Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Bryan tuvera was my cousin.He will be greatly missed by me and my family.All i can do now is remember,remembering all the times we were together.15 months ago my wife and I had a son we named him after Bryan(Bryan Richard Tuvera)When he is older we will explain to him who Bryan was "an american hero"and how he got his name.God be with him and uncle butch. -jason

jason tuvera
cousin

July 1, 2008

Hi honey

Missed you tons this weekend. We all went to Steve's for a BBQ. Salina brought Bosco. He had his first swimming experience. It was so cute.....He definitely can do the dog paddle. I know you would have been laughing so hard. It was difficult not to hear your laughter there.

I know you were watching from up above though.

Every day is still the same.....lonely and sad without you. This is not the life we were supposed to live...and definitely no longer a happy life.

I sure hope you and daddy and having lots of laughs together up in heaven.

I finally ordered prints from your wedding. Considering this happened only two months after the wedding....it was difficult to go on line to order them. I am glad I did though. They arrived yesterday. One of these days I will get up the courage to put in the wedding video.

Love you and miss you every minute of every day

All my love
mom

June 25, 2008

Hi honey

Short and sweet.......and to the point....

I LOVE YOU

Miss you tons.....It feels like it has been a lifetime since I saw you....but know that you are ALWAYS on my mind.

Love mom

June 17, 2008

Hi honey

Haven't written for awhile....but don't think for one minute that I haven't thought about you each and every day. I've cried a lot these past few weeks. Mother's Day was awful without you here. You seemed to always have a calming effect on me....I truly seem out of sorts without you here. I miss your laughter and your jokes. They seemed to help me feel good. You taught me to be able to laugh at myself. Now....I merely survive. Life sure has changed.

Last weekend I went to Sacramento and attended Christina's college graduation. I can't believe she has graduated. I know you were there in spirit. We went to the Sacramento Fallen Officer Memorial at the state capitol. We placed flowers there for you. I was glad to see your plaque was still at the foot of the statues. Next year it will be moved to make room for the newly fallen officers. Oh how I wish no more officers would fall.

I can't help but feel you were there with me that day as I drove the Sacramento streets, for as I drove down the one way streets (you remember how much I HATED driving in unfamiliar territory).....a white feather flew and hit the windshield, right in front of me. I know that was you giving me a sign that you were there with me.

I miss you more than you will ever know. A mother needs all of her children with her. I just don't feel complete any more. The only good thing about this whole situation is that I know you are with daddy. At least I can say you have never been without one of your parents at your side.

Mike and I visited the cemeteries on Memorial Day and stopped by Carol, Grandma Lydia, my Grandpa, daddy and you. You would have laughted at Mike. Let's just say it was not his day. But.....it did make me laugh.....not at him...but at the funny situations.

Anyways....just wanted to write to say

I LOVE YOU......

:) mom

Sandy Tuvera
mother

May 30, 2008

Hi sweetheart

It's mom. Last week was a grueling difficult week with a ton of non-stop crying. This week is better, but I still cry each and every day. You are missed SO much!!!!

Bosco's birthday is Saturday. Tracee and I are going shopping for his present. Wish you were here to come to his party and play with him. He misses you very much.

Willie's going to a citizen police academy course which lasts 12 weeks through our city. I know the two of you would be talking and laughing about all the events she is going through.

Mother's Day is coming up...and that is always a difficult day for me. I can't stand knowing that one of my children is gone. It breaks my heart.

Hope you are enjoying your time in heaven. Haven't gotten a feather or sign from you in ages. Do you think you could send me one?

Loving and missing you ;)
mom

Sandy Tuvera
mom

April 30, 2008

So I can't help but think you had something to do with me making my 9:15 flight after arriving to the airport at 8:50. The guy I stood behind in line for the security check point displayed such a random act of kindness that it allowed me to have a tinge of faith in humanity that day. He allowed me to cut him, along with the 70 other people who let me cut to the front of the line, encouraging me along the way that I would make my flight. Miraculously, by the skin of my teeth, I somehow made it. I walked onto the airplane right after the captain. I'm pretty sure I owe it to you. But I'm also sure I owe it to you that the only empty seat left was behind the guy who kept letting those smelly ones loose silently! You know what I'm talking about! You probably were laughing hysterically. I also know you are shaking your head for me losing my ATM card and some cash, YET AGAIN, at the ball park. What can I say....I can't win them all. Silly Willie.

Tracee
Sister

April 30, 2008

Bryan,
It's that simple...I LOVE YOU!!!!!!
xoxo,
Salina

Salina
Wife

April 28, 2008

Hi Bryan,

Thinking of you today.

I miss you.

Thanks for earlier.

It meant much.

I love you too,

Mike

Michael Machado
Cousin

April 24, 2008

Hi honey

It's mom.....Having a tougher than normal day today....Lots of crying....and I think I know why.

Bottom line is......I miss you TERRRIBLY......I so much wish you were here....and so much wish you were there yesterday when Mike stopped by to talk to us. I know you were there in spirit. I only wish you were there in person.

My heart aches because you are not here. There are some things I just can't write....but I tell you privately.

Know that you are ALWAYS on my mind....each and every minute of every single day. Also know that you will FOREVER remain in my heart. I miss you more as each day passes.

Love and hugs
mom

Sandy Tuvera
mom

April 21, 2008

Hey, by the way, I talked to Jim Lee a few months ago – at Wonder Con. I went again this year. Wish I could have been there with you. I thought he was going to draw a special picture for you. I got that impression, when I explained what happened, and told him that I was hoping he would do a special drawing. I gave him a newspaper article that that talked about how you liked comic books.

He asked what I wanted. I told him Batman, and that I had a few ideas, but that I respected his time and would appreciate whatever he had time to contribute. He said he would take the article and my email address. I thought he would have drawn something. He never got in touch with me though. I was disappointed.

I’m not sure whether to track him down again and ask him to do one while I wait next time. His art is good. I think you’d like it. Maybe that’s what matters. I guess I’ll do it. I’ll try to create a chance to ask him again. I’m still disappointed he didn’t do something like I thought he was going to though.

Take care,

Mike

Mike Machado
Cousin

April 21, 2008

Dear Bryan,

I miss you. A lot. I think about you everyday.

It’s been a crazy year or thereabouts without you.

Man, if you could have been here today.

I think you would have gotten a laugh.

I also think you would have been proud.

I wish you had been there when I talked to your mom and Tracee.

I hope you were there.

I’ll have to figure out what comes next.

Love,

Mike

Mike Machado
Cousin

April 21, 2008

Bryan:

Went to the Giants-Cardinals game with Lindsey Friday night. Judging by the fact that a foul ball was hit right at me in the first inning, I'll take it as a sign that you knew we were there.

I have a funny wrestling story that I will share with you soon.

Steve Leonard
Cousin

April 14, 2008

"Always Remembered"

I know I am still with you
in your prayers, your thoughts, your heart.
And though you cannot see me,
I will always be a part
of life's sweet celebrations
in those times when you reflect
on how, though things are different,
through our love, we still connect.
We'll see each other someday
when our spirits all are free,
until then, I am with you
because you remember me."

I love you honey
mom

Sandy Tuvera
mom

April 10, 2008

Hi honey

Just wanted to say......I love you

Short and sweet but from the heart......I love you

I find myself missing you a tremendous amount these past few weeks. Not that I did not miss you before...but it seems to have escalated. Maybe it's because we had a lot of jokes and laughter between St. Patrick's Day and April Fools Day.

I'm crying again....on a daily basis.....I need you here by my side.....for we made a good mother and son team.... How I wish God would do his magic....and turn back time.

I would give anything just to be able to hug and touch you one more time, seeing your smile....hearing you laugh...and being able to tell you I much love you.

May you be resting and enjoying your time in heaven with daddy.....

All my love to you honey......
Love always...mom

sandy
mom

April 3, 2008

Hi honey

It's mom

Well, today is April Fool's Day. This is the day you ALWAYS played the most amazing practical jokes on me (and others too, particularly Tracee). Poor Tracee.....

Your jokes were so witty...and so convincing. They always made me laugh. I remember the year you turned my clock ahead when I was in the shower. I got out and panicked thinking I was late to work......You laughed so hard and I have to admit, so did I.

Never did I ever think that I would be wishing so hard for you to be able to play another joke on me. For if you could, that would mean you would be here.

I miss your humor, your laughter, your presence, your heart. I just plain miss you.....

Could you play a joke on us all today...and bring some laughter to us? We all could use it.

I miss you every breathing moment of every single day. My sole purpose in life was to be a mom for you and Tracee. I am so lost without you.

Always remember....you will forever remain in my heart.

All my love
mom

Sandy Tuvera
mom

April 1, 2008

Hi honey,

It’s mom

I just wanted to say that I think of you every second of every day. You are always on my mind and will forever remain in my heart. You have NO idea how much I miss you.

Every day on the way to work I pass where you got married just two months earlier. I blow you a kiss, make the sign of the cross and tell you outloud - I love you. Sometimes it makes me cry to pass there...but sometimes I can pass it without crying.

No matter how much I think about how unfair this has been to us all that remain, I can’t help but feel that the worst injustice was to you. For lord knows you deserved to live a full life.

I look at Salina every day and think about all that should have been and it breaks my heart.

I love you with my whole heart honey. I hope you are enjoying patrolling heaven. I guess you can say that you are the backup, watching and protecting everyone from above. What better place to ensure that you can see and protect them all, than from the gates of heaven.

All my love…..mom

Sandy Tuvera
mother

March 26, 2008

Happy Easter Bryan.

Special Officer (New Jersey)

March 24, 2008

HAPPY EASTER! I LOVE YOU.

PS Happy 3rd day of Spring...=)

All My Love,
Salina

Salina
Wife

March 24, 2008

Hi Sweetheart,

Just dropping a quick little Happy Easter message your way. We love and miss you very much.

Hope you had all the Easter candies your heart desires....

Love,
Andrea & Ghentyl
otherwise dubbed as "the fun couple"

PS Sal and I were wondering if that was you dressed up as the Easter Bunny earlier today??? =)

Andrea
Family

March 24, 2008

Bryan:

Just saw a new movie preview with a bunch of super heroes in it and I thought of you.

Wrestlemania is next weekend, and I am sure we would have had a few phone conversations about what was going to happen.

Little things like these remind me how much I miss you.

Steve Leonard
Cousin

March 23, 2008

Hi honey

It's mom :)

Today is St. Patrick's Day. I remember all those years that you used to pinch me for not wearing green. Never did I dream I would be wishing for you to pinch me now. (Lord knows you pinched hard!!!) For it you could pinch me today, then it would mean you would be here with us.

We miss you terribly.

I know you would be REALLY happy knowing that "Willy" AKA "Silly Willy" moved back home. Having her back in the house has added some structure and routine back into my life. However, your absence forever leaves a void that cannot be filled.

As we approach Easter, I can't help but remember the last Easter we spent together, at Easter brunch at the Marriott. Although we are going to go to brunch, we have never gone back to the Marriott. We are going to the Hyatt with Salina and the family. We are all one family now. You brought us together and we have you to thank for that.

I love her very much Bryan. You picked a BEAUTIFUL lady as your wife. As I always said....you only picked the BEST.

Just remember I am with you always. I hope daddy is taking good care of you up in heaven. I'm sure you are both laughing and joking alot.

Loving you today and always,
mom

SANDY TUVERA
mom

March 17, 2008

Hi dear,

I was out shopping with Ghentyl at our neighborhood mall (ahem) and as we were browsing I couldn't help but think of all the times we could have been browsing around together (with you and Sal). You know how that girl loves to shop!!! It made me sad thinking that I would never shop for a birthday gift for you again, or Xmas gift or even come home and share the goodies I purchased with you and Sal. You know how we do show and tell! =)

We tend to think about all the big monumental occasions that we will never get to experience with you. But the little ones, like shopping in the mall and making reservations for four are all to be inexperienced too....and hurt equally as much. It's the every day things that I will miss the most.

I made a dinner Sunday night for the three of us (one of my signature pieces). I asked Sal if you would have liked it--she responded with a hearty 'Heck Yah.' It made me smile and want to cry at the same time. Again, it's the little things we will never get to share together as a family. A quiet and calm Sunday night dinner together with good wine to end a busy weekend while at the same time bracing ourselves for the long work week ahead. The little things...

I am deeply sorry I haven't visited you lately. I will soon--I promise.

Every day I miss you and thank God how different our lives would be if you were still here. It feels so long ago since I have last seen you....you are missed more than words could ever describe. And today I need my big brother to lend an ear....or tell a few jokes even. It was a hard day for me....

Loving you Always,
Andrea

Andrea
sister in law

March 12, 2008

Hi honey

Just writing to say

I LOVE YOU

I think of you every second of every day. I so much wish I could put my arms around you and hear your wonderful laugh.

I miss you more as each day passes.

You are forever in my heart.

Love mom

sandy tuvera
mom

March 7, 2008

I am so sorry for getting this message to you one day behind. I meant to type you a quick little something at work but I have been pretty busy and painfully sick.

I think of you a lot and always think that I see you in some stranger's smile or when I lock eyes with a random person and it sends chills down my spine. I always wonder if that's you....

Happy Valentines Day dear, Bryan. You are missed everyday. I love YOU.

Andrea

February 15, 2008

Bryan,

Just wanted to wish you a Happy Valentine's Day! I love you with all my heart and I think about you every second of every day.

P.S. Bosco misses you too!

XOXO,
Salina

Salina
Wife

February 14, 2008