Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Jesse, it has been awhile, but you are certainly in our thoughts today, as all the times we think about Carin and the kids, and the weber grills and the number 56 (you'd be surprised how often that number shows up, weird) so while I may not come as often as I did, you have never been forgotten Jesse. You have missed so much, but know the kids are amazing, Carin is an amazing mom, you married a great woman Jesse, and know that you are thought of, and remembered, you always will be. in our thoughts forever . . .

Easton PD Wife

March 25, 2013

Carin,

I was reading through old posts on my husband's page and came across yours. I wish I would have replied sooner. As you know, grief is a lonely beast. It is difficult to reach out when you feel you have nothing left to give. I want to thank you for the kind words that you left. I am humbled that my words touched you. I have read your husband's page, and I see so many similarities in what you have written. My fervent hope is that as the years have passed, you are happier than you expected, and that your memories bring you solace. I am sure that Jesse is so incredibly proud of you and your journey of living, loving, and remembering. God bless.

Yvonne Sawyers-Swanson
Wife, Mark Sawyers EOW 6/5/04

January 12, 2013

Jes,

Merry Christmas, thinking about you as always.
Im very sorry that you have missed yet another Christmas.

Mike

Mike

December 28, 2012

Hey dude, Happy Birthday!!

I think about you every day and …

PoPs :-)
Father

December 4, 2012

Hey Jes ~

You've been gone over 7 years now.

7 years is a very long time - too long, because I realized some troubling things over the past few weeks. I realized that I can't remember the sound of your voice anymore, at least not like I used to. And I can't remember what you smelled like, or the feel of your hand on mine. I can't remember all the details of your face, or what it sounded like when you laughed. So many things that were so familiar to me 7 years ago are just fading away.....

Time is both a gift and a thief. Time has allowed my heart to heal and dulled the pain of losing you. But time has also blurred the edges of my memories, taking away so many details of you and of our life together. I wish so much you were still here, Jes, living and enjoying your life, your friends and your family. Everyone still misses you, and sometimes the wounds seem as fresh as they were 7 years ago.

Yes, 7 years is a very long time. But it’s still just the beginning of all the things you are missing and will continue to miss. Your life was stolen from you, and no matter how many years go by…..7, 10, 20......it will never stop being wrong and unfair, and it will never stop breaking my heart. But although many of the details are getting difficult to recall, YOU – and the sacrifice you made - will never be forgotten.

You are always on our minds and in our hearts, Jes. Happy anniversary in Heaven.
Always and Forever,
Carin

Carin E. (Sollman) Radogna
surviving spouse

April 30, 2012

Another year has passed and it is time to once again leave a reflection to say that your memory will always be honored and revered. You have been missed every day of the last seven years. So many of our lives were altered forever in the year 2005...many of us then started on this same journey as a police survivor.

I am sure you continue to watch ovrr Carin and your son and daughter, and I know you feel joy when they feel joy and sorrow when they feel sorrow. Your precious love for them will always be there to sustain them. they are all in my heart's embrace today.

Semper fi and rest easy, my friend.

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05

March 25, 2012

Once again the anniversary of you being called away has arrived. I know there have been many thoughts of "what if" and one can go crazy doing that, but we all do it. Keep watch over your loved ones and keep them safe as they continue on lifes path. You will never be forgotten.

Just as the Proverb says: "Good men must die; but death cannot kill their names."

Bob Gordon :(
Father of Fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

March 25, 2012

Jesse, tomorrow will mark the 7th anniversary since you were accidentally shot and killed. Wow, time has a way of a whole lot, healing wounds for one, allowing those who were impacted by your life to pick up and move forward for another, but it also gives us all the opportunity of reflection, and no doubt you are reflected on, your spunky spirit is remembered by so many. Your death came too early, to a young man with young children, just figuring out life. I will never forget that day, and I will never forget the ultimate sacrifice you paid, and we, as a family, will never forget you.

Easton PD Wife

March 24, 2012

Thinking of you and all of your loved ones on this very blessed holiday. You have not been forgotten. Continue to keep watch over those two beautiful children.

Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

December 24, 2011

Hey Jes ~

It's hard to believe that Christmas is here already, this year has really flown by. Jacob has been asking all kinds of questions about Santa (like does he shop at Walmart, because there were barcodes on his presents last year), so Michael and I decided to tell him the truth. He was a little teary initially, but since then he's been fine. Savannah finally confessed that she knew several years ago that Santa wasn't real, but didn't want to say anything because she was afraid she wouldn't get as many presents!! She's pretty slick. I'm just glad she didn't spoil it for her brother.

So this is a different Christmas for us this year - some of the magic and wonder is gone, now that they don't believe in Santa anymore. But it's alright.....we are filling our holiday with new family traditions that we can continue with the kids even after they are grown.

And they will be grown before we know it - Jacob will be 10 next month (no more single digits!!) and Savannah will be 13 in January. THIRTEEN!! I will be the mother of a teenager!! They are both such wonderful and amazing kids Jes, I know you are so proud of both of them. Just wish you could be here to tell them yourself.

Have a very Merry Christmas in Heaven, Jes.
Always and Forever,
Carin

Carin E. (Sollman) Radogna
surviving spouse

December 24, 2011

Happy Birthday!!!

I think of you everyday. I'm sorry to hear of Luis passing.

Love you, PoPs :-)

John R.
Father

December 5, 2011

Happy Birthday, Jes. You would have turned 43 today.

Sometimes I look at pictures of you, and I am just overwhelmed with sadness. Not for myself, but for you. Your life was stolen from you - you had so many things left to do, so many hopes and dreams and plans for the future, and it was all taken away in one horrible moment. It's hard to wrap my head around how many years and how many moments you have missed. I am so sorry, Jes.

Your death has left a wound on my heart and in my soul that will never completely heal. Many days I forget it is there. Some days I am vaguely aware of it's presence. And other days, like today, it takes over and I just can't get you - or what happend to you - out of my mind.

But your death has also taught me how to live my life better. It has taught Michael how to live his life better. It is a lesson that repeats itself so often and in so many ways.....it keeps us grounded and appreciative of each and every moment in our lives - and is a lesson we are trying very hard to pass on to the kids.

That is your legacy. What an amazing thing.

We love you, Jes. We love you and we miss you and we wish you were still here with us. Have a very happy birthday in Heaven.

Always and forever,
Carin

Carin E. (Sollman) Radogna
surviving spouse

December 4, 2011

Thinking of you on Veterans Day. Thankyou for your service to our country.

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

November 11, 2011

Jesse, Carin, and family:

I was again saddened today after hearing about the line of duty death of Officer Lasso of Freemansburg, and immediately thought of the senseless loss of Jesse. I felt as though it was Jesse all over again. I think of Jesse all time, and hope that you, Carin, and your chidren, are doing well. I will never forget the days working with Jesse and how his death changed my life. I miss him and I will never forget the times he made me laugh...sometimes at myself, and sometimes when I needed it most.
He will always be missed and loved.

Detective Jean L. Dubbs (Retired)
Easton Police Department

August 11, 2011

Think of you often Carin and hope this finds you well. Its been some time since we saw that "movie" at the Promenade and I thought I saw you on TV but I wasn't sure,,,,, reading the posts I have a feeling it was you. :) I hope life is treating you well. You deserve it. God Bless.

Chrissy Gilbert
friend

July 31, 2011

Thinking of you and the kids often, Carin. I hope you continue to be blessed with many happinesses.

Ilona

July 1, 2011

Hey Jes ~

It still amazes me how after all this time the number 56 still pops up, especially when I'm faced with some kind of dilemna or I'm questioning a decision I've made. I believe that it's more than just coincidence and it's such a comfort and reassurance to me every time it happens.

I think back over the past 6 years and all that has happened - all the unbelievable turmoil - and I am so grateful that it is all over. And while I've tried my best to always express myself openly and honestly, I wonder if maybe I've overlooked saying "thank you" to the people who helped me during my darkest moments.

There were a handful of people (out of respect for their privacy, I won’t name them here) who truly stuck by me, looked out for me and did everything they could to help make my situation better. They answered my calls at all hours of the day and night. They came here and spent time with me when things were ugly and uncomfortable and it would have been much easier to stay away. They had the same conversations with me over and over and answered the same questions thousands of times (or tried to explain the lack of an answer). They suffered through my loss and pain in a way that they truly didn't have to, a way that I am sure took a personal toll on their own souls.

Some of these people probably know who they are, and some might be surprised to find out how much their kindness meant to me. Either way I am grateful to each and every one of them.

Unfortunately, there were also people who injected themselves into our lives who didn't need to be there for any reason other than their own selfish ones. There were people who lied for their own benefit, who took advantage of my vulnerability, weakness and grief for their own gain. Opportunistic people without a moral compass. These are the worst kind of people because they disguised themselves as your friend and pretended to be concerned and caring when in truth all they did was lie, manipulate and control. I see them now for who they are, though I didn’t at the time, and their cowardice and lack of integrity just sickens me. But they need to live with themselves and the things they’ve done, they need to look at themselves in the mirror every day – and will also have to face you one day to explain themselves – and for that I pity them.

Yes, I think back over the past 6 years and all that has happened and I wake up every day more grateful and thankful than the day before. Your death was truly a tragedy Jesse, and it is a shadow on my heart that you aren’t here to enjoy your life and raise your children. I’ve said it many times before and I’ll say it again – I know you’ve had a hand in everything that has happened and have orchestrated the way things are now. You’ve made sure we were taken care of, in every way imaginable, and I know you are still with us in the only way you can be. Please keep sending me the 56’s, they are always such a pleasant surprise.

We love you and miss you, Jes.
Carin

Carin, widow
Officer Jesse E. Sollman

June 15, 2011

May 15th, Law Enforcement Memorial Day

Thinking of you and all of your loved ones on this Special Day. Continue to keep watch over all of them. You will never be forgotten as true heroes never die.

Bob Gordon
Father of Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

May 14, 2011

Brotherman, as you know, the guys and I were at the grave site again this past Friday just as we will be for years to come but I must implore that you raise the temperature a bit next year, and please do something about the wind, it goes right thru you. The snow was a good call tho, it kept the beverages cold.
All jokes aside bro, it hasn't gotten any easier not having you around, you are still greatly missed by many.
My brother my friend, I love you.

Anonymous

March 28, 2011

Hey Jes ~

Well another year has passed, I can't believe it's been 6 sometimes it feels like you were just here a minute ago. Then other times it seems like a lifetime ago.

I thought about you so much yesterday, reliving that last day in my mind over and over again. I remember some things so clearly, while other things are very vague and fuzzy. Then this morning I thought about the day after you died and what it was like having to tell the kids. It was so awful, Jes, at the time I really didn't know how we would ever find a way to get through it.

But we have gotten through it. Time has passed and life has gone on - without you here the way we always thought you would be, but most definetly with you in spirit. It's been an incredible journey and through it I've become stronger and learned so much.

I have an appreciation of my life now that I never really had before, a realization that it all can be gone in an instant so we really do have to live for today and never take a single moment for granted. Sometimes I forget this - I'll get wrapped up in or worked up about something - and Michael will gently remind me that I'm forgetting what is important.

That life is truly precious and we should be thankful and grateful for every moment we are given, because we never know when it will be our last.

You lived your life that way, and with your death have taught all of us to live ours that way. What an amazing legacy.

We love you and miss you, Jes. Thank you again for taking such good care of me and the kids, both before your death and after.

Always and forever,
Carin

Anonymous

March 26, 2011

Ofc. Sollman, just saw your story the other day approaching the anniversary date. Thinking of you, your friends, and family. Keep watch over us. Never forgotten.

Tom Sokolis
Upper Moreland PD

March 26, 2011

Thinking of you on this sad anniversary..............

Anonymous

March 26, 2011

Yo bro, your in our thoughts and missed dearly!

Friend

March 26, 2011

6 years today Jesse, RIP friend

Anonymous

March 25, 2011

Thinking of you, your loved ones and close friends today. Keep watch over all of them. You have not been forgotten.

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal." From a Headstone in Ireland

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

March 25, 2011