Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Bryan, I wish you were here to spend the wonderful holiday with your many friends and loved ones.

We miss you!

Anonymous

December 26, 2008

Hi honey

It's mom......

We'll today is Christmas, your favorite holiday....and my heart aches having to spend another Christmas without you. I have no tree and no presents. Your absence leaves a void that makes it hard to do Christmas.

I sincerely hope that the tree in heaven has all your favorite character ornaments on it....I bet one of your jobs in heaven was to hang the ornaments on the tree. That was something you loved doing.

I miss you more as each day passes. I hope you, daddy and grandma are having an enjoyable Christmas. Since Christmas is the most blessed holiday...I can't imagine how spectacular Christmas must be up in heaven........

Just know I love you. I will always hold you dear to my heart. You will always be my hero.

All my love
mom

Sandy Tuvera
mother

December 25, 2008

You, your family, and your friends are thought of often.

"For those who pledge to uphold it, Freedom requires a sacrifice the protected will never know"

Police Officer
Grover Beach Police Department (CA)

December 23, 2008

Thinking of you and all of your loved ones on this day. Continue to watch over all of them and protect them. I have decorated the outside of my home in all blue lights to honor our fallen, one of those lights burns brightly in your honor. You have not been forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

December 23, 2008

Bryan:

December 23, 2006. I can't believe today marks 2 years since you were taken from us. I miss being able to call you with a funny story... to hear your laugh.

I plan to go to Cybelle's and have a Bryan Burger tonight before your memorial walk.

I miss you.

Steve Leonard
Cousin

December 23, 2008

My dearest Bryan

Today marks the anniversary of the saddest day of my life.....the day a horrible, terrible escaped felon took you away from us......and robbed you of a life that you so much deserved to live.

As your mother, it was my job to keep you safe. I tried my best to do that......but in your heart.....you were driven to be an officer...to uphold the law and make the world a safer place for all.....in doing so......when the situation arose....you never hesitated...You followed that escapee who had broken into a home with two elderly residents inside.....to protect them. Little did you know that the escapee had over 100 rounds of amo on him that night....but I am sure that even if you knew that...you would not have hesitated...you would have gone in anyways.

I HATE that we are all forced to remain down here.....missing you...and wishing you were here every miniute of every day.....I HATE crying every day for a loss we never should be forced to endure.....and I HATE that I can't share my remaining days with you down here.

But I am grateful that you stood up for what you believed in....and now patrol the gates of heaven with daddy....

Please remember how VERY much I loved you.....and will ALWAYS love you.

I am so proud of you.

All my love
mom

Sandy Tuvera
mother

December 23, 2008

Here it is again. December 23. This day just seems to have a sorrowful and painful feel to it, even two years later. We will honor you tonight, but please know that you are thought of so much more during the rest of the year and missed every moment of every day.

Anonymous

December 23, 2008

Today is December 23rd. Can't help but think about you. Hope you're enjoying the view from above.

Much love.
Amanda

Amanda Neve
Cousin

December 23, 2008

My dearest Bryan,

I can't believe it's been two years. The first anniversary was so incredibly unreal--a mixture of time standing still yet confusion of how one year could feel more like ten years passed. Images are still so vivid while at the same time blurred and faint.

When I think of your sacrifice it brings a swelling to my chest, a lump to my throat and an endless aching in my heart. You are so greatly loved and missed. Know that you living on in our hearts for all the days of our lives.

You will be honored today and tomorrow and remembered for the Hero that you will always be to us.

I love you. Wish you were still here.

Loving you from afar,
Andrea

P.S. Missed you in Disneyland. Tower of Terror won't ever be the same. But thanks for sending Pluto along for the pic...I know that he was your favorite. Sometimes I wonder who is REALLY dressed in that cuddly suit.. :)

Andrea
Sister In Law

December 22, 2008

December 23, will mark the 2nd anniversary of the death of Police Officer Bryan D. Tuvera. I didn't know him, but I know cops. Especially, cops that are true heros thanks to the ODMP. I also know more than a few from personal experience. Most of them were like you and me. People who stood up for law and for justice. Who simply went out and did their job.

Police Officer Bryan D. Tuvera is among those law officers who made a sacrifice far greater than we had to make. They chose to be brave and courageous despite what might have been going on inside them. The difference between bravery and anything else is making the choice to think and act as a soldier of the law despite the consequences. Whatever they may be.

Police Officer Bryan D. Tuvera made the decision to pursue a felon and faced a situation that would make any of us hesitate if even for a second. His partner was no less a hero. He remained at his partner's side facing the situation with undeniable courage. That one would live and one die is hardly something that we can comprehend. But it is so. As law officers, it is our lot.

On this anniversary we remember Police Officer Bryan D. Tuvera first as a hero among heros and then as our brother. Each of that wears a badge or has worn a badge into retirement would do well to remember this hero. He has demonstrated along with many other law officers who have died before him that courage, valor, bravery and honor are more than descriptive terms--they are the possessions of a true hero paid for with his or her life.

I am honored to render him a final salute.

Well done officer,...well done.

Cpl. Ralph D. Fiorenza (Ret.)
Pennsylvania State Police

December 21, 2008

Hi honey

It's mom. Just wanted to send a quick note to say "I love you". Jim is getting married in two days. Weddings used to be such a happy time for me.....but now they are hard.....Let's hope I can handle this one okay.

Thanksgaving is next week....I know...you HATED turkey....but you LOVED the taco dip......What I loved best was the laughter from you cousins being all together while I was cooking. That was my greatest thrill during the holidays.....for I knew you were happy.....

I don't hear that laughter any more.

Anyways.....I just wanted to make an entry today...because I haven't made one for awhile.....but please don't ever think there is a single moment that I am not thinking about you.

You will forever be in my heart....and truly are on my mind every moment of every day.

I love you honey!!!

Love, mom

Sandy Tuvera
mother

November 20, 2008

Hi Bryan,

Two years ago today marks a wonderful and special day which I feel honored to have been a part of. I remember having such a great time and feeling so happy for you and your wife Salina.I appreciate you and the hero that you are. I am so grateful for all of the quality time we all shared together getting to know how great of a person you truly are. You are in my thoughts and prayers brother.May you live in heavenly peace.I miss you and wish you could be here to relive the happiness we all shared on this day as well as all of the days you were present with us all.

With Love, Ghentyl

Ghentyl Vasquez
friend

October 15, 2008

hi sweetheart,

i just wanted to wish you a belated happy birthday on this site (but you know I was thinking of you all day on the 8th...hope you enjoyed me and ghentyl's song to you!). Just been busy with the j-o-b but I know you know that. I was thinking we would have been celebrating big...either Vegas or somewhere close like Cache Creek. Regardless it was owed to us.

Happy Anniversary to you (and my sister) today. Wish we could be toasting each other (you know I would have come over with the champagne) and enjoyed the laughter while we watched the wedding video again...poking fun at the craziness and being touched by all the loveliness that surrounded the two of you just two years ago.

I will toast to you tonight in your honor. May God bless you always and know that I love you and miss you very much.

Keep the batman signs coming....I can't help but think that dude in a costume downtown was you playing around.

Andrea

October 14, 2008

Happy Birthday Honey

30 years old today.........I remember so vividly the moment you were born.....

I got you a batman happy birthday balloon today which I have left in your old room.....

We released balloons at the cemetery.....besides the I love you..and I miss you ones.....I also released one that said

OH NO---the BIG 3 - 0. Hope you got a laugh from it.

I almost bought a happy birthday in spanish balloon.....I remember when you gave me a spanish birthday card as a joke....(you know I don't know a word of Spanish)....

They also made an announcement on the air to the entire department...remembering you in the hearts of everyone...on your 30th birthday. Your station even had a batman happy 30th birthday cake for you.

We are also going to Cybelle's tonight....in honor of you....as that is where you and Joe often had your dinner break while on duty.....

Many of us will order the Bryan Tuvera burger......I only wish you could be there to have one too.

PS - Ben stopped by the cemetery for your birthday and had a Little Lucca sandwich with you......He knew you loved those garlic sandwiches.

I sincerely hope that HEAVEN gave you an AWESOME birthday party....with your favorite cake...yellow cake with chocolate frosting.

I love you honey......and miss you more than you will EVER know.

Hugs to you today (and EVER day)

Love mom

Sandy Tuvera
mother

October 9, 2008

Happy Birthday Bryan. You are always remembered and forever missed. I hope you are having a big cake up in heaven today.

Jennifer Williams
Family Friend

October 8, 2008

Bryan:

October 8th, 2008 would have been your 30th birthday. I can now only imagine the fun we would have had at your party.

We will gather at Cybelle's and have a Bryan burger and fries tomorrow night. I wish you were there with us.

Miss you.

Steve Leonard
Cousin

October 7, 2008

Hi honey

Short and sweet and from the heart

I LOVE you and MISS you every breathing moment of every single day.

I miss evertyhing about you......

Love mom :)

PS - Your 30th birthday and 2 year wedding anniversary is now upon us. What used to be such a gloreous time....is now such a sad time for us all.

I hope you know how much I love you....you made your mother proud.

Sandy Tuvera
mother

October 6, 2008

Bryan,
Just dropping an over due hello. Its been almost two years since you were taken away from us. It's funny how things work, I never posted anything on any website after you left us. I guess I really did not know what to say, but I was going through a pile of documents in my safe with my now three year old son Bobby when I came across your picture. The same picture posted on this site with a few others. Lil Bobby saw the picture and said, " policeman in San Franciso" in is three year old verbage that only parents can understand. ( He recognizes the patch from my uniforms I keep at home). I looked him in the face and said, " Son, that's not only a policeman, that's my hero and good friend Bryan. I fought hard to hold back tears as I tried my best to explain to a three year old how a good man was so unjustly taken from us by a bad man which I will never name. My son placed both of his little hands on each side of face and looked me dead in the eye and said, " why you cry daddy?" The only words I could muster where, " I miss him son".

Bryan, I think of you on a daly basis when I drive by the hotel you and salina were married. It breaks my heart everytime. I often find myself talking to you in the car while I drive to work. I guess some would call me crazy, but it helps me deal with you being gone. Besides, I know you can hear me!

I often think of our episodes in the academy. All the training, as well as you,dana, and I doing all (except one) of our simulations together. Me first, then you, and dana last. That was the order we had to go for all of us to pass. LOL.

The last time I saw you and salena, you guys were with your new mother in law in Stonestown just a month or so after being married. You and salena were so happy. It still brings tears to my eyes knowing you two were unable to spend the rest of your lives together.

In final, they may say time heals all wounds,but they never seem to mention perminant marks left by wounds. Bryan, you have left a perminant mark on me and I will never forget you. When I say my daly prayer prior to going to work, it includes a "shout out" to you in heaven.

Most men would want their son(s) to grow up and be just like them. I inturn pray my son grows up to be just like you.

I miss you.

Bobby Toomey #4021

Bobby Toomey
SFPD/classmate/friend

September 17, 2008

Hi honey :)

It's mom.....

Life's tough without you......Sure wish you were here.

You always helped me during tough times....Now I have no one to help me.

I love you very much

Sandy Tuvera
mom

September 4, 2008

Dear Officer Bryan and Bryan's Mom,

I'm been sitting here reading your reflections, especially the ones from your mom and my heart is just aching for that unreal hole and emptiness that can only be filled by the precious sons of our life that we are without now. How blessed are we that had the sons that we did, but how much deeper and harder that makes it to live without you now. It is a forever sadness now until we hold you in our arms again and hear your wonderful laugh, laugh at the silly jokes only you all could tell, get the hug that only a son can give, just be in your very presence. I am so sorry that you are having to go through this. Please know that we hold you and your pain and great sacrifice in our hearts forever.

Linda Rittenhouse, Matt's Mom Always
Officer Matthew Rittenhouse EOW 9/16/2004

August 13, 2008

Hi honey

It's mom..... :)

How's heaven with daddy?

Well, as I am sure you know (because you know everything when you are in heaven) ......the August planned wedding
was forever cancelled. However, since most of the family had already booked their trip and made the arrangements to go to Maui for the wedding, we all went. Although we all had a nice time (as a family reunion), I could not help but cry......I thought about you all the time. I knew in my heart that if the circumstances had been different and that terrible night of Dec 23rd had been erased from the calendar in 2006, you would have still been alive. I kept thinking that you and Salina would have been there with us.

It was really hard because Maui is where the two of you honeymooned just two months before you were killed. I remember you called me every day from Maui when you were honeymooning. You told me it was so beautiful. You said you and Salina wanted to go back and bring me, Tracee and Salina's family......to enjoy the beautiful island together (since I had never been to Hawaii). How sad it was for me to be there knowing that I was supposed to be there with you too.

I didn't get a chance to go to the Grand Wailea, which is where you stayed. I wanted to go....but it was too dark when they brought me and I couldn't see anything.

Always remember.....you are missed ever breathing moment I remain on this earth. My life is so hollow without you.

May your days be pleasant and restful in heaven. Please be waiting at heaven's gates with open arms when I arrive. Every moment down here without you is like living in hell.

This should never have been you...
You had your whole life ahead of you to live.....

If it had to be anyone, it should have been me.

Loving and missing you every day
Love always, mom

Sandy Tuvera
mother

August 12, 2008

Sandy:

Today I have read many of your reflections for Bryan and I know so well the anquish you are suffering after losing your beloved child. A mother's tears seem to come from an endless and bottomless well, endless and without any boundries like the love we have for our children. I understand when you say the grief for your loving husband isn't the same heart wrenching agony you suffer for Bryan's loss.

Our lives were forever altered on the night those bullets killed our precious children, and they killed a part of everyone who cared about them. Today I am embracing you in my heart and wish you peace, and am honoring the memory and supreme sacrifice of Bryan.

Warmest regards,
Phyllis Loya, mother of Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05

Anonymous

August 7, 2008

Hi sweetheart

It's mom :)

I can't believe I am spending another day without you. I find that each day gets harder. I miss you more as each day passes.

I so much wish you were here.

These past 18 months seem like an eternity......I am finding it hard to remember your voice.....but I will NEVER forget your laugh. It was a GREAT laugh.

I am starting to write down some shared memories we had with you because I want to make sure that I NEVER forget a single one of those special moments we shared together as a family.

I honestly can say that as I go trhough each day.....I truly feel incomplete. I feel like I am just going through the daily motions....but the feelings, heart and soul are missing. I feel so empty inside.

Why.....why....why did this happen to you......

I still have a VERY difficult time looking at children with their parents. I feel hurt and cheated for you, Salina, and all of us. If I could only turn backs the hours of time. YOu would have been a GREAT dad......

Always remember that you remain in a very special place in my heart. I was honored to be your mom.

Loving and missing you every day

Love mom

Sandy Tuvera
mom

July 15, 2008

Hi Bryan,

Just wanted to say that I miss you and I really wish you could be here. I could use some your sage advice.

Lots of love always.

Andrea
Sister In Law

July 13, 2008

It's Happy Birthday Willie Day! Big 28!! YAAAAYYYY!! (Doin the Willie Dance).

Tracee
Sister

July 2, 2008