Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Drew, I miss you so much. As this day is the day of your death, two years ago. It has never really gotten easier for me to think that you are not here. I thank you for coming into our lives and just getting to know YOU! You will NEVER be forgotten..........NEVER! Please watch over us all, as I know you are.

Chrissy and Liz, I am sorry that I could not make it back home this year to be with you guys........I miss you all terribly. Once the boys get a little older, I think traveling would be easier. I will see you guys very soon! Once again, I miss you and love you guys. I will always keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Drew you have touched so many lives in the short time with us........thank you! We miss you so much, we love you Drew. Until next time my friend, remember you will forever be in my thoughts!

Officer J.M. Lane
McKinney Texas PD former Suffolk Virginia PD

March 19, 2007

Only gone from earthly sight.G-d Bless.

March 19, 2007

My thoughts are with your loved ones today on this 2nd anniversary of your EOW. You are missed terribly by those that love you and think of you every day. Continue to watch over them and protect them. Wrap your wings around them and help relieve some of their grief. You have not been forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

March 18, 2007

May GOD be with your family as tomorrow marks 2 years since your tragic accident. Tomorrow will be another hard and heartbreaking day. Let them make it through.

March 18, 2007

Dear Chrissy, Alex and CJ ~

I know there isn't anything I can say that will make tomorrow any easier for you guys but please know that I am thinking of you. I can't believe it's been 2 years since Jesse and Drew left us, 2 years since we saw them or talked to them......how did so much time pass without them here? It's still impossible to believe.

Chrissy, I know how your heart still aches - I know because mine does, too. We are sisters in suffering. Please know that I am here for you. Hang in there.

Much love ~
Carin

March 18, 2007

To Drew, Chrissy, Alex and C.J. Liz, Drew's parents and other family and friends:

Tomorrow is the second anniversary of Drew's tragic death and the day all your lives changed forever. As I read the loving reflections left by those who called Drew beloved, I am mindful of the journey we all struggle with as we try to make a life for ourselves...we know that is what our beloved would want us to do, but the heart always aches for the one who can only be with us in spirit for now.

I hope that you all find some peace in your heart tomorrow as you hold your memories like the rare and beautiful pearls they are.

May Drew's spirit continue to soar and his memory continue to inspire.

Rest in Peace, Drew. Your valor and dedication and sacrifice will never be forgotten.

Phyllis Loya, mother of Larry Lasater, PPD, eow 4/24/05

March 18, 2007

Hey 1-Charles,

I get bummed every year around this time...all your friends really miss you. Got a chance to hang out with Chrissy and the the rest of the gang last night, it was great to see everyone again. Keep an eye on the crew and keep an ear on 1-Charles...some rookie might need some help.

March 18, 2007

Hey Beardy:

I got to see part of the crew yesterday. It was great. I wish you could have been there. I don't like being the only one getting sunburned.

Hard to believe in one week it will be two years. I think about you a lot. I think you already know that.

I miss being able to hang out with you. You know, ever since Chrissy and the kids moved I haven't been to that part of Virginia for business. Weird. It's like I am avoiding that part of the country. See what kind of an influence you had...and still have?

You take care of your family. They need someone on their side. The system seems to be favoring those who do more harm than good. Maybe you have built some relatiohships that can pull a few strings. See what you can do about that.

I love you, brother. I miss you.

-MGM

MGM
Friend

March 12, 2007

Dear Chrissy ~

I came across this poem and wanted to leave it here for you.

To One In Sorrow
by Grace Noll Crowell

Let me come in where you are weeping, friend,
And let me take your hand.
I, who have known a sorrow such as yours,
Can understand.
Let me come in - I would be very still
Beside you in your grief;
I would not bid you cease your weeping, friend,
Tears bring relief.
Let me come in - I would only breathe a prayer,
And hold your hand,
For I have known a sorrow such as yours,
And understand.

I hope you and the kids are doing well, I think of you guys all the time. Take care and we'll talk soon.

Love ~
Carin

March 9, 2007

Hey Drew,
Thanks for all you did for us rookies. You made the job look so easy. Miss ya!

February 28, 2007

Hey Chrissy ~

It was so good to talk to you this morning. I wish we lived closer - I wish we could go out for some drinks and just talk. It's funny that you read my reflections and think "exactly" because that's what happens when I read yours. I am so glad we have found each other - we are truly sisters of the heart.

Take care and we'll talk again soon.

Much love
~ Carin

February 28, 2007

Hey Drew.......I miss you my friend!

Officer J.M. Lane
McKinney Texas PD

February 23, 2007

Just another day right? As the time goes by I realize more and more that my love for you will never fade...It's just time...time until I see you again....for you time is standing still, or so I have been told...noone really knows for sure...I just know that I miss you every day...the kids miss their Dad....it's not easy for any of us...but we will get through this...we will survive...mostly because we know how much you love us...and we know that you are watching over us each and every day...I love you with all my heart baby....more and more each day....always, me

February 19, 2007

There are so many people who don't like this day...but we always did...you made it so special...I wish you were here to tell me you love me...I wish you were here so I could kiss your sweet face....I miss you so much baby...I will love you forever and ever and ever....always, me

February 14, 2007

So many people so many places so many things to do and only so little time. What happens when u witness a miracle. It may not be a miracle to anyone else but u know god has giving u a great gift and deep down its Ur merical. Well u want to know what I think that there are angels just floating around waiting to be captured in the arms of the person that will love them forever and on. Well my step dad he was one of those angels but why he got taken away from me I wish I knew. Hes the best thing that has ever happened to me and the greastest gift god could ever give me.His smile...his laugh..his voice....and his yell..bring back soo many memories. He left me happeness he left me joy he left me memories and sadness. To this day i will always remember that friday i had to wake up early because i had band practice at school . I went on a feildtrip to go to the planetarium u know to see the stars....then we when i got home my mom my brother and i went to walmart and we bought the movie incrtedibles because at the time that movie had just come out .We went home watched the movie then my mom woke my dad up around 10:00. I remember i was waiting in my room for drew to come out of his room cause i wanted to sleep with my mom he entered my room and told me i could go lay in there now. I stood by the stairway and kissed him goodbye he said see ya in the morning and i said okay goodbye.Not knowing that was going to be the last time i would ever hear is voice again.I watched him walk down the stairs step by step by step...before he actully shut the door he turned around looked at me and gave me one last smile...i smiled back went into my mom's room and fell asleep not long was it when i woke up to seeing my mom franticly getting dressed and a police officer helping her...my mom looked at me with fear in her eyes and said ill be right back just stay here and be good. My brother and i walked down the stairs and went and sat on the couch we asked the lady that was stayin with us what is goin on and she knew it was not her place to tell us our dad had died so she calmly said hes at the hospital he just hurt his leg. Thinkin that it wasnt that serious we see the door open slowly and my mom walked in with tears flowing down her cheeks and when she came and sat right in front of me and my brother she looked into out eyes she didnt have to say anymore then drew had an accident his heart stopped and it didnt start back up again....and i knew that i had just lost the most precious gift of all love.To this day i will never forget that night that time and ofcourse that movie...I dont watch the incredibles anymore and i never will when they play that movie at school sometimes i put my head down and plugg my ears...make sure that when u see an angle just floating aroung reach out grabb it...and hold on to it forever and on----love,laugh,cry,live, and cherish memories never to be forgotten

♥alex♥
♥daughter♥

February 10, 2007

Today and always, I will love you...I will miss you...I may never again feel the love that we shared, but I will carry it in my heart forever....I miss you more than words can say...forever and always "your love"....me

February 6, 2007

Crissy,
Life sure does have a way of bringing complete strangers together. Showing us that we are not alone in our “Journey”. Others have come before us, others have come after us and will much heartache, more will follow over the years. It’s inevitable and it’s never-ending. All we can do is be there for each other and the new survivors, whether it be a kind word or a shoulder to lean on from a survivor that’s walked in there shoes. We are all in this together, after all, we are the extended family of their loves ones. I hope you are making it to Washington this year. I plan to attend again this year as well. Hopefully we can meet and share stories of our loved ones. Thank you for coming by to say hello and I too send you and your family my prayers.

Deputy Ashley Koester
Widow of Lake Co, FL. Deputy Wayne Koester EOW 02-09-05

January 30, 2007

what else can I say...I miss you baby everyday...I love you...you are my best friend..it's so hard here with out you....always baby...me

By Darryl Worley
I MISS MY FRIEND

I miss the look of surrender in your eyes
The way your soft brown hair would fall
I miss the power of your kiss when we made love
But baby most of all

I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend

I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile, those blue-green eyes
I miss your gentle voice in lonely times like now
Saying it'll be alright

I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend

I miss those times
I miss those nights
I even miss the silly fights
The making up
The morning talks
And those late afternoon walks

I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with

January 24, 2007

Drew...I wasn't going to write to you tonight, mostly because I knew Alex had written earlier and I didn't want to take away from her moment with you....but I was reading some of the other officer's pages....I know that I miss you and I know that I love you...but I don't remember that I was ever as broken as them....I am know in my head that I was....but it is funny how I don't remember it...it's like having a baby....the pain of child birth is so severe, no man would be able to endure it...and yet, I don't remember the pain...I only remember the bundle of joy that I held in my arms at that moment...My memories of them starts there....only the good ones are strong enough to last...I guess that is how I feel about you...you are gone, but all of the good memories are still here...those broken down, beat up, just want to die feelings are fading....I try not to think about the day you died...that is the hardest memory of all...seeing you like that...mostly I remember the fun...and the dreams we shared....speaking of dreams,that was a crazy dream the other night...it felt so real...I wish you really could come back, even if it was only for one day...just one hour...just one damn minute...so I could hold you again...no, so you could hold me again...I want to hug you ....I want to kiss you...I want to rub your budda!! I know that in the back of my mind I will never forget the pain...but I also know that the joy will continue to grow...the love grows ....it doesnt fade...like in the movie "the love... you take it with you"....I can't wait to be able to be with you again...last night someone said something that made me feel so good....she said "It may seem like it takes forever, but "Just Blink" and it will be here"...so as I continue on my journey without you, I will blink and before we know it we will be together again...I love you with all my heart and soul...forever and ever and ever baby....always, your wife, your best friend, your soul mate....your love xoxooxoxox

January 17, 2007

Do u believe in happy endings? Well i do i guess. I dont know if what i believe in is called a happy ending but what i will say is that everyone comes everyone goes new faces ,new laughs ,new challenges, new goals whether or not ur future is planned out, with what u wanna go see, or what u wanna go do, who u meet ,and who u loved stays apart of u forever and my dad will be apart of me forever maybe ill grow up meet a good man, have kids and have a good job, but even then i dont know if my life will have a happy ending so i guess for now my message to u is to love,laugh,and live ur life and maybe eventually your heart will heal and you will get to finnaly have ur happy ending but im just a kid a simple child just waitin for my happy ending

♥alex♥
daughter

January 17, 2007

We love you and miss you Drew....take care of my baby...he is breaking through the pain now....he needs you....we all do....love you with all my heart baby...always, me

January 9, 2007

Can u lay ur life down so a stranger can live.... can u take what u need...but take less then u get...can u hold ur head high when no one know's ur name....thats how legends are made....well at least thats what they say....we say goodbye....we live we die...but we never let go....gotta take every chance u get....can u loose every thing that u ever had planned...could u sit down again and play another hand...could you risk everything for the chance of being wrong...thats how legends are made...well at least thats what they say...just remember we say goodbye...we live we die...but we never let go...thats right dont ever let go to the memories you have shared ....never regret something that has once has made u smile....never let go hold on and and dont let anything be forgotten ----drew ur my dad and i love u with all my heart i will never forget u ------love always alex

alex
daughter

January 5, 2007

Miss you Drew.....can't believe it's been this long already. Love you, Chrissy, Lizzie B, and all the kids! Always, Les

Leslie Irwin
friend

January 2, 2007

HAPPY NEW YEAR DREW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

January 1, 2007

Happy New Year baby...I wish you had been here to kiss at midnight, but I kissed CJ instead...That was a good replacement! He is a good smoocher!! I miss you...I love you...I miss my best friend....I miss having you here to share everything with.....you really are my best friend...I hope you had a fun New Year's....at least you didn't have to work it..chasing around those crazies!! Did you and Jess toast the New Year? I hope so...I hope you are all up there having one great big party and laughing it up!! That's how I like to think of you.. laughing.. oh and dancing...boy do I miss your dancing!! We love you and miss you very much Drew....always..me

January 1, 2007