Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

What an awesome man you were and are..my father was a deputy for over 30 years and I know if the two of you had met..you would have been friends...you protected your grandson so well....God Bless you..and keep your family safe....

Charlotte Olson

October 6, 2007

Happy Birthday in Heaven (again) Daddy! I thought of you all day- as usual, but I really missed those birthday cakes with all three names...Daddo, MaryAnne and Jordan. Now MaryAnne is in Canada, Jordan had his own "teenager" birthday party and you are in Heaven. Katie wanted to send you a balloon- I should have gotten one but it was late when she suggested it. Besides, she said she already sent you one last week and wondered if you got it. I look at her sometimes and think about how much you would have enjoyed watching her grow up. We love you and miss you so much. Keep watching us here...we need the protection of our special "Guardian Angel"
I love you!
Me

Lori Johnson Rowley
His Daughter

August 13, 2007

Somewhere among these countless pages of heroes I came across your name. I wanted to stop at your reflection page and thankyou for your dedication to law enforcement and heroism. You are a true hero. Those that love you dearly think of you every single day when they wake each morning and you are the last thought they have before they drift off to sleep at night. Continue to watch over them and protect them. You have not been forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

August 10, 2007

James,
You have never been far from my thoughts and prayers. I had to come here today to let you and your family know that you have never, nor will you ever be forgetten. your work was truely incredible. Not for money, but for LOVE. That is the truest test of Heroism. Thank you.

I can olny pray that your family finds comfort in Gods arms and that they continue to feel your presence as you watch over them.

Also, If you can, spare a few moments to watch over me and the rest of the officers here??
Thanks..

God Speed Brother, my Hero....

June 23, 2007

James,

Once again you and your family are on my mind. I wanted to take a moment to express my thoughts. I am thankful for what you taught me, and better for knowing you. I hope I am making you proud.

A Friend
FCSO

June 12, 2007

Hey Dad! It's been a tough week. The doctor who tried so hard to save your life has lost his. It was on the news that a small plane went down in Lake Michigan, and that he was on it. It is so sad. He was so kind to us when he came in to tell us how hard he and the other surgeons had worked to save you and how sorry he was to have to tell us that you'd died. He cried with us. Now he's joined you, leaving his wife and three small children behind. I know you never met him in life, but you knew who he was when he got to Heaven. I know you were among those who welcomed him home. I just pray for his wife, kids, family, friends and patients he left behind. It just doesn't make sense to me that so many good people are taken so soon and the bad ones linger on and prosper. I think it's just to make Heaven an even better place to go to. Sometimes it hurts so much to be left here. I miss you. I went by your grave today just to be near you, but you aren't really there either. I felt you near me today when I was crying; I looked at the clock and it was 11:11. That made me cry harder, missing you so bad, hurting for the doctor's family, and all the pain that is here for us. But I felt your presence. I read Psalms 30 where Jesus reminded me that tears only last for the night, but joy comes in the morning. I'm longing for the morning.
I love you Daddy, that never dies. God bless you and me.
Always,
Your Baby Girl

Lori Johnson Rowley
His Daughter

June 7, 2007

Lori,
Thanks for the words you left on Calvin's reflections. I wasn't able to attend the service in Wilmington because I was in training for work. I had hoped to get out early enough to get there but didn't. Even though our circumstances were different, I know how hard it is to lose someone you love and how time just doesn't make the pain go away. Obviously you still have other men in your family in law enforcement (as I do also) so I know too how hard it is not to worry even more about them. If your son does become a NC State Trooper, I hope he can be the kind of officer that Calvin was - honest, hard-working and treated people fairly & with respect no matter what they had done. Even if he had to use force, he still treated the person fairly after all was said & done. I'll keep you & your family in my prayers and perhaps we'll get to meet one day at a COPS meeting or memorial service. May the Lord watch over and "your lawmen"!

Denise
Survivor of Trooper Calvin Taylor

May 19, 2007

I dreamed of you again last night...I miss you. I love you, Daddy. Yet another NC LEO has joined you, so soon after the 2 in Charlotte and the one in Winston-Salem. We are leading the Nation in LOD deaths- not a statistic to be proud of. My heart breaks for so many families touched by these losses; I know their pain all too well.
You'd be so proud of you son! Ted is doing excellent in BLET, top in his class. Could you have ever believed he'd take this path? He'll be a great officer, just like your son-in-law, and they will make you proud. I wish I could see your beaming face, beautiful smile and subtle tears welling in your eyes, so full of pride. I know you are watching over them anyway.
Just wanted to say hello, that I love you dearly and miss you every day. Sundays are hard, just missing all those lazy Sundays of going to church, out to eat and watching the kids play or just catching an old rerun on TV.
I love you~
Me

Lori Johnson Rowley
His Daughter

April 15, 2007

I remember some time ago that you came out and ran a track for me on a mentally disturbed guy that went missing. You found him...

Your service to the community is more special than mine...in that you did it not for money, but because you loved what you did.


You rest easy now. Your job is done....we'll take it from here on out. Watch over us from above.

A Brother Officer
Winston-Salem Police Department

April 11, 2007

Daddy,
I found some old video tapes tonight and got to watch you, hear your voice and see your sweet smiling face. It was great to have those tapes, but I really miss having you here. There was one of you napping on the floor of the mountain house and baby Katie waking you up hitting you with a book, wanting you to read to her! She was so little, so cute, and she is missing so much by not having her Daddo to watch her grow. There are so many names of this website of daddy's that will not get to see their children grow, so I am thankful I had you as long as I did. But I still wish you were here. I know that is selfish, but I do. You were so wonderful, and such a huge part of our daily lives, and it just hasn't been easy to let you go. I fixed the flowers at your grave yesterday. The grass still isn't growing too well on your site- what's up with that? You always said any day was a good day as long as you were smelling the daisies and not the roots! You aren't doing too well pushing up daisies! I hope you know how much I still love you. I always will. Goodnight, God bless you and I love you~
Your Baby Girl

Lori Johnson Rowley
His Daughter

March 22, 2007

Brother James,
I still miss you and I think about you often. You were the best zone partner I had and you never asked for anything in return. You would come in and work because you cared enough not to leave me out there by myself. I would give anything for just one more Saturday night in Zone 2 working with you on patrol. I Love You Brother and I can't wait to see you again.

When we all get to Heaven what a day of rejoicing that will be, oh when we all get to Heaven we'll sing and shout the victory.

Cadet Sergeant B.P. Daniels
119th Basic NCSHP School Raleigh, NC

March 10, 2007

Dad, I heard this song and thought how it was written before you died, but could have been written for you. It is so true...

I know your life
On Earth was troubled
And only you could know the pain
You weren't afraid to face the Devil
You were no stranger to the rain.

Go rest high on that Mountain
Dad, your work on Earth is done
Go to Heaven a shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son.

Oh, how we cried the day you left us
We gathered 'round your grave to grieve.
I wish I could see the angels faces
When they hear your sweet voice sing.

Go rest high on that Mountain,
Dad, your work on Earth is done
Go to Heaven a shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son.

Go to Heaven a shoutin'
Love for the Father and the Son.

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I can't wait to see you there, Daddy. I love you and miss you every day. Watch over us~
Love,
Your Baby Girl

Lori Johnson Rowley
His Daughter

March 8, 2007

Memories ran fresh today as I attended the funeral for WSPD officer Sgt. Howard Plouff. I just wanted to let you know you are still in our thoughts and prayers and that you will never be forgotten. God Bless.

Wife of FCSO Deputy

February 27, 2007

Daddy,
We've lost another one. I know you were there to greet him, but it still makes us sad. We will be at his wake tomorrow and the funeral on Tuesday. This will be my first one since yours and I'm dreading it. But it meant so much to me to have the support and love from so many when we lost you, and I have to be there for this family. Continue to watch over us. I miss you and love you dearly. I'm sending kisses to heaven! xoxo

Lori Johnson Rowley
His Daughter

February 25, 2007

James,

While driving today, I found myself thinking about you. I felt like I should dial your number and call you just to see what was going on, as I often used to do. Never long conversations, but long enough to get the true meaning across. I still have your number in my phone. As far as I am concerned, there is no need to take it out. Thanks for watching over me the way you do...especially recently. You know the event I am talking about.

A Friend
FCSO

February 16, 2007

It's hard to read these memorials at times, but it also reminds me Peter is in great company. You are a hero. I thank God for allowing you the mental strength to stand strong while also protecting that innocent child from harm. I will never forget your sacrifice

LEO Fiancee and friend of Peter Grignon EOW 3/23/05

February 1, 2007

Dear Lori,
Thank you for answering so soon. I did not realize you husband had to go through so much. But I am a true beleiver that when the Doctors say they can do no more,that God can. I will not stop intersesary prayer for him. You know Lori, I was unable to go to DCs, I was so sick and ended up having gallbladder surgery. Also I have Fybromylgia. I know God can heal. I was put on disability in 1999, due to it. I hate not working,but some days I just can't get out of bed. Especially when the weather is changing. Although my healing has not come yet I still have faith. It's that I have more faith for others than I do for myself. And I will be praying daily for your husband. The bible says if we have faith and beleive,that by His stripes we are healed. I know it's in Gods time, but I beleive in miricles. The faith of a mustard seed. I was raised in a church that beleive in anointing with oil, and the laying on of hands. I was raised in a pentacostal church, and Lori, I have seen so many miricles right before my eyes.Our Jehova Rafah (THE HEALING GOD) Hope you don't think I'm cazy, but Jesus took the stripes on his back for our healing. So I am praying, and don't give up on what God can do. You and your family are in my prayers, and this comes to you with much love. carolyn

Carolyn Moore

January 28, 2007

Dear Lori,
I had just gone to Mike Gordons site and read your reflection. My son-in-law Sgt. Jeffrey T. Hewitt was shot and killed on 04-04-04 while serving papers on a mentally disturbed man. The man then turned the gun, shot and killed himself. Mike Gordon was killed on 08-08-04, your Dad on 11-04. Four months and four days between each of their deaths. I didn't have a computer until this year,so I was unable to leave reflections for our Hero's. Bob Gordon had left a reflection for Jeff, and it said He (Bob), was retired from Riverside Police Dept. in IL. So I called there,got the address for the Dept. I sent the Gordon's a Christmas card,telling them how sorry I was for the loss of Mike. In return I found in the Gordon's two ofthe finest people I have ever known. They do so much in keeping the memory of Mike alive,but also the children of bereaved parents. I had the pleasure of them coming to vist me last March. We talk every week, Mikes Mom and me. Then Bob and I e-mail each other.
Lori, I am so sorry I have just learned of your father. From your reflections,I know he had to be a wonderful father and Officer. He now patrols streets of gold, and watches over you and your family from Heaven's portals. We find comfort in knowing we will someday be reunited with our loved ones. In that we can rejoice.
My son-in-law was a Marine and served in Desert Storm, and a MP. Jeff worked for Buncombe County Sheriff's Dept. in Asheville. If you don't mind my asking, what town are you in? I know the loss of your Dad had to be so very hard on your husband and son. All of you will be in my prayers and we will keep the memory of your Dad forever alive in our hearts. Hero's live forever. Lori, our Lord was our first Hero, when he gave His life for all of us. So we know He holds those we love,and sacrificed their lives for us close to His heart. My daughter is doing okay, she had a son by a previous marriage Taylor. He loved Jeff so much. Tracie has been very strong on the outside, but I still worry about her.Although she is dating again, we all know that Jeff will always be her one true love. How I miss him, he was such a blessing to my family.
Lori, if there is anything I can ever do for you, please let me know. I'm always here. I will be praying for you and your family every day. And the picture of your Dad says he was a kind gentle man that cared very much for others. Lori take care, and if you ever need to call, I'm in the book, okay? Love and Prayers, Carolyn

Carolyn Moore

January 25, 2007

Lori, your father will always be in your heart. He is watching over you. I hope my son is doing the same for his 3 children, especially his daughter who was only 6 months old when he was killed. Her memories of her Dad will those that we tell her. Your father is a true hero and heroes never die, he will always be remembered by those that love him and the Blue Family. He will never be forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

January 22, 2007

Stay strong Lori. I know your father is proud of you. I will hug my daughters a little tighter today after reading your reflection.

NCLEO

January 21, 2007

Hey Daddy! Just stopping here to say I love you. Things sure get hard here- so much more so than when you were still here. I didn't realize how big your shoulders were and the load you were carrying, and you appeared at ease, like it wasn't even very heavy. You are and always will be my hero. I love and miss you, always, every day, forever.

Lori Johnson Rowley
His Daughter

January 14, 2007

Merry Christmas in Heaven, Daddy! I can only imagine what kind of birthday celebration goes on up there- to be with Jesus as his birthday is celebrated! I miss you down here so much, but that is just my selfishness- I still want my Daddy at Christmas (and every day, for that matter!) I was just thinking today of the many Christmas Days we spent together and how I must have thought they'd go on forever, or at least many more years. I am giving Katie a babydoll for Christmas, just like you gave one to me every year of my life until my own "real" baby, Matthew, was born. I just wish you could see her and her brothers with all their gifts. I also remeber feeling sorry for you and Mom because you two didn't get near as many presents as me and my brothers got. You said it was more fun to watch us, and better to give than receive. I didn't believe you until I became a parent. Now I can't wait to give my children their gifts and watch their reactions. I just think of how much you were cheated out of with them and even more, how much they have been cheated. They all love you still and talk of you often, but they don't have their Daddo here with them. I love you and miss you as always. Thank you for all the years we spent Christmas together, and all the memories. God bless you~
Always your Baby Girl,
Lori

Lori Johnson Rowley
His Daughter

December 24, 2006

Daddy,
You know this has been a difficult weekend, but I think we are doing well. It was pouring rain when Jeremy, your grandchildren and I stood by your grave last night. I laughted thinking of how you'd be saying we were so silly- that we didn't even have the sense to get in out of the rain! Thank you for watching over us~ I love you! Happy second anniversary in Heaven. We miss you, but I know you are in the best place, with Jesus. We all love you, and always will. God bless you, Daddo!

Lori Johnson Rowley
His Daughter

November 12, 2006

Your sacrifice and dedication are remembered and honored as the second anniversary of your tragic death approaches.
Rest in peace, sir.

Linda Lamm - LEO wife and sister of
Jay Balchunas EOW 11.05.04

November 8, 2006

Lorie, I found your fathers page by one of your reflections left on another officers page. Im sorry for the loss of your father.

November 7, 2006