Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

You were the best! You taught me how to ride my bike and when I fell off of it you would help me back up. You used to play with our bomerang with us in Virginia out in a wide open space near a playground and a skatboarding park. I miss you so much that I could not play baseball by myself. You were the best father in the whole world because you always helped me when I fell or hurt myself. The one day I heard the phone call and my mom picked up the phone, she said I have to go somewhere, and there was this lady that was a police officer and a friend that watched the Incredibles with us, then my mom was home and told us that you fainted and your heart didn't come back. I wish you could come back and make my mom happy and me happy and my whole life happy and everybody in my whole life happy. I want you to come back and help me doing new tricks on my bike and help me run faster. I love you so much and I want you to come back. Love, CJ, so much. ¢¾

May 1, 2007

You were so beautiful...you never believed it...I look at that picture of you from the beach...I love it most of all because I took it, so you are always looking at me when I look at you...but I love it too because you were so happy...I know you were happy....we were happy...everyday...we had it all didn't we...why did you have to go away? What are we supposed to do now that you are not here? How can it be more than 2 years since we've seen your face...heard your laugh?? How can it be? It feels like only yesterday that you were here...We still miss you so very much....and we love you more than ever...always and forever....me

May 1, 2007

To all of you who I call "my family"...and you know who you are...I come here every day still...I almost never miss a day...before it was out of need to be closer to Drew..now I come mostly to check to see the new names added each day...it just breaks my heart...some days I just drop by for a second or two, other times I stay...I stay and I read what people say to Drew...to me...It is so touching to me...I can never thank you for all the love and support you have shown me for the past 2 years...I know that we are forever joined together...as a family...I miss you all so much...I count down the days when we can be together again...I love you all, from the bottom of my heart...If there is ever anything I can do for you, believe me, I will be there....

Drew....although you are gone from us, you are never really gone...we will love you forever...I am so grateful that you left me in such good hands...I know you would have never left me alone out here...although some days it feels really lonely, I know I am never alone...you have some really amazing friends!! boy are they smart too....picked you for a friend!! And you always thought you were some nobody from North Cacalacky....I tried to tell you that you were wrong, but you listen to me?? of course not...I always knew you were awesome and that one day you would leave such a legacy for your children to cherish...I just never thought you would be gone so soon...I always thought you would be a Leader in the police dept...and you were, but at the time I didn't know how much of a leader you already were...well, maybe I did, but you sure didn't....anyway, Drew....I am so very proud of you and the man you became...and I am always and forever proud to be your wife....I love you my husband...I love you and miss you....but I am ok honey...I really really am....just keep holding me...just keep holding me...I'll see you when I get there...I'll be waiting to hear you say "hello beautiful" again....I will always be yours Drew....always, me

April 16, 2007

Your sister just left the sweetest reflection on my son's website. Although I never knew you personally I do know the pain your family suffers from their loss. Your mom is a special lady as you well know. She and your sister and wife and children are in my thoughts and prayers each day. Thank you for your service to our country.

Brenda Cogdill East
Mother of Trooper A. G. Cogdill

April 16, 2007

I love you...I miss you...more and more each day...I really wish you were here...always, me

April 16, 2007

Thinking of you. I love and miss you like crazy.

Liz
Sis

April 16, 2007

Happy Easter my love...I will be thinking of you all day today...I love you...always, me

April 8, 2007

Good Morning love...so today your "big man" turns 13...I remember the first day I met you and your boys...they took to me right away...they were so warm and loving...just like their Dad....I remember their girly hairdos...lol...you with your Marine Corps buzz and them with the long locks...lol...I can still remember sitting on my front porch, one on each side of me...and them lying in my waterbed with Alex and CJ watching a movie, and then all of them falling asleep...they were so little then...it seems so long ago...it's not fair Drew...you should be here to call Skyler today...you should be able to tell him you love him and miss him...I should be able to hold you when you cry today because you never could see him on his birthday...It's not right that he doesn't have you anymore...but you did good Drew...you should be very proud...Skyler is sweet....and vey strong...you made him that way...he will get through this time in his life, and he will always remember that you love him and you are so proud of him...I hope that he can feel you today..that is my birthday wish for him...

Skyler...if you see this, I hope you know how much we love you and miss you everyday...You will always be my son...in my heart you will always be my son! Alex and CJ will always call you brother...you and Austin...no amount of time apart will ever change that...I love you so very much...I hope you know that your Dad is so proud of you Skyler...He loves you more than you could ever know...how many times he cried for you and Austin...how much it meant to him to see you and to talk to you...He is with you today Skyler, as he is everyday...you carry him with you in your heart...that will never change...I can't wait to see you again...I love you Skyler...with all my heart buddy! Happy Birthday Skyler!!!

Baby, be with him today...I miss you so much...I love you so much..always...me

April 7, 2007

It's raining today...then I heard the song...is is you? are you telling me something? What am I supposed to think? What am I supposed to do? I wish I could hear your voice or see your face...I miss you everyday Drew...I will love you forever...you were the one...it was our destiny...just as your destiny was to be a police officer...I wish you could have been a trooper, like you always wanted...but I know you were happy where you were...I just wish you were still here with me...I miss you so much...I just don't know how to feel happy anymore..not here all alone...maybe one day...I love you baby...always your wife, always your love, always yours...me

April 6, 2007

Hey baby...tomorrow our girl will be 12, she is so much a teenager already!! Some days I want to scream! I wish you were here to keep her inline...but more than that I wish you were here to show her love...she misses you so much, even though she doesn't say it often...we are all just trying to be strong...CJ thinks about you everytime he goes to the ballfield...it's hard not having you there with him for me too...I always feel so sad...So next weekend your boy will be 13...a real live teenager!! Can you believe it?? I know you are very proud of him...but it's so hard for me, being so far away from him and Austin...I know they will never forget the love you shared, but I wish I could still share my love with them...I wish I could hug them and talk to them about you...Keep a watch over them baby...all of them...they miss their Dad so very much...I know that they feel you when you are holding them, never ever let them go...I love you more than you know, or maybe you do know?! I miss you my love...did you see McCarley's tattoo? It's beautiful isn't it!!! There are so many people Drew...so many who are still hurting since you left...so many people who love you...all the things you never believed you were...you were! A great father, friend, husband, lover, leader...you name it...I miss my best friend...I miss talking to you...hugging you...I miss all your crazy stories about the activities at work..who you chased...who you caught! There are still some times Drew when all I want to do is be with you there. I hope you will wait for me...even when I am old grey and wrinkled!! You better be there waiting for me! I just want to see your smile...see you smiling at me...they everything will be allright!! Are you having fun up there? How is Jesse? Are you guys golfing? I know, silly questions! You are having a beer watching football...DUH! Keep smiling baby...I love your smile...I love you...always, me

March 31, 2007

Two years now and it's still not easy. I look to see you at the rear of Headquarters where we always met to shoot the breeze. On the evening shift driving home I sometimes here your voice on 1 adam. I drive by the old house sometimes wishing to see you and the kids in the yard. It's just not easy.

Det. John McCarley
Academy mate Suffolk P.D.

March 20, 2007

You seem too good to be true, but there are 16 pages
of reflections here to prove otherwise. God bless all
those you left behind who will miss you forever.
Lynn Kole
Washington State

March 19, 2007

Wanted to say thank you for your service. Two years have passed but you are not forgotten.

Officer
Washington, DC

March 19, 2007

Two years. Two very difficult years since you died.

Didn't sleep a wink last night. Waking up every thirty minutes remembering back to where we all were at that moment in time two years ago. And then woke up with a horrible stomach ache. Couldn't exactly figure out why for about a minute and then I remembered.... two years. I just will never be the same. How can a sister with two brothers be the same when one isn't there any more? How am I suppose to continue to travel through this world without hearing you nag me every second you could about coming for a visit or just simply returning your calls. Why didn't I return that last call? A regret I will have the rest of my life.

I am so afraid of forgetting the little things. Like the way it felt when you hugged me in the parking lot of Shoney's the last time. Or your voice telling me you loved me. Did you know how much I loved you? I don't think you possibly could have. I didn't tell you enough. And you know what the real kicker is? Lawson will never know his Uncle Drew. We talk about you every night. He knows you are his angel and you love him very much. But it breaks my heart because he would have loved you... and you would have loved him!

I just don't understand. There is no understanding I guess. I have spent the last two years of my life wondering why it wasn't my heart that was bad. Wondering if you can feel my love from Heaven. If you have any idea how loved you are. You were so freaking humble, I really don't think you knew how much people loved and admired you... including me.

Went to Suffolk with Chrissy this past weekend. Many toasts were made in your honor. I went there with the idea in my head that nobody was going to come and see us. That if Jeff and Leslie were the only ones I saw, I was ok with that. But you know what? They all came. Chris and Jeff set the whole thing up and all your buds showed. It really was wonderful. I was so glad I went. It wore me out, but I didn't care. It was worth it to hear stories from these guys. They knew a different side of you. I knew my big brother who used to throw me over his shoulder like a potato sack or tickled me until I couldn't breathe or threatened my boyfriends life if they even thought about laying a finger on me.... they knew a true leader. A man who loved his job and was amazing at it. A man to look up to. It is always cool to hear that side of the story, you know?

Chrissy is going to kill me for typing all of this... gonna make her cry. But I needed it. I needed just to sit down and get it all out. Funny how people forget. Went the entire day today waiting for someone to hug me. That's all I needed. I just needed a hug from someone who cared that I was hurting inside. It finally came about 5:45 this afternoon when Matt walked into my class and in front of about twelve five year olds practicing their arabesques hugged me, kissed my forehead and told me he loved me. Big brothers. Everybody needs them. I'm suppose to have two.

I held pretty darn strong today though... until I shut the door of my car in the parking lot ready to head home from work. I hadn't as much turned the ignition when I lost it. Sobbing. The entire drive home, sitting in the car in my driveway, on my front porch and then on Scott's chest when I got home. I just miss you. Its getting easier for me to talk about you. I can actually tell stories now without that stupid lump in my throat. But, some days I'm still just trying to make my way through a foggy day. Just barely finding my way. Today was one of those days. I really don't like to show my feelings all that well. As you know, I just hide them from the rest of the world until I am alone to deal with it. Today was one of those days. But I lived through it. No choice really. But I sure ain't happy about it!

Thank you Drew. Thank you for being my brother. We went through so very much as a family growing up and I know in my heart it brought us closer together. Some of my favorite moments as a teenager were spent in the passenger side seat of your car just riding to town to grab a bite to eat. I just looked up to you so very much. I just hope you know it. I hope you know how much I love you. I hope you do feel that from Heaven.

Enough about you.... :-) Chrissy... thanks for making the trip with me. I know it was not easy traveling all that way, but it was worth it, right? Jeff and Leslie... thanks for everything. You were Drew's friends, but now you are mine too, and I hope it is forever. Who else is going to introduce me to the world of Borat? Chris and Casey... thank you for all you did to put the shin-dig together. You are two of the most kind hearted people I know and I just wish you the best of luck with that new baby! John... just a simple thanks for being you should suffice. All the other Suffolk clan... thank you for coming to hang with the Henley folk. I really don't think you have any idea how much it means to us that you all still come with hugs and laughter. There really isn't anything better to help us through. I love you all with all that I am.

Well... guess that is enough for one night, what do you think?

I love you Drew Henley. I love you more than you could ever know. I can feel you looking from the stars sometimes, and I just hope I am making you proud and not embarrassing you in front of your friends too badly. :-)

With all my love...

Lizzy B
Baby Sis

March 19, 2007

Officer Henley, thank you for your service and dedication. Your actions on 03-19-05 will be remembered as heroic. You sir will not be forgotten. Please keep watch over us as you patrol the golden roads of Heaven. Rest easy brother. To the family, friends and co-workers of this great man, take comfort in knowing you are in our thoughts and prayers.

NC LEO
Winston-Salem PD

March 19, 2007

I had to come back...I just needed to feel like I was near you today...Today so many people have showed me love...the phone rang all day!!! I know how lucky I am to have such good friends and family...it is so hard to think about where we were two years ago...It was so long ago and yet it was just a moment ago....where was I at this time? I was probably finally taking a shower after a very long day...I remember I didn't cry that much...I kept saying I was ok....and then I went into the shower....and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed....then I got myself together, and went back out to face everyone....I must have been in shock...I must have been just numb....how could this be happening? it must not be real..it just can't be real...you promised...you promised to never ever leave me...that you would always take care of me....and now I am alone....not alone in the world...just alone in my heart...I miss you so damn much Drew....I can't even begin to tell you how hard it is here without you....I am so glad that we had the time we did, although not long enough...we loved a lifetime...we knew then...I know it now...we were destined to be together...to help each other through the rough stuff....we were soul mates weren't we? I guess that's why my soul is not complete anymore...that is why it feels so empty inside...and yet, you are still in there....still in my heart...still in my soul....I don't know how I will ever feel complete again....but I am trying baby....cause I know you are always with me...holding me in your arms...I may not always feel it...but I know you are here with me....I will love you always...you will always be in my heart....I will always be yours....love you baby...me

March 19, 2007

Drew: Miss you bunches.....can't beleive it's been two years.....two years too many! Miss you everyday. It was great seeing Chrissy and Lizzie B this weekend. The time went by way too fast though. Your wife and sister are the best in the world!!! Keep an eye out for your SPD family too! Love ya always, Leslie

Leslie Irwin
friend

March 19, 2007

2 years....over 700 days....too many minutes to count....I miss you now as I have since then....I wish you could have been there this weekend to hear your friends talk about you...how much they look up to you and admire you...what a good man...a strong man...a natural leader...yeah they were talking about you!!! Although it was sadness that brought us together this weekend, the love we have for each other is because of you and that is a wonderful thing...I am so blessed to have so many amazing people in my life...I hated to leave....I just felt like I was "home"...every day I miss you and wish you were here to hold me....but I am moving through this...with a smile on my face and tears in my heart...I love you forever and always...thanks for loving me...and thanks for giving me Liz, Jeff, Leslie, John, Deb, Chris, Casey, PK, Dave....to name only a small few....JenPond...Debbie, Lance, Jadi, Danny....and so many more who are there for me...Butler...Lane...baby boy Butts....ok this is starting to sound like an acceptance speach at the grammy's "I'd like to thank the academy"....ok...I am done...I love you baby....forever and ever and ever... me

March 19, 2007