Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

I had the most random of dreams last night. In fact, it woke me up and I was crying. It was a dream of you and my dad patrolling together. It wasn't Austin. I can't even figure out in my mind where it was. But either way, it came to me weird considering you never knew him and I never knew you. But I guess its not too far fetched knowing that you both are on watch on the streets of gold.

Nonetheless, now I'm thinking of and praying for Terry and the kids this weekend and leading into Halloween this coming week.

Melanie

October 29, 2006

Officer Donovan, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers as the second anniversary of your tragic accident approaches.
Although you were an officer for only a few short months, your service and dedication will never be forgotten.
Heroes live forever...

Linda Lamm - LEO wife and sister of
Jay Balchunas EOW 11.05.04

October 26, 2006

I can't even look at this page and not cry. I hate crying, and I hate missing you, i wish more than anything i didn't have to. I wish that i could talk to you and not have to write it all, not have to pray to you... i wish i could talk to you and you could talk back. October sucks...Halloween isn't the same, i wish more than anything i could go out, dress up and have fun, but i cant. Of course i will take Chase trick or treating, he has fun, maybe I'll dress up with him..i bet he would get really excited!!! His piglett costume is still hanging in the closet...i dont think it will fit him now thought. He is a BIG boy. It dosen't matter how bad of a day you are having, Chase can make it better, he can make u smile and make you forget about any stress you have when he is around. He has a little piece of you in him, and it is comforting.
Going to school full time and working is stressful, but i'm making it. I don't get to see Chase every day and i hate it, i miss him when i don't get to see him, but i couldn't live at home forever right?? You said it yourself :)
I love you and miss you
"Wish you were here"
Amanda

October 19, 2006

Soon it will be 2 years since your end of watch and I know the pain and the many tears that have fallen during that time. Lives have been changed forever and will never be the same. The many special days and holidays will never be the same, but your loved ones will all be together and will talk about you and keep you alive in their hearts and minds. The Blue Family will never let you be forgotten. Keep watch over your loved ones and those still out on patrol. I'd like to leave a short poem for your loved ones:

Poem by Richard Fife:

No person is ever truly alone.
Those who live no more,
Echo still within our thoughts,
Our words, our hearts.
And what they did,
And who they were,
Becomes a part of all that we are,
Forever.

Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

October 17, 2006

Happy Birthday,baby
I love you.
Terry

October 11, 2006

Hi Honey,

Today was the baby's birthday. We did pizza and cake at the house with the family. He is such a big boy and so beautiful and smart. I just love talking to him, his expressions are so much like yours. I got him a bike, we have been going in the store for months and he always would ride the red bike in the store and tell me thats what he wanted. He had a great day today. I have to get through this month, it is going to be such a roller coaster. The babys birthday, Christopher's birthday, your birthday and then your favorite holiday Halloween. A day that I aviod,thank god I have Amanda or Darlene to take the baby trick or treating.
October was always a great month for us until....
It's been really hard for me lately Amy. I've driven through the area of your accident and it's really hard not to hate. With the crime right in your face at every intersection. You made me a better man, and I'm being tested everyday. Thank God you gave me Chase.
I love you, I miss you, I ask my self everyday what went wrong, you were surpose to live for ever. You went to work and never came home.I wish this was all just a big nightmare.And the next day everything would be fine. But it's not, it's been 2 years and we keep having birthdays and holidays and the seasons change and your not here. All because some asshole had to run..he ran and now our family is'nt the same I'm not the same and your partner will never be the same.
God Amy I miss you so much.
I don't even think you know how much I love you.
Someday baby, someday i'll see your smile.
Terry

October 2, 2006

Today I was thinking about Amy and drawn to her site. Reading all the loving reflections and poems left by her family and friends shows how loved she was by so many and how missed she is. That radiant smile pulls you in and you know what an amazing woman she was. May her spirit continue to soar and her memory continue to inspire.

To Terry and all her children: May you continue to be comforted by your law enforcement family and each other.
I hope that God is holding Amy and all of you in the sweetest part of his heart and the most gentle part of his soul.

Phyllis Loya, mother of fallen officer Larry Lasater, eow 4/24/05

August 15, 2006

Guess what? You'll be very happy. I am moving in to my apartment tomorrow. You always wanted me to live on my own by the time i was 21, i am a year late.. but whats in a year???? :) I wish you were here to help me decorate it and to get me settled, you'll be there in mind and spirit, i just wish you were really here. Grandpa Fran came to join you today, make sure you take care of each other. It's been hard lately, some days are better than others, but lately all days have been hard. I miss you and love you so much.
Love Always and Forever Amanda

P.S~ i am taking your spices and cookbooks with me!!! :)

Amanda
Daughter

August 2, 2006

Hi Honey,
Sunday will be our anniversary. Ten years. Chase and I will be on a plane going to see your brother and kids. Then we are headed up to see your mom.
We miss you everyday. We love you. We move forward, but not on.
Terry

June 28, 2006

Amy,
I think about you often and I sit here and don't where to start..I miss you and your friendship.
I have tried to write before, and today this is the furthest I've made it. I wear your name on my wrist and see you everyday I work, I try to understand but it is hard.
I miss you and know you are watching over us all. I am blessed to know you and honored to be your friend.

your brothers keeper, clint

C Hamilton
APD

June 23, 2006

Terry and the kids have been on my mind often lately. Wondering where they are, how they are doing. We have no question where you are though Amy.

Melanie

June 3, 2006

I have tried to read all the posts written here about Ofc. Donovan but I can't. I have to wipe too many tears from my eyes. To your family, friends and fellow officers I have to say how lucky you are to have had Amy in your lives. I wish I had been so fortunate. I will meet her someday when my duties in this life are over and I began my other duties in the afterlife. I know that words cannot ease the pain you all feel from your loss. Just know that there are many of us out here who pin on a badge every day who are praying for you. We will not forget..............

AZ Narc

May 30, 2006

I was working the night you passed, on a different side of town. I heard that you were hurt, but nothing else. Me and my friends could not focus on our jobs without thinking about you and your family. We said prayers for you and hoped for the best. I got the page later that night. We lost a sister. God bless you and your family. 10-42

SPO
Austin Police Dept, Austin, Texas

May 29, 2006

When someone is remembered with such love they will never be gone from us.Reading all your refections I can tell that you live on in the hearts and minds of your family.

April 18, 2006

My Mommy lives in God’s house.
She is a hero to me.
You won’t find her name in history books, although she insured the rights of those that someday shall be.
She was taken from me on a cold autumn night.
A time for trick or treat, not to chase a bad guy who chose to take flight.
She didn’t have to chase him, she could of come home to me, but what of the other children. The ones that some pretend not to see.
I’ve wanted to hate that man, who’s face I’ve never seen.
But my Daddy tells me that’s not the way Mommy would want it to be.
A system, something I know nothing about, taught him to run with revolving doors and plea deals, that’s so unfair to me.
It seems those in suit and tie forget that the business that is sent their way, is paid for with an officers blood and sweat, and a victims tears and fears of that day.
My Mommy’s not here to tuck me in at night. And I miss the hugs and kisses she’d always give me on sight.
I love her as I hold my Daddy tight, and dream of my mother, now an angel, taken one night as she fought the good and endless fight.

April 13, 2006

Dear Terry,

I wanted to take a moment to tell you that your beautiful, loving wife is not forgotten. My heart aches for you and your sweet babies.

I understand your pain - I lost my husband and am left to raise 2 children on my own. I find it a comfort to know that I'm walking this path with so many others who have endured similar losses.

Please know that I am thinking of you, and am sending many prayers and warm wishes your way.

God bless you, Officer Donovan. May you continue to rest in eternal peace, forever safe in the arms of the angels.

Carin E. Sollman, surviving spouse
Officer Jesse E. Sollman, EOW 3/25/05

April 11, 2006

God be with all those who knew and loved you. I've sat here crying reading the reflections left by so many people that will miss you eternally. I know you and Pete are in Heaven having a blast. I'm almost positive cops get special treatment up there! Say hi to Peter for me?

Thank you for your sacrifice... may God continue to hold the hands and hearts of your husband and children

LEO Fiancee and friend of Peter Grignon EOW 3/23/05

April 4, 2006

I really do not know what to say here. It is obvious that you are loved and missed. You will never be forgotten. You did a job you loved and did it well from the comments that I have read. I am truly sorry and pray for your family. Rest in Peace.

9-1-1 Communications

March 26, 2006

I often find myself drawn back to your memorial here. I see that your kids and Terry often speak to you though this page. Last year on the aniversary of your passing I went to the Captial and left a single rose for you, to mark the year you have been gone. I plan on every year going and laying roses as the years go by. I knew you for only a little while in our academy class, but you have left a very lasting impression. I see your smiling face everyday in the halls when I walk to showup. I keep your band on my wrist while on patrol that Terry made for us. If any of your family reads this I just want you to know that everyday I look at Amy's picture and it reminds me to keep my head up, concentrate on the job, and stay safe. I just want yall to know that Amy's dreams are still alive. Everyday that I see her picture she keeps me safe and others around me that I serve for and with. Even now she still reaches out and protects us, so that we can go home to our families. I recently became a father to a baby girl, and everytime I see her I thank God, and Amy for bringing me home to her. I promise to keep her dream alive and pass on to others the heart of caring, that Amy so much stood for. So goodbye for now, but keep smiling down from above, because God's work through you is still as strong as ever.

Police Officer
APD

March 20, 2006

I feel bad because I haven't visited the page in a while, not because I don't want to, but because I can't. I guess i try and block out the truth of things. There are so many times throught out the day when i wish i could just pick up the phone and talk to you..like when i am lost :) there are so many times through out the day when i see things that i wish i could tell you about, or i know you would get a kick out of if you were there. There are so many times when i just wish you were here. They say time heals all wounds.. not this one. It like a big gaping wound, and every time it scabs over, it rips right back open. It dosen't get any easier, you just get on. Sometimes i just sit around and try and hear your voice in my head, smell your smell, or see you in front of me. I think that if i can, i will be comforted, but it's not the same.
I finally paid off the ticket from New York...about 3 and 1/2 years late...but paid none the less. I remember when i got that ticket i was driving back to Rome, we had just got done eating dinner. I dont know if subconsciously i waited so long..or if i am just really bad at that kind of stuff. Regardless it's paid.
Chase just came to say goodnight to me...he's gotten so big. I mean he's like a little man. He is wearing your pink "jesus is my homeboy" shirt to bed...his "sleep shirt".
Alright, i am going to go. I love you and i miss you so much. It's been a while.......
Love forever and always,
Amanda

Amanda
Daughter

March 15, 2006

Amy
It was kind of strange today. I guess it was a day where things just kick in. I went to lunch today and the waitress said "Are you by your self" That question hung with me for the longest time.
I guess the answer is that a major part of me will always be by myself.
Chase wanted to know that if angels dance in heaven, who is dancing with his mommy.

March 15, 2006

if tears could build a stairway,
and memorires were a lane.
i would walk right up to heaven
to bring you home again

no farewell words were spoken,
no time to say good-bye
you were gone befor we knew it
and only God knows why.


my heart still aches in sadness,
and secret tears still flow
what it meant to lose you
no one will ever know

you and angels around gods happy throne.
we whould have held you closer if we had known..


we love and miss you everyday.. its not the same with out you..

family..

March 13, 2006

I got to thinking about Terry and Chase and the girls this afternoon.

At the Christmas party, I met Chase for the first time. He came up to me and said hi and told me his mommy has the same color hair. I didn't know what to say other than, "Really?"

Time came and passed that evening. He was just a bundle full of energy that night after two Dr. Peppers.

He ran around the room seemingly a million times chasing another little girl, another survivor's child.

"Chasey never stops!!!", he would shriek every lap he made around the room.

After reading the earlier anonymous entry titled, "She didn't have to run", I've been sitting here thinking......

Those loving childhood memories and spirit, and the bundle of energy he carries.....

We know where he gets that from.

Melanie

March 11, 2006

REST IN PEACE OFFICER DONOVAN, YOU ARE NEVER FORGOTTEN, REST WELL.

OFFICER MARROQUIN
KCFPPD

March 10, 2006

My heart goes out to you and your family. Thank you for your service and rest in peace, sister.

Trooper
Colorado State Patrol

March 8, 2006