Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

One year ago today, we laid our Hero to rest. Rest in peace our beautiful boy. I just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you. Love you!

LaVonne
Step mother

July 3, 2008

I miss you more then words can say;
I still dont understand why god took you away;
I guess i never will, now there's a space no one can fill;
The days that pass by feel like forever;
and then I always think about little Trevor;
He looks so much like you, in every single way;

Thing's will never be the same;
Because no more do I hear your name;
Dinner's, holiday's and birthday's aren't that much fun;
so here's my poem just for you;
only alittle reminder, of how much i miss you.

I wrote this for you, miss you.

Brittany
sister-in-law

June 30, 2008

I told Renee on Sunday night that it had almost been a year since I got her tragic call and she was NEVER to call me again like that. She promised she wouldn't. I can't believe its already been a year Charlie. You are so deeply missed. We love you. Continue to watch over everyone.

Ruthie

June 28, 2008

Missing you Charlie,My life sucks without you in it love ya bud.

June 28, 2008

It was one year ago today that we lost you. It sure doesnt seem like its been that long. We miss you so much Charlie. Please continue to watch over us and keep us safe.

Jenny
Sister-In-Law

June 28, 2008

Well, it's almost the one year mark, it really dosen't feel like you've been gone for a whole year, I think about you always, thing's just don't feel the same around here without you Charlie, keep watching over us bud.

Brittany
sister-in-law

June 27, 2008

I know I told ya that I hadn't slept much before, but this week i've been sleeping a lot less. I'm not able to go to sleep until around 5 in the morning. I miss you so much. Thanks for coming to me in my dreams on Monday. That was the beginning of a very rough week and it has been showing really bad. I need your consolations right now, but you're not here. I don't have a clue what to do without you. You touched so many lives. Keep us all out of harms way, please. Missing you more and more. I LOVE YOU BIGGER THAN THE SKY. Best Buddies FOREBER AND EBER! Love, Sissy

June 25, 2008

Charlie, I see alot of you in Trevor. He is a very bright boy and you should forever be proud of him. I know he is proud of his daddy because he tells me about you when i see him. I miss you bud.

June 25, 2008

This has been a hard week for us. Just not seeing you or hearing your voice is hard. We have been around Renee and Trevor both and we've had a blast. Just wanted you to know we are thinking of you and you will NEVER be forgotten. I just wish there was one more time for a ye-haw ride. (lol) Miss you much....

Your friends

June 24, 2008

you will always be missed, gone but never forgotten, RIP.

June 24, 2008

you will always be missed, gone but never forgotten, RIP.

June 24, 2008

Hello, Son! Yesterday started the anniversary of a very bad week for our family. The next few days are going to be even harder, I know. Chas, your dad and the kids miss you so badly. The whole family does. You have always been a light that shines so bright, like the Northern Star. Your spirit, your personality, your wit and charm made you one of the most outstanding people that most will ever come across. I remember the day that we drove behind you as so many people stood on the curbs along St. Joe paying their respects to you, our son, our brother, our grandson and nephew. God knew what He was doing when He put you in our lives. And I will always be honored to be one that calls you "Son". I wish your Dad knew how grateful I am that he brought all of you kids into my life. And you, my beautiful boy, gave us a young man that will grow up to just as amazing as you. THANK YOU! I'm going to see your beautiful tribute on Thursday when I go pick up your sister. I lose myself when I stand and look into your eyes that seem to be looking right back and seeing everything inside. I've said before, Renee did such an amazing job at putting the stone together. It does you justice, Chuckles. You continue to touch so many hearts with each passing day. Your work will never be done because we, your family, will continue to bring you into the lives of many that need that one HERO. I love you, Charlie. Please continue to stand guard over each one of us and touch our hearts with the love that you've given. My prayers are with the family as we all go through this heart-wrenching time. GOD BLESS YOU SON!

LaVonne Cook
Step mother

June 24, 2008

This whole week is gonna be hard.. Not just specific days, all of them.. It's gonna forever be a constant reminder. missing you...

June 24, 2008

We will never forget.......

Chief Corey Sloan
Cameron, MO PD

June 23, 2008

The 28th isn't the only day that holds bad memories. Tomorrow is too. That's the one year mark that will forever remind me of that phone call around 3 am. I miss you so badly. It kills me that you've been gone almost a year. Hope your havin a good time livin it up in Heaven. You know none of us are down here. Please help us all make it through this TERRIBLE time that will continue to break our hearts even more. The holidays were bad, but this is gonna be that nasty icing on the cake. That none of us wanna taste because it just looks bad. That's the only thing I can think of to descibe it. You will ALWAYS be remembered and NEVER forgotten. Noone will ever replace you. Never could. LOVE YOU BIGGER THAN THE SKY! BEST BUDDIES "FOREBER AND EBER"! Love, Sissy

June 22, 2008

Charlie-Our emotions are running high this week. Please help us all. Missing you more than ever. All my love! Renee

June 22, 2008

Hey Charlie,
Its hard to believe its been almost a year already...seems like just the other day i was doing a ride along with you and you were showing me around the county.. that was fun night! Miss you buddy!

Jeff
BCSD-Dispatch

June 22, 2008

Their is nothing happy about this day for me anymore. From now on it will only remind me that it was the last time I would ever get to talk to you again, to hear your laugh,or hear you say happpy birthday. I miss you so much I think about you every day,my heart hurts so bad. I dont think I will every be able to forgive myself, the one time you needed me the most I wasnt their. I wish my faith had been strong enough to make the differance,or that I could just trade places with you, I would. The family needs and loves you so much, their is such a vouid in our hearts. I miss you Charlie, Love E.

June 22, 2008

8 days until you've been gone a year. Its gone by so fast, yet so slow at the same time. Missing you more and more. Sissy

June 20, 2008

Its almost been a year and it doesn't seem possible Charlie. You are missed more and more everyday. We went with Renee and Trev the other night and he is something else! His laugh, his looks, his personality. You sure left your mark on that lil guy! Love you big guy.

Ruthie

June 20, 2008

missing you more and more everday Charlie.

June 19, 2008

Inside are the tears
The tears no one sees
Outside is the smile
That hides all the pain
Walking around
Like nothing is wrong
When nothing could be worse
Then the pain felt inside
No one to help
None of them can know
They think it's all fine
But you know that’s a lie
Deep down inside
There’s always some hope
But it’s far down inside
Never to be shown
...LOVE YOU BIGGER THAN THE SKY. Best buddies "foreber and eber".. Sissy

June 18, 2008

We miss you Charlie. Gone but NEVER forgotten.

June 17, 2008

Had another TERRIBLE, heart wrenching day without you. I still only get a few hours of sleep each night. Guess its making up for all those years I overslept huh? After I finally get to sleep I wake up either crying or screaming about every half hour. I've got terrible bags under my eyes. Guess you were right, makeup can't hide everything. I don't even bother to put that on anymore, and you know how much I used to wear. When you were here we were always told we looked alike but I wasn't able to really see it until after you were gone. I know it sounds weird, but I can't look in the mirror hardly anymore without tears coming to my eyes. What I would give for your advice right now. I need your guidance so badly at this point. I can't take it anymore. I was up ALL last night, and I couldn't stop crying. I didn't go to bed until 8 and then I had to get up at 11. It just keeps getting worse and worse without you. My appetite just seems to slowly keep decreasing, and my tears never seem to stop running. Hard to believe in 12 days you'll have been gone for a year. Seems like days fly by, but they drag on at the same time, weird huh? It never used to do that, it always seemed like there was never enough time and now it seems like theres too much. I miss you so badly. I need you now more than ever and your not here. I feel like i'm slowly dying without you. I don't really have anything to live for anymore without you here. I don't have anyone to talk to, hang out with, or to call in the middle of the night when I need to cry to someone and have them tell me that it's okay. What I would give to be able to actually hear you say it. I see you all the time and you talk to me, but it's not the same. Your not actually here and they're just dreams. It's not the same anymore. I don't feel like i'm me, ya know? I feel like i'm dead but I just keep on waking up to these dreaded days. Honestly, after I do fall asleep, I dread waking up. I just want to be with you, to have you hold me again and tell me that everythings going to be okay. But I can't even have the simplest things anymore. I feel no joy, I have no emotion. I just paste a smile on and keep on being polite the way you taught me, but i'm sick of pretending. I don't want to get up and get dressed. I don't even want to get out of bed. I just want to lay there in your tshirt and the sheriffs blanket you gave me last Christmas, when I do it feels like your holding me again. What I would give for another GIANT bear hug. You will always be a part of me. Without you I am not whole. I feel like there's a giant part missing. A best friend is a special part of your life and without them its like you've lost it all. My heart constantly aches for you. You will NEVER be replaced. You never could, no matter how hard anyone tried. I miss you more and more with each passing day and my heart continues to break. I LOVE YOU BIGGER THAN THE SKY. Best buddies "foreber and eber".

June 16, 2008

The warm breeze fills the air.
Songs from birds ring in my ears.
I know now that,
June is here.

A month where we celebrate
and honor our Dad's.
But this year, yet again
my heart and soul are still very sad.

I watch other children enjoy this day.
Giving their Father's deserving hugs.
Laughing at memories of old.
Not worrying that they will ever go away.

I can't share in their joy.
I can't see your face.
I miss you Dad
on this special day.

Even though you are not here,
and my heart weighs heavily
I still can think back on all those years,
and proudly say...

My Dad was the greatest
man that ever lived.
And even though he isn't here now,
I know in my heart he forever will live.

Why did you have to go?
Couldn't you try to stay?
So I could have just one more
Joyous Father's Day.

......I know Trebo doesn't know what Father's Day is, but i'm glad that God decided to give you one last one with him. This is from him.

June 15, 2008