Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Today Cody was talking on his little phone while we were driving. He said "Hello...mommy's here...I miss you...bye". I asked him who he was talking to and he said "Daddy...I miss him"

I miss you too.

March 4, 2008

Lasater family:

Just thinking about Larry today.... He is surely missed, and his friendship was and remains appreciated.

I hope that you are finding some peace. You are in our prayers.

SA
Friend

February 29, 2008

LOVE YOU ALWAYS
I'LL MOURN YOU ALWAYS
THANK YOU FOR THE YEARS WE SHARED. I REPLAY OUR LIFE OVER AND OVER SO I'LL NEVER FORGET. I DON'T WANT THE MEMORIES TO EVER FADE.

CODY IS SUCH A MIXTURE OF THE TWO OF US. WHEN HE'S UNSURE OF HIMSELF...THAT'S ME. WHEN HE'S CONFIDENT AND DARING...THAT'S YOU. TODAY HE WAS TRYING TO MAKE OTHER KIDS LAUGH AND HE REMINDED ME OF YOU. HE DIDN'T CARE IF HE LOOKED FUNNY...AS LONG AS HE GOT A LAUGH.

February 23, 2008

LL,

I think of you throughout each day, but you have been in my thoughts more and more lately. The kids are starting to ask so many questions. It's so hard to try and explain that somebody so evil took you from us. Diego wants to be a soldier when he grows up and asks that God bless "Uncle Larry", all the Police Officers, and all the Soldiers in the world each time he says his prayers.

I will be up north soon to visit with you and to see your family and the guys. It sounds like Cody is growing up so fast. Somedays I hate being so far away. I miss you everyday.

John

John
Friend

February 6, 2008

Jo Ann,

Thank you, for continuing to share your's and Cody's life. I enjoy reading how Cody is growing and the many different ways in which he expresses himself. Children really are more aware of the things around them as well as our feelings then we often think! I believe Cody and Larry do have their own special way of communicating. As I am sure you and Larry are able to do. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you both.

January 31, 2008

Cody talks about you more and more. I handed him his cup of milk and he told me that daddy made it for him. He's saying "want daddy alive" or "daddy alive" at least once a day. I think he likes my reaction because he'll get this sweet little look on his face before he says it. I always am so touched and I guess it shows so he's been saying it more. We were listening to music in the car and he kept telling me "better one" with each song so I had to go through until I found the one he wanted. The song he wanted to hear was "Letters From Home" which was one of your favorites. After we listened to it I told him that you loved that song. He got a big smile on his face and he told me to play it again.

He's becoming such a big boy. He's able to stay at the gym child care now. I only leave him for 45 minutes and I've only done it a few times but he keeps saying he wants to go back.

We went to a Warrior game because they were doing a tribute to fallen officers. Your picture was up on a big screen. Cody thought the basketball court was really cool and liked the big crowd there. I just felt depressed seeing all the other family members of officers there and thinking that this is our life now. Cody was so good there all I kept thinking is that you would probably be taking him to baseball, football and basketball games. He would've been your little buddy. He could go to things like that with you and then be my little shopping buddy.

I've been thinking so much lately about what you would want for me. I know that you'd want the same for me as I wanted for you if I had died first. I remember what I told you I wanted you to do but I wish that we wouldn't have started joking around so you would've given me a real answer so I'd know for sure. I can't believe we had that conversation just a month before everything happened.

Miss you

January 25, 2008

Dear Larry, you dont know me, but I just wanted to say that you're not forgotten, not only by your family, but by the general public also, whom you served and sacrificed for. I attended your funeral at the pavillion in 2005. But today, I still remember you and appreciate everything you did as an officer. I must say it breaks my heart to read the reflections on this page posted by your family. They continue the sacrifice everyday with out you. Im very close with my father and can't imagine what it would have been like growing up with out him. Your family really is strong. I hope you rest in peace Larry... I also hope the vicious coward that did this to you pays dearly for it.

John G.
Alamo,CA citizen

January 25, 2008

I know that there is an ache in your mom's heart daily,as there is in mine.In reading the many reflections left;you wore your badge with a great deal of honor and courage.You did a fine job during your watch.Your mom left a wonderful reflection for my son Ranger Mike 815.I thank her from the bottom of my heart,and for you in your service to our great country.Rest in peace Larry.Say hi to Mike for me.
Mother of Michael Beaulieu eow 8/26/1996

Deborah L. Beaulieu
Mother of another fallen officer

January 20, 2008

I stopped by and saw you the other day. I always intend on talking to you when i go up there, but i never can get any words out...i just stand there, silent. I can't wait for Luke to be old enough so I can take him up there and have him meet you and look up to you as he grows up. I think about you everyday Lar...you constantly are inspiring me and I miss you so much!

Les Galer
Pittsburg PD best friend

January 19, 2008

Hey Sir,
Yesterday I was out watching my Companies train for our upcoming deployment to Iraq and I started talking about you and how tactically and technically proficient you were in the field. I can't even picture you without you being all dirty, needing a shave, and having not one, but two radio handsets stuck up in your helmet. The best Platoon Commander I have seen, and I've seen a lot. Believe me, that is tough to say to a Tanker! But it is true nonetheless. Thinking about you in the old days made my day, thanks. God Bless your Wife and Son, and your Mom too. I'll always appreciate her support during the "hazing" days. We'll talk about that another time...

SgtMaj Walsh
USMC

January 14, 2008

Hi Larry,

So they follow in your footsteps... eager to become law enforcement officers as they continue to honor your memory. Just last Friday (January 4, 2008) I had the honor of pinning Vanessa Rocha's badge on her chest when she was sworn in with the San Diego County Sheriff's Dept. Alex Martinez from Class 14 was sworn in as well. Next month is Taylor Gillis' turn. I couldn't be more proud. Watch over them and let your courage and enthusiasm for the job fill thier hearts as it did yours.

Thinking of you and your loved ones...

Shanon Dreyer, Supervisor
Palomar College Police Academy

January 10, 2008

You would be so proud of Cody. He is so smart that it is amazing the stuff that comes out of his mouth! He was over the other night and we have been having terrible weather. I told him that as soon as the rains stopped he could ride Buck again. He said, 'Ride Buck now'. I told him that Buck had rolled in the mud and he was too muddy to ride. He replied back, 'Just wash him!'.

Joseph has chosen the name 'Michael' for his confirmation name after the patron saint of police officers. That's for you.

Joseph also received his drivers permit. The DMV gave him the paperwork to fill out about organ donation. He asked me what he should do. I told him that that is his decision. He did not hesitate for a second and he signed the form. I thought you would be proud of him.

Louise

Louise
sister-in-law

January 8, 2008

There's nothing that I want more than to spend this New Year's eve with my two favorite guys. I can just picture putting Cody to bed tonight and then sharing a few drinks with you. I miss sitting and just talking to you for hours. How did we never run out of things to talk about?

Cody did make Christmas bearable this year because he really got into Santa and I couldn't help but enjoy seeing him so excited with all his gifts.

Love and miss you always

December 31, 2007

You are in my thoughts all the time Larry!!

Officer Donald Pearman
Pittsburg Police Dept

December 30, 2007

Hi Larry,

I just wanted to take a moment while my trainee is typing (Multi-tasking FTO that I am! LOL) to wish you and your family a Merry Christmas and let you know that you have been in my thoughts especially during this holiday season. In the midst of the Christmas craziness I decided to submerse myself in actually going out and going shopping. I wore your sweatshirt from the motorcycle rally and I can not believe how many people were drawn to it and complimented it. I have worn those sweatshirts so many times in the past with no response or reaction from anyone. Christmas spirit must have been in the air, bc people wanted to know about it and you. I thought it was kind of neat......

I am sure you must be proud of your Class 14. I just saw Rocha and Gillis at Class 15's graduation and I am sure you are aware that they both got picked up with the SDSO. They are such good girls. Please watch out for them and keep them free from harm. I know you will..... ;) I also ran into Davis and he is in the process... Kind of neat that I saw 3 of your recruits in such a short time frame.

Well, I should get back to my duties.... I just wanted to let you and your family know that you were on my mind and I just wanted to stop by and say "Hi." Merry Christmas!

R.AKANS #1354
ESPD/PCPA

December 26, 2007

Merry Christmas Larry.

T.

December 24, 2007

Merry Christmas Larry, Joanne and Cody...

You are dearly missed Larry....

December 24, 2007

Today we were on our way to the cemetery and Cody said "Mommy alive" and then he said "want Daddy alive too". I couldn't believe it. I've never talked about being alive and when we talk about you I've never said that you're not. I tell him that you're in heaven with God. I don't know where he got that. I felt like he really felt you today. He told me just now that he wants daddy to have all the presents. Then he started talking about Santa. I told him that Santa will bring him gifts and there will be one special gift every year that will be something that daddy would want to buy him. I bought him a really nice police station and that will be from you. It's so sad to see his little face when he talks about you.

Well, we're actually going to church. Big step for me since I've been avoiding it.

Tomorrow is Christmas. I miss you so much.

December 24, 2007

It's Christmas Eve and Yaniza and I are getting ready to go to the cemetary to bring you flowers. The holidays are so tough without you. I remember how I used to have every room in the house decorated for Christmas, this year I only have my candle for you. Part depression, part health problems. We will celebrate Christmas at James' tomorrow, it will be great seeing Seth, Cody and Sage enjoying Christmas, You are forever on my mind. A few weeks ago within two hours I had ran into two of your high school friends. Those memories were like yesterday.
Cody is so excited about Christmas. He is beginning to talk in sentences. Last week he told me "Ama. The kittens are asleep. Wake them up." He can't quite say grandma so he says Ama. I told Jo Ann it's so cute that I just want to remain Ama.

You are my heart always, my beloved son.
You are my Christmas dream.

Mom

December 24, 2007

Merry Christmas Larry, Jo and Lil Cody.

Best Wishes From,
APD Family

December 21, 2007

Jo Ann & Cody, Wishing you a Merry Christmas............ and a safe and happy "2008". I hope 2008 will bring you much happiness and peace.

December 21, 2007

We had Cody over a few nights ago. He was helping us put up the Christmas tree. The Mickey Mouse Christmas ornaments were his favorites. He put them all together in one spot on the tree. We have a few star shaped Christmas ornaments and everytime he would see a star ornament, he would say, 'Wishing on a star!'.

Louise
Sister-in-law

December 19, 2007

Cody is saying new things every day. Today out of the blue he said "I speak spanish". I was cracking up...where did he get that? When I tell him something he'll say "idea mom" as in good idea. He also puts his hand on his little chin and says "hmmm...idea...I know!...tools" which means he has an idea and it involves his tools. My favorite thing he says right now is "cuddle you" when he wants hugs. I'm working on getting him to sleep in his big boy bed. Ron and my dad put it together and I just couldn't wait until Christmas. He loves looking at it and sitting on it but so far he hasn't wanted to sleep there. The nickname you gave him after that first ultrasound sure fits him. He's such a peanut. He's so little and cute. He's like this little ball of energy. You'd love this age...every day is an adventure with him. We're going to start parent and me soccer. Seth and Lenore are going to be in the class too. I know you would've loved taking him to that. Maybe you and your brother would've done it together. I always think of what should have been. It's torture but I can't stop thinking of how different life would be right now. I guess I'm not at the acceptance stage of grief and I don't think I ever will be.

Love you

December 17, 2007

Jo Ann, Reading your last message once again brought tears to my eyes and prayers to you to continue to be strong and believe have faith. I just know, I believe it will it has to get easier one day. You should not have to live your life forever with this pain. Thinking of you and Cody and hoping that you are well and making the best at this time of year. Watch your baby and continue to know and feel Larry he is with you. This is the time of year to have faith and to believe.

December 13, 2007

Today would have been your 38th birthday. I can't believe this is the third birthday you've missed. I was imagining Cody waking you up with "Happy birthday daddy" and giving you hugs and kisses.

I went to the cemetery today and as I was sitting there I heard bagpipes off in the distance. I thought it was my imagination at first. After a few minutes it started again. It grew louder and I really felt that it was a sign from you.

Miss you so much. It gets harder each day without you. I would give anything to be able to tell you happy birthday.

I love you

December 12, 2007