Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

It's coming up on the worst day of my life again ! !! We miss you just as much today as ever ... Things are so different now ..Wish you were here to see them all.. Your grandkids are adorable , I think you would be having fun with them. Connor is very athletic ...any sport with a ball ...he plays ..as for some of the others......Trevor is in the Air Force Reserve ...Carrie is in Austin ...Tanner is chasing girls and playing ball....the twins have grown into very beautiful young women...One thing I know for sure ...that little Kendal would have you wrapped around her little finger...Keep watching over us ...and smiling .....I appreciate the coins and feathers ....love ya always ....

Maureen Tutino
Mom

January 23, 2014

I went my old Wells Fargo branch today and my first thought was of Nick. You must be so proud, him following in your footsteps. He is an amazing young man, he made such a positive impression on my daughter that she still remembers him and uses him as a guide as to how boys should act. (She meet him when she was 11 now she is 18). Thank you and your family for that! I am truly thankful to you, your brother and your son for the sacrifices made to protect and serve. May God bless and keep your family safe.

Shari Gold

August 5, 2013

I think of you every single day ...Just spent a week on a cruise with a bunch of the other parents..we talked a lot about our kids and how much we miss you all... wish you were here smiling at your grandchildren...giving me a bad time about something .... waiting to see Nick get married .... and all the other things going on in our family .... Tony misses you a lot as does Jill ...our family is just so broken without you and your smile ... I hope it is true that we do meet up with those we love when we leave here ....till then help us all get through the days and nights without you ..we will always love you and you are a part of all of us ...never forgotten ....

Maureen Tutino
Mom

June 27, 2013

Just wanted to say hello and hope your still smiling ear to ear. I never knew the influence you would have on my life, even if your not here on this Earth with us. I love you dad. Never stop blessing our family and your fellow Brothers/Sisters of law enforcement. 2658 Forever!

Deputy Tutino
LASD, Son

May 30, 2013

Happy Birthday my son ...we miss you just as much today as we ever did ....we really missed you at your sister's wedding party on Saturday... your grandson Carson stole the show with his dancing....you knew Mark in high school and you would love him ...wish I could hug you today and hear you ask "what's up Mom?" hug my little Mommy for me as well as Dad and bro Jeffrey D. Carson smiles like you ...so you keep smiling and show him how ..we love you forever.

Maureen Tutino
Mom

March 7, 2013

"Fallen but not forgotten, these are the heros that stand so tall, And forever we will remember, with honor and glory they gave their all."

Thinking of you and your family during this anniversary week of your e.o.w and praying for solace for all those that love and remember you for both the pain and pride are forever.

Phyllis Lasater Loya
mom of fallen Pittsburg (CA) officer Larry Lasater

January 27, 2013

Continue to keep watch over all of your loved ones, protect them from harm. Not a day has passed since you were called away have they not thought about you. The first thought when they awake each morning is of you and the last thought they have before drifting off to sleep at night is of you. Memories forever etched in their heats. They will never let you be forgotten.

"Loving memories we will never forget,
Sadly missed along life's way,
With silent thought and deep regret,
We think of you every day,
No longer in our life to share,
But in our hearts he's always there."
(Author Unknown)

Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

January 26, 2013

Thinking of you Maureen & the Tutino family. I know what that hole in your heart that can never be filled is like. We will NEVER FORGET.

Jo'Nee Cochran, Spouse
Det/Sgt Tom Cochran EOW 1-26-05

January 25, 2013

we are fast approaching the worst day of my life and this is so awful for me and the rest of the family....we all miss you so ...I keep your smiling face beside me at my computer. we all will be together to remember you on Saturday ..we will always love you .keep smiling my son .Watch over us and hopefully one day we will all be together again .

Maureen Tutino
Mom

January 25, 2013

CHRISTMAS AGAIN ....WISH YOU WERE HERE ...MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU ....

Maureen Tutino
Mom

December 23, 2012

I just have not had the heart to write above your brother ...it is such a beatiful tribute ... but I guess someone has to do it ...eventually ...!!!! we all miss you so very much . This is the time of my Blue Funk Blues ...it usually hangs out until your birthday ...So much has happened since you left us ...some good ...some bad ... but the fact that you are not here is the worst . I would give anything to have you back. Through the COPS organization , I am trying to help others through their grief. Please help us all get through these Holidays again. Keep Smiling my son ........Hug my Mom,Dad and brother Jeff for me ......Love ya as always

Maureen Tutino
Mom

November 27, 2012

Jim,
I have not posted in a long time cause I talk to you in my own way. I'm sitting around while camping with some of the family and friends reflecting and you came up. I felt maybe it was time to post again. In a lot of ways, in your death, you made so many of us better human beings. In your name we have helped so many kids, but mostly it made our family members, especially me, a better person. I think, actually I know, you would be proud of us. Your sons are great people, my son is serving his country, and I continue to try to make everybody around me a better person. I work with the kids every day, coaching baseball, or mentoring them at my work. We all miss you very much and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I always try to think, what would Jim have done in this situation? God bless and I will see you again, just not now. I still have work to do. Love you,
Your bro,
Tony

Deputy tony Tutino
Ventura county sheriff office

August 3, 2012

Missing you dad.. Keep the smiles and blessings from above. I love you... 2658 forever!

Deputy Tutino
LASD, Son

July 31, 2012

I have been thinking about Jim a lot recently, and of course Rita and the children whom Jim would talk about and tell incredible funny stories about...in some ways, I feel like I know more about you than many people do. This site is a great reflection of the tremendous influence Jim had in his life, the love he shared, and the relationships he helped to nurture which are still growing stronger. God bless all of you Tutinos!

Karl Zierhut
Former Head Coach, Simi Valley High School

July 25, 2012

I know how your Dad will feel on Sunday without you being here. I also know he would trade places with you in a heart beat if he could so that you could be here with your loved ones. I would do the same. It should be our children mourning us, not the way we are mourning our lost sons. Continue to watch over your parents and all of your loved ones. I'm leaving this poem for both of your parents, wrap your wings around them and help them with their grief

Eyes to Heaven, by Joy S. Mixon

Eyes Raised to Heaven
Searching for any Signs of You

Eyes Raised to Heaven
Embracing You

Eyes Raised to Heaven
Communicating my love to you

Eyes Raised to Heaven
Remembering your love and gentleness

Eyes Raised to Heaven
Remembering your courage, strength and determination

Eyes Raised to Heaven
Remembering how you celebrated life

Eyes Raised to Heaven
Treasured memories of our time together here on Earth

Eyes Raised to Heaven
Knowing you are safe and happy...free of pain forever.

bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

June 15, 2012

we are coming up on Father's Day and I know how much your sons miss you and wish you were here.. as do I . Your grandchildren would be loving you a lot . Your father will miss your call on that day. He has not been the same since you left us . We all love you and wish you were here with us physically...and hoping you are in spirit ...keep smiling

Maureen Tutino
Mom

June 12, 2012

another Mother's Day without you ...it never gets any easier . You would be loving those grand kids of yours... Carson especially ...he is always smiling that smile of yours and loves everyone ... He is such a charmer...... Connor is tuning into a cool little baseball player with a pretty good arm and Kendal would absolutely have you wrapped around her little finger..we all miss you so very much . this trip to Sacramento ..I heard more Jim stories... 2 women deputies who worked with you told me that you were the best man they ever knew and that the inmates cried when this happened to you . you left a huge hole in a lot of hearts. we love you and keep smiling my son.

Maureen Tutino
Mom

May 16, 2012

A most blessed holiday to you and your family. I know at dinner today that stories about you will be shared and laughes and some tears will go with those precious memories. I ask that everyone that knows you, especially your close friends, share memories with your loved ones and not be afraid to talk to them about you. Maybe this short poem will help them understand those feelings:

Love Song: To Hear Their Name

The mention of my Child's Name may bring tears to my eyes,
But it never fails to bring music to my ears.
If you are really my friend,
Let me hear the music of his name!
It soothese my broken heart and sings to my sould.
(Author Unknown)

Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

April 8, 2012

Maureen (& family)…a thousand apologies for my error in my last post to you. I can only say I have a "one track mind" in that my grief revolves around losing my spouse (my other half & the love of my life) EXCEPT for my kids. Maureen in No Way can I imagine it being my. Child. God bless you…I. Am truly humbled @ my error and sad part is, I knew he was your beloved son…i can only say I operate on a brain clouded by grief…I truly apologize for it & wish you & ur family only the best. Maureen I know the feeling. Of grief (extreme) & pride, but. Will never claim to know how how you feel. I just want you to know how much your thoughts of us mean & you are appreciated! Thinking of you tomorrow on ur birthday. Your son will NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. Sincerely…Jo'Nee

Jo'Nee Cochran
Spouse of Tom Cochran

April 7, 2012

We are having a party tomorrow to celebrate my birthday ....the only thing missing will be you .. you will be in my heart though ..Life has not been the same and I know it never will be normal again....I miss you so very much. It is bittersweet to see Carson smile ...and he does that a lot , but the smile is you .... we all love you ....and miss you my son ...keep smiling

Maureen Tutino
Mom

April 7, 2012

Thinking of you a lot today. Keep giving us your blessings from above. I love you. 2658 forever!

Deputy Tutino
LASD, Son

March 31, 2012

Happy Birthday to you. I wish you could have enjoyed a taste of retirement as you surely earned it after serving the amount of time you did in law enforcement. Continue to watch over all of your loved ones for I know they miss you dearly and that their waking thought as they start their day is of you and the last thought they have before drifting off to sleep at night is also of you. You will never be forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

March 7, 2012

I will be thinking of you all day Tuesday... happy birthday my son .....I miss you everyday ... I would give anything to be able to hug you again. We just posted the Scholarship again ...Tony said this will be 23 and 24 kids we have helped in your name ... I know you would be proud of us . It is a joy to help these kids. ...love you ..keep smiling

Maureen Tutino
Mom

March 4, 2012

Maureen,
I read your reflection (and all the others you so graciously left) for our family and want to thank you & express my sincere gratifude to you for always thinking of us. I visit your husbands site also and have no excuse other than "there are no words"…and I know you understand. However, you manage to let us know that you are thinking of us and I want you to know we do the same and appreciate you so much. We have a connection through this tragedy (one we of course never wanted) but I am humbled at your amazing posts. I have not missed a year in DC and hope to one year soon meet you during our stay. I pray for your family's healing as I know this pain never goes away. I also pray that the man who brought you this pain gets what he deserves…and that is the true "life" sentence he has imposed on you and your wonderful family. Just know how much you have touched us through your thoughtfulness and I thank God for this site. All we have as you know is to ensure our loved ones are NEVER FORGOTTEN. Thank you for touching my family so deeply.

Jo'Nee Cochran, Spouse
Tom Cochran, LPD EOW: 1/26/05

February 3, 2012

I am a few days late in posting this reflection. I know those that love you will forgive me as they know how hard it can be to come here to read or post reflections. Know that you will never be forgotten and will love in the hearts of those that love you dearly. I'd like to leave the following for your Mom for I know the daily struggle she deals with for I walk in her shoes. Continue to wrap your wings around all of your loved ones to protect them and help with their grief:

"The sense of loss does not diminish with time. In truth, the expression 'time heals all wounds' is a myth. For parents, the loss of a child is permanent and mental scar tissue really does not grow over the grim memory. Rather, all tears are expended and a dull ache remains."

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

January 31, 2012