Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hey, well as you know Christmas is around the corner. It still feels so strange have to holidays knowing that you are not going to be with us. Well to fill you in on some things, Hagen is now 16 yrs old. SCARY!!!! I am not that scared because I know you will be watching over him for me... This year at christmas I will not be much fun, I have to have surgery on the 22nd. Don't be too busy that day and say a prayer for me. I do miss you and love you

Merry Christmas Scotty,

Billye Holloway
sister

December 14, 2008

Scotty,
Yesterday, Nov.22 was the thired year that we are without you. Your Daddy and me did not do any thing. We just stayed at home. I don,t know why it has been so hard for us this year, but it really has. It is hard around the holidays. I just keep wondering WHY?????. I know that I am not ask that, but I can not help myself.

WeLove and Miss You

Momma & Daddy

Nancy Neal
Momma & Daddy

November 23, 2008

I still think about you and miss you Scotty.

Trooper II
Texas Highway Patrol

November 22, 2008

My thoughts and prayers are with your loved ones and friends on this third anniversary of your EOW. Continue to keep watch over them and those still out on patrol watching over the Thin Blue Line. You will never be forgotten

James Sheppard
Father of Sgt. Jason L. Sheppard EOW 12/7/06

November 22, 2008

Scotty,

Today is Nov. 16, my 60th birthday. I almost forgot it my self. I would have if Billye had not called and wished me a happy birthday. Not much happen today. We just stayed at home. Billye and Barbara gave me a party last Sat. Everyone came . Cindy and Tracy. Billye and the boys. Everyone from Rice and Palmar came. As I sit here writting this I am crying. Because after Billye called I kept waiting for you to call, but I knew better. But I sure would have lovedit if you did. I think of the birthday card you gave me on the night Felica was borned. I still have it. I know that icrted when I opened it. You and Billye can give me cards that always make me cry. I will colse for now because I am really cryiing now. You and the Lord keep looking down on us.

Love and miss you with all
heart
Momm

NJancy Neal
Mother

November 16, 2008

hey baby,

well, its that time of year again...boy, do I hate it. i get so depressed each nov. i miss you so much. i feel so much resentment towards certain people... i try not to let it show for Tracy's sake. he is growing up so fast and he picks up on so many things so quick. i wish you were here to be the wonderful father he so much deserves. even though you were only in his life a short time you had such a positive impact on him.

you have a few friends here who blame themselves i want them to know i dont blame them. i do have my resentment but, not towards them. they know who they are.

i love you dear...miss you.

cindy neal
wife

November 4, 2008

Scotty,

It’s been almost three years. I’ve started this letter several times I just never can get through it. Each time I break apart thinking about it and what happened that day. I talked with your mom again today and I decided I owed it to you to write this. Scotty this is a letter of apology to you, your family, and everyone that was affected by your death. Scotty, even though everyone from your mother to the investigators tell me that I was not responsible for your death I don’t feel the same. I know I did not pull the trigger but I feel guilty just the same. I was in charge of the training that day. Everyone and their safety was my responsibility and I failed you Scotty. I may not have directly caused your death but I am still responsible. I decided what training we were going to do that day. I set up the scenario. I decided you were going to play the “bad guy” and I decided what positions the team members were going to be. Everyone wanted to go to lunch early but I was the one that said we needed to continue training. Had I just given in to ya’ll and went to eat you might still be here today. This is the burden I will have to live with for the rest of my life.

Scotty, I know there is nothing that I could ever say to bring you back or take away the pain and suffering your death has caused your family. There is nothing I can do to fill that void in mine and their lives. We can never see your goofy smile or here you make those back wood country sayings of yours. I think about you every day. I have your picture taped inside my patrol car. Every time I look at it I think about all the good times we shared. But along with the good times I am reminded of the pain of not having you around anymore. You taught me so much Scotty. From how to be a better cop to being a better father and better friend. For this I will always be thankful. You were a true friend and I will always have a special place in my heart for you. I miss you and hope to see you again one day.

Until then……..


Lee

Anonymous

October 31, 2008

Hey Brother,

Well its that time of year again. Its strange how in such a month of the year that we celebrate Thanksgiving, I dread passing through it and the thought of how quick you were taken from us. I guess speaking for my family, we have adjusted well with leaving the area and starting over in Austin. But, you still have influence. We miss you so much and the times we had together. I can honestly say, riding partners with you was the best. Continue to rest easy and look in on the family from time to time while Im in Afghanistan. I miss you my brother.

Your Friend

Deputy Roy Fikac
Williamson Co Pct 2 Constable's Office

October 29, 2008

Scotty It has been a long time since we have left a refiection to you. But a lot of things has happen in the last 10 months. But things are a lot better now. Next month it will be 3 years since the Lord took you home with him. There is not a day goes by that me and your Daddy don't think about you. Now that deer season is here, your Daddy keeps talking about the time ya'll went hunting he said he wised you wereto go with him Tracy has a birthday in four days. We will be with him and Cindy for his birthday. Speaking of birthdays Trey and me will have one next month. Trey will be 6 years old and I will be 60 years old. I would give anything in this world to here you tell me that I am getting to be a old ass. Son we miss you so very much. They say things get bettr with time,but it has not gotten better for us. I thank the Lord that we have Billyewith us. We hold tight to her and love her so much. Scotty the pain gose so deep in our heartswith out you here, but there will come a day when we will all see each other again. WE love and miss you more as each day goes by Love for ever and ever Momma& Daddy

Nancy Neal
Mother & Daddy

October 9, 2008

Scotty,

Hello Dear....

There is so much to say...but the most important is Tracy and I love you and miss you more each day.


Cindy

Cindy Neal
wife

September 25, 2008

Hey bro, in just two days is Richey's birthday.... Can you believe his old self will be turning the big 40!!!!!!!!!!!!
boy he is getting old... LOL!!! Anyways, mom and dad are doing better, I think they are finally getting to an okay point. Tracey is going to spend some time with mom and dad saturday, that will be good.. He is getting so big... Hey I never told you that Richey bought me an H3 hummer for my graduation present.. I LOVE IT!!!!!! You sure have been on my mind alot lately.. If you only knew what I would give to hear you laugh or give me a hug.... They say when you loose a loved one a part of yourself goes with them, I really think that is true... Life is just not the same and never will be again.. I MISS U soooooo much..... Well I better go, I have now cried all over my computer, not a good thing. Later, Luv u

Billye Holloway
sister

July 18, 2008

i just wanted you to know there is ot a day that goes by that me and the kids dont think about you. I think Sara is finally doing better. I know that you are watching over us. i was in a bad car accident a couple of days ago, and it made me realize how quickly life changes in just a second. i came out of the incedent ith not a scratch which is a miracle. I know you where there with me. i love you and miss you so much.

MERRY
DAMN SISTER IN LAW

June 13, 2008

Guess What? Saturday I am graduationg college. CAN U BELIEVE IT? I can't. I am only half way done. But yea your little sis is walking the stage. I know you will be watching, but I sure wish you could be there for me, I really could use that shoulder of yours to lean on. I keep telling myself it will be okay, but I am trying to hold back the tears. I know god needs you, but I guess i am selfish, but I need you here. Well this is getting too hard, I will talk later. Bye Love you

Billye
sister

May 8, 2008

Hey man!! I sure do miss you. I can't believe that you would have been 35 on your birthday. Well guess what your little sister has done it!!! I am graduating COLLEGE, can you believe that. My graduation is May 10, I sure do wish you could be there. I will getting my associates degree in elementary education. I know you can't be there physically, but you will be there in spirit. Yea it's funny at 28 years old I am finally getting a college degree and Trey has his preschool graduation all in the same week. Trey has gotten so big and so has Lewt. Trey will be 6 and Lewt will be 16 (OMG!!!!). Oh yea Richey got a promotion at work, he is now lieutenant for Navarro County, boy I hope they knew what they were doing LOL!! Well I miss you and love you.

Billye
sister

April 16, 2008

HEY SCOTTY WERE DO I EVEN START I REALLY MISS YOU ALOT AND HATE EACH HOLIDAY THAT YOU ARE NOT HERE TO SPEND WITH US... I MISS ALL THE TEASING AND MOUTHING THAT WENT ON AT THE FAMILY GATHERINGS.. WELL THE KIDS ARE DOING GREAT ME AND FELICIA WAS JUST TALKING HOW MUCH SHE MISSES YOU AND SHE WISH YOU WERE HERE.. PAIGE IS DOING GREAT MEAN AS EVER STILL MOUTHING (LOL)... KINDA LIKE YOU ALWAYS TEASING SOMEONE. AND STEVEN IS STILL RIDING (919) YOU WILL NEVER BE DONE RIDING.. HE WAS TALKING THE OTHER DAY AND WANTED TO MAKE SURE THAT HE HAD YOUR NUMBER 919 LOCKED IN FOR THE NATIONALS AND WE TOLD HIM NOT TO WORRY HE WILL RIDE 919 FOR AS LONG AS HE WISHES.. I PROUD TO KNOW HE THINKS OF YOU THAT MUCH AND WAS WANTING TO HONOR YOU THAT WAY.. FOR ME I'M DOING GOOD I EVEN WENT BACK TO SCHOOL I KNOW WHAT YOUR THINKING OH HELL YOU HAD A HARD ENOUGH TIME THE FIRST GO AROUND WELL I THINK I NEEDED THIS FOR ME AND I'M HAPPY DOING IT SO WHILE YOU SITTEN UP THERE LOOKING DOWN ON ME JUST GIVE ME A HAND EVERY NOW AND THEN DUDE.....I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALOT AND I KNOW PEOPLE DO BUT SCOTTY I AM YOUR COUSIN AND I KNOW I PROUD OF EVERYTHING YOU DID IN YOUR LIFE WITH WHO YOU MARRIED, CINDY I LOVE HER AND SHE WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR FIRST WIFE AND ONLY WIFE AND THIS SIGNTURE THING OF THE WAY PEOPLE IS SIGNING THERE NAME IS NOT ONLY DISRESPECTFUL TO YOU BUT ALSO TO YOUR WIFE, SON AND FAMILY IF THEY LOVE YOU AND RESPECT YOU AND YOUR WIFE THEN THEY NEED TO SIGN THERE NAME A LITTLE DIFFERENT AND SIGN IT WITH THE RESPECT YOU AND YOUR WIFE AND SON HAS EARNED SO TO WHO EVER READS AND SIGN A REFLECTION JUST THINK OF THE RESPECT THAT SCOTTY AND HIS FAMILY HAS EARNED

LOVE YOU ALWAYS
919 STILL RIDES

Stacy Raney Little
cousin of Mexia ,Tx fallen officer

March 4, 2008

Just had to leave a quick note and tell you that you are remembered. Each day Kuper, Kennedy and Kealen ask about you or look at your pictures and remember a funny story. I remember the time that I caught you teaching Kennedy to eat her buggers. Well, you must have taught Kuper in his dreams. He is a PRO!!! Kealen and Kennedy are doing well in school and ask about Tracy. I have gone to work for Groesbeck PD and I know that you would have had something to say about that. It works out better with our schedules and the kids. Lee is still struggling with not having you. I find him sometimes still picking up the phone to call you and then just quietly hanging up and distancing himself for a while. We are not the same without you. I miss Cindy more now then ever. It's garage sale season and I want to go play bingo. Please let her know I think about her. Well Kuper is attacking the girls so until the next time we talk ......

Love you and miss you

x o x o x o x o x o

Autumn
Your 2nd Wife

March 3, 2008

"The Badge"

He starts his shift each day
To respond to calls unknown.
He drives a marked patrol car.
A police officer he is known.

He's paid by the citizens' taxes
To make it safe on the streets.
But he usually has a second job
'Cause a waitress has his salary beat.

Now he doesn't know a holiday
'Cause he works all year round.
And when Thanksgiving and Christmas finally arrive
At his home he cannot be found.

He's cursed and assaulted often,
The one whos blood runs blue.
He seldom ever gets a thanks,
To some he's just a fool.

His friends are always other cops
'Cause people just don't understand
That underneath his badge and gun,
He's just another man.

He knows there might not be a tomorrow
In this world of drugs and crime.
And he gets so mad at the court system
'Cause the crooks don't get any time.

And each day when he leaves for work,
He prays to God above.
Please bring me home after my shift
So I can see the ones I love.

But tonight he stops a speeding car,
He's alone down this ole' highway.
It's just a little traffic infraction.
He does it everyday.

Well, he walks up to the driver's window,
And his badge is shining bright.
He asked the guy for a driver's license,
When a shot rang through the night.

Yes, the bullet hit its mark,
Striking the officer in the chest.
But the Department's budget didn't buy
Each officer a bullet-proof vest.

So he lay on the ground bleeding.
His blood wasn't blue - His blood was red.
And briefly he thought of his loved ones
'Cause in a moment the officer was dead.

In the news they told the story
Of how this officer had died.
And some who listened cared less,
But those who loved him cried.

Well, they buried him in uniform
With his badge pinned on his chest.
He even had his revolver,
He died doing his best.

Written By:
David L. Bell
Sergeant
Richland County Sheriff's Department
Columbia, South Carolina
Used with Special Permission of the Author
Copyright © 1999 - All Rights Reserved
and may not be duplicated without permission

Investigator David L Bell
Richland County Sheriff's Dept., Columbia, SC

February 14, 2008

Hey Boyfriend, just wanted to stop by to tell you that I miss you so much, sometimes when I'm at work I just look out the window and think of you coming to visit Cindy and to bug me.. LOL, I also remember the day you brought Tracy over to meet me, I miss him and Cindy too. I will never forget taking him out ridin in my Yellow Bug, I had so much fun with him. I will never forget you and him coming by to tell me that he was about to start playin T ball and that I was TO COME TO ALL OF HIS GAMES, sorry I didn't get to :( well this note is gettin long and I know you have million others to read. Please watch over me! Miss ya and Love you Lots!!!

Raquel
Girlfriend

January 29, 2008

hey scotty its me and i just wanted to say hi and that i love you and miss you very much! i had surgey dec.14 had to have two hernias removed! just wanted to say thanks for watching over me. i was really scared. well i have to go for now and i will talk agine soon
love you always!

Felicia Little
cousin

January 13, 2008

Scotty,
You are so missed. it is everyday that Sara, Tyler and I think of you. When you left us not only did Cindys life change all of ours did. Sara misses you so much and it is hard for me to help her because I dont know how. She writes
to express her feelings so I wanted to leave this for you.....


PAIN IS JUST THE BEGINING

One tear, why couldnt that be all that was shed? But insteadhundreds of sorrows flow frommy eyes, and memories of the past flood my brain. the fate full day flashes through my mind over and over like a broken record. only playing the bad parts continuasly skipping the good. like a nightmare you have every night haunting your inner being and carressing your heartbreak and pain.
Not all the pain is bad, the good overwhelmingly good pain does have its moments to shine the little things. happy visits and merriful holidays break through the heartache at times. but eventually the little glimmer of happiness is recovered by sorrow and grief until you just give up and fall to pieces, hundred of pieces each missing a different part of him. until the miserable day when you pick up all the pieces of your broken soul and tape themback together so that you seem strong and coregais infront of the others. You dont mention thenameand you dont mention the incodent. I smile keeping a happy face on and becaome part of the big broken family that ismissing one key member.

We love you Scotty, and miss you so much.

your loving damn sister in law

Merry

Merry ( sister-in-law)

December 4, 2007

Well sorry I have not left nothing in awhile! Thanksgiving was kinda hard. It was not the same with out you there. We didn't even play crazy eight, but anyway it still wouldn't be the same! The whole time I was thinking about you and tried to get my mind off that, but it was just sooo hard!! I wore my scarf because it reminded of th time you tied my hands up on Thanksgiving that year!!(haha!!) I would not take it off untill I went to bed. Just know that I love and miss you Scotty!

Felicia Little
cousin

December 3, 2007

rest in peace hero

vandenberghe
nh

November 29, 2007

We love you and miss you!!!

Cindy and Tracy
wife and son

November 23, 2007

On the 2 year date of your death, we are thinking of your family and friends. You were a true hero and will not be forgotten...

November 22, 2007

My thoughts are with all of your loved ones today on this 2nd anniversary of your EOW and it falling on Thanksgiving Day. You will be in the thoughts of all of your loved ones today as you are every day but today will be a little harder for them. Continue to keep watch over all of them and protect them. You are a true hero.

Bob Gordon
Father of Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

November 22, 2007