Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hey Ryan (Brother)! It has been a long time since I have left a reflection to you. As you know my life has taken a turn. I often think of our conversations about life, relationships and of course the job. Its kind of funny how it has actually played out. I am currently working w/ Chap Braswell on planning your memorial service up in Washington D.C. There is a pretty good group of us going up for the week. I hope to be representing BSO when your name is presented on the wall. As you know there is a procedure for everything we do. Only us in LE understand that. You know the BSO way, of course I wouldn't change it for the world.

I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I feel your death has been a difficult thing to cope with and probably has contributed to my personal life. I don't think I will ever be the same again. I make it a point to pass by your memorial marker almost everyday. All the trainee's have been there to remind them of the dangers presented everyday (that was Kostrzecha's idea). We still talk about you everyday even though you've been gone for some time. My goal is to let everyone know who you are and what you did. I am putting together a presentation about you and hopefully some day teach at the Academy. I have already made some phone calls an have a few things in mind.

My thoughts and prayers are still with your family. I don't talk with your dad and Lori but I get updates from Kari. I know they are doing well and coping as best as they can. I hope to visit them soon. My thoughts are with your mom as I know she is having a difficult time. Keep watching over me......you know what's been going on, I could use the extra grace from god. I will talk to you soon, brother. I miss you and love you very much.

P.S. everyone loves my tat. I saw Geoff's the other day, its pretty nice too.

Deputy Kristen May
BSO/Friend

November 2, 2006

Ryan..
i'm 25 today... how i wish you were here to celebrate with me! to this day, i still get teased by Shannon, Bryan and now Amanda about that fateful night, i turned 21. Four years ago, we had met up at TGIFridays for me. I remember you guys had me doing shots and I had this HUGE mixed drink. What happened next, i will NEVER forget. Shan got that flat tire *thanks to an ice pick we found out later*, and she flipped out. all you said was "whoa, calm down, we're gonna pull into that deserted parking lot" and to think you weren't even a police officer yet, but boy were you brave!! :) as you were changin the tire (after readin the instructions!), i noticed your boxers had a hole. of course at THAT point, i had no shame. you were so embarassed when i said what is now quoted back to me ALL THE TIME> "Ryan, you should be in the calendar" i'll never forget that year. all three of us *you, shan and i* all had our 21st birthdays at fridays. everytime you saw me after that, you took the utmost delight in asking, "where's the calendar?" i will have that calendar made this year, i promise. i know you'll be watching out for me tonight and always. i love you so much. i miss you. *but you already know that. i hope and pray everyday that you see how much you mean to me.
I LOVE YOU, RYAN SEGUIN. i'll enjoy today, but i'll never forget 11/01/2002.
friends always and forever....

Dana
friend

November 1, 2006

So, I come out here everyday and look at what everyone has wrote you and wonder what I should say. We didn't really grow up together since we lived on opposite sides of the country. But, you are truly missed by everyone. I know you were watching those Tigers this weekend. Damn, they didn't win! But Jesse carved you a wonderful pumpkin of the Tigers logo and left it for you to enjoy. The Seguin women will be getting together soon so have a weekend of scrapbooking everything about your life. This is really important to Grandma right now, she wants everything we all have of you in one big book. I did come accross a funny picture of you, jesse and me the other day. You were probably 4, we were all in these lovely little German outfits that Grandma and Grandpa brought us back from Germany. Damn did we look good:) Well, take care up there, and watch over us, for we truly miss having you around.

Love you, Becky

Becky Seabase
Cousin

October 30, 2006

I miss you son.

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

October 27, 2006

Sir, I am proud to soon be serving in your footsteps. Thank you.

Cadet
Broward Sheriff's Office

October 26, 2006

Family, Friends, & Co-Workers of Deputy Sheriff Ryan Seguin---My condolences to you all for the loss of a great man. I did not have the priviledge of knowing Ryan, but have come to know him through his love, Amanda. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you all. Remember that Ryan will always be a part of those he loved.

Amanda---I am sorry that we had to meet based on the worst tragedies imaginable. My heart breaks for you. Continue to focus on the love you and Ryan shared and the memories you made together. I know how hard this road is to travel. Know that you are not alone....I'm here for you any time.

Take care,
Kelly Gillain
*S/O Deputy Sheriff Joshua E. Blyler (EOW: 5.2.04)
OfficerDownSignificantOthers.com

Kelly Gillain
OfficerDownSignificantOthers

October 23, 2006

I just wanted to tell you how much I truly love you little boy.........to NO END! My love for you will Never Die =) I can't wait to be with you again. I love you baby!

Amanda Bell
Ryan's girlfriend/fiancee'

October 22, 2006

Oh love, I so wish someone would wake me from this incredulous nightmare. Just when so many tell ME that it gets easier.....it all comes crashing right down again. I can't stand who I am without you nor can I stand to be away from you for this long. You were my life. You were everything to me and without a doubt I will stand behind my words one hundred percent. Like I had planned to tell you on our wedding day, 'Til death do us part'. I miss you more and more each day and everytime something new happens or when I visit a place that either reminds me of you or that we would visit, (the pizza hut!!) I get chills and start to cry because all I REALLY want to do is say, "baby do remember this?" I love you ryan, no matter what people may say or what actions may prevail, I love you with all of my heart. I will love you for eternity just as I promised. I know you felt the same but I just wish, hope, pray, beg, etc. that you were here to tell me face to face that everything is going to be ok. I know it's not and it won't be for a LONG LONG time. I still just can't believe that you aren't here on this saturday afternoon watching the wolverines as they do so well this year or tonight when the tigers play. I know that this is their year all because of you and I know you are tickled pink watching them as they play their hearts out all for you, my love. I honestly just wait to be re-united with you, my love, for this life has no purpose for me anymore. I love you and I truly ALWAYS will even if I have to prove it over and over again, I would do anything to have you here to share you life with your mom and dad, and Lori and Earl, and Christine and Leslie and Shannon and Dana! God Bless you always my precious little police boy and tell Fatta and Billings and Chick I said hi and not to tease you because you are definitely NOT a rookie! I miss you baby and I long to call you and beg you to come home to me and mama soph and little (BIG) bedbug! But I know God has you safe and happy at "home" with him. Until we are in each other's arms again, I quote your favorite band Staind "I will be right here waiting for you." I love you little boy =)

Amanda Bell
Ryan's girlfriend/fiancee'

October 21, 2006

Hello there, I just wanted to drop you a line or two to let you know Larry, Eric, and I just got back from Alpena, MI visiting your parents for the last week. It was the most wonderful time. The room they have done for is unbelievable.The cards, and items people and/or your parents have made is something words cannot even explain. You are missed soooooo much and always will be.
You are in my prayers and thoughts everyday.
love ya buddy

Deputy Pallotto
BSO, Partner

October 19, 2006

Ryan, my friend...
things are still not ok. i know it's been 8 months. it just hit me tonite, and i'm sitting here now, crying my eyes out. time doesn't heal everything. i am sure your parents, loved ones and friends know this is true now. there are days i still refuse to believe you are not walking amongst us in this crazy world we live in. i look at your picture, every day, every drive i take, you're my "ride-along" always. we still miss you so very much. it's not easy for your mom, Amanda, Shannon or I. i don't know when it will be.
you know i "visit" you here everyday, i want to see the beautiful reflections that are left for you. everyday, i wonder "why? why are there not a million more reflections for this heroic, wonderful, perfect Broward Sheriff Officer?" i want you to know how truly important and missed you are. keep watching over us, Ryan. we need your love and strength to hold us now more than ever.

love you always, missing you forever..

Dana
friend

October 15, 2006

Son, it's a new month, another season beginning without you. I miss you terribly. I try and keep myself busy but it's just not the same. I met your good friends Shannon and Dana. They are amazing young women and have so many wonderful memories of you. Listening to their stories about you was comforting.
The sentencing was one of the most difficult tasks. I always knew I would be there and speak.I will keep on speaking until changes are made.
I love and miss you my precious son. All my love always, mom

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

October 2, 2006

Hi Ryan -

I miss you!

I wanted to tell you something that happened today. I got home and found a giant package at my door. You mom had sent me a present. It's this silly framed piece of artwork. It's a fruit basket on a table, but it's made out of seashells and mounted on red velvet in this huge frame. It's hysterical! We saw it together in a thrift store in Panama City when I was there visiting. We laughed and laughed about how silly and tacky it was. Then, lo and behold, she went back and bought it for me and it showed up today!

It's a silly thing, but I wanted to let you know about it because it seems really important because she's finding joy and being goofy again. It's so something you would appreciate and laugh about.

She's still full of sad with missing you and we talked about you a ton while I was there. And, I wanted to let you know that even with the sad she's seeing some joy in life.

You would be so proud of her. She's keeping you alive with the Memorial in your name and with the scholarship she sent to Germantown. She's working hard on helping to pass legislation that will make it so that what happened to you will hopefully not happen again. It's amazing.

She's also really feeling everything - she's facing her pain and sadness head on and is more true to her feelings than anyone I have ever seen before.

I'm really proud of her and feel amazingly lucky to have her in my life. Honestly, she's become an inspiration to me and when I start to feel sad or blue or want to hide away, I think to myself, "Geez, this is nothing to what Tina has been feeling and every day she's making that difficult choice, every day, to fight and LIVE and feel!".

I wish you were here to be able to tell her how totally amazing she is. But, since you aren't here to do that, I will for you.

Knowing you, I know you wouldn't want her to be sad. That's why I wanted to tell you that she's getting her goofy back. Just a little at a time. But it's coming more and more and I know that where ever you are, that's going to make you smile. (Ok, you're really probably laughing and rolling your eyes!)

Thanks for sharing her with me, Ryan. I know how much she means to you.

You're the best and I'm so so so glad you are in our lives. Every day I look at your picture and am so proud of who you were while you were here.

I love you - Leslie

Leslie
Step-Sister

September 28, 2006

I will never forget how hard you made me laugh at the MAGTF Chili cook-off. I rememeber us all being so mad about getting stuck on parking lot duty, but we turned it into a hysterical adventure. You are by far the worst golf cart driver ever, but I remember getting my paybacks when it was my turn to drive. I will never forget the look on your face when you and Adam fell off of the back of the golf cart. I laughed so hard that day with you guys, my stomach hurt all night.You were always so much fun to work with.
You were taken from us way too soon, but you will always be in our hearts and memories.
Love, Gina

Deputy Gina Bascone
Broward Sheriff's Office

September 19, 2006

Thank you for your service.

Explorer. LT. J. Gasaway
Lee County Sheriff's Office (FL)

September 16, 2006

Hey Ryan (Jim Carey) I was able to go out with your mom last night. She flew in around 4:00. I have been so scared to write to her but I am so glad I met her last night. She reminds me of you sooooo much. I can see where you got your Jim Carey side from. We picked her up from the air port and took her to her hotel then we went to BCC and I showed her the classroom I would always sneak into to see you. I also showed her your graduation picture and the memorial they have with your name on it, we also went to the marker and we left you flowers, balloons, and pictures for you. Then we went to swigs for dinner. We were all crying the entire night (your mom, Amanda, Dana and I) But it was so nice to see your mom and be there for her. She is an amazing woman. I can see where you got your funny side from. I miss you so much. I wish you were still here and I could tell you how important you are to me. You were so important to me and you still are. I cherish every memory we had together. I told your mom about all the jokes you would play on me, the time you made me trip in front of my entire math class, the time you broke my cell phone at the bowling alley cause you smacked my tush to hard... I always replay in my mind all the memories we had together.. I will never forget you. You will always have a special place in my heart and memories. I am so blessed that I had you in my life for the time I did. I love your mom she is so sweet. Thank you again Tina for everything. We will keep in touch and we will come visit you. Thank you for being so sweet. You are truly an amazing woman. In my heart and prayers is will you will always be Ryan. I love you & miss you so much! I will always talk to you and I know you are watching over me, your Mom, Amanda, Dana and everyone else. Love you & miss you so much Ryan!

Shannon Hoisington
Best Friend

September 8, 2006

hey Ryan, just thinking of you today, we were all out at my mom and dads for labor day weekend and my moms birthday, I am sure your up there watching all of us, probably a pretty good view hey. Well, I'll talk to you later, I love you and miss you.

Jesse Burton
cousin

September 3, 2006

Ryan, the missing of you never leaves me. My heart hurts. You are always in my thoughts. All my love, mom.

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

September 3, 2006

Sir, I honor your service and your sacrifice. "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the children of God." Matthew 5:9.

Daniel
Citizen

August 29, 2006

Hey! I still remember your first day on FTO. You were so excited about going on the road. During our 4 weeks together, I learned a great deal about you but the one thing that stayed in my mind was of how proud you always spoke to me about your dad being a Fort Lauderdale Police Officer. Ryan, we miss you alot in district #8 and we always talk about you. Until we meet again.

Deputy Jesus Manresa
Broward County Sheriff's Office

August 27, 2006

Hey you! I found a home video of you and me at christmas at my house one year. I must have been 3 or so and you had the hardest time saying my name. haha. It was funny. You couldnt have been any older than 10. Even though I really dont remember it that much I watch it all the time. Well I have to go i'm babysitting right now. I love you and I miss you and I no that your watching me.

Claire
Cousin

August 23, 2006

Remember Me

Remember me whenever you see a sunrise
Remember me when you see a star
Remember me when you see a rainbow
Or woods in autumn colors from afar.

Remember me when you see the roses
Or seagulls sailing high in a sky of blue
Remember me whenever you see waves
Shining in the sun.
And remember, I'll be remembering you.

Remember me whenever you see a tear drop
Or meadows still wet with the morning dew
Remember me whenever you feel love
Growing in your heart.
And remember, I'll be remembering you


Thank you to Angel Kalen

Dana
friend

August 20, 2006

He Only Took My Hand

Last night while I was trying to sleep,
My son's voice I did hear
I opened my eyes and looked around,
But he did not appear.

He said: "Mom you've got to listen,
You've got to understand
God did not take me from you, mom
He only took my hand.

When I called out in pain that night,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to His side.

He pulled me up and saved me,
From the misery and pain.
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.

My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within,
All the answers to my empty dreams
And all that might have been.

I love you all and miss you so,
and I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!

And so, you must all go on now,
live one day at a time.
Just understand-
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand."

August 20, 2006

Ryan
I am deepley sorry for your parents and your lose of life. 23 is not an age anyone should have to die ecspecially serving as an officer protecting and serving your communities with your life. I am sure you were an amazing man...because your parents Phil and Lori are truley amazing people. We just got back from seeing then in Michigan and seeing what ALL they have done for you. Your parents love you and miss you and it so breaks my heart to see the pain the suffer because of losing you. Please watch over you Dad and Mom from heaven above because they will need an angel like you to help them through.

Sunny Welker
wife of Ft Lauderdale officer

August 17, 2006

Hey Bud!I can't believe it's been six months. My heart hurts like it was yesterday. I think about you every minute of the day. I cry. I laugh. I cry. Man, I miss you so much I can't stand it. You mean so much to me and it's just not fair that you were taken from us so soon. It's not suppose to be this way. I just wish I could hear your voice and tell how great the Tigers are doing this year and then ask you if you'd come up and go to a game. I want to hear you laugh at the way I say "dolla' or the way I pronounce 'coffee'. Then tease me and tell me how much I sound like Vinny. I also want to hug you again, one last time. This time I'll never let you go.

Well, my son-"All of my love to you, child"

Love you,

Mom-(Lori)

Lori Seguin
Stepmother - Ft. Lauderdale Police

August 16, 2006

Ryan
I have thought about every day for the last 6 months. I'm sorry it took this for me to do that. We all miss you so much and love you!
I have great memories of you when I use to watch you and you were the age that Becky's boys are now. I love hearing all the stories about the great things that you did and wonderful stories from all your friends.
Please watch over all of us.
Love Aunt Kathy

Aunt Kathy
Aunt

August 15, 2006