Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

We miss you Charlie, and we still think of you everyday.

Jenny
Sister-In-Law

February 2, 2009

Miss you more and more everyday. the song's on the radio, your still in every one of them.

Anonymous

February 1, 2009

I love you bubby!!! I still miss you! Can't wait to see you again.

kailee

February 1, 2009

I've changed the presets in my truck
so those old songs don't sneak up
they still find me and remind me
yeah you come back that easy
try restaurants I've never been to
order new things off the menu
that I never tried cause you didn't like
two drinks in you were by my side

I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you
I still miss you baby

I never knew til you were gone
how many pages you were on
it never ends I keep turning
and line after line and you are there again
I dont know how to let you go
you are so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
its a door that never closes
no I don't know how to do this

I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah

I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah

I still miss you
I still miss you...... yeah.... yeah.....


--- this is just one of the many songs that hit home now. I Love You Bigger than the sky.

Kierstan
Sister

February 1, 2009

Sissy dearest, just writing to let you know

That each and every day I miss you so.

Best friends we will ever be,

No matter the distance between you and me.

You kissed my hurts and loved me so.

You rocked me in your arms to and fro.

You calmed me throughout the night,

While hugging me so very tight.

Every day you always kept me near

And wiped away my every tear.

No matter what the season,

You always loved me for no reason.

Thankful will I ever be,

For letting me be oh so free!

With angel wings my heart takes flight,

Finding joy and spreading my light!

Each and every day I come to visit,

While upon your shoulders I often sit,

Sending all my love to your soul,

Trying so hard to help you once again feel whole.

Sissy, my sweetest dear,

Feel my presence so very near.

Sissy, please don’t feel so sad

For I am with the very best Dad!

His love is oh so great!

Your entrance his angels do await.

There are no words to describe the beauty of this land

Formed by our Father’s loving hand.

Love and light shine everywhere

Even in places we fear to dare.

So sissy, please dry your tears

For in this place there are no more fears.

Love and laughter fill the air

And light shines throughout the lands everywhere!

Joy itself knows no bounds

And fills the air all around.

So sissy dearest

Look into the stars to feel me nearest.

You and I will always be best of friends,

Always, until the very end.

All of the angels within and beyond your sight

Are always there; making spirits bright!

God and I from up above,

Send to you our special love!

--- I miss you so badly. It keeps hurting more and more. I want you here with me.. You will always be my hero. My #1. Best Buddies "foreber and eber". I Love You Bigger than the Sky.

Kierstan
Sister

February 1, 2009

It's my 18th birthday
And my Bubby is not here
I want him to be a part
Of all the birthday cheer

Betrayed on my birthday
My wish was to see
How my angel was doing
To have him talk to me

Sometimes I feel
He just ran away
And I have faith
He'll come back one day

But each day turns to weeks
And weeks into years
Holidays and Birthdays roll into one
Still filled with tears

Anger and Pain
Pulse through my veins
Every sunny day
Is still filled with rain

I long to hold him
To smell him
To see
To know he is safe
And happy

My heart is slowly healing
But there is still a void
I still have trouble sleeping
Sometimes still paranoid

I get this rushing feeling
Overwhelming fear
Reminicising joy
I want him near

But alas he is gone
Far far away
And I still hold the promise
Of seeing him one day

So Bubby as I celebrate
I know you are here
Helping me blow out the candles
On another year

And one day soon
With joy and glee
I will see you again
Until then
I'm Patiently Waiting

Kierstan
Sister

January 24, 2009

I looked out the window
And thought about you

I thought if you were here
What would we do?

Hug and laugh
Smile and cry

Remember and think
Close our eyes and sigh

You'd be so close
And I'd get to feel

Warmth in my bones
Instead of that chill

That chill from knowing
It will be awhile until I see

Your smiling face
Then forever we'd be

Together again
For eternity

As I look out the window
It's you I want to see

Under a tree
Smiling back at me

A whisper from my lips
I love you bubby

Kierstan
Sister

January 24, 2009

miss you so much Charlie, my life will never be the same I think of you every day love you bud.

Anonymous

January 22, 2009

Bubby,
i miss you so much... my birthday is coming up i get my class ring for my birthday this year i can't wait but sometimes i wish i didnt even have a birthday. i hate that your not here with us anymore. I wish you could of met Johnathan. He's such a good guy. I think you'd like him. Daddy does..ALOT. He told me not to let him go; well alot of people have. I still think about you everyday. We have a deputy at the school everytime i see her it takes me back to everything we've been through. I love you so much bubby. I guess i'll talk to you later. Goodnight Bubby. i love you bigger than the sky always & forever.

kailee
little sister

January 21, 2009

My 18th birthday wasn't the same without you here to celebrate it with me, or your "Happy Birthday" phone call. This years gonna be hard, but then again last year was too. Its just that you weren't here for my big birthday and youre not going to get to see me graduate. What I would give to have you back. I miss you so badly. The more time goes by, the more I miss you. My heart still continues to break for you. I ate a piece of cake for you. I will always love you. Best Buddies "foreber and eber". Always my #1. You are still my idol. Love you

Kierstan
Sister

January 20, 2009

I Love You Bubby bigger than the sky

kailee
sister

January 14, 2009

Good morning, Son. I continue to think about you every day and all the times our family had, good and bad. It breaks my heart to see the family going through such grief. Your brothers and sisters all look up to you so much and it tears them apart that you're not here. You continue to be an inspiration to all of us, Chuckles. You've always been a shining star and your light still shines. I'm thankful that the holidays are gone because they just aren't the same without that early morning phone call saying "Happy Thanksgiving" or "Merry Christmas". Please continue to help God guide us and keep us all safe. You and Poppy being happy and healthy is what keeps me going. I love you, Charlie. And miss your beautiful smiling face more each day. Bigger than the sky, Son!

LaVonne
Step-mother

January 14, 2009

Nae brought Trev over last night. He blew out the candles on Dad's cake. He gets funnier and funnier. Last time I saw him I taught him to say "Love you Bigger than the Sky" and Nae told me that he's been saying "I Love You More than the Sky". He's more like you every time I see him. He's starting to be able to write. He wrote Dad's name on the card and signed it hisself. He's growing up so fast. You gave us a blessed miracle. Thank You. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "foreber and eber".

Kierstan
Sister

January 8, 2009

We're having Daddy's birthday party tonight at Papa's. He said he didn't want to have one again this year. I don't blame him. We all miss you terribly. Our hearts ache without you. I know you'll be there, though. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "foreber and eber".

Kierstan
Sister

January 7, 2009

Happy New Year Bubby. Its the start of a new year without you. It still feels like 2007. It doesn't seem like you've been gone very long. It still hurts just the same. All the things on life that I always looked forward too, I don't anymore. I can't imagine doing any of them without you. It's not the same. Everything reminds me of you. Everywhere I go, everything I do, every song I hear, every poem I read. Everything. Life just seems like a big blur now. Its going by so fast, yet it feels so slow. I miss you more and more with each passing day. You will always be my hero. Always my #1. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "foreber and eber".

Kierstan
Sister

January 4, 2009

Trevor looks more and more like you everyday, it's hard to hear those song's on the radio, because now you seem to be in every one of them, still missing you, and thinking of you.

Anonymous

January 4, 2009

new year new begining...love you bubby. your always in my mind & heart....i miss you. Cant wait til that day comes. i love you

Anonymous

January 3, 2009

Happy New Year Big Guy. I love being able to spend time with the lil guy. When he's around, sometimes it eases the pain of you being gone, if only for a brief second. I love you Charlie. Always in our hearts.

Anonymous

January 1, 2009

Happy New Years Bubby. It's not the same without your "Happy New Year" phone call. I miss you more than ever. What I would give to have you here. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Forever and Always. You will always be my #1.. Best Buddies forever and always. I swear. Love, Sissy

Kierstan
Sister

January 1, 2009

Hey Bubby,
i hope you had a good Christmas.... to be honest i hate all holidays now none of them are the same anymore for numerous reasons. theres always something wrong going on. i wish you were here; if you were you would make everything all better. I love you bubby. I got to see Nae and Trev Sunday. Nae looks so much different but she looks good. The looks of them they're making it through alright. Trev is still growing. It was great seeing them. Some times i think it's getting harder but i guess its just life. All the pain & tears i've cried still you never said goodbye. I know i let you down but it's not like that now. I miss you so much bubby & I love you bigger than the sky. talk to you later.

kailee
sis

December 29, 2008

Days come and days go
But they have lost their glamour and glow
And became empty, full of awe
Since we had our biggest blow

Days are dull and not the same
How can I go on without calling your name?
And without seeing you, a beautiful dame
Alas all what I have now are pictures in a frame!

No heart is bigger than a mother’s heart
But can I forgive life that pulled us apart?
Although I am thankful to God, there is no doubt
Yet my heart bleeds since your depart

With every glance, I see you there
Like my shadow, following me everywhere
Or as an angel that hears my prayer
And comes to comfort me, by just being there

I Love and Miss You. Love always, Sissy

Anonymous

December 28, 2008

We had our dinner today. It was really hard. Its not the same without your smile. Or your jokes and laugh. Trev and Nae came for dinner and opened their presents. He gets more like you everyday. He a spitting image, personality and all. Our family isn't complete without you anymore. It's not the same. I miss you more and more each day. You'll forever be my best friend. I Love You Bigger than the Sky.. Best Buddies forever and always. Love, Sissy

Kierstan
Sister

December 28, 2008

Merry Christmas in Heaven. Hope you enjoyed it with Jesus this year. I miss you. When they said it gets easier with time, they lied, it gets harder. I miss you. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies forever and always. Love, Sissy

Anonymous

December 26, 2008

Merry Christmas Charlie

Ruthie

December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas Eve in Heaven.

Anonymous

December 24, 2008