Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

As soft winds sweep away the days
I look back on life through a haze.
Remember playgrounds, parks and friends,
In childlike gaze that never ends.
The laughter in a game of catch,
Shall memory ever attach...
To innocence in youthful eyes,
Catching the ball to his surprise.

I recall my first bike, first wreck,
Who picked me up, said, "What the heck?"
Convinced me to give one more try,
While, knees skinned, I forgot to cry.
Just the joy knowing he was there,
Making him proud my only care.
There was nothing I couldn't do,
My heart held fast that to be true.

Though teenage years were kind of rough,
I sure wasn't too big or tough.
You taught me to defend what's right
And never back down from a fight.
So I learned the hard way to stand,
Still, with each lump, I found your hand.
Drawing from you an inner strength,
And stubborn pride of equal length.

But there the line of fate was drawn,
As though I blinked and you were gone.
I found myself facing the sun,
Asking God what he had done.
Eyes blinded by a void inside,
I could not live that you had died.
Alas finding it to be true,
I could do nothing without you.

Please, Bubby, today just hear my call,
I'm sorry that I dropped the ball.
My life is wrecked, my knees are skinned,
My emotions undisciplined.
I can't get up although I try,
Please don't be upset if I cry.
Though I can't fight what I can't see,
Please, Bubby, say you're still proud of me.
Missing you more and more everyday, big guy..... I still love you bigger than the sky and you'll always be my best friend and number 1... forever and always

Sissy

October 1, 2008

I get to spend quite a bit of time with Trevor lately and I thank God every day for that. He is such an awesome little boy Charlie. Granted he reminds me so much of you, but thats a good thing. You are missed more and more each day big guy. I love you.

Ruthie

September 28, 2008

I feel you in the morning
When at first I awake
Your thought is with me
With each decision I make

You'd been around forever
Since the first breath I took
Now I have to go on alone
But for love, I need not look

Cause by what you bestowed
In our short time together
Will last in my heart
Forever and ever

Although you've left
And now walk above
I'm never alone
I'm wrapped in your love

Enjoy now your long waited reward
Feel peace that your love continues on
What was taught to me, will be taught to mine
Cause you live on in me even after you've gone

I LOVE YOU BIGGER THAN THE SKY, BEST BUDDIES "FOREBER AND EBER". FOREVER AND FOR ALWAYS.. YOUR MY WORLD AND YOU WILL NEVER BE REPLACED. GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN...MISSING YOU MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY. LOVE, SISSY

Anonymous

September 27, 2008

My father gave me my shotgun
That I'll hand down to my son
Try to teach him everything it means

I'm a man of my convictions
Call me wrong, call me right
But I bring my better angels to every fight
You may not like where I'm goin'
But you sure know where I stand
Hate me if you want to
Love me if you can

Anonymous

September 26, 2008

You left your Bible on the dresser
So I put it in the drawer
'Cause I can't seem to talk to God without yelling anymore
And when I sit at your piano
I can almost hear those hymns
The keys are just collecting dust
But I can't close the lid

You left my heart as empty

> As a Monday morning church
It used to be so full of faith and now it only hurts
And I can heart the devil whisper
"Things are only getting worse"
You left my heart as empty
As a Monday morning church

The preacher came by Sunday
Said he missed me at the service
He told me Jesus loves me
But I'm not sure I deserve it
'Cause the faithful man that you loved
Is nowhere to be found
Since they took all that he believed
And laid it in the ground

[Repeat chorus]

I still believe in Heaven
And I'm sure you've made it there
But as for me without your love, girl
I don't have a prayer

[Repeat chorus]

You left your Bible on the dresser
So I put it in the drawer
Alan Jackson- Monday Morning Church
Remember this song? Hits home now...
Missing you more and more, my hearts still gone without you.. Keep watching over us..
Love You Bigger than the Sky, Best Buddies "Foreber and eber".. We promised
All my love, Sissy

Anonymous

September 23, 2008

Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still fall
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know

Anonymous

September 23, 2008

After a year, your still leaving us little signs to let us know that you still care. I have come to realize that you're never going to let us go. Your still our protector, huh? Always the one to keep everyone safe. But we're not happy anymore. We all miss you so. Kentucky Fried Chicken (we'll never forget) told me this weekend that she still hasn't seen your stone, so i'm gonna have to take her out there to see you. We'll never let you go, all the songs say it's so easy, but it's never gonna happen. Everything still reminds us. We've got to hand it to ya, your not an easy person to forget(not that we've tried). Thanks for keeping watch my wonderful Guardian Angel. I miss you. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies. Forever and Always.(I'll always keep my word, just like you). Sissy

Kierstan
Sister

September 21, 2008

I will never forget you Charlie,The Highway Sign is a nice way for everyone to remember what you did for us but I would rather have you here.Maybe some day the people that caused this to happen will think about what they did and come forward and admit what they did.I miss you every day I cant just move on as some people call it and act as if you dont matter anymore, their is such a void with out you here, things just arnt the same, I just feel empty inside.I love you Charlie, I will never just move on and forget you.

Anonymous

September 20, 2008

Charlie,
Your highway dedication was about a month ago. Both the signs on the belt highway look really good. The Captain has a sign in his office window that we get to see everytime we go in the road office. There is also another one in the hallway with all your stuff.
After your dedication ceremony I got to meet a lady named Kathy. Renee introduced her to me and she said her daughter was the one who carried your picture and rode for you from New York to D.C. during police week. It was so cool to meet her. She said her daughter could not make it to your dedication because of work, so Kathy came instead. Kathy said she wanted to go see you at the cemetary so I took her for a ride.
First we went to the crash site. I parked at the golf course and we walked down to the control box. She was looking at it and I was showning her the scratches on the highway the Durango made. Anyway as she was talking to me I could see something under the control box on the concrete slab. I dug it out with my knife, and you would not believe what it was. There was still some of your glass off the windshield of the Durango under there a year later. There were three big pieces and I gave them to Kathy. She held them in her hand and thanked me. Then I took her to the cemetary. She couldn't believe how your head stone looked. She asked if Renee would care if she took some pictures and I said I didn't think so.
Thank You for always keeping us safe and watching out for us. Everyone of us misses you and we will never forget you.

Katie
A Friend

September 19, 2008

We still think of you every day. We miss you Charlie.

Jenny
Sister-In-Law

September 18, 2008

I have come
To realize
That time is so dear
When you are no
Longer here
I cling to memories,
Sweet bitter memories
That brings you near
If only
I can touch you again
Without bringing back the pain
Feeling your presence
That you are not really
Very far away
That would bring back
The joy and magic
Of being again
Together
I know you are
Just a whisper away.

Sissy

Anonymous

September 16, 2008

Since you've been gone nothings been the same. Everyday is just another boring day. It's so lonely without you here. Your on my mind constantly, your the one thing that never leaves. Days just seem to drag on and on. Just wanted to let you know that I miss you and not a day goes by that your not on my mind. Your not just my hero anymore, your St. Joe's hero. Missing you terribly, more and more with each passing day. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "foreber and eber". Promise. You'll always be my #1.
Love,
Sissy

Kierstan
Sister

September 16, 2008

Thank you Charlie, I am so proud of you, I miss you everyday, I miss you so much their is not a day that goes by that I dont think about you, Love ya bud.

Anonymous

September 13, 2008

The spitting image of you turned 4 today. He is the greatest thing left of you on this earth. Every face he makes reminds me of you. I don't know how someone that barely knew their father can have the same mannerisms, but he does.

Anonymous

September 10, 2008

Today's Trev's 4th birthday and its heartbreaking that your not here for it. Missing you. Keep watching over everyone, please. We love you.

Anonymous

September 10, 2008

Charlie,
Just thinking of you. We miss you Charlie. I just want you to know I love and and miss you more than ever.
Juli

Juli
Aunt

September 9, 2008

My birthday was yesterday, When I woke up for school I looked up at the sky, and somehow I knew you were telling me happy birthday, It was nice to have that comfort, but I really wish you were here for it, Miss you everday buddy.

Anonymous

September 2, 2008

We miss you Charlie. It make us very proud to drive up the belt by Frederick and see the sign with your name on it.

Jenny
Sister-In-Law

September 2, 2008

The dedication was exactly what you deserve. It was really nice of them to make mini signs for the family. I still miss you terribly. I wish you were here. I Love You Bigger than the Sky, Best Buddies Forever and ever. Your still my #1. Love, Sissy

Anonymous

September 1, 2008

Your highway dedication was really nice, and exactly what you deserve, now everytime we drive up that way, we'll always think of you, really wish you were here with us, my birthday is coming up, and it just really won't be the same without you here, miss you everday Charlie.

Anonymous

August 28, 2008

One more day Chas. You are forever in our hearts but one more day and your name with be proudly displayed as the hero that you are to all of St. Joe. I love you and miss you so much big guy. Keep watching over everyone.

Ruthie

August 27, 2008

I didnt forget your birthday,because i think about you everyday and I miss you so much.Ill never forget the time I took you shoping I let you pick out what you wanted and you were so happy,we had a grate day,and you made me feal like I had bought you the world.I miss you so much,but we all do,life is so empty with out you in it. Love ya,man.

Anonymous

August 20, 2008

Happy Birthday Charlie!!! We miss you!

Sheri
Cousin

August 18, 2008

Happy Birthday Charlie, I miss the joke's about you being "Old" thing's still just don't seem right without you here.

Brittany
Sister-in-law

August 17, 2008

Happy 30th birthday Bubby. You are now officially an "old man". When I went to see you yesterday, i'm sure you saw the does. I take it as a sign from you. It seems it take everything that way these days. School starts in 4 days. It sucks that you won't be here for my graduation or my 18th birthday. I know you would have been proud. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "foreber and eber". Love, Sissy

Kierstan
sister

August 17, 2008