Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Missing you sweetheart,
My heart still waits for you to come through our front door. My head still thinks about what advice you might give. My soul knows that you are always near. Time has not changed my feelings for you, nor my need to keep you close! You are safe and sound with our Lord Jesus! can't wait to see you! love you Soul Mate XOXOXO

kathy
wife

January 9, 2009

Most will move on and forget;

Some will remember when they hear your name or story;

Family and friends will keep your memory alive FOREVER!

Howard, you are still in our hearts and thoughts daily; more so on the eve of that horrible, horrible night. It still seems like it was only yesterday, yet it's been four years.
Rest in peace,

Anonymous

January 8, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY LOVE,
MISS YOU SO VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!! I have kept you so close and I know you have stayed close to all of usl!!....we are starting yet another year...I am glad you are watching over us from heaven! Can not wait to be with you again love you Soul MateXOXOXO

kathy
wife

January 4, 2009

Merry Christmas Our love!!!
we miss you more than words could ever say!!! You are never far from our minds and hearts....we are looking forward to the day that we are all together again!!!

your family

December 29, 2008

Merry Christmas Howie. You are not forgotten.

MR

December 28, 2008

Hi sweetheart,
miss you!!! Well Friday went great, Micky and I met some wonderful people! We felt blessed to be apart of the spirit of Christmas. So many are in need these days and not sure when it will get better. We are keeping all in our prayers!
Bryce, Micky and I took our Christmas photes down at your Grove. There were geese and duck everywhere,Bryce got some good shots. My mom will be here for Christmas and we are looking forward to visiting with Krisy Jeff and Sovo!
Mom will get a chance to see their new home for the first time. Micky left today to go to the snow with Kim and all the Wybenga's. They should be back tomorrow if they don't get snowed in. Bryce is doing good and will be working as usual. Love you so much Soul Mate xoxoxo

kathy
wife

December 22, 2008

Good morning sweetheart,
oh my gosh, I know you are so thankful for those who have given so much in this wonderful town of Ceres Ca. in these uncharted times! I am as well WOW!!! We miss you so much!!! we are only one week away from Christmas and are so thankful for being apart of so many that work hard to show that Christmas=LOVE !!! Just like when you were here, I see so much love and giving, and pray I will always be apart of those that really put others first! AMEN! We will keep in prayer all our wonderful friends and family as well as those that are protecting this God fearing country! Our Lord Jesus Christ has given everything so that we can see you, and all those that have gone before us. May God bless all of us through the end of this year(2008) and help us to renew friendships, and make new ones that will bring Joy and Comfort in the New Year! We love you so very very very much!!! counting the days Soul Mate XOXOXO

kathy
wife

December 19, 2008

HI MY LOVE,
WE MISS YOU !!! WELL WE HAD ANOTHER THANKSGIVING AND ARE STILL SO THANKFUL!!! YOU WERE EVERYWHERE!!! WE FELT YOUR LOVE EVERYWHERE! WE WENT FOR A GREAT WALK ON THANKSGIVING DAY! THE SUN WAS OUT AND IT FELT RIGHT. YOUR MOM, DAD AND CARMEN MADE US THANKFUL FOR FAMILY!!! STILL, WE ARE HOPING WE ARE MAKING YOU PROUD!!! WE WILL ALWAYS BE PROUD TO BE YOUR FAMILY!!! STAY CLOSE CAUSE....TODAY IS ONE DAY CLOSER TO HEAVEN AND YOU!!! LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL!!! XOXOXO

kathy
wife

December 5, 2008

Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.

Always, always thinking of you, Howard. With the upcoming holidays, more than ever we are so grateful to have had the gift of you in our lives; a brother, a son, a husband, a father, a cousin, a friend, a protector of your community. It never really sinks in, but that’s because you’re living on in each of our hearts. Love you so much.
Carmen

Anonymous

November 20, 2008

Hi Howie, It's been awhile since I wrote anything on here but you know I am always thinking of you. The kids are getting so big. Kalani started high school and played water polo. Michael is in 6th grade and played football. They are doing great and Greg & I are so proud of them. We had a co-ed softball team with the PD & Fire. Micky played a game with us and she had so much fun. SHe has grown up too. You would be proud.
Miss you and love you much!

Shawnna Yotsuya
Ceres PD, friend

November 20, 2008

Hi my love,
Gosh, we miss you. The holiday's are coming up again. Of course the bright things are that we will be spending time with family. We know you are with us in spirit! Guarding us through out each day. I went out to Lakewood again and every time I see your place, it reminds me that you are not bound by an earthly body; you have your perfect Heavenly one that sets you free to watch over us all. Everyone is doing great. We have been staying busy. Love you Soul Mate XOXOXO

kathy
wife

November 6, 2008

Never to be forgotten:

Reflect, and remember:
All gave some
And some gave all
Some stood through
For the red, white and blue
And some had to fall
And if you ever think of me
Think of all your liberties
And recall
Some gave all. (unknown writer)

Sir, You are an unbelievable HERO. THANK YOU.

Anonymous

October 27, 2008

Hi my love,
just wanted to remind you how much we miss you!!! Bryce took off to spend the weekend at your parents. He and his friends are helping with your Dad's duck blind. I remember going almost every year to help. It was hard work but lots of fun. It is starting to feel like Fall now. There is a cool breeze this weekend. Micky is down in Merced hanging out with Elise. The house is so quite this afternoon. I just got back from Lakewood. Wanted to check on your flowers. They still look really nice. The flags were blowing beautifully in the breeze. Makes me thankful to live in America and be an American! I never take things for granted anymore you know. This World is going crazy...not sure what tomorrow will bring? Apart of me is glad that you are not here to see all this and apart wishes you were here to stand with us through what might be next. Kim and Gary might be moving back here. She said, she wants to be close to family if things get crazier in the World. We been praying for all the Brave people protecting our way of life here in America. They are special Angels! I know you understand what I'm talking about. We love you so very very much Soul Mate xoxoxo

kathy
wife

October 11, 2008

Good Morning Sweetheart,
missing you!!! I can't believe that it is already the 25th of September....this has been a very busy month as you know. Our trip back East to see Great Grandma was fantastic! Bryce and Micky got a chance to really visit with your Grandma. It will be something they will always remember! I know they enjoyed hearing all the history of your family. Your Grandma is so wonderful and has an unbelievable memory! I could only wish to be that sharp....at any age! We celebrated her Birthday with her and your Mom, Dad and Carmen made the whole trip smooth. I give thanks everyday for all the blessings still in our lives. Love you so very much and can not wait until the day I can wrap my arms around you again Soul Mate! xoxoxo

kathy
wife

September 25, 2008

Howie,
I writing because I haven't left a reflection in awhile. I am now a Freshman at PHS and am on the water polo team. I am writing a report thing on a imprtant or life changing event in my life and I'm writing about you.
I also just wanted you to know I think about you all the time and I love and miss you soo much!! Can you belive NO ONE will dance with me the way you did? I think they are all crazy!!!
Love,
Kalani

Kalani
Friend

September 22, 2008

I don’t know you Sgt. Stevenson, nor do I know anyone who’s ever met you. I came across this page when I was doing a search on the Ceres Police Department for my boyfriend who has applied there … And I felt inspired and compelled to leave a message as I was so incredibly moved by the love and loyalty you have inspired among your friends and family. I was particularly struck by the love notes from your wife Kathy. Although, I am excited for my boyfriend and praying for him to get this job he loves so much, I live in fear of this very thing happening to him. Kathy, I can’t pretend to know your pain, and I hope I never have to, but your love and continued reaching out to your husband, even now, has touched me and I know that no matter what comes next for my boyfriend and I, we will always have each other no matter what. And you have inspired me to send him the love notes I’m always intending to send, now … just in case. I will say a prayer for you and your family and I truly wish you peace and happiness.

JRG

September 11, 2008

hi Babe,
just want to say thank you to all of our friends, I know you and Bob are missed by all of us and we keep your spirits alive through all the wonderful memories each of us keep close in our hearts! Love you so much ! Each day is a day closer to you !!! love you Soul Mate xoxoxo

kathy
wife

August 27, 2008

Ceres just held their National Night Out campaign a few weeks ago and I can definitely say that I sure could feel Bob's and your spirits there. You two live on in the eyes and the hearts of your colleagues. I could feel that you and Bob Panos were there in spirit. Seeing Kathy and Micky there really made for an enjoyable evening. It made my day.

Lawrence Borges
Former Modesto Bee Carrier

August 23, 2008

missing you, love you always.
your family

Anonymous

August 21, 2008

Howie.. missin you lotz!
Marc just registered at Davis High in the PSA to get an early start on being an officer. You are totally his inspiration. He has dedicated the entire back of his new binder to you and you are in his wallet, along with his heart. I really wish we had more family times together. He so would have been your shadow.
Talking to your wife for hours the other night.. she truley inspires me. What a strong legacy you have left here. :)
Your kids are sooo impressive!
Miss you...
Please watch over Marc and keep in his heart ALWAYS!

Anonymous

August 11, 2008

Good morning sweetheart,
miss you!!! Well the kids are back from their trips. I really missed them and am glad their home safe. Micky was gone 10 days but it seemed much longer. She said, she had a great time visiting Aunt Kim and Uncle Gary. I am going to try and visit them before the end of the year. Bryce said, mountain madness was pretty laid back this year. He said, he got a chance to hear some stories of you from back in the day. I know that meant a lot to him!
School is starting this month and i can't believe how fast the summer went!
I wish we had more time because I didn't get a chance to plan a trip with just the kids and me. I'm thinking maybe planning something for a weekend in early fall. Maybe the beach? I wish I had your leadership on this! You always had fun places for us to go!!! I will look at some of our photo albums and see if past trips can inspire me. Anyway I'm sure it will work out somehow.
We love you so much!!! can't wait til the day Soul Mate xoxoxo

kathy
wife

August 8, 2008

Hey Brother!

It has been a while. Just thinking of you and yours. A friend is in DC and wanted to look your name up at the National Memorial. He saw a picture of you that I keep in my classroom and wanted to go to the National Memorial. I hate the fact that you are on that wall! As far away as I am now, I hate the fact that you are no longer with us! RIP Brother!

Jeremy Gatlin
Former Ceres PD

August 5, 2008

Sir,

It has been a while since I have written to you, the last time I wrote to you I was informing you of Officer Panos's passing, but I have only happy thoughts today. I wanted to let you know that I had a great time with Bryce, and Tom when we took our road trip to Walla Walla. We loved it up there, everywhere you look there were beautiful green trees and rolling hills of green grass, Bryce said that you would have loved it up there. As for me personally I am still Captain of the Explorers at Ceres PD, but now I am also Recruit Silva at the police academy. I've learned so much since I started the academy, and I've lost approximatly five pounds as well hahaha. Well Sir, I just wanted to let you know how everything is going on and that Im in the academy now. Im looking forward to becoming a police officer, I know in my heart that I will do fine, espically with you and Off. Panos guiding me along the way.

Anthony Silva
Bryc's Friend Ceres Police Explorer Cpt.

July 16, 2008

Hi my Sweetheart,
I just wanted to tell you how much in love I am with you still, you had my heart from the time we met. I know you understand that true love never dies. You love us so much even from heaven and of course we love you so much from here. I find so much comfort in that fact! We miss you and can not wait until the day we are together again!!! You and all that you gave and are still giving is what makes each day a blessing. You know perfect love in heaven and we know true love here, so LOVE is what keeps us connected even though we are apart in body only...Thank our Great Lord!
The kids are doing wonderful and keeping busy as always. Bryce is working a lot this summer to built his savings for school this fall. Micky is playing some great ball and enjoying her last summer not working outside the our home. I know you have been watching out for them like you do. They are both getting ready for different trips in the next week, so will keep you posted. Micky is going to Walla Walla with Elise again and Bryce is going to Mountain Madness.
The summer is going by too fast. School starts in about a month so I am glad that they get to do something they like. Miss you more than words Soul Mate until the day xoxoxox

kathy
wife

July 15, 2008

Wow, I haven't been on here on quite some time, and reading all of the reflections, I regret being gone. Your page is one I used to come to on a daily basis, every night I got off work. Reading all of the wonderful comments have really touched me again as they always do. You know that you will never be forgotten. Recently there have been so many television shows in Honor of yourself, and the documentation of that horrific night. It has made me think of you so much and have dreams of being back there again that night. I just wanted to get on here to say hello. We are getting ready to go to Mt. Madness in a few weeks. You will definately be missed, especially by me since you won't be there to save me like before! haha... We will definately pay your plaque a visit!!!
Brock

Brock
Ceres PD

July 7, 2008