Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Well my love,
As you know, tomorrow we will start our sixth year without you here with us. I can't really absorb the time in my mind, in many ways the days seem to go by so fast, however when I think about you being gone for six years I just can't wrap my heart around that. You are always in my thoughts and actions. In everything I do you are there, when I awake, my first thought is of you. I have learned to stay connected to you in the most special way. I can't even find the words to explain how it works, but I am grateful that I feel you with us always. Thank You for all the love and for showing us what being brave is all about...you are and always will be Our Hero!!! We Love you so very much!!! Soul Mate, I am counting the days until we are all together again xoxoxo

kathy your loving wife forever!

January 8, 2011

Merry Christmas my love,
We were all together this Christmas!!! We planted a blue spruce tree at your Grove on Christmas Day. Thanks to your (our) good family friend Ron R. We always enjoy being down at your Grove!!! It really has a peacefulness about it, that words can't express. We Love you and miss you greatly. I know my mom is up there with you now. I am happy for her and of course sad that I must wait until I finish my work down here, to see you, her and so many others that I miss. I give Thanks and Praise to Our Lord Jesus Christ for His sacrifice so that we can be in Heaven together in His perfect love!!! Until then... Merry Christmas Soul Mate xoxoxo

kathy your loving wife forever!

December 27, 2010

Hi Howard.You would be so proud of Kathy, Mic and Bryce.The days following Pat's death have been difficult for all of us. Bryce softened our grief with a wonderful DVD he scripted,added music and developed a slide show of her life. It was extremely difficult to watch the first time around but has enforced my belief that her life was full and happy. The holidays are upon us now and we are so thankful for family.Miss you. I always remember you standing in our family room with wide stance, arms folded and that half smile on your face.You are very special, indeed.

Barbara Olson
Family

December 9, 2010

Hi my love,
thinking of you as usual, longing for the day we are reunited again...
well, we are heading into another season without you and it always surprises me how time stopped when you were killed and yet the days still continue on...we are missing you greatly as well as my mom. I know she is in perfect love along with you and so many others that have been called home. I know we will see all of you again and for that I am grateful beyond words. I cling to the hope in Our Lords promise and trust that He will see us through whatever is set before us. My heart aches and at times is filled with overwhelming sadness, sadness for what was violently taken from me and all that know and love you. I am so sorry that you had to stand and fight such evil. I know the Lord was with you and that is the reason I can continue on...I know He stood with you as you gave your life to protect ours. I love you so very much Howard and truly live here only in body...my heart is where you are and will continue to look forward to going home for eternity. Thank You for all that you taught me and all that you gave while you were here. Please keep us in your prayers and watch over each of us as we do our best in honor of your sacrifice. sending kisses and hugs to all those we love in Heaven Blessed are those that are with Our Lord Jesus...keeping my eyes towards Him always Soul Mate xoxoxo

kathy your loving wife forever!

November 21, 2010

Hi Howie, Again you would be so very proud of Kathy, your mom, pop and Carmen. It was a very difficult day with the loss of Pat. They all had such pain in their eyes..not just for Pat but for the loss of their dear son. It never seems to go away. They are wonderful, wonderful people. They were so lucky to have you in their lives and you were so lucky to have them. Our hearts tonight seem broken but we must all grieve and than continue to care for our families as she would want and expect us to do. The world and our families have lost 4 amazing people, Grandma Roberts Sexton Koch, Dennis, Pat and of course, you Howie.

Barbara Olson

October 17, 2010

Hi my Love,
I know my mom is with our Lord and you and all that love her!!! I can not wait to be home too!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love you and miss you with every fiber of my being xoxoxo

kathy your loving wife forever!

October 13, 2010

Hi Howard,
well keep on praying for us down here Okay
love you and miss you with all my heart and soul
xoxoxo

kathy your loving wife forever!

October 11, 2010

Hi my love,
Well today we were all so very proud once again...Thank you for helping raise our beautiful children...love you and looking always to the day we are together again xoxoxox

kathy your loving wife forever!

September 19, 2010

Rest in Peace my Brother, we have the Watch from here.

Ofc.V Cole #8755
Phoenix Police

September 11, 2010

Hi Babe,
we are stopping by to say we miss you and love you with all our hearts, minds and souls. xoxoxo
Guess what Micky and I did today....we pulled up the last of the green carpet! ya whoo We worked together and it was hard work too, but we knew we could do it!!! It felt so good to finally get rid of that carpet. It has been on my "to do" list for at least 5yrs! I know you always value hard work and doing things yourself it possible, so Thank You for leading by example once again:) We are going to put tile in there and move the pool table to the big living room so my mom can use the pool room as a living room. We are setting it up so she can get about with her wheelchair independently. Carmen and your mom said, they would help decorate so that will be a lot of fun. Bryce and Micky are doing GREAT and I know you are very proud of them, just like me:)
We are looking forward to September because Bryce graduates from the Academy!!! Everyone will be here to celebrate with us. I know you will be with us in spirit...
Love you Soul Mate and as always I am counting the days until we are together again xoxoxox

kathy your loving wife forever!

August 28, 2010

Hi How......
Watching Gladiator tonight (for at least the 143rd time)....LOVE the phrase Maximus and his Roman "SWAT" team say to eachother....."Strength and Honor".... TOTALLY reminds me of you. Also, the other day....while in my car (I always keep the radio station on the same channel) but the music didn't appeal, so I hit the button for the next programmed station...and 'Bye 'Bye American Pie was in the first verse....I laughed through tears. THANK YOU. LOVE YOU ALWAYS.

Anonymous

August 21, 2010

Hey Howie,
It sure has been a while since I have visited this site.
Sometimes I still think you're alive. I think about you all the time, and I know that you and Bob are with me for the difficult times in my life. High School has been good, I've had my fair share of it all, and I know, as I said, you and Bob are with me when I'm struggling with the hard life of High School. I think you leaving us changed me. I try my hardest to stay out of trouble, whereas before it seemed like I was always in the office. It seems like the whole PD has grown more with you being gone, everyone seems to be like an even bigger, stronger family. I recently visited you at your grave. I tried so hard not to cry, because for some reason to me crying seems like a weakness. But its hard not to cry. That day I felt like I had to be strong for Michael. He doesn't show it, but I know he thinks about you all the time. You were with us when Michael dislocated his knee, I know that. The reason I wear the bracelet all the time is because I feel as though a part of you is with me. People have asked me about the bracelet, but I don't tell them the full story, even though I know I should. I just say, "Oh he was just a really good family friend." But you were so much more, you were a best friend to my parents, you were my dancing partner, you were a loving husband and father. I miss you so much. I wish you were still here, but this is God's plan, and we don't want to mess with His plan. God brought you up there for a reason.
You know, in a lot of my friends, I see parts of you. Some have your comedy, some of your dance moves, and they all have your devotion and love. I know they will be there for me through thick and thin.
I miss you Howie....
Love,
Kalani

Kalani
Friend

July 11, 2010

Hi My Love,
just wishing you were here...missing you as always and can't wait until we are together again!!! I am asking for a special prayer...can you ask for mercy and comfort for my mom...I know you are with Our heavenly Father and so thought it couldn't be a bad thing if I ask for extra prayer on her behalf. I know you understand how much she means to us and I know you are able to pray even in Heaven...Thank You my love

kathy your loving wife forever!

July 10, 2010

You and all of your family and friends are in my thoughts on this holiday which you helped protect and preserve. Hero’s like you will never be forgotten.

James Sheppard
Father of Sgt. Jason L. Sheppard EOW 12/7/06

July 4, 2010

Happy Anniversary my Love!!!
missing you as always and love you forever...
xoxoxo

kathy your loving wife forever!

June 27, 2010

Happy Father's Day my Love!!!
Miss you so very much of course and am always giving Thanks to Our lord for the time we had together. Our children have grown up to be loving, caring, smart, beautiful adults and great assets to this world. They have taken everything we taught them and really stepped up to face their future with great confidence. They remind me so very much of you. I know that even though you are not here to talk too, I know they feel you all around them!!! Thank you so much once again for being the BEST Dad ever to them. LOVE YOU Soul Mate xoxoxox

kathy your loving wife forever!

June 20, 2010

Hey Howie. Wanted to stop by and say a long overdue hello. I know we have our conversations when I'm on patrol but it's been a while since I've posted something here. My kids visited the cemetary the other day. Their grandmother had taken them there while she had to take care of some other arrangements. They both wanted to visit their uncle Howie, so she took them to your site. They both miss you very much. Kalani wears her "Howie" wrist band with pride. Michael is more quiet and reserved, but the photo that my mother in-law took of him while he visited your site tells it all. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you buddy. Thanks for watching over us!

Greg Yotsuya, Patrol Officer
Ceres PD

June 17, 2010

Hi my love,
Just wanted to say that I know today is Howard Stevenson Day by Proclamation and we are usually spending the day with all our family, including Police, Fire, and all the wonderful people we value, that show up to clean your wonderful WILDLIFE GROVE....We do plan on getting together soon but I just wanted to let you know once again that We know that you gave your life so that we can be safe!!! Thank You Howard, I promise you that you are not forgotten LOVE YOU Soul Mate xoxoxoxoxoxo

kathy your loving wife forever!

June 13, 2010

Hi my sweetheart,
I am thinking today, Memorial Day, about all those men and women in both military and law enforcement that are called to duty. A duty that only a few are strong enough to carry out. I want to say THANK YOU to not only you but to all those that put their lives on the line, so that we might be safe. I love you and miss you so very much and am looking forward to the day we are together again....xoxoxo Soul Mate

kathy your loving wife forever!

May 31, 2010

Hi my sweetheart,
I really miss you and wish you were here with us. Micky is graduating in a few weeks and I know she would love to look out and see her Daddy, smiling and watching her as she is handed her diploma. I know you did everything you could to come home to us. I thank you for being the most wonderful father and husband. There is not a day that goes by that you are not thought of and loved. I will do my best to continue on, as Bryce and Micky's cheerleader, as they continue to become the wonderful young adults that we raised them to be!!! Can not wait to be together again
love you Soul Mate

kathy your loving wife forever!

May 27, 2010

Hi my sweetheart,
just wanted to check in and let you know we are coming up on Police Week in May. We miss you today as much as the day you gave your life!!! We are keeping all the families in prayer those past and present that have had to live without their Brave and Selfless Officers. We remember always the COST to keep our streets safe!!! I also salute the families that are left to bravely push forward....May Our Great and loving God bless all our Police, Military, and Fire fighters as they put themselves on the line to protect and serve. Until the day:) We love you Howard...love you always and forever Soul Mate xoxoxo

kathy your loving wife forever!

April 19, 2010

Happy Easter Sweetheart!!!
LOVE You and know you truly get what we are celebrating on Easter, because of our Lord Jesus Christ you are not dead but very much alive in Him. I give thanks and praise and all the Glory to Him. I am looking forever forward to the day that we are reunited!!!
We had a beautiful Easter weekend with family:)
The weather was cool and rainy part of the time and sunny the rest. Carmen and I got some perfect walking time in and we enjoyed every minute!!! We love you so much and are missing you always...with all my love Soul Mate xoxoxox

kathy your loving wife forever!

April 6, 2010

Hi Honey,
just wanted to say how much we love you and miss you!!! Today is the first day of spring and I am hearing the sounds of lawn mowers and people outside their homes again...doing all kinds of chores. The sun is out and our windows are open as we to get into spring cleaning too. This is one of my favorite times of the year! I have renewed energy and am ready to get the back yard in shape and do some BBQing with the kids. Gosh, I wish more than anything you could be here with us still!!! I know you are in the best place ever HEAVEN but until the day that I can be with you I will be holding on to my beautiful memories of the days past...you left us with such wonderful ones and I am always so grateful for that. Thank You my sweet, and loving Husband, you still light up my heart, even if you are not here physically to touch, hug and kiss on... because I can see you everywhere in our wonderful young adult Children. I know you are as pleased with the way they are living their lives as I am. You did a great job teaching them and even me how to be a good and loving person. You showed by example the way to treat others and the way life should be lived. Lived with great energy and with always looking for adventure even in the most unexpected places. Thank You again because I truly know that we are living just like you would have wanted for us.
Love you love you and can't wait to see you again Soul Mate
xoxoxo

kathy your loving wife forever!

March 20, 2010

Oh Howard,
I am so very sad once again as we morn the loss of yet another Brave Officer, and are keeping yet another in constant prayer, as his family stays by his side while he is on life support. I know you were among many there to welcome him into the Gates of Heaven, to the place Our Lord Jesus prepared. That is what truly helps me deal with such tragic and unbelievable loss. Loss of such a wonderful and loving soul that put his life on the line just like you and so many others. Please keep all of his family in prayer. Please pray for healing because these days ahead are filled with great sadness for not only his wife and children but for His FCSD family as well. We miss you and love you with all our hearts and souls xoxoxox until the day...

kathy your loving wife forever!

February 26, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOWARD

WE KNOW YOU ARE WITH THE ANGEL'S CELEBRATING AND ENJOYING THE GIFT'S THAT CAN BE FOUND ONLY IN HEAVEN...WE MISS YOU TODAY AND EVERYDAY AND LOVE YOU WITH ALL OUR HEARTS...WE ARE SENDING KISSES AND HUGS TO YOU AND LOOKING FORWARD TO THE DAY WE ARE TOGETHER AGAIN...XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

your Loving Family Forever

February 18, 2010