHARLIE!!

May 20, 2008

Charlie, We all made the trip to Jefferson City in your honor. It was a beautiful ceremony. Little man looked amazing in his blue shirt and slacks. Remember the sonogram? I told you both that he was going to look exactly like you....and he does! He has the same beautiful heart as his Mommy and Daddy too. We all miss you so badly that the pain is unbearable at times. Far too many times! Please continue to watch over all of us, son. We need you helping the Lord guide each of us every day. I found the CD that Kailee burned for me that has "Knocking on Heaven's Door". My heart fills with pride every time, but it never overcomes the pain that's inside. I love each and every one of you kids so very much and the pain that everyone is feeling breaks my heart. I love you bigger than the sky, Chuckles. And I've always been so very proud of you. We'll be together again someday and knowing that and you're watching over us gets me through each day.

LaVonne
step-mother

May 19, 2008

I came by today to see you
I just had to let you know
If I knew the last time that I held you was the last time
I'd have held you, and never let go

Oh, it's kept me awake nights, wondering
I lie in the dark, just asking why
I've always been told
You won't be called home
Until it's your time

I guess heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you

I remember the last time I saw you
Oh, you held your head up proud
I laughed inside
When I saw how you were standing out in the crowd
Your such a part of who I am
Now that part will just be void
No matter how much I need you now
Heaven needed you more

Cause heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you

Is Heaven was needing a hero
and that's you

Renee

May 18, 2008

I stand alone with you in my mind
Your words taught me how to survive
Your strength never let me down
Now your gone
I won't disappoint you Bubby
But my tears will remain in my eyes
My heart will hurt forever
Sorry I never told you what you deserved
You cared for me and I took you for granted
You live alive in my heart
Thank you for loving me from the start
..........I miss you more and more everyday. Your the only thing that I ever really lived for and i'm sorry for all the pain i've ever caused. I hope you can forgive me because now, you can see...I can't wait for the day we are reunited. I can't wait to have your strong arms hugging me and the gorgeous smile on your face. I Love You Bigger than the Sky, Best Buddies Forever and Always. You will always have my love. Love, Sissy

Little Sister

May 18, 2008

On the night they found you there,
your life was taken without a care.
As every brother and sister arrived,
uncontrollably we wept, we cried.

Knowing we have to make a start,
to fill the void deep within our heart.
Even tho' you have left us behind,
you'll always be with us in heart, spirit and mind.

Reunited one day we shall be,
No longer victims on the 'Streets of Misery'.
But til' the day we meet again,
I will cherish the memories of my brother, my friend.

Not gonna' sit at your grave and cry,
instead I will smile...lookin' up to the sky.
You'll be up where all angels in blue go,
protecting your brothers and sisters below.

<3

Brittany
Sister-In-Law

May 16, 2008

I went and saw you the other day. Hope you like the flowers. It was a hard visit. Missing you everyday. Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "Foreber and eber". Sissy

Kierstan

May 15, 2008

It was a great honor to meet Charlie's family at the memorial in DC this week. I wish you much strength and peace as you continue to heal from this tragedy. Charlie will never be forgotten! The bracelet's Diana and I wear will be a constant reminder of Charlie's life,duty to serve and his precious family and friends. Please know that we will always have a place in our hearts for you! Kathi

Kathi Barrett
Ofc. Diana Barrett's mother

May 15, 2008

Miss you everyday Charlie <3

Brittany
Sister-in-law

May 13, 2008

One of our friends from school passed away Friday night in a car wreck. The funeral reminded me so much of yours that it killed me inside. Please take care of her for us, Bubby. She has a little brother and he was sitting there sobbing and it killed me because here's a little 13 year old boy with only 1 sibling and she's gone. I know how bad he's hurting and it's even more heartbreaking that you know there's nothing you can do for him. I just think about how I felt and still do and I feel so sorry for him. She was his only sibling. Yeah, I have 4 more but you were the only one that was really there for me and cared. You weren't too caught up in your own life, therefore what I wanted or needed mattered. You were a best friend, idol, big brother, but you were also my father figure. You taught me all of my morals and values and respect. You were my everything and to this day, you still are. I miss you so badly that it hurts. Its so unbearable. Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "Foreber and eber"... Love, Your Baby Sis

Kierstan

May 13, 2008

hey bubby,
I had another crazy dream the other night. You told me you knew how hard it's for us that your gone. For some reason I feel like your trying to tell me something. I miss you bubby honestly I hope you know how hard it is for us so that shows you how much you mean to us. We love and miss you very much!!!!!

kailee
little sister

May 8, 2008

Sorry I didn't get up to see you this weekend. I'll be up sometime soon. It's just so hard. I'll be up soon I promise. I miss you more and more with each passing day. You'll be in my heart forever and noone will take your place. Noone possibly could. You are my big brother, my best friend, my protector, my idol. I Love You Bigger than the Sky, Best Buddies "foreber and eber". Love, Sissy

May 6, 2008

It was a beautiful ceremony they had to honor you in Jefferson City. We miss you Charlie.

Jenny
Sister-In-Law

May 6, 2008

Bubby,
I miss you so much...it's crazy. I keep having these weird dreams about you but they're good ones. Thats like the only way i see you anymore. I can't wait to see you again. I love you bubby bigger than the sky 4 ever and always....n your lil sis kvc

kailee
sister

May 5, 2008

It was a nice ceremony that they had in Jefferson City. It crushed my heart when little buddy carried his carnation down the aisle for you. He's an exact replica of you. We all miss you so badly. It was so hard. It's an honor to see your name in gold on that wall. You've brought so much honor to our name, and I am honored to have been your baby sister and to be able to call you my best friend. We have so many good memories together and I will always remember them. I am glad that I have them. You always meant everything to me and always will. You will never be replaced. I miss you more and more everyday. Please continue to watch over all of us. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies Forever. Love, Sissy

May 4, 2008

It took alot of working out to do but I will get to see you honored. It makes me so proud, and sad. Missing you more and more. Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies. Love, Sissy

May 2, 2008

we leave for Jefferson City in no less than 4 hours, today will be just another day that's even harder to get through, thinking of you everyday!

May 2, 2008

OK, now HOW nice was it for you to do that to Renee last night? Birds just can't poop on moving targets like that!

Ruthie

May 1, 2008

I'll be by to see you Saturday on our way home from Jefferson City. Sorry I haven't came by lately. It's just really hard to go there to see you when you should be home with us. My emotions have been a real wreck lately and that just makes it worse. I miss you terribly. Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "Foreber and eber". Love, Sissy

April 30, 2008

Its hard to believe, but we are approaching the one year mark. It doesnt even seem like its been that long. These 10 months have just flown by. We miss you Charlie.

Jenny
Sister-In-Law

April 29, 2008

Hard to believe its 10 months today. It doesn't seem like it at all. Its almost been a year since youve been gone and I can't believe it. It seems like its only been a few weeks. The pains still feels as new as it did that night. It hasn't eased a bit. I was so used to having you around, thats probally why it seems this way. Since that day, it feels like my world has ended. I no longer feel like I have a reason to live. I look down the road to my future and even that depresses me because your not going to be there. Your not physically going to be the best man in my wedding, your not going to get to hold my kids when they're born, everythings changed. But i'm going to make it to where your there as close as I can. You are still going to be the best man because if it hadn't of been for you caring for me as much as you did, I wouldn't be where I am today. Your love is what made me the person I am. That's why I feel so lost. No matter what, I always had you. I know I still do but its not good enough because its only human to want more. You will always be in my heart and noone could possibly take your place. I miss you more and more terribly with each passing day. But thats one day closer to the day we will be together again. I Love You Bigger than the Sky "Foreber and eber". Best Buddies. Love, Sissy

April 28, 2008

this week has kinda just been depressing without you, miss you.

April 28, 2008

Missing you terribly. The trip keeps getting closer and closer. I keep dreading it more and more. But its to honor you, so I have to go. You would've done it for me. And its an honor to see you honored the way you are. I miss you so terribly. Love You Bigger than the Sky. Promise.

Kierstan

April 27, 2008

I tried the outfit on Trev that he is going to wear to Jefferson City. He looked so cute. The blue shirt really made his blue eyes stand out. He made his momma cry. He looked so much like you. He is growing so fast. We miss you.

Renee

April 26, 2008

The Jeff City trips next week. It's gonna be just another hard day for all of us left here. I would really like to go to the Washington trip but it costs 2 grand a person. These things all brong back the pain, not that it ever leaves. It kind of "renews" it. I miss you terribly and it honors me to see you honored. It also honors me to be your baby sister. The love between us can never be taken away. Noone will ever take your place. I swear. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "Foreber and eber"..Promise, Love Sissy

Kierstan

April 23, 2008