Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

(I can't believe I haven't posted a message here until now! OOPS!)

Terry was probably the most kind-hearted, charming and inspirational person I have ever met. He was a true friend and I will miss him terribly. How blessed we all were to have known and loved him. The impact he made on Baton Rouge -- and on me -- will live on as his legacy and his life will continue to inspire us all. Rest in Peace, "T"...

Donna Vicari Borne

March 27, 2006

Thinking about you and missing you so much my baby. I love you with all my heart and soul. I cannot wait until I see you again.
Eternally yours,
Lynn

March 26, 2006

Thinking about you and missing you so much my baby. I love you with all my heart and soul. I cannot wait until I see you again.
Eternally yours,
Lynn

March 26, 2006

Terry,
Today is 03-16-06 just thinking about you and missing you like always. I love you with all my heart & soul my Ba By. I am so proud of you.
***John 3:16***

Eternal Love,
Your Fiancee'

March 16, 2006

Hey My Baby,
I'm sorry it has been a while since I have left a reflection for you but I have not had computer access since I have moved. I will have it again soon. I have been in Florida the past couple of days spending time with the Jess duo. The three of us are having a wonderful time, but we miss our blue angels dearly. We are having a great time sharing stories and photos of you, Dan, and Cole. Everyone says that our complete love for each other is so obvious in our photos. I agree with them. I was the happiest when we were together, and I know that I will never be that happy until we are together again one day in Paradise. I love you and miss you so much Terry. I am so thankful for John 3:16 and the promise of seeing you again when my deed is done here. Thanks again for leading me to GA Jess and FL Jess they are awesome, and they have both been an incredible source of support and encouragement. I love you with all my heart and soul sweetie.

Eternal Love,
Lynn

March 14, 2006

terry,

i can't wait to hear more about you from your precious lynn. i know you have been right by her side the last week helpin her thru this tough time. i can't wait to meet her in person and have some time for us girls to relax and leave behind the troubles and stress that we live with each day on our own. from what i know you were a lot like my cole and florida jess's daniel. i hope you boys are stayin out of trouble. stay with lynn especially as she travels to see us. can't wait to meet you in heaven!

~ga jess :)

March 5, 2006

Hey Terry -
Thanks for being the wonderful angel you are! :) I know that you were keeping Lynn safe in her accident last week. How scary but I know you were there -- it just reminds me of that song "Jesus take the wheel." Terry, we cant do this on our own in the world -- Lynn is depending on you and GOD to show her the way! Don't leave her for a single second please, she needs you so, so much. You are her angel from Heaven. Protect and guide her.
Thanks, :)
Jessica Ruhl
Fiancee of Police Officer Dan Starks
EOW 10.25.03

March 2, 2006

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY MY SWEETIE!!!!!!


Terry, I just wanted to wish you a Happy Valentine's Day. Another special day arrives and of course we cannot share it together. I KNOW that you are with me always, but I wish I could touch you or kiss you. It would be bliss just to see your gorgeous smiling face. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. I keep thinking back to how we shared Valentine's day last year. It was so awesome. I would NEVER have imagined that we would not have another one together. Well, my Ba By I'm bringing you a card and some roses. I know that you are not there, but just letting you know that I'm thinking of you ALWAYS. I found the perfect card for you.

YOUR CARD:
Remember When We First Fell in Love?
Just the other day, I was thinking about us and what it was like falling in love with you. I can't help smiling each time I remember it...and I remember it like it was yesterday. I remember when saying good-bye for a few hours seemed like an ETERNITY. I remember watching the clock and counting every minute till we could be together again.(That was exactly us!!) But most of all, I remember that feeling, that "butterflies in the stomach" feeling, that only falling in love can give.
Memories of those yesterdays are a special part of the love we share today. Because of them, I know that love becomes more beautiful as it grows. I love our yesterdays...they painted a beautiful background for all of our tomorrows.
author unknown

***I believe this was the perfect Valentine's Day card for you sweetie. I will see again in Heaven,and we will continue to share our love for ETERNITY.
I'm sure you are probably enjoying some Snickers cheesecake right about now!!!
Eternal Love,
Lynn

February 14, 2006

lynn,

i know you've passed yet another marker on this pathway back to our angels... i wish i could say 'i can't imagine' but unfortunately i know all too well the pain that this deck of cards brings with it. i'm sorry we've been playing phone tag and haven't been in touch more often here lately. please please know that i am always thinking of you and praying for you every single day. i hope you are finding some peace in the little things. keep putting one foot in front of the other. trust me, after almost 3 years i'm still trying to figure it all out. i know you know that. anyway, i can't wait to see you and get to hang out in person!!! i am totally psyched about our adventure to florida!!! hope to talk to ya soon!!!

love~
ga jess :)

February 13, 2006

Hey My Ba By,

The 10th is here yet again. It has now been six months without you. Just as I feel the pain of missing you could not possibly get any worse, the pain deepens and proves otherwise. I still cannot imagine the rest of my life without you physically by my side. The past six months have been torture, and I know that was only the beginning of the struggle for us. I would do anything to have back OUR LIFE TOGETHER. But, I am well aware that is not a possibilty. Atleast not at this time. I know I will see you again in Paradise. I look forward to that moment. Terry, please continue to bless me with your presence. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. FL Jess sent me an awesome poem that totally expresses my feelings for you my sweetie now and always...

SAY TERRY

The time of concern is over. No longer am I asked how I am doing. Never is the name of my fiance' mentioned to me. A curtain descends. The moment has passed. A life slips from frequent recall. There are exceptions...close and comforting friends, sensitive and loving family. For most, the drama is over. The spotlight is off. Applause is silent. But for me, the play will never end. The effects on me are timeless.
Say Terry to me.

On the stage of my life, he has been both lead and supporting actor. Do not tiptoe around the greatest event of my life. Love does not die. His name is written on my life. The sound of his voice replays within my mind. You feel he is dead. I feel he is of the dead and stil LIVES. YOU SAY HE WAS MY FIANCE', I SAY HE IS.
Say Terry to me and say Terry again.

It hurts to bury his memory in silence. What he was in flesh has now turned to ash. What he is in spirit, stirs within me always. He is of my past, but he is part of my present. He is my hope for the future. You say not to remind me. How little you understand I cannot forget. I WOULD NOT IF I COULD. I forgive you, because you cannot know. I strive to not judge you, for yesterday I was like you.

I do not ask you to walk this road. The ascent is steep and the burden heavy. I walk it not by choice. I would rather walk it with him in the flesh. I am what I have to be. What I have lost you cannot feel. What I have gained you cannot see.
Say Terry, for he is alive in me.

HE AND I WILL MEET AGAIN, THOUGH IN MANY WAYS WE HAVE NEVER PARTED.
He and his life play light songs on my mind, sunrises and sunsets on my dreams. He is real and he is shadow, He was and he is.

He is my fiance' and I love him as I always did.
SAY TERRY TO ME AND SAY TERRY AGAIN.

author unknown


Sweetie, you are the love of my life.
Eternally Yours,
Lynn

February 10, 2006

Terry -
I am so excited that Lynn is coming to visit me in March. Her and GA will be so much fun to hang out with. I know you will be right along with her as she is traveling. I want you to know that I am not thankful for the way me and Lynn have become friends..because it took you and Dan dying to let us meet. But I am thankful that we met in order to provide support on the good and bad days. Please help Lynn..she needs you.
Thanks Terry -
- FL Jess
Fiancee of Police Officer Dan Starks

January 15, 2006

You were only an hour away from me,wish I could have helped you and your fellow officers.Now you are serving under the greatest inforcer of all,god bless your family for he has already blessed you.

Deputy Al Toups
Tangipahoa Parish Sheriff's Dept.

January 13, 2006

terry,

so yesterday was yet another "anniversary"... hard to believe that they come so quickly. i'm so sorry for not checking in on lynn. terry, i know how hard it is for her all too well and i just hope that you and everyone who loves you sees her dedication to you and your love together. please continue to watch over her. she still needs all of your strength. your family needs you, too, i'm sure. i can't imagine their pain and heartaches. please tell my cole hello. i miss and love him just as much today as i did almost 2 years and 9 months ago.

love,
jessi :)

January 11, 2006

HAPPY 32ND BIRTHDAY TERRY!!!

I love you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
much my Ba By. Hope you are having a great birthday celebration in Heaven. We celebrated for you here but I know your party in Paradise topped our earthly celebration. Please let me continue to feel your presence. I love you with all my heart and soul. I know someday we will be able to celebrate birthdays and holidays together again.

Eternal Love,
Lynn

January 9, 2006

happy birthday terry!!

please wrap those loving arms around lynn today and always!!

can't wait to meet you! hope you guys are having a little birthday party in Heaven!

love,
jessi

January 9, 2006

Hey My Ba By,

I wanted to wish you a Happy Anniversary and tell you thanks again for giving me the best time of my life. TERRY, I LOVE AND MISS YOU SOOO
MUCH. I'm sure you are enjoying your light from FL Jess! It is really awesome! I know you are loving the yohoo and ding dong from Christie as well. I cannot wait until I see you again my sweetie. Thanks so much for your sign. "The wages Jesus offers are the joy of working for him and seeing the harvest of believers. The wages come to sower and reaper alike because both find joy in seeing new believers come into Christ's kingdom" John 4:36
I'm so thankful for every moment we shared here, and for the eternity we will share one day...

I LOVE YOU MY SPECIAL AGENT MELANCON!!
ETERNALLY YOURS,
LYNN

January 6, 2006

No matter what comes my way or how crazy things may get, it helps me to know that God is in control, and I'm not. He is always right and I'm going to trust Him."
D. Rizzo "Turning Points"

January 2, 2006

Terry,

I just had to share something with you and so many others. Yesterday at church Pastor Dino said,

"YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT A YEAR
WILL HOLD FOR YOUR LIFE;
THEREFORE, YOU BETTER KNOW
WHO
HOLDS YOUR LIFE".

I think that is so powerful and so accurate. We all became painfully aware of that truth at 3:16 p.m. on August 10, 2005. And unfortunately I know so many others sadly learn this lesson everyday. I will forever be grateful for the way you lived your life, and the strong faith I developed through knowing and sharing love with you.
I Love You,

Lynn

January 2, 2006

Terry my love,
It is January 1, 2006. Thank you so much for helping us get through the holidays. It definitely has not been easy without you. I know you are looking down in total awe at the legacy you have left behing here on this earth. Pastor Dino wrote his first book, and it is called Turning Points. I felt in my heart that I had to buy this book for a couple of people. Of course, it is a really awesome book, and you don't need me to tell you that. I didn't realize just how much it would touch me until I turned to page 32. There I read how honored Pastor Dino was to minster at your service. He went on to say how, "it was such an incredible opportunity to minister to your family as well as to share the gospel of Jesus' love with the ENTIRE community that was hurting". He also wrote, "Jesus showed up in those hours as we honored a hero and told about Terry's testimony for Christ". Baby, we could not be more proud of you...it is not possible. Also, BRPD dedicated their academy class in memory of you. Their flag has a picture of you on it, and it reads, "We honor our fallen angel". It is really awesome, and they presented your family with a replica on Friday. You have touched more souls than we will ever know. We love you and will forever be proud of you, and what you have accomplished in 31 short years.
I love you for eternity.
your little girl always,
Lynn

January 1, 2006

Baby,
Please help me get through this day. I miss and love you so much. It is New Year's eve and we are about to start 2006 without you. The pain in my heart is almost unbearable. And the pain continues to grow each day that I'm here without you. I'm doing what Jess says, I'm putting one foot in front of the other each day. But, it is not easy. Thank you sooo much for sending Jess squared my way. They are both incredible women. I know you, Dan, and Cole are having a blast in Heaven, but will you'll please continue to help us girls stuck here. The LeeAnn Rimes video for "probably wouldn't be this way" was just playing, and can I say a sea of tears. :( But like she says, had I not loved this much; it wouldn't hurt so bad; probably wouldn't be this way...
Ba By, I'm so thankful God blessed me with you for a little while. I'm so grateful we were both blessed for a little while. I am so honored that you chose me to spend your life with. I love you with all my heart and soul. I cannot wait until I see you again.
Eternal Love from your priss,
Lynn

December 31, 2005

Terry,

Thank you for sending Lynn my way. I know that was the handiwork of you and my angel, Cole. Keeping wrapping your arms of love and strength around her, and thank you for helping her through the last couple days. People don't understand how difficult it is to spend Christmas wishing you had the love of your life by your side. Thank you for watching over Lynn and your family. I know the pain is unbearable right now. You, Cole, and Daniel are probably having an awesome time right now, but we girls just miss you guys so much. Hope to meet you in Heaven!!

Love,
Jessi Garger
Cole Martin's fiancee

December 26, 2005

Merry Christmas my baby. I'm getting through this day by the hardest. All I can think about is how I want you here, and how we should be together celebrating with our families. To think that this is just the beginning of the journey without you rips me apart. Then I remind myself of where you are, and I get some comfort knowing you are in Paradise. But, I cannot help wanting you here. I just want OUR life back, but I know that is not a possibility. I keep telling myself that this seperation is only an instant in the eternity of love we share. That is what keeps me going. Merry Christmas sweetie. Your family, friends, and I love and miss you so very much.

ETERNAL LOVE,
Lynn

December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas Terry! Keep Lynn close to you this day and your family too.
Have a good time celebrating in Heaven!

Jessica Ruhl
Dan Starks Fiancee

December 25, 2005

Hey my sweetie,
It's Christmas Eve and I'm trying really hard but this has been an extremely tough day. I know that you are in Heaven preparing for the biggest celebration. I know that we cannot even begin to imagine how awesome of a time you are having in Paradise. But, I can't help missing you and wishing that you were here with us. I thought about you all day (I guess that is no different from any other day), and what we would be doing together. I'm trying to stay focused on something your mom said. She said, "one day we will all be together again, and have Christmas for eternity." I thank God for that knowledge. Terry, you are so loved and missed. Ba By, Please give us the strength to get through the rest of today and tomorrow. Please let your presence be felt by all those that love and miss you dearly. I love you with all my heart and soul.
Eternal Love,
Your little girl, Lynn

December 24, 2005

WHEN I GET WHERE I'M GOING-BRAD PAISLEY
When I get where I'm going
On the far side of the sky
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly

I'm gonna land beside a lion
And run my fingers through his mane
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain

(Chorus:)
Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I'll leave my heart wide open
I will love and have no fear
Yeah when I get where I'm going
Don't cry for me down here

I'm gonna walk with my grand daddy
And he'll match me step for step
And I'll tell him how I missed him
Every minute since he left
Then I'll hug his neck

(Chorus)

So much pain and so much darkness
In this world we stumble through
All these questions I can't answer
So much work to do

But when I get where I'm going
And I see my maker's face
I'll stand forever in the light
Of his amazing grace
Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
Hallelujah
I will love and have no fear
When I get where I'm going
Yeah when I get where I'm going

Merry Christmas Terry
LEO fiancee and friend of Peter Grignon EOW 3/23/05

December 24, 2005