Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Brian you were a great cousin, I Learned a lot from you, I miss you terribly and I think of you daily, you will always have a spot in our harts.

Josh Matthews
Cousin

May 15, 2006

Well I finally got my transfer back to Fayetteville. Been here for about 2 weeks now and it is so hard. Work is fine just one thing missing. Miss all the old days of riding the dirt roads, hanging out and hunting season is right around the corner. So nice to be back home but Eastover just is not the same as it was when I moved. I still remember our conversation as I was driving to my new duty station in the mountains. The tears that day easily came out and today and everyday they seem to come unexpected. I miss you brother and everything you brought to everyone you came in contact with. All your hard work came through with the Meth lab intel you were gathering and giving me. Tonight is Jarrod's prom, so proud of him, our little brother is growing up. The memorial service the other day was very touching and a pleasure to attend. Wish I could go to DC this weekend but I'm on call. Take care of yourself. I Love and Miss You Brother!!

Special Agent Chad Royal
NCSBI

May 12, 2006

Hey Brian!! I just wanted to say that I think about you from time to time and I wonder how your mom and dad are doing. I see Jarrod a lot but I really can't tell how he is..I guess he's doing good. Everyone still misses you like crazy...And we all love you very much! I know that you are looking down on all of us!!!!

Samantha Bradshaw

May 11, 2006

Yesterday we honored you at the memorial in front of the courthouse for the county's service. It was good to see your parents, brother and Jennifer plus your aunt and uncles and other family members again. We shared a few laughs and a few tears. This weekend your family and a bunch of others are headed to DC for the national service. I wish I could be there but I think that since I am serving on the Memorial Honor Guard at the state service I should let others go to DC.

These services are hard. Hard on us who were there that day, hard on everyone who listened to the radio traffic and most of all hard for those who were closest to you. As I stood behind your family on the podium, with a pebble stuck in the taps on my right shoe making a loud crunch each time I shifted my foot the slighest bit, I felt so proud. I was proud of who you are. You touched the lives of so many and it was nice to see all those who came to honor you and the others.

I'll write more soon. Matt is starting to cry.

S/SGT Hurley
Cu,mberland County Sheriff's Office

May 11, 2006

Brian,
Man I’m am so sorry I haven’t wrote to you sooner. I just wanted to make sure it was rite. As you know I’m going with your family to DC for the Police Officer Memorial later this week to honor you and all the other heroes that wear blue. I want to thank you Brian for what you were trying to do. I can’t get the sound of the crash out of my head. At the time it sounded so minor. That day has changed us all forever. I miss working with you. I remember everyday running 10-82 behind you, following cause you knew the fastest way to get to the calls. I have to fight calling in everyday; it’s just not the same anymore. You family has taken us all in as their own and are the strongest people I know. I see where you got it…. Thanks for being a great friend, partner and hero. You are 10-8 forever…

Hef.

Dep. H.Hefner
CCSO

May 8, 2006

Hey Brian,

Hey was just thinkin about you the other day I am back working the east side again and rode by your parents house just to check on it and started thinking of the short time we had to get to know each other and that how much we had in common. I know every time I go to River Rd. and Callie Rd. it is hard for me to sit there and talk to anyone without thinking of the times we would talk about work and other things ....but mostly gripe about work. Well I did it I got married almost two months ago now and everything is going good. Well man I will talk to you later we both miss you and think about you every time I put on the uniform.

Dep.K.Dickinson
CCSO

May 5, 2006

I love you and miss you more that words could ever say!!!!

May 5, 2006

Brian,
I look for you,
when the door opens.
I expect to hear from you,
when the phone rings.
I want to buy things for you,
when I'm out shopping.
I want to call you,
but don't get an answer.
I want to share my day with you,
but you're not here to listen.
I want to hug you and tell you how much I Love you and please be careful,
but your not here for me to touch...
I pray to God this is just a bad dream,
but its not.

I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU!!!!!
Mom

Mom

April 10, 2006

Brian,
My wife and I were in New York this past weekend getting Matt baptized at her childhood church. It was a great moment for us and I was proud to tell my wife's extended family about the person that Matt is partially named for. Like my brother mentioned in another posting we think of you each time we get in our cars. Your picture is on Steves dash and I have the same image as a screensaver on my MDT. I need to run since Matt is crying on my lap but I'll write again soon.

Sr. Sgt Hurley
Cumberland County Sheriff's Office

March 7, 2006

I would like to send a letter to heaven
and address it to the one I love.
My child has left this world,
to be with the Lord above.

I would tell him that I love him,
and that I miss his loving touch.
I would say we're lost without him
and we miss him -- oh so much.

I would ask if he could visit,
if we promised not to cry.
Maybe one more time to see him
We didn't get to say "Good-bye".

We will try to control our emotions
we truly feel we could.
So please -- we need a visit.
We promise we'll be good.

It is so hard, we miss him.
Oh Lord, this feeling is the worst.
We know you gave him to us,
yes, we know you had him first.

But you called him prematurely,
I'm sorry I question your will.
I know you have your reasons
but Lord -- I miss him still.

If you'd only make an exception
please consider what we plea.
It is so hard accepting our son
-- We will never see.

Oh baby I write you this letter
with all the love there is to be had.
Because it's just not me who's hurting
there's your brother and your dad.

We need so much to see you,
then we'll try to let you rest.
But if not in this world, baby,
then we'll see you in the next.

So I'm sending a letter to heaven,
and pray you hear my plea.
But if the answer is not what I'm asking --
Lord come and rescue me!

March 7, 2006

Brian,

I'm sorry it took me so long to write. My biggest regret was that I wasn't able to come home and say good by when you left. Just know that as I sit here in this middle eastern desert, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I'll see you soon brother.

SSgt Chris Collazo
United States Air Force

February 26, 2006

Brian,
Just wanted to let you know brother, that I think about you everytime I get into my patrol car. You are not forgotten.

Trooper Hurley
North Carolina Highway Patrol

February 15, 2006

I've never known hurt so bad.
I wake each morning always sad.
Will this pain ever go away?
I ask this, but know its here to stay.

I see his smile and miss him so much.
My heart is heavy, I feel crushed.
He was my precious son.
He cannot be replaced by anyone.

February 15, 2006

Brian,

It's been awhile now and I just wanted to tell you that I still think about you man and that all is going well. I am actually going through with the wedding it's not that far away. Just wanted to tell you that I think about what we talked about all the time man. Well I will talk to you later and me and my family think about you all the time. " talk to you later cheif"

Dep.Kevin Dickinson
Cumberland County Sheriff's Office

January 27, 2006

Brian,
My son was born this weekend. He will carry part of your name so that we may treasure your memory each time we see him. I hope and pray that you watch over him in the years to come. He's still in the hospital, 25 days premature, so I have not yet had the chance to tell your parents. I'll be sending them a card in a few days when all is settled down. I miss you buddy.

Sr. Sergeant Hurley
Cumberland County Sheriff's Office

January 25, 2006

Brian was a fellow classmate of mine at Cape Fear Sr. High. I will miss you.And when the time comes, we will be reunited in heaven.

Johnothan Layne

Mr. Johnothan Edward Layne

January 23, 2006

Two days ago I was having a good morning.Them I reached for my phone to see how your day was going.It was to be your day off.It has been 101 days.

Your platoon has become a part of our family.They spent Christmas day with us.We all miss you. Sharing stories and reminiscing has helped us through the worst days.It would be a joy if you can hear just how much you were admired by your fellow officers and friends.

I am proud if the work you have done. Even in your short time as a patrolman you touched the lives of everyone.Maybe some day I will become the caliber officer you have become.

Your are my first born,my best friend , my fellow law enforcement officer and my right hand.You can not be replaced.I love you and miss you. USE THE WINGS YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN.

DAD

Patrolman R.L. Matthews
Spring Lake P.D. NC

January 11, 2006

It's so hard to believe that he really is gone. You're brother is so proud of you Brian.And I know you will always be looking out for him and everyone else. God Bless You! A-14 still 10-8

Samantha Bradshaw

December 8, 2005

Brother Matthews,

May the road rise up to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back,
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
And the rains fall soft upon your fields,
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of His hand.

Respectfully,
You’re Brothers in Blue

Untouchables Law Enforcement Motorcycle

December 2, 2005

We are so sorry to here about your tragic loss of a loved one in law enforcement. Our thoughts and prayers go out to you in support. As we personally know, sometimes there is little comfort that comes from words. Keep focused as you can on the memories and joyous times for these things may bring you comfort. Rely heavily on family, friends, and other law enforcement. Honor your fallen loved one, for their sacrifice will not be forgotten.

Alissa Scott
Widow of Wayne Scott
E.O.W. 09-10-02

Lisa Schultz
Widow of Don Schultz
E.O.W. 05-12-03

Co-Founders of Survivor Help Network

November 28, 2005

On 10/06/05 Boston Police Academy RTG 42-05 remembered Deputy Sheriff Christopher Brian Matthews and dedicated our training day to him.

You are not forgotten.

Boston Police Academy RTG 42-05
BPD

November 22, 2005

The Meth Lab that you were working on in your last few days was taken down on November 2nd. Your efforts helped lead to the seizure of one of the largest amounts of meth in the State of North Carolina's history. As always, good job Brian.

Sr. Sergeant Matt Hurley
Cumberland County Sheriff's Office

November 9, 2005

Thank You for your service.

Ofc. S.L. Coffman #15174
California Highway Patrol

November 7, 2005

I grew up with Brain and we went to school together from the ages of 5-18. If remember correctly we were even in the same kindergarten class! I simply cannot believe he is gone.

Brian was small in stature but his heart was just HUGE. He was honestly one of the nicest people I've ever known. He was a great guy; kind of quiet but once you got him going he was really funny! I hadn't seen him in years but what I most remember about him is how much he loved his family. He was so protective of his mom and little brother.

Brian you will never be forgotten--we'll always miss you. Rest in peace buddy

Sarah Brown

November 1, 2005

As a former Deputy of CCSO, I was truly hurt to hear of his passing. I worked with him indirectly at CCSO and like all others at the office, I knew he had my six! From all that I have heard from the Deputies that knew him well and on a personal basis, I wish that I had known him better. May God bless his family, friends and all that knew him well.

Special Agent C.C.Thompson
DHS Federal Air Marshal Service

October 31, 2005