Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hey Jes ~

I've been thinking about you a lot today, remembering some funny things you used to do. I've decided that I'm going to "steal" an idea from Bob Gordon (father of Officer Michael Gordon) and start putting Jesse stories on here for others to read and enjoy, and to help make sure that everyone remembers all the wonderful things about you and the reasons why we all love and miss you so much.

And to anyone visiting this site - please feel free to leave any Jesse stories that you may have. I welcome any memories that you would like to share and will save them for Savannah and Jacob so that when they are older they can still "know" their dad.

I finally broke down yesterday and bought a new phone for the house - I was down to one receiver, and it didn't always work right - so I went to Circuit City with Jacob and spent an hour in the phone aisle trying to pick a new one. I got another Panasonic, because that is the brand Jesse thought was the best. Which brings me to my Jesse story.....

Jesse wouldn't buy anything without consulting Consumer Reports first. Whatever it was he was going to buy, no matter how small or how large a purchase it was, he always wanted to get the best and to make sure that he got his money's worth out of it. He would spend days, sometimes weeks, researching before making a decision. Back in 1994 when we lived in Bethlehem we were ready to buy our first grill - it was the first time we were able to have one (we had lived in an apartment for 3 years prior) and he spent the longest time researching every grill on the market. He finally decided on a Weber, which at the time was new on the market and more expensive than most other grills. I can't remember now how much we paid for it - I think around $800 - but EVERYONE busted his chops for buying that grill. All the guys he worked with gave him such a hard time for spending so much money on a grill, told him he was crazy.......Anyone who knew Jesse knows how much he used it - when we lived in Pen Argyl he was always out in the driveway, always grilling up some chicken or sausage or steak. I'd send him out there with a huge plate of meat and he'd come back 20 minutes later with one piece for me and the kids - he'd flag down anyone he knew driving by to have a beer with him and they'd stand out there talking, having a cold one and eating the meat right off of the grill. He loved that Weber and I just now, after 13 years, have had to replace it - I'm pretty sure he got his money's worth. And getting a new one was a no-brainer for me, of course I got another Weber because as Jesse would say "you have to have a Weba, it's got the flavoriza baaz!"

Love you, Jes. Always and forever.
~ Carin

September 7, 2007

Hey Jes ~

Today was my birthday, I can't believe I'm 39.

You were never good about remembering my birthday - actually, you usually forgot until late in the day then would run out to get me a card - but you always managed to make up for it. I think one of the best birthday memories I have is when I turned 36 and we took the kids to the Japanese Hibachi Grill in Allentown. The kids just loved it and our chef was so great with them; after all this time and all that has happened Jacob still remembers the little fireman guy that "peed" on the flames. I still have the picture of the 4 of us that night, with me wearing that big silly hat and holding the gong thing. Wow, it seems like so very long ago. A lifetime ago.

I can never, ever complain about my age because I am 3 years older now than you will ever be.

I love you, Jes. Always and forever.
~ Carin

September 5, 2007

Carin, Give yourself a chance to love again, Jesse would want that for you and the children! You can move on with Jesse in your heart, no one can take that from you, ever! Life is too short, as you know, to sit around being sad and unhappy, this effects the children and then they feel they have to feel that way because Mommy feels that way. Its hard to do I know but try to get involved with other widows and widowers and you will see its ok to move forward with your love of Jesse in your heart! Start now because once the children are in school you will drive yourself crazy at home with your thoughts! I will keep you in my prayers and hope you can find peace and love again soon.

September 4, 2007

Carin,

I come here once and while to see how your holding up. The reflections you write to Jes leave me in tears while I sit here and read them. I am a father of two small children and it breaks my heart to see you going through all of this. I know you feel like something snapped inside and that you wonder how you can go on but you will. Jes won't let you not. i have lost a loved one in the past and the hurt wont go away but you will learn to live again. Jes will help you. Its Jes who helps you figure out how to take off those training wheels and its Jes that helps you get through all the other things that he once did. He does this through you. He is in your heart and in your sole and he will help you live on. I admire your strength and your courage to live on and raise your kids and I admire the passion you still show for Jes in your letters. Carin it is this passion, strentgh and dedication that will not only help you survive but also what your children will and the rest of us must aspire to achieve. If you ever need someone ( a stranger) to write to and to listen to you please let me know and I will be hapy to give you an e-mail address. May GOD bles you and the kids.

Jes,
Semper Fi and may God bless you and keep you.

CW
Department of Public Safety

August 31, 2007

Carin, I look at what some people get upset about, how their kids friends for example get them upset, its pathetic how much emphasis is placed on things that really, are meaningless in the end, or at least, not monumental. What you have dealt with and are dealing with is just monumental. Somewhere though, you will always, always find people who have it better than you. A husband around to be a father, a husband, to just be there. but you will always find people much worse than you too and that is the case with all of us. Maybe their children are sick, or spouse or whomever or whatever. There are no answers to what happened that day, that is for sure. There will be no reasoning in the end and you are left with the pieces. I pray for you all the time and the kids. I know you will be fine but it is easy for me to say that, I am just an outsider looking in, but you are strong. Keep your faith, and say a prayer, that god gives you the strength to overcome each day. I think Jesse would like to see you be happy. Lets face it, he was Mr. Happy. I think Jesse would want you to be happy for the kids. We cannot change what happened but what we can do is change the way we react to the life that now surrounds us. Jesse's death impacted so many people in so many ways, he was just Jesse. You should be very proud of him. Your life has been forever changed and never will it ever be the same. That is just very sad because it is something that neither you or Jesse asked for - - I think grievance, that it will never be the same, will never go away, but hopefully will become more manageable with time - - acceptance, that is is now so very different, as much as you want that old life back, it is gone forever, but hope, hope that with time, and the prayers from friends, those whom you probably never think of, are there with you to, even if just in spirit, to make sure you have a future. So, may you find peace in knowing that you are not ever alone and Jesse will never be forgotten.

Easton PD Wife

August 27, 2007

Carin...my dear sweet friend...you are not alone...the sleepless nights...the constant worrying...how will we get through these days and nights...what will happen to us in 5 or 10 years...my kids will be off to college by then...will I still be this person...stuck in between the full life I had with Drew and the emptiness that has taken it's place...So many times I say to people "I just want to feel happy again, to feel real joy"...I guess I just don't want to feel sad anymore....but we can't wish it away...I think that there is a part of us that feels as if we are some how betraying them if we do move on...feel better...I know I think all the time, would Drew want me to move on to another relationship? I don't think so, but maybe, just maybe he is up there thinking "I hope you can find some happiness"...I don't know really....I mean it's awful to sleep in that big bed all alone night after night...missing the feeling of his arms around me...or the way he kissed me..or held my hand...or even the way he looked at me...how much he loved me..will I ever again have this huge void filled in my heart...in my life....it is possible...I have seen it in others...other survivors who find love again...but the love for our hero will never go away...that's a special place no one can ever enter....sometimes I feel so guilty for wanted to have someone else...and at the same time I am not ready to put away his pictures...I am not ready to erase him from my life....In time, things have a way of working themselves out...when the time is right...we will know it...until then, I am here for you, day or night...call me anytime...if you need to talk through anything...I am here for you...If you need to get away...I am here for you....always, you are my sister...I love you and think about you and the kids all the time...keep holding your head up Carin....you are doing a great job!! You are surviving!!! Love, me

August 25, 2007

Everything will be ok, you will see.

August 25, 2007

Jes ~

People say that time heals all wounds, that things will get better with time, to just give it time.......how much time, exactly, needs to pass before things will get better? Because so far it hasn't been nearly enough.

I was laying in bed this morning listening to the silence of our house but it was so hard to hear it over the storm that rages inside my head. I wish there was a switch that could just turn my brain off, a way to stop me from thinking all the time. Thinking about what happened to you. About what has happened to me and the kids. About what our future will hold. About so many things. I just want to stop thinking. I want to stop worrying, and wondering and most of all I want to stop being afraid.

I oftentimes think back to that moment in the hospital when the doctor told me that you were gone. He didn't actually say anything, he just looked so sad and shook his head - it was like I was watching it all unfold from outside myself and I remember it felt like something just snapped inside of me, like something just broke. It's difficult to explain but I felt like at that moment I was thrown into some kind of chaos and I still, after all this "time", haven't been able to get out of it. I get up every day and do what needs to be done for me and for the kids and the days go by one at a time and I find myself feeling like I'm just going through the motions, waiting for bedtime so the kids can go to sleep. But I never sleep - not really, not restfully through the night since you died - I lay awake and think and worry and I am so afraid.

If you came back tomorrow you probably wouldn't recognize the person I have become - I hardly recognize myself. Whatever snapped that day has changed me forever.

I miss you, Jes. And I love you. Always and forever.
~ Carin

August 23, 2007

Hi, Carin.
I think of you and Jesse often... and come back here from time to time to check in. I can't believe that we were friends so long ago... and the fun that the 4 of us used to have together!
I wish you and your family well... and would love to touch base at some point... if you ever feel inclined, google me.
Many thoughts and prayers-
Heath (Boice-Pardee)

August 17, 2007

Just wanted to stop in and let you know I was thinking about you today. We never knew one another but we both belong to the same brotherhood. Maybe I'm the old school type or the old timer as they use to refer to me before I retired, but being from the old school I was taught that we never forget our brothers in blue. Keep looking down on your loved ones and protect them from harm.

Bob Gordon
Father of Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

August 14, 2007

Carin,

I have read the reflections to your husband tonight and I found it extremely emotional. As a Police Officer and a father of two young boys I feel so sorry that your children will grow up missing their father, not the love of their father because you will convey that to them, always.

I wish you all the best in the future.

Jesse - Rest in Peace mate.

Sergeant
Western Australia Police

August 14, 2007

Carin....It was great to talk to you last night...I am so glad that Drew and Jesse brought us together...I hope you enjoy your special time with the kids....and remember what I said...anytime!!! love you girl...me

August 9, 2007

Jes, I come here often to say a prayer. It seems so unreal that you could just not be here. I'll never forget the day and neither will anyone else Jes, it changed peoples lives forever. You are remembered each and every day, the memories of how you were touched so many people. My kids will never forget you, how you would always buy them sodas at the station and kid around - you were always kidding around. We pray for your memory, and for your family and hope that somehow, over time, it becomes easier to cope for them.

Easton PD Wife

August 9, 2007

Just stopping in, as I was leaving a reflection for the latest fallen officer, to let you know that your family will never be forgotten.

I think of you and your story often, as I do the other Pennsylvania officers who we have lost over the past several years. Your family continues on with the bravery I know you must have taught them.

Thank you for leaving many of us citizens with lessons on courage set by your example.

Breinigsville, PA

Pennsylvania citizen, Lehigh Valley

August 7, 2007

HI Jesse
Stopping in to say Hi. Just emailed Carin to say Hi also. I was taking my son to work this morning and a van in front of me had a sticker on the back window: "In Loving Memory of Officer Jesse Sollman". I never knew you, unless of course I encountered you at work in Easton, but I just feel like I did see you somewhere. In any case, Carin is a wonderful person and I enjoy stopping in. Take care. Watch over your family and I hope you can watch over David too since his own police family did/does not.

love,
chrissy g

chrissy gilbert
wife of disabled Officer David Gilbert (aka 812)WhitehallPD 28 Forever

July 29, 2007

Carin I wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you today and to let you know that Jesse was the featured HERO this morning. I had to stop by and catch up on his reflections.

Clint was killed much the same way as Jesse, except Clint was shot in his side.

Officer Sollman wrap your beautiful wings around your family, they miss you everyday. I will never forget the sacrifice you have made and the sacrifice your family has to make everyday you are not here with them.

My Blue Candles shine 24/7 for all of you, we also have Blue Landscape lights now, so if you see a blue haze from Ft. Walton Beach you'll know that's us.

Connie Barker Fort Walton Beach, Fl
Mother of Clint Walker E.O.W. 1-14-04 Prattville, Al.

July 24, 2007

If I had only known
It was the last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a life line to my heart
Underneath the thunder, we'd be warm
If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain

If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you ever said
And on those lonely nights
I could think of them once more
Keep your words alive inside my head
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again

You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware I foolishly believed
That you would always be there
But then there came a day
And I turned my head, and you slipped away

If I had only known
It was my last night by your side
I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn
And when you'd smile at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you know my love
For you goes on and on

If I had only known
If I had only known
The love I would have shown
If I had only known.....

A good friend sent me a link to this Reba McEntire song - the lyrics are so true, I could have written them myself! I often think back to the morning of the 25th, you coming out of the closet ready for training, the little wave you gave me. I wish so much you'd given me one more hug, one more kiss.....the kids had gotten in bed with me and I'm sure you didn't want to disturb them, so you just whispered "bye" and gave that little wave. How could I have ever known it would be the last time I ever saw you? All these months later it still just boggles my mind......How could you just be gone, forever, in an instant? How could everything just change so fast?

We miss you, Jes. Life is so different without you here. We are getting used to it and I try very hard not to be angry and bitter but it's not easy.

We love you. Always and forever.
~ Carin

July 22, 2007

Carin, I often come to Jesse's guest book to see how you and the kids are doing. I am thinking of you today, as I keep your family and friends in my thoughts. Jesse's dedication and service will be missed. Even though these are sad times for your friends and family, they are truly thankful for every day, hour, minute that you were in their lives. Know that they will continue to think of you every day, whether it brings to them a smile of happiness from a fond memory, or a sorrowful tear. The legacy Jesse left behind will live forever. I have read the reflections over the years and truely believe if your love could have saved him he would have lived forever. There comes a time in our lives when we realize just how delicate and precious life really is…just how important every moment, word, touch, thought, family member and friend really is. The memory of Jesse is a blessing and I'm sure you are missing his smile & laughter. Both your lives with the children was a beautiful one, and memory will live forever in the hearts and minds of the many people who have been touched by both your love. I know first hand that even as time passes the loss is still felt greatly by those closest to it. All I can say is that the days do get easier, you are able to function as normally as you can once again, but it will take time. My thoughts and prayers will always be with your family. Keep focused as you can on the memories and joyous times for these things may bring you comfort. We are never prepared for the loss of a loved one, but God is always prepared to help us through that loss. May His presence begin the healing in your heart and soul, and may His love surround you with the comfort only He can give. To live in the hearts of those you leave behind is never to die. Stay strong and continue holding your family together with the special love you give the kids.

James A. Cortina

July 22, 2007

Hey Jes ~

The kids and I spent a few days out with Dianne, Brian and the boys - being there with them is so good for my soul. I didn't want to come back today, I just wanted to stay there on their front porch where time seems to stand still and memories don't seem so far away. If I ever decide to move away, that is probably where I will go. Dianne already has a house picked out for us.

The boys are getting so big, you'd be amazed. Evan looks more and more like Brian every day, in so many ways - the way he's built and the way he walks, his facial expressions, his personality. Trent is just precious - he still looks like Dianne's dad and is just so cute (and hairy!). And Mitchell is a mix of everyone, he's lost his curls but his hair is so blonde and he's still got those lips - oooohhhh those lips!

I almost convinced Trent to come back with us for a few days, at first he said yes but later changed his mind. Evan said no right off the bat because he wanted to work in the shop with Pap today and I didn't even bother asking Mitchell (he's still Dianne's baby). Hopefully by next summer they will all be brave enough and they can each take a turn coming for a week.

The kids all had so much fun yesterday. They took fishing poles down to the picnic area and spent hours fishing, playing in the creek and riding bikes. Both Mitchell and Jacob learned how to ride without training wheels - Trent's bike was the perfect size and Jacob wanted to try it so Dianne helped him get started and (just like Savannah last year) off he went. He did it in the grass first, then we went up to the driveway and he rode all the way from the bridge down to the lane. Then Mitchell decided he wanted to try so before we knew it both of them were riding all around. The first thing I did today when we got home was take Jacob's training wheels off (the kids of course didn't think I'd be able to figure out how). Yet another milestone you should be here for........

Savannah just loves being out there. The "X" factor is still in effect, but it seems the boys don't fight over her quite as much as before - they seem to take turns now, they share her attention without beating each other up all the time. Evan took Savannah in the barn to see the cows and show her a short cut up to Memaws and all I could think of was when you took Savannah into that barn for the first time, how much those cows scared her and how much she cried because they were so loud. One big "MOO" did her in. Now she's going through that barn, with all the mooing cows, in the dark, by herself without a bit of fear. Another milestone....

All of the puppies are gone, which is good because I might actually have broken down this time and brought one home. Now they are going to try to mate Brandy with Buddy (to make Labradoodles) if they can get them to actually, physically, get the job done - the jokes there are endless but just not as funny without you here to tell (and animate) them. We went to a picnic at Kim's and she has a German Shepherd named Sarge - I just assumed he was a work dog so I spoke to him in German which at first he seemed to understand but when I told him to "plotz" he very gently gave me his paw. It made me laugh because I could picture you telling him what a "brava houndin" he was and trying to get him all worked up. He was thin like Finn but American bred - such a different look from the European dogs - but I know you would have loved him, he was sweet.

Brian did fireworks for the kids both nights that we were there - it was really nice and I was so happy because we hadn't seen any yet this year. What a sight, the 5 kids lined up on the front porch.

I'm not sure how I got to this point in my life, Jes. I'm not sure how Dianne and I went from being college roommates to being the mothers of those 5 children - it doesn't seem like 20 years could have passed. So much must have happened in all that time, but it seems like just yesterday she and I were eating pizza and talking about our futures. And I so vividly remember the night I came home so excited from my first date with you and telling Dianne that I had met the man I was going to marry - I knew it, for sure, that you were "the one" and that we would be together forever.

Where did you go? Where did all of it go?

I'm left here to wonder how to pick myself up and go on. Go on to where? Where do I go? What do I do?

I read a book on grief a while ago and the author describes catastrophic loss (such as sudden loss of a spouse) as an amputation of your former life - he describes loss as an overflowing waterfall, the water just flowing down the landscape of your life changing and altering and destroying every single thing in it's path. Your life is never the same - you don't just pick up where you left off and continue on because nothing is the same anymore. The landscape is different and you have to figure out how to navigate it before you can decide how or where (or if) you are going to go on. I think I'm still studying the new landscape, Jes, still trying to figure out exactly what this life without you entails and what options I have for the future (for me and the kids). But I can't stop thinking about the way everything used to be, when you were here.

I miss you, Jes.
I wish so much that you were still here.

Always and forever.
~ Carin

July 7, 2007

Carin~

Today another police officer, a Master Trooper in Indiana, was killed for just trying to do his job. He left behind three children. Immediately I thought of you and the children. I put up the link to ODMP on mcall so people could leave reflections. Of course as I always do, I stopped in on your page. I saw your last post about the 4th and I am in tears. My heart aches for you so badly. I try and put myself in your shoes. If I had lost David........... what would I do????? Just the thought of it kills me. I feel so selfish complaining about David's disability when at least he is still here. It just can not compare to what you are going through.

Know that I am here. I can't wait to actually meet you. Please keep in touch. Also, there is a poster from mcall that I talk to and either she lives or one of her family lives near you. She hs wanted for a long time to meet you and tell you how sorry she is. She just wants to hug you and send her love. She has also been following you story. She is the very motherly type. I just wanted you to know. There are people out there that really are on your side.

Call me sometime. Let's get together.
Love,
the other chrissy
chrissy gilbert :)

chrissy gilbert
wife of disabled Whitehall Officer David Gilbert Badge #28 forever

July 6, 2007

From the movie "The Guardian"
By Bryan Adams

Can you lay your life down, so a stranger can live?
Can you take what you need, but take less than you give?
Could you close every day, without the glory and fame?
Could you hold your head high, when no one knows your name?
That's how legends are made, at least that's what they say.

We say goodbye, but never let go.
We live, we die, cause you can't save every soul.
Gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;
Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go.

Can you lose everything, you ever had planned?
Can you sit down again, and play another hand?
Could you risk everything, for the chance of being alone?
Under pressure find the grace, or would you come undone?
That's how legends are made, at least that's what they say?

We say goodbye, but never let go.
We live, we die, cause you can't save every soul.
Gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;
Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go.

...::Never let go, Never let go, Never let go::...

Gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;
Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go.

We say goodbye, but never let go.
We live, we die, 'but you can't save every soul.
Gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;
Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go.

Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go.

...::Never let go::...


love you girl.. me

July 6, 2007

Carin, I served with Jesse in the Marine Corps. We seemed to be best of friends but people, places and times change. I was reflecting on the amazing times Jesse and I had and all of the crazy partying we used to do and looked him up on the web. I was shocked! All of the crazy things we did and he gets his final orders like that.

We were stationed in Okinawa and I had taken him to some cliffs to for recreational cliff diving and he didn't think he was going to be able to jump. He did! He loved it! Always a positive influence and the first to hand out the smiles!

On another weekend we traveled from Camp Le Jeune N.C. to his mothers in New York, I think. I remember he had to go somewhere with his mom and his grandfather made me rotate my tires, I am still not sure to this day why but, I did it because I felt like if I didn't he would smack me in the back of my head.

I wish I would have looked Jesse up earlier! I do have nothing but fantastic memories and he will live on in my heart. I will tell my children of our training together and of all the fun we had!

It was truly and HONOR to know JESSE. I am a better person because of our friendship!

GOD Bless YOU and your family hopefully we will be able to meet someday!

SEMPER FI! Michael P. Mink USMC, RET

Michael P Mink, Sgt USMC RET

July 5, 2007

Hey Jes ~

Happy 4rth of July. We miss you so much, Jes.

The guys in the house behind us were having a party last night, it was cool out so I had the windows open and could hear everyone shouting and laughing, shooting off fireworks and having a good time. I found myself feeling so annoyed, so aggravated with them for having fun and celebrating the holiday - it doesn't make much sense, I know, but that is how I feel. Life just goes on without you, time passes, things change and milestones are reached........all without you. Some days I feel so bitter. Most days I feel unfocused and scattered, like I don't know what I'm doing with myself - we had our lives all planned out and now it's all gone. What do I do now? How do I move on from here?

I guess the biggest problem is that I don't want to move on - I want to go back. Back to when you were here, when we were a family. Back when I had a husband and the kids had a father. Back to what used to be. But I can't go back and I can't go forward........I'm trapped in this nightmare and I can't wake up.

Chrissy told me about a movie she'd recently watched, so I watched it the other night - The Lake House. If only something like that could really happen, if only I could reach back to you now and tell you not to go into work that day. If I could tell you to stay home, or to do something different to prevent what happened to you. Then you'd still be here with us and life would be the way it should.

I miss you, Jes, and I wish so much that you were still here. I love you. Always and forever.

~ Carin

July 4, 2007

For all the times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For every wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
We were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hands, I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love, I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
Light in the dark - shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place
Because of you.....

I've always loved this song, Jes. We had such a hard time picking our wedding song because so many seemed appropriate, but we kept coming back to this one. It was perfect, and still is. I love you so very much, and I miss you terribly all the time.

Savannah tried to fly a kite today - it was actually the rainbow kite you bought her when we moved here, it's been in the garage all this time. It was windy so we gave it a try but couldn't get it to go. Of course we were laughing about flying the Pooh kite behind the Municipal Building - I will never forget you running after that kite with me and Rosie screaming to "get it dad" and if you could have just been one step faster you would have gotten it......or maybe if your boots had been tied. So funny.

You were always so funny. You loved to be a clown and to make people laugh.

I miss you, Jes. And I love you. Always and forever I will love you. ~ Carin

June 22, 2007

Happy Father's Day Jesse. I hope that you and Dave are hanging out together on this day when all of us miss you both so much.

Hi Carin,
I know today was rotten, it sucked for me, so I'm sure it was just as bad for you. The kids made it thru, but it was rough. They miss there dad sooo much. Hang in there you and if you ever need anything remember to call. I'm here for you, just like you've been there for me.
Let me know about spouses weekend...there has got to be someone that would love to take care of your beautiful children so you can go cry, kick and scream and maybe mend a little..for a few days. I hope you can go.
Either way hang in there and we'll get together again soon! This time, my place. Take care of yourself.
LUMI,
Jess

Widow of David Petzold EOW 11-9006

June 18, 2007