Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hello there buddy. It's been awhile since I was on this page. Alot has been going on here. We had another leo get shot and killed yesterday. We just can't get a break. I can not waite to head up to Alpena in September for your golf tourni. Oh ya and Lori just couldnt waite to have a drink with me up there and yep I wont be able to again, Eric and I are expecting another one. I know you would've never expected that out of me. This one is putting me through the ringer, but I know you are there for me helping through this. We all miss you alot, there isn't a day that goes by that we dont think or talk about you. You are my hero.
Love ya buddy

Deputy Pallotto
BSO, Partner

August 6, 2008

I miss you so much Ryan!
Nothing has been the same since you were taken away from us. Life has changed in so many ways (Bad & some good). Still I sit and ask why you? I love you and miss you so much. Life makes no sense at times!! I miss you Jim Carey!! I could use one of our "nights out" for dessert and LOLing till our tummies hurt & we were crying so hard cause we cant stop LOLing. I miss you so much Ryan. I will never ever forget you!
Love, Ur Umpa (OLD SIS)

Shannon
Best Friend

July 20, 2008

I love you Bum.

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

July 19, 2008

Hey Ryan. I dont go on this sight much and not sure why i did tonight, but hope your doing good.I guess that memorial stuff kinda got to me. i guess i look at it differntly then others. still think about you and wish you were still here. things sure have changed, or maybe my outlook has changed, but either way. hope you continue to watch over your family. take care

Larry

Larry
BSO

July 14, 2008

Ryan-

I can't believe you've been gone for 2 and a half years now. I think about you often and pray for your family. GHS-TV and the PPP would have been the same without you. Your humor and wit was so contagious and always seemed to make even the darkest situations brighter. Rich and I still laugh about all the fun times the three of us had together. The other day I found this poem and immediately thought of you. I know I will see you again someday, but until then you are still alive in my thoughts and prayers.

AnneMarie Crumby

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.

AnneMarie Crumby
High School Friend

July 10, 2008

Ryan,

Happy 4th of July! I know this is the first message I've left you here, but I talk to you all the time (you know that). I just wanted to tell you how much I miss you. I still can't believe it has been 2 years, time always seems to fly by way to fast. But the memory of that night couldn't be more vivid and clear. I have just been thinking about you so much lately, remembering all the times we use to hang out after the academy and wishing as the years went by, and we got assigned to different districts, that we didn't fade and part as we did. We tend to take for granted what we have and never realize it until something (or someone)is gone. I miss hanging out with you and laughing ALL THE TIME!! But it's great.. that's why we are blessed with memories .. they never fade. I find myself thinking and laughing, even when no one is around. But I know your in Heaven laughing along with me. Every night when I pray, I pray for all of us out there working to come home safe, and I always pray for you to watch over your family and to embrace them with your presence. I know that helps... I've been in their shoes already, and I pray that God gives them all the strength and courage to hold onto your memory and be able to smile. I love you as a brother.. and I will never forget you. I added a new butterfly, and that butterfly is in memory of you. I'll talk to you later. Miss you.

Kasia
Friend / BSO

July 7, 2008

Hey Ryan,
It was 4th of July yesterday. I remember the 4th you spent with Shan, Bry and me at their house. Those bottle rockets were horrible but so much fun. Jonathan and I spent it at our new house with some friends of his, so far I'm ok with Alaska. No promises for this winter though. Hockey is HUGE here, so I'll be sure to catch a game or two just for you. I won't be able to go home to Florida until summer 2009, but I will make a point to visit your marker and say hi. I miss you, buddy. You'll always be my calendar man.
Love always

Dana
friend

July 5, 2008

My condolences to the Seguin family. May God grant you all peace in your personal loss. Deputy Sheriff Seguin did not die in vain.

Civilian/Monica Perez
None

June 25, 2008

Son,
I had a dream the other night. You were about 8 years old and I couldn't find you. When I woke up I was crying. I cried even harder knowing that this nightmare will never end. The missing never stops. I love and miss you. All my love always.
love, mom

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

June 24, 2008

I miss you Bum.
Love, mom

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

May 21, 2008

Ryan,
Happy Birthday, dear friend. So much has changed since you left us, I like to remember the great times we had together, you, me and Shannon. I had potato skins with dinner tonight, in your honor. I still don't see what's so great about them, if I had any on hand, I would've had a Jack and Coke too. :) You know I'm moving to Alaska very soon with my husband, I am very excited about this upcoming stage in our life. Try not to laugh too hard when I bust my butt in my first Alaskan winter. Don't worry, Jonathan treats me very well, I'm the happiest I've been ever. Other than missing you and the gang in Florida, things are wonderful. We miss you.
Love u.
Dana

Dana
friend

May 17, 2008

Well today you are having another birthday in Heaven. Even though you are up there I still will never forget you nor your b-day nor the day you were taken away from us. I miss you so much. I know that you are watching over me and I am so thankful to have you still with me. You and only you know how much I truly miss you. I talk to you almost every night. I ask for your help and for you to just still be with me and watch over me. I hope you see how you still are in my life and no matter what I always find a way to bring you or something about you up. I miss you so much and would do anything for you to be back here with us. But I know you are in a better place and watching over everyone. It still has not gotten any easier without you here. I always catch my self saying I wish Ryan was here to see this or do this with us. Its really hard without you here. But I know you are up there keeping a close eye on me and I thank you so much for that. *Happy Birthday Ryan* I will talk to you tonight before I go to sleep like I always do. I hope you got my gift I sent to you up there! Not a day goes by that I dont think about you or remember all the GREAT times we had together. I miss you Ryan and I will never forget you!

Happy Birthday to you Ryan aka Jim Carey/my tall-lil brother!!!
Ur Umpa misses you Always!!
Love you and Miss you so much!!
I will talk to you tonight!

Love Ur Umpa

Shannon

May 17, 2008

Ryan,
You are celebrating another birthday in heaven. How I wish you were here with us. Your birth was the happiest day of my life. I remember when the nurses brought you to me. I laid you on the bed, unbundled you and counted ten fingers and ten toes. You were perfect!From that day on I wanted to protect you from any harm.
I know you were a good police officer but there is so much more. Being a police officer was just a very small part of your life. You played football and softball and had so many good friends. You took flying lessons and soloed at 16. When you entered highschool drama became your first love. You were in many plays and helped run GHSTV. You traveled to Austria with the drama class. When you returned from Austria you told me how great it was to live in the USA! You also received a scholarship for college for your drama accomplishments. These are just a few of the many accomplishments that you acheived in your short life. You lived life to the fullest.
I met a gentleman yesterday. We started talking and I told him about you. He stated that he was a retired police officer. He told me how sorry and sad he was about your death. Today he came to see me. When he was a police officer he earned the award of "Police Officer of the Year". He received a pin that said "Bravery". Today he handed the pin to me......He said it was for you. I started to cry. It was an amazing moment and a brotherly act. Thank you Officer Rick. I immediately put the pin on. That gesture from Officer Rick was priceless.
Happy Birthday my baby boy! Always know that I love and miss you with all my heart.
All my love always, mom

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

May 16, 2008

Hey Ryan! Just wanted to drop by and say hello. Another year has come and gone. I had the pleasure of seeing your dad and Lori this past week. They came by to see the new house. Sorry I didn't make it to the memorial last week, the baby had other ideas and decided to send me back to the hospital. I wore the memorial t-shirt Lori had made for you all weekend, even to the hospital that night. Not a single day goes by that I dont think of you. I still miss you like crazy. I have a picture of you in the baby's room. As the weeks dwindle down and Baby J is on her way, I cant help but think you are the one watching over her. She wants to come out early. You and I know she has to stay in a couple more weeks. Continue to watch over your family. I miss you and love you very much.

Deputy Kristen Kostrzecha
BSO

May 13, 2008

Ryan,

As National Police begins, we Honor the sacrifice you made along with your brothers and sisters that did the same. We attended the Broward County Police Memorial Service, the National Prayer Service that Sheriff Lamberti and Chaplain Braswell held at the Sheriff's Office (God Bless them both), and the Florida State Police Memorial Service and Candle Light Vigil. They were all wonderful services. Dad and I lit the light for you at the State Capitol. The Broward County Memorial Service will alway be the most special to us. This is where you served and made the ultimate sacrifice. We will be there for you for as long as we live.

We also visited with Jonelle. She sure misses you, and is doing well. She is so sweet. The Aker family has become part of our family and they've been there to honor your life and sacrifice. We also had the opportunity to visit with Kristen and Kari. They miss you terribley as do the guys and gals at District 8. They all have pictures of you on their desks. Vinny and Chief Page and family were also wonderful and supportive at the Broward and State Services. I'm glad you thought of Chief as a role model. He is a person to look up to.

Missing you terribly this Mother's Day. We fly the Police Memorial flag with the American and Thin Blue Line Flag in front of the house this week. We will lower the flags on May 15th. We will again lower the flags at dawn on your birthday until dusk.

You'll always be in hearts. Missing you always,



Love,

Mom- Lori(Stepmother)
Ret. Ft. Lauderdale Police Officer

May 11, 2008

Ryan,
It's another Mother's Day without you. The holidays are never easy. I just try and get through the day. I am so lucky to have Kristine and Leslie. They never fail to make sure that I am taken care of. Also Dana has made sure that a card was sent to me from you. She told me that you were urging her to do this. Dana is an amazing friend.... a true friend.
I love and miss you son. I stand proud to be your mother. As always I will leave my phone on just in case.....all my love always, mom

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

May 10, 2008

WOW! It seems like yesterday that i saw you! i miss you tons and i hope that you are doing well! Well i know you are! But I jsut wanted to come by and say hello and that i miss you and i think of you eveyday!!!
Love you forever!!!

Kyla Brown
Lil sis...

May 7, 2008

Wow it has been a long time since I have been to this page. I just wanted to stop by and tell you that I still miss you very much...it never gets easier...but we do get stronger. Phil and Lori are sooooo amazing. The car that they dedicated to you is unbelievable. You would love it. I know you have seen it as you watch over all of us. You are my Guardian Angel and missed terribly by all that loved you.
XoXo

Jonelle

April 29, 2008

Ryan I know that was you at work behind me, and you made me jump so high! Not funny! lol ok maybe a little now that I know it was you. Good one. Always being so funny. Talk to you later tonight. Miss you.

Danielle Bojanowski
Best Friend/BSO

April 15, 2008

Ryan!
I haven't been on here in a while. Thought I should come by and leave you a little note. So much has been going on as you know. I was thinking about you on my way to my doctors appointment. I drove by the marker and looks like everything we put up has been taken down :-( I hope there is a good reason for that. I was thinking about you yesterday and all the fun we used to have when you would get done working at turtles music, and the oh so many nights at stake & shake. haha! and of course the many many other things we did. The 3 stooges You, Shannon and Me in your red ranger. Remember the night we went to your co-wrokers house from turtle music to watch a boxing match and shannon and I put a bunch of pennies in the bed of your truck among other things (lol shhh) and you were with your old girlfriend in your truck and shannon & I follwed her in car, and you couldnt figure out what the heck that noise was and the mess on your windshield. lol. Those funny moments are what help with you being gone. I miss you! I just pray to you that you can see through everything thats going on down here in this crazy world. I get my results back in 2 weeks and I just hope its not bad news. Thanks for being you and watching over us. Talk to you soon.

Danielle
Best Friend

April 14, 2008

Hi Ryan, So I'm sitting at my desk right now procrastinating like crazy, thought I would stop in and say HI. My first year is almost done and I'm so happy. Although I dont want to leave everyone i'm excited to be moving on. I recently just declared my major which is Criminal Justice, forensic science and a minor in biologoy, I have a lot of work ahead of me I just hope I can do it. I hope your doing well, I'm sure you are. Once again I miss you very much and wish you were around to come to family functions and give me, burker and colin a hard time. I know that they miss you very much. Other than all this I'm very proud of you and can feel you around everyday. Please take care of our family and take care of yourself. I love you

Claire
Cousin

April 8, 2008

Ryan,
I miss you.
all my love, mom

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

March 28, 2008

Ryan, I know you are up there watching me and I hope I am making you proud. In less than a month I will have my BA degree. I wish you were still here to celebrate with me but I know you will be with me every step of the way. Thank you for helping me stay on track and not give up. I couldnt have done it without you upstairs watching and pushing me. I know you have a HUGE smile on your face that I finally finished school. I miss you so much. There are so many things going on that I just wish you were here with me. Places I go, friends I meet; I always talk about you to them. So even if they didnt get to meet you they will know how amazing you were threw me! I'm sure you know Dana got married. I am happy for her but also sad, I feel like I lost her again. I know I promised you I would never loose her as a friend again but this time I cant help it she is in love and it feels like nothing matters but him but I pray you will speak to her and tell her I miss her so much and that it hurts that she is leaving and moving so far away. I wish you were here Ryan I know you would make everything better just by being you! You always knew what to say and how to just make everything go away! I miss you so much and I will see you again one day! And I promise I will never forget you no matter what happens in my life and I will always talk to you because I know you hear me! I love you and miss you so much Ryan! Please keep watching over all of us!

Shannon
Best Friend

March 22, 2008

Ryan, it's been over two years since you left to go to a better place but it is still very hard for me and your mother. Your mother's loss can only be described as a loss to her very soul. I also miss having you around every day. The 22 years you were with you mother there was not a day that went by that you did not put a smile on her face. I was lucky to have you with me for 11 of those years but in that time I am glad I got to instill my values and help you grow into a man. I am thankful that, in some way, my example helped you sort out everything that was important in your life.
I do regret that we had to move around quite a bit and your birth father only got to see you a couple of weeks every summer. I know he would have wanted it differently.
I am very thankful I got the chance to share my life experiences that my father taught me and how he viewed the world. He worked hard all his life which he left to me and I, inturn, left to you. I am especially proud that I helped you see the world in a positive way. Your two sisters also helped you along that path. They taught you to understand relationships by just being around all the time and letting you talk through your most private thoughts. I guess I am the most proud of giving you a strong sense of self worth and treating everyone you met with caring and respect. I also learned from you as I did from your sisters. I got back many times over watching you handle responsibilites and being accountable for your life made you successful in your work ethic and your relationships with others.
Most of all, I saw the affection that grew over the years for your mother. As every year past your love and respect for her was unwavering because you knew how much she loved you and what she sacrificed to give you a wonderful life.
You made mistakes, just like everyone, but as your mother always said, they were just mistakes, nothing more nothing less. I always taught you to learn from them and continue to be who you are. You never pretended to be anyone but yourself and totally disregarded those who tried to be something they are not.
In saying goodbye for now, I am glad you always knew how to find your way home to your mother and me. We were always waiting for you. Now you are waiting for us.

Earl
stepfather

March 20, 2008

Dearest son,
I was looking at a picture of you this evening. Looking at every detail. Your tatoo, your dimples, your smile. Making sure I remember every little detail about you. You are so happy in the picture. My heart hurts that I can't hug you. Whenever I pass your pictures there is a stab in my chest. I know this pain will never leave me until I am with you again. How we all manage to survive such a devastating loss is a miracle in itself. Of course, some days are harder than others.
Whenever there were hard times in our lives I always had you beside me. I knew you were waiting for me or just a phone call away. I wish that I would walk in the door and you would be there. There is a part of me that will never be the same. Everyone tells me there is no pain as the pain of losing your child.
It's a Wednesday night. Wednesday nights are never good for me. It was a Wednesday night when you went to heaven.
I love you my son.
All my love always,mom

Tina Lambert
mother of Ryan

March 19, 2008