Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Dear Farva,
It’s been an entire year since I got the worst phone call of my life. And it still hurts everyday. You were always my go-to guy when I needed someone to talk to. Always there to listen and always knew the right things to say. I miss you so horribly. Thank you for everything. The patience, the laughs, the movies and dinners, the rides, the McD’s, and the constant thoughtfulness. When I thought nobody else in the world cared about me, you and your family proved me wrong. I never let on how very proud I was of you. How many people say “I want to be in the Secret Service when I grow up,” and actually go and do it? You were so amazing. You’ve inspired everyone to follow their dreams. You’ve left a huge void behind, but I am grateful that I was given the privilege of having you as a friend. You treated me like family and I will remember you as the goofy big brother I always wanted. I love you so much, Phil! I hope I make you proud someday. Till the next life, Secret Agent Man…
Love, Diane

November 27, 2005

Our Dearest Phillip,

Yesterday, I remembered the talk we had one year ago yesterday. It was as if you have never left us the way I remembered almost every word you spoke. You were so full of energy and enthusiasm as always, the same energy since you were just a little one.

You will always be cherished and never forgotten for all the good you have done for so many. Your smile, your energy and positive attitude keep us going no matter how difficult things get around here.

God bless you, your family and your many friends. Thank you for watching over us and protecting us.

We love you always,
US

November 22, 2005

A year has passed since you’ve been gone;
My mind’s puzzled and can’t move on.
I still can’t believe it and I’m not sure I want to;
I cannot face the fact of ever losing you.
My world was at a stand still ever since that dreary day;
And the emptiness I’m feeling, I can’t make it go away.
All I do is long for you and think of our times together;
Funny how, when looking back, I’d thought they’d last forever.
If only there were ways to communicate with you;
To tell me you’re ok and that you’re thinking of me too.
I wish that I could have you right by my side again;
You always were and will always be my greatest of true friends.
You knew just what to say especially when times weren’t great;
You would call to cheer me up, those calls I’d appreciate.
You’re death has made me realize just how precious life can be;
To never take a day for granted and to live life happily.
“Make each moment count”, as you’ve told me once before;
Words imprinted in my mind and will live forever more.

I’m missing you so much. I’ve been reminiscing lately about the times we’ve shared, getting all teary eyed and just feeling so lonely. I can’t believe it’s autumn again. Autumn used to be my favorite season and November my favorite month; however, adding your death to it, well, just makes it not so favorable and so much harder to cope with. It’s been a year and sometimes I still wake up thinking I’ve just had a very bad dream. It takes a lot of strength to get through any given day or night, but it takes even more strength letting the reality of it all sink in. Sometimes I wish, so hard, that the phone would ring and it be you. I find myself constantly thinking about and talking to you: while I’m at work, at home, in the car, in a store – anywhere & everywhere. I looked up at the sky on the 9th and noticed how beautiful it was. Of course, I began talking to you – telling you that I know you’re there, watching over and protecting me and everyone you love. I was staring at one particular bright star when I began saying thank you out loud; I even wished that you were by my side so that I wouldn’t have to be talking to myself when all of a sudden a shooting star went by. It was so amazing and it flew across the sky for about 5 to 7 seconds. I couldn’t believe how long that star seemed to be crossing that night sky; normally they’re gone before you even have the time to realize what you’re seeing. Anyhow, I took that as your way of saying “Hello, I’m here & I’m alright”. I’m certain you have an idea of how I felt at that moment – a sense of peace and serenity took over me, it felt like you were next to me telling me that I’d be alright as well; it was such a great feeling. A feeling I wish would never go away.

As always, you’re on my mind and most definitely in my heart!
Un beso,
Siena

November 22, 2005

Another year has gone. I looked up
"today in history" and when I saw your picture, I remembered you. I
just read so many reflections and am
feeling so sad for all the people who
held you in such high esteem. This
is truly a tragedy, you definitely were
one of the best. The world needs
more people like you, not fewer. Your memory will live on forever and
the mark you left behind will never be
diminished. You fill our hearts with such love and admiration for the special person you are. God bless
those left behind.
Lynn Kole
Washington State

November 22, 2005

I can't believe it's been a year already. You are missed and thought of often.

Love,

Karen & Dean

November 22, 2005

To the Lebid Family:

It is with sadness and great regret that I share in the pain you have felt this past year. Please know that you've been in my heart & prayers everyday, especially during this time.

The scar will always be there but, in time, the wounds will heal.

God bless you all,
Siena

November 22, 2005

Phillip,
The pain of losing you still hurts so much. Whenever someone chews the kind of gum you always did it brings my thoughts right to you. It is funny how I remember all the little things about you. You accomplished so much in your much too short life. I am glad you got to be everything you ever wanted. I was so proud of you. I wish there was a way to ease the pain. Today and everyday you are in my thoughts and definately in my heart.

All my love

November 22, 2005

Well Phil, a year has gone by and I still cannot believe you are gone. I treasure the talks we used to have, although they may have not been as often as I liked, when we did talk it was as if no time had passed and we would get lost in the conversation. Phil, you are loved by so many, and rightfully so; you touched so many lives with your warm heart. Please know you and your family are always in my thoughts and I know you will continue to watch over all those whose lives you touched; thank you for that. Rest well angel.

A Friend

November 22, 2005

As a year approaches, you are still missed like it was yesterday. I will never forget you.

A friend

November 18, 2005

A year I can not believe it is true. Phillip you will forever be in my heart. You were genuine and kind. It is too bad the timing was all wrong for us. I pray for your family. Until we meet again.

All my love

November 18, 2005

Was at JJRTC yesterday and thought about you many times.. One memory of you in particular made me laugh..I walked into the locker room in the PT Building and while I was putting something in my locker I remembered you and your HUGE black bag that you carried and constantly caught grief about... if you are wondering we still give you crap about that bag and reflect on the "good old 240 days"

November 4, 2005

It has been almost one year since your tragic passing, and you have not been forgotten. We continue to keep you and your family in our prayers.

Your brothers in the USSS/Uniformed Division.

Sergeant Michael J. Kuchinsky
U.S. Secret Service/UD

November 3, 2005

Phillip

Has it been 11 months? I can't believe a year is approaching. As you can see from your reflections, we are all still mourning and missing you. I don't think it will ever stop. Just wanted to tell you I am thinking about you. I still cry when I read your reflections, and I am tearing up writing this one. It is still hard to put my arms around the fact I will never see you again. I know that we didn’t see or even talk all that often, but when we did, it was like no time had passed. You have the most sincere soul that I have ever known. I am definitely proud and privileged to have known you and loved you. Take care, rest well. Thank you for being our guardian angel.

A Friend

October 22, 2005

Hello Dear Phillip,

We miss you more than ever. Each day that goes by does not get any easier. We know you are in a better place but wish you were still here with us. Please watch over us.

We love you,
US

October 21, 2005

I'm driving up to Philadelphia and I wish I could call you up to tell you all about the trip when I return. I remember how much you enjoyed my stories whenever I would visit up there; but, I know you'll be there, watching over & protecting me - Thank You!

You're on my mind & definitely in my heart...un beso.

October 12, 2005

Hey Phil, I apologize for not leaving a reflection sooner. I'm not sure how to say this.......I was honored to have worked side by side with you at FMPD and I never told you how much I respected and trusted you. I enterd the FMPD family shortly after your class....I remember a conversation we had just behind the "Stop and Shop" at Palm Beach and Palmetto (Now it's called Shoemaker Blvd.........I refuse to call it Shoemaker Blvd over the radio......I know you know why) I remember how you told me just to "relax" and to be patient....I also remember hearing you call out a chase over the radio right after that conversation and you were amazing at remaining calm and giving your exact location.......I will always remember seeing the beam of your flashlight bobbing up and down as you were chasing that perp around some house in zone 1. I will also remember your smiling face after I finally caught up to you and the perp.....I know he will never forget it either...... There was so much I learned from you both professionally and personally....You were so psyched to be an agent for the Secret Service and you fit the bill....You are a wonderful person......I regret that I never told you in person. Phil....Take care my brother.

October 2, 2005

Phillip,
I miss you still. I will always. I know you are in heaven, happy and free of all the pain that's still being passed around here down on earth.
I love you and am trying to muster up enough courage to go and see your family or at least leave flowers and a letter. I want them to know what you meant to me and pass along the kind words you shared about them.
I don't understand why it still hurts so much to think about you being gone.
You were precious and I know that's why. I am still amazed at how vivid the picture of you still is in my mind. I can see you and feel your last hug like it was yesterday.
You see, Phil, I wasn't at your funeral. I didn't find out you had passed until almost a month after, just before Christmas. I feel like you were stolen from this earth. You were, it's never God's plan to cause suffering. I hope your family knows that this is not from God, it's just not like Him to cause pain. Every good and perfect gift comes from God. You were one of those gifts.
Love you,
Your "artsy" friend

n/a; friend

September 27, 2005

Our lives are intertwined, somehow always connected;
And when we'd have to say goodbye, I’d always feel somewhat neglected.
But no matter which way we turned, we always found each other;
It would be days, weeks, and sometimes months, but we always wound up together.
A simple call and a quick hello was all I needed from you;
It was the way I knew, that in fact, you missed me too.
When you’d walk back into my life, it would seem no time had passed;
We’d pick right up from where we were, the time we saw each other last.
We could always reconnect and speak of times we’ve missed;
And many times we’d just sit back to simply reminisce.
As fast as we were reconnected, we’d quickly be ripped apart;
It was a very cruel game; fate played with our hearts.
And now apart is what we are, as was planned by destiny;
Even fate can’t help us now; God has taken you from me.
The times we spent together are still my greatest memories;
I will cherish them forever; they will always be with me.

You are missed so much and by so many, but I don't think anyone misses you more than me. I wish this was just one of our "time apart" moments. You're in my mind and definitely in my heart - always!

Un beso,
Siena

September 22, 2005

Phil, I just wanted to say thank you for all the memories and all the help you provided for me. You may have never known the help you give, because it came so easy for you, but I always did and until now never got to say thank you. Thank You Phil.

September 19, 2005

Phillip,
The loss of you is still hard to cope with. You were a wonderful person..open, honest, loving. I will never forget the time we were together-it was one of the happiest in my life. When I close my eyes I can see your smile and that brings me great comfort. Rest well my sweet and watch over us all.

All my love

September 15, 2005

Phil-just a few days ago, we are still talking about you.

"Phil would think this,... Phil would say that,..."

In such a short time, You made such an impact on all of us and gave many of us a fresh look at a job we all took for granted. You never tried to be anything but yourself, which is a rare thing here!

Many of us are getting ready to go to NY for UNGA, I know you will keep us all safe and watch over us.

Thanks

September 8, 2005

Hello Dear Phillip,

Thank you for watching over all of us. We miss you dearly. You are in our thoughts each day.

God Bless you.

We love you,
US

September 4, 2005

"I try to go on like I never knew you. I'm awake, but my world is half asleep. I pray for this heart to be unbroken, but without you all I'm going to be is incomplete"...bsb couldn't be anymore correct.

I can't believe it's been 9 months. Everyone misses you, especially me! You're on my mind and definitely in my heart.

Un beso.

August 22, 2005

Phillip

Wow, its been 9 months today. Seems like just yesterday. Your reflections say it all, you are missed and loved by so many. Your memories will live on forever in all of us. Rest well. Miss you. Thank you for watching over us.

A Friend

An Old Friend

August 22, 2005

Phillip,
Missing you today and always.

All my love

August 17, 2005