Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hi Uncle Shawn,
Well let's see, I have so much 2 say but Im not so sure how to start. First of all, the more time goes by Im realizing that the more I try Im still not understanding at all. It's almost a year and Im still confused. I pray that one day God will help me to understand this more.

I can remember everytime me, Will, Achsa,Fat,Ma,Grandma,Kie,Jeanette,Racheal,and Jo would gather at Grandma's apartment when it was time for you come and have so much fun! I can really remember the time we played grandma's favorite game pokeno! (lol) Carla Jane still cant say her cards right! You and my momma used to get on the phone too early!I woke up by hearing her laugh, or saying cheerios! Oh remember when your plain almost left you how fast you ran, and how much you used to eat and say, (oh i'll just work it off tomorrow).

I look at your pictures and diffrent awards everyday and I cant think, it's all still too much! I am so proud to be your niece seeing all the reflections you had on so many people! I love you and you will never be forgotten.

I pray for you, even though your not here I pray and I ask God to keep you next to him up there, because when you were here, he never took his eyes off of you, and that's why you were such a good person , so kind hearted,believing,caring,and loving. All the ways you had were ways of God and I no he told you he's pleased with you!

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TARA
YOUR NIECE

November 29, 2006

We got through thanksgiving Shawn but its not the same.We miss you so much.Every time we get together we talk about when we were little.All the laughs we had now all I want to do is cry. When will the pani go away. GOD REST YOUR SOUL.

Brother

November 27, 2006

Hi, cousin Shawn
The last time we saw you it was December 25, 2005. We are sorry we didn't spend much time with you.We miss you so much.

Raheem,Jaquelle,Khaliyah,Khadijah
Gina's kids

November 22, 2006

Shawn,
It has been almost a year since you parted us and I still cannot graspe hold to the fact that you're gone. Even though you've left, we, as a family are still holding on to the fond memories we have of you. Who can ever forget that big, beautiful, vibrant smile of yours. You have left a big impact on so many lives. You are such a beautiful person. I guess God knew what he was doing when He chose you, for He chose the best. I know you're in a better place now (Heaven). We will meet again soon. Until then Shawn, you will forever be in our thoughts and NEVER forgotten. We will continue to take good care of aunt Martha........Oh, and thank you for being my guardian angel.

Gina Howard
little cousin from Ridgeland, S.C.

November 22, 2006

Hi SHAWN
Its me sonya. Its almost christmas again and this year we will all gather in your park and light some candles and do It the way Martha's kids do. So I hope no fights(smile) just keeping it real for any other readers who for the most part had a MOTHER FOR YOUR MOTHER AND FATHER. Like we did. We had so much fun growing up with nothing and still came out as some GOD fearing and Loving Adults;most of us anyway. I was wishing for so long what and how can I have you back into my life. Shawn I realized that you never left me at all. when I'm doing things I can hear all of your statements that you use to say. You gave me so much in my life. shawn at the funeral I was almost upset to find that so many people shared the joy that I always had in you. Just to know how many people felt your unselfish and caring WAYS that I thought I was the only one you took out so much of your time giving that to. It was unbelievable..... I love you and as long as im alive you will be alive in me. IM HERE TRYING TO CARRY WHAT YOU TAUGHT. LOVE FOR GOD AND TO LIVE EACH DAY LIKE ITS YOUR LAST. TO ALL OF MY FAMILY; PLEASE, LIVE,LOVE,AND LAUGH EVERY DAY LIKE ITS YOUR LAST. ''IN MY BROTHER'S SHADOW''

Sister, Sonya Carson
loving sister

November 19, 2006

SOMEONE TOLD ME ONE TIME THAT DEATH IS EASY BUT LIFE IS HARD.NOW I BELIEVE THAT.JUST WAKING UP KNOWING YOUR NOT HERE ANYMORE JUST ISNT EASY FOR ME WRIGHT NOW. SHAWN YOUR WERE OUR HERO AND I AM SO PROUD OF THE WAY YOU HANDLED LIFE.I SALUTE YOU.I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU AND I HOPE YOU AND DARLENE ARE TOGETHER WATCHING OVER THE FAMILY.I CRY TO MYSELF SOMETIMES WONDERING AND ASKING WHY LORD WHY.I GUESS GOD HAD A BIGGER JOB FOR YOU.MY LIFE HAS CHANGED SINCE YOU PAST I NO LONGER TAKE LIFE FOR A JOKE AND I TRY TO KEEP GOD IN EVERYTHING I DO.I LOVE YOU DEEPLY AND WE MISS YOU LOVE YOUR LIL BROTHER TOSHE {KIE}

Toshe Ford
Brother

November 12, 2006

Shawn TY is talking about you when we played (you know the game) yes i can't spell it. (smile). I miss you and will talk to you soon. YOUR ACE.

Sister Sonya Carson
Your Best Friend

October 10, 2006

SHAWN IT HAS ALMOST BEEN A YEAR. MY TEARS HAS LIGHTENED UP AND I WAKE UP EVERY MORNING AND TALK TO YOUR PICTURE BUT IM NOT GOING CRAZY LIKE BEFORE.(SMILE) I KNOW YOU WERE LAUGHING AT ME SOME TIMES. BUT THATS OK. YOU AND I KNOW THAT WE CAN ACT (CRACKY). I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND NOW IM TAKING CARE OF BUISNESS. I STOP LETTING OUR FAMILY GET TO ME BECAUSE KI TOLD ME TO CURSE THEM OUT AND YOU KNOW ME (SMILE). i CAN HEAR YOU SAYING S O NY A! AND ITS OK. I ONLY WAS ABOUT TO DO THE WINDMILL ON JOE THAT YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO DO. HA HA HA NOW THEY ALL THINK THAT IM JUST A LITTLE CRAZY. EVEN KI. YOU AND I WOULD BE LAUGHING ALL DAY AT THE WAY THAT I JUST SHOWED OUT! I MISS YOU AND I WILL BE GLAD TO SEE YOU AGAIN. IM NOT AFRAID MY HEART IS FILLED WITH LOVE DISPITE ALL OF THE FOOLISHNESS. I PUT ON A GOOD FRONT SO SI CAN KEEP MY SANITY. YOU NO HOW WE DO IT. MOMMA IS OK. I SEE THAT TAHOD AND LAMONT WROTE YOU. IT WAS TOUCHING.I MET THEM AT THE FUNERAL I THINK THAT YOU WOULD HAVE LIKED THEM A LOT. LAMONT WORDS SEEMS SO SINCERE ITS LIKE SOMETHING YOU ALWAYS USE TO TELL ME ABOUT FORGETTING WHATS NOT IMPORTANT BECAUSE YOUR FAMOUS WORDS. SONYA LIFE IS TO SHORT TO LIVE UNHAPPY. OH SHAWN IM STARTING A NONPROFIT ORG. TO HELP UNDERPRIVAGED KID LIKE WE WERE.(SMILE) YOU REMEMBER HOW WE MADE OUR TOYS BY CUTTING THEM OUT OF THE JC PENNY CATALOG. YOU ALWAYS TRIED TO MAKE YOUR HOUSE BIGGER THAN MINE. I MISS THOSE DAYS. OK I WILL TALK TO YOU LATER ON TO NIGHT. AND ALL THROUGH THE DAY BUT NOT WHILE IM WALKING DOWN THE STREET ANYMORE PEOPLE ARE THINKING THAT IM A BAG LADY. IM GOING TO START HOLDING A CUP UP AND SEE WHAT I CAN GET. HA HA HA . I CANT SAY GOOD BYE SO LATER. SHADOW TELL HORACE AND DARLENE THAT IM OK. AND IT WAS NICE WHEN ALL OF YALL COMFORTED ME I WILL NEVER FORGET IT.

SONYA
SISTER& BEST FRIEND

October 10, 2006

well uncle shawn i didnt know you at all but from hearing all of these reflections i kinda see what kind of man you were

Tashod ford
nephew

September 5, 2006

You are a true hero and will never be forgotten by those that love you, nor will the Family Blue ever let you be forgotten. Heroes never die.

Bob Gordon, father of fallen Chicago Officer
Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

Bob Gordon, Chicago Gold Star Father

August 17, 2006

Officer Carson,

You are deeply missed by family, friends and co-workers. May you rest in peace, Sir! You are not forgotten.

Police Officer

August 4, 2006

Dear Brother Shawn - It is so hard to deal with the fact of losing you. It is even harder knowing that we did not stay in touch. Hearing others speak about you and the gifts that you left behind touched me beyond words. I felt jealous and guilty that others knew you and shared with you when I didn't. I was at work when I heard the news and saw the breaking news on television. I was alone and numb thinking about the missed opportunity of not having a close relationship with you. I later realized that the blessing you left me was giving me the courage to live each day as though it was my last. You have helped free me of unimportant burdens that we encounter in this life. Each and every day I feel your spirit and know that you are watching over me. Know that you have left a gift deep within my soul that cannot be duplicated. We are the same age...we are the same kind...we are the same spirit!

LaMont Carson
Brother

August 4, 2006

You will always be remembered! Thanks for your service.

July 24, 2006

The things I remember most about Shawn is his personality, generosity and BIG, beautiful smile. Shawn you will always be loved and missed by us. You're the hero of the family. I cannot question God and ask him Why? Everything happens for a reason.

Regina "Gina" Howard
cousin

July 20, 2006

I met Shawn in 1995 when I was about 10 yrs old. Him and my father, Officer John P. Allen, worked as partners together at the Emergency Services Unit (ESU) for 10 years. Shawn soon became a part of my family. He spent many holidays with my family and I. He would always have dinner at my house whenever him and my father was given a break from work. Sometimes when my father would stop at the house to check on things, Shawn would allow me to get inside of the police truck and play with the sirens and lights. As often as I would see Shawn, he was always in a good mood. He was always smiling and he always had something funny and positive to say.
Shawn was a fun person to be with. I still about Shawn everyday. I love him and I will always miss him.

J. Allen

Jonelle Allen
He was father's partner for 10 years

June 30, 2006

We will remember our fallen heros. TGIF... Thank God for Firefighters and Peace Officers. I know your pain personally. My God-brother is one of three Firefighters lost in the line of duty who fought a high rise multi-alarmer in which three of Philadelphia's finest including their captain perished back in January of 1991.
: To 'Rise Council and the Carson family along with the family of Robert Nguyen, may the graces of God or Buddah continue to keep you strong. Philadelphia FOP Lodge 5 is here to help when ever needed...

Lennie Jenkins
Friend of a family member

June 30, 2006

COUSIN SHAWN

I miss you dearly man. Its amazing how god works you know. The family will never be the same without you and we love you. Mama is still trying to face the fact that what happened is reality. Her and Sonya still dont think that it was you. I dont either i still look for the day when you call and say "UNBELIEVABLE" I really miss you i can still see you when i close my eyes and i can even hear your voice. No one knew the things that you did for us and we thank you. Thank you for calling and showing us your love when no one else cared. You are truly someone special. Even looking at will becomes hard sometimes, because i see alot of you in him. Thats my boy and because of the things that you taught him he is takin care of. I took it very hard when the news came i was pregnant with my son and that took toll on me i became sick and he became ill because of it. hE HAD TO SPEND WEEKS IN THE HOSPITAL AFTER I HAD HIM. I THANK GOD FOR HIM BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH YOU LEFT THIS WORLD FOR A BETTER PLACE gOD GAVE US HIM. You know people might not understand the seriousness of that situation. I named him after you. We love you and miss you shawn. well see you again in heaven. To aunt martha. Let the haters hate, the spectaters spectate because the always do. be encouraged.

Shawn he even has your eyes!!!!

I love you always

NIQUE
COUSIN

June 20, 2006

Shawn, its me Jairo, it is June and I cant believe your not with me and Phil this summer. I miss you so much man, you have no idea. I wish we would have gone to Vegas like we planned to. I heard about how much you love AC. I miss our days cruising through NYC and our hangin out at the basketball courts in the heights. You are truly missed and I want you to know that I will always n forever miss our friendship. You really were "JC's Finest", and I'll never forget a moment we spent. Your in my heart always. I'll always look up to you! Real Love.

June 13, 2006

Shawn its now june and my birthday is monday. its so hard im wishing that i was with you more and more. tell horace and aunt freddie i said hi. my numness is starting to wear off and i cry every day. shawn whats so strange is i still dont think that it was you. when i see your name printed is when i ask are they talking about my s.h.a.w.n. to see your name is when i feel it. so what am i suppose to do? i can hear you saying sonya you got to be stong,shawn i need help.tell somebody up there that its getting to hard i got to go now people are watching me cry

Your Sister Sonya
My loving Brother

June 2, 2006

God Speed Brother

May 18, 2006

Until we meet again, my brother.

PO Chuck Lauziere
JCPD

May 16, 2006

On April 22nd two gardens were planted in Columbia Park Jersey City NJ in memory of Shawn and Robert by fellow police officers , residents and school children. Formal dedication will take place May 25 at 10AM public is invited . Columbia park is located off of JFK Bvd and lies between Winfield and bartholdi Avenues.

William (Bill) Gent

April 23, 2006

Officer Carson your work on this Earth as we know it is done. You are in God's Care now. May you rest in peace brother....God Bless !!

SGT. Daryl Brewer
Clarksville Police Dept. Clarksville , Tennessee

March 22, 2006

Shawn,
Only you and I know the great times we shared laughing in that ESU truck. I will defenitley miss you. Although I had only known you for a year I feel like we had earned a friendship of a lifetime. I will miss your laughter and smile. You were an inspiration for everyone. "Unbelievable" your favorite word. That's the type of person you were. A great friend, son, and brother. Everytime I hear that word you will be in my mind. I'll never forget you brother. Thank you for the best year of my life. It was an honor to have you as a friend and my brother. God rest your soul. Rest in Peace.

P.O Alex Rivera
JCPD E.S.U

March 19, 2006

To Officer Shawn Carson, his loved ones and his fellow officers with the Jersey City Police Department:

I was so saddened to learn of the death of another young officer in the line of duty. On behalf of our entire family, I wish to extend our sincerest condolences for the grievous loss you suffered when Shawn was tragically killed.

Shawn, please know that your memory is honored and revered today. In reading the many reflections about you,it is obvious you were a person of light who was well-loved and respected.

My heart goes out to your family. You’re in our thoughts and our prayers.
To his mother, Martha: I also share your anguish of losing a son as my beloved Larry was fatally shot during a foot pursuit of two robbers in April of 2005.

To Shawn, you rescued us, saved our possessions, our lives and our families. You are one of the rare heroes among us. You were always there for us in the most traumatic moments of our lives. No matter when we called, we just expected that you would come and do whatever it took to help us, and you always met our expectations. Your selflessness and dedication are awe-inspiring.

This world, this country, your community truly are better places because of you. To have lost you is a great tragedy, an irreplaceable, immeasurable loss for society. We are grateful for and to you, and honor you for all you did for us day in and day out whether you received a word of thanks or praise.

Rest in Peace, Officer Shawn Carson.

This reflection is sent with the utmost respect for the distinquished service Shawn gave to his community and the citizens of New Jersey, and for the supreme sacrifice he and his family made on December 25,2005.

Phyllis Loya, mother of fallen officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05

March 8, 2006