Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hey Bud,
Just wanted to tell you that I was in Savannah all last week, and Drank a toast to you at each place I went to. Still thinking about you, and looking forward to seeing your family next week. Take care.

Detective Sergeant V.T. Rosen
Henry County Police Department

February 6, 2006

I know the one year mark is coming upon all of you who loved Chuck, we feel your pain in Douglas County as the one year mark is also approching us the day we lost Dep. Blake Gammill. There will be a memorial service for Blake and all other fallen officers on Feb.25th at Mozley Gardens in Lithia Springs you are all welcome to attend. Some of us would like to attend the vigil for Chuck if someone would be kind enough to let us know when and where.

Shelley Bullock

February 6, 2006

Brandy & Kat, I am thinking of you as the one year anniversary approaches. I hope it gets easier. Please remember he sees you and he loves you from above. I will pray for your family every day.

Michelle Rogers
Sister of Sgt. J. Dragus EOW 10/20/05

Michelle Rogers

February 2, 2006

I cannot believe that one year is coming up! How can it be? It has been a hard year without you. So much has happened, good and bad. We all miss you so much. It is not the same without you here. I know in my heart that you are in a better place, but it does not make it hurt less. We will be gathered on Feb. 16th to honor and remember you at the place where we lost you. I hate that place! Jimmy, Jay and I went by your grave on Saturday. You have the most amazing marker. It is absolutely the most beutiful thing I have ever seen. But, it is also the saddest thing I have ever seen. It is marking your resting place, and that is wrong. You were too young and should not need a resting place. So many mixed emotions while visiting you. Anger, sadness, confusion and yet pride for who you were and what you died doing. I love and miss you everyday!
You are gone but not forgotten!!!!!!

Brandy Mapp
Cousin

January 24, 2006

Chuck, You were such a great friend.. We love you and miss you. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers..

Mack and Heidi Ward

January 23, 2006

We will honor and remember Chuck with a Candle Light Vigil on Feb. 16th at 6:30 p.m. in front of the Taco Bell off exit #218. For Chuck's friends and loved ones that want to attend, please join us.

The HAIST FAMILY

January 16, 2006

Today is 11 months to the day. I don't even want next month to come. I wish I could never see Feb. 16th. That is day I don't want to cross. 1 YEAR!! 1 YEAR. HOW CAN THIS BE? I don't want it. I simply don't want it. I miss you so much. I love you so much.

Kat, Sister

January 16, 2006

Chuckie, I can't believe 2006 is here - Last year Dec. 04 and Jan 05 was such a great months for us - We cheered on the Falcons (hoping for s Superbowl - that didn't come - and boy did they disappoint this year) - We cheered on the Bulldawgs - and yet even though WVA really put us to shame last night - you would have loved to have been w/ me watching that game -I was screaming for both of us! But at least they made to the Sugar Bowl and won SEC Champs. I remember this time last year we were going to the Punchline, eating at Olive Garden and going to American Pie, meeting for lunch at Red Lobster, talking about a night for rolling skating and me seeing your new apartment for the first time and you were so proud of your new place and what you had accomplished and so many more great memories. Times I really wish were still here for us. I sat at your grave on New Years Day for a while - I told mom, I must have looked like a complete idiot - sitting talking to you... but it brings me comfort and helps I sat there - just trying figure out WHY - Still trying to understand how/why I am suppose to do this (this being the rest of my life), without you. You were a constant in my life - someone I could always count on (not that there are not others - but it's different). It's like, from the time I can remember - you and I - we always had something so special. Something most brothers and sisters don't have - My friend Michelle has some similiar w/ her brother - and I am so jealous, yet so happy for her. Because there is nothing like that true, special Brotherly/Sisterly Love. The feelings that we share for each other -- the friendship -there was a bound and connection - almost as if we were twins. I know I sound crazy - But it is true. But since you have left - my trying to understand has come in the form of signs -- There are so many signs to help comfort me - like that grandmother and grandfater both died on the 16th too -- did you realize THAT? and that you are burried off Hwy 54 - (our favorite numbers together - our sports numbers), did you realize that? HCPD was located off Phillips Dr. - which is were were grew up only in Morrow, not Henry County and did you realize that the address of the place you were responding to that early morning was address 110 - which is your badge number and I could go on and on. I reach for these things, because I need comfort. I believe that you are in heaven and that you are my Guardian Angel - but I miss you. I miss our relationship, how we could always be abnoxious together and laugh laughter more than what most people think as normal and to dance like Monica and Ross on Friends at clubs and people would just rally around us - and at Conventions when we were younger - we use to dance and laugh, and sing and just have fun~! I don't know if God will bless me w/ children one day - but if he does - I can't wait to tell them about their Uncle Chuck!! I can't wait and pray that they can have the same special bound that we shared. I will have to ask Mom and Dad how they did it. Because so many of my friends have siblings and have no clue what a real, special bound is... We even have family that are still living that don't understand and value what they have in a brother/sister relationship. You would think me losing you - would make people wake up!! Life is to short. But they don't - It is sad. I can tell you - I never expected to be sitting here writting my deceased brother a letter in 2006 - I thought we would grow old together. I thought I had so many good times ahead. I thought I had so many games of backgamming (which thanks by the way - I beat Dad 2x's on Christmas Eve and even double backed him once) and Texas Holdem and Just Fun! Like always. I miss you. I miss you, I miss you! Dad wrote me a letter (I may have already told you, but can't remember), about him losing Tommy and how bad it hurt, but that one day, he woke up and it didn't hurt anymore - the stories were just forthcoming and brought joy - instead of sadness - I so look forward to that day. I love you bro.

Kathalee, Sister

January 3, 2006

Happy New Year baby! As happy as it can be. I miss you so bad and nothing is the same without you! I love you so much and miss you soooo bad!!!

Rachel Andrews
Girlfriend

January 3, 2006

Happy New Year! I love you and miss you.

Linda Brewer

January 1, 2006

Chuck,We think about you everyday and we're always seeing things that remind us of you. Your sister mailed us a picture of you and we have hung it on the wall. We are constantly praying for your family and hope that they are doing alright. Chuck we love you and miss you alot. I especially miss seeing that smile, hearing you laugh and just being able to talk to you.
We love ya,
Mack and Heidi Ward

Mack and Heidi Ward

December 30, 2005

Well, it is the day after Christmas and though I haven't seen you during the holidays in years, it has been aweful knowing that you are not there to call. I cannot imagine what your mom, dad, Kat and all of the cousins must be going through right now. I attended a remembrance ceremony at Salem baptist last week. It was pretty generic in terms of ceremony but pastor Rick did an exceptional job of reminding us, those left behind, that eternity is a celebration and you are no doubt partying like never before. He also mentioned how those who have gone on still speak to us and I swear I can hear you at least 2-3 times per week. I am glad you have now celebrated a Christmas the was it was meant to be celebrated, but you left a canyon behind bro. You did it without thinking while you were here, but watch over your family (that is everyone you have ever met) because we need it more than ever. Merry Christmas brother!!!

Greg Banks

December 26, 2005

Chuck was a friend years ago in what seems like another life. He was nice to me when there were many times I didn't deserve it. Kat, I stumbled onto this memorial site and saw that you had posted today (Christmas Day). I wanted to contact you months ago. My parents asked me if I ever talked to you to pass along their sympathies for your family's loss. This my be the only forum to do that. I am very sorry about your brother, he was a good man. God Bless you and your mom and dad.

Brad W.

December 26, 2005

Chuckie, Today is simply not the same. And never will it be again. I haven't written in a while - more selfish than anything - more that I can't handle it, than I can. I needed you today, I needed a hug so bad! I ate plenty of mashed potatos and turkey (a 2nd helping just for you:->). I love you and miss you more than words can express. We left you a tree - lighted w/ frost for you to enjoy. I hope the rain didn't mess it up too bad. You are so deeply loved today, always and forever. Love, Sis

Kat
Sis

December 25, 2005

Well, Christmas is only 3 days away and I cannot believe you will not be here. I see things at the store that I would love to get you, but then I have to stop myself. There is a poem out called "Merry Christmas From Heaven" written by John W. Mooney, Jr. The last line of the poem, which is also on an ornament, says, "I love you all dearly, Now don't shed a tear; I'm spending my Christmas with Jesus this year." That is such an awesome thought. It was so comforting to read those words. How selfish of us to want you here when you get to spend Christmas with the Massiah that it celebrates. But, we are a little selfish, and miss you so much. I cannot believe that you have been gone 10 months. Sometimes it seems like you have been gone for so long, but then sometimes I forget and think about calling you. When it hits that you are gone, it hits hard. This is going to be a very hard Christmas for us all. Your absence will be greatly felt. I am comforted knowing you are spending Christmas with all of your grandparents for the first time in a long time. Tell Mema and PaPa that I love and miss them everyday. I love and miss your everyday, too. Merry Christmas, Cuz. I am not sad to see 2005 end. It has been a rough year. I hope 2006 is better for us all. I know we still have to face Feb. 16th and the week in Washington in May. But I pray taht we will all be able to start the healing process. The shock is slowly starting to wear off. I know it will be a long time before any of us start to feel normal again, the new normal that we have had to start since you were taken away from us. Know that you are though of and missed everyday. I love you!

Brandy Mapp

December 22, 2005

Hey Chuck,
Well Christmas is fast approaching, and I was thinking about this year, and what has happened in it, both the good, and the bad. I was in Macon all last week on thier Sergeant's Assessment Board. There were a few Sergeants from other Agencies there, and they asked me about you. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you, and what I still believe you did for me. I hope that your patrol on Christmas is a quiet one friend. Take care,

Vance

Detective Sergeant V.T. Rosen
Henry County Police Department

December 19, 2005

Merry Christmas. I know yesterday marked ten months that you have been gone. It is hard to believe. I cried most of the day yesterday thinking about you and your family. I was thinking about Christmas and how different it will be for your family and myself but then i realized something Christmas is about Christ. As we try to deal with your loss and the loss of others during this holiday season you get to spend Christmas with Christ. I never had thought much about this til now. I hope your family can find comfort during this holiday season. I understand how difficult it will be. Not only am I dealing with not having you here but I am dealing with the loss of my aunt. It is hard to deal with her being gone but we were able to prepare for her departure and were able to tell her how much we cared. But you were called away so quickly we were not able to do that. Even though you knew we all cared it would just have been nice to tell you. I have learned to tell everyone that i love them everyday because you never know when they will have to leave. My prayers are for your family. I love you and miss you so much.

Linda Brewer

December 17, 2005

I just wanted to say Merry Christmas. You are not forgotten. You are still thought of everyday. We love you and we will never forget the sacrifice you made.

S.Bullock

December 15, 2005

Chuck,

Send your Rachel and all of your family little signs of comfort this holiday season. Having to deal with you being gone daily is hard enough, but the holidays tend to make the pain worse. This will be my fourth Xmas without Scott, and it hasn't gotten easier. I hope you two found each other and are sitting there preparing to celebrate Gods gift to us with a bunch of chocolate and everything else you love. Rachel stay strong, Chuck is always with you. If you like you can reach me through mi-cops monmidg yahoo or hotmail at any time. Find a smile for Chuck today.

Much love and hugs,
Monica
Fiancee Scott Stewart EOW 8-11-02 Detroit

December 12, 2005

Well, I have not had the strength to see your face on this page for a while until now. I am doing everything I can think of to stay very busy during the Holidays without you here. Everything was just so much more when you were around. A simple movie or a ride to the store was more than just that. I do not like being without you. I know your entire family will agree with me also. I heard a song written by Brad Paisley the other day called "When I Get Where I am Going" and I could not stop crying just thinking about you. I know you are very happy where you are and everything is so beautiful but it is so hard to try and look at from that point of view sometimes. I mean, Hello, you are in Heaven.... and we are NOT. I just want to be close to you again. I want to hear your laugh and look into your eyes... It doesn't seem like much to ask for! I love you so much and will always think about you everyday, but please help me and your family get through this first holiday season and try to learn how to celebrate your life and not mourn your absence. I love you and miss you so much Boogies....

Rachel Andrews
girlfriend

December 8, 2005

Christmas is right around the corner, and it is so unfair that you will not be here. I was looking at your picture that Rachael took of you by her front door, and you were so full of life. I cannot understand why you are not here. How could someone with so much life left to live be gone? Beth and I sat at dinner last night talking about you and how hard it is still to believe that you are not here. We were both wiping tears away, trying not to cry. Our waitress must have thought that we were freaks. I cannot believe that it still hurts so much. It has not gotten easier, it has gotten harder. Kat says the same thing. When all the firsts happen, it is just a reminder of your absence. I miss you. You will never be forgotten and we will never stop loving you.

Brandy Mapp

December 8, 2005

HOLIDAY:

We think of you and your family during these holidays, and offer thoughts and prayers as you celebrate without your loved one. Cherish the memories of the past and be open to new ones with your loved ones and friends. Your loved one will never be forgotten and always honored for their sacrifice.

Alissa Scott
Widow of Wayne Scott
E.O.W. 09-10-02

Lisa Schultz
Widow of Don Schultz
E.O.W. 05-12-03

Co-Founders of Survivor Help Network
www.survivorhelpnetwork.org

November 29, 2005

Happy Thanksgiving! I know this is going to be a difficult holiday season for your family. I cant even image their pain. I miss you so much. I just dont understand why you were taken. I never had the chance to tell you how much your friendship meant to me. I have decided that anyone that I care about will know how I feel about them. I tell everyone now how much I love them. There are so many things I wish I could say to you but I cant. I think often about the emails you use to send me. I wish now I had never deleted them. I have a couple that I had not deleted before you died. I read them often. They remind me of how much you loved to joke around and how much you loved life. I miss you. I love you........

Linda Brewer

November 22, 2005

Happy Thanksgiving Officer Haist. I know this is a hard time for your family nd my prayers go out to them. I hope they can take comfort in knowing they will see you again someday.

November 21, 2005

Well, here it comes. The dreaded first holiday season without you. We are making plans for Thanksgiving, and it is so emotional. It was your favorite holiday (probably because of all of the food!). We could always count on you coming to Thanksgiving. Even when it was way up in Flowery Branch. This year it is at my house. I wish you could be there. I will be a bitter-sweet day. I know you would want us to celebrate and be together, but your absence will greatly felt. I know many tears will be shed, but I also hope that we all remember that we still have so munch to be thankful for. I love and miss you so much. I was just talking to your mom, and she was upset. I try not to get upset, because I think it upsets her more. So, when I got off the phone with her, I came here to talk to you. I still cannot believe you are gone. It is so wrong, and it will never be right again. I think about all of the things that you will miss, and it breaks my heart. Life will never be the same without you here.

Brandy Mapp
Cousin

November 21, 2005