Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Reaching Out

I feel your pain
and long to touch the hurt
and make it melt away.
Yes, I know
that I can’t really see
the breadth
and depth
of this dark valley you’re in.
I can’t truly know
just how sharp the knife is
in your soul –
for it is you in its path,
not me.
But I have known other valleys
and in my heart
still bear knife-wound scars.
Even so,
I would walk your road
and take your pain
if I could
I cannot.
And yet, perhaps
in some way
I can be a hand to hold
in the darkness;
in some way, try to blunt
the sharpness of pain.
But if not –
it may help a little
just to know I care.

To Mrs. Linda

February 25, 2007

She is Gone

You can shed tears that she is gone
Or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she will come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all that she has left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her
Or you can be full of the love that you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her and only that she is gone
Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back,
Or you can do what she would want:
smile, open your eyes,
love and go on.

Akeem Dorsey

February 25, 2007

Loving and missing you each day. MOM

January 24, 2007

Going through the academy together was a privelage for me, you are one of the best persons I have ever known. You have been in my thoughts and prayers since the day you left, but never more than on the October 19, the night I was shot. I thought of you alot that night and why and how a got so lucky. Since then I think about you more and more. The docotors say they don't know who, but someone was with me that night. I just smile because I know it was you and for that I thank you.

Sam Palumbo
Friend

January 19, 2007

Rest in Peace Sister We'll take it from here

OFC. E.K. Jackson
City of Decatur Georgia Police

January 5, 2007

love you and missing you, everyday

jewel
cousin

November 30, 2006

Well Toy,
It had been a while since I posted a reflection on this site. So much has changed since the last time I was here. I talk to you a lot and I miss you being here in the flesh. Sometimes I sit and reflect on that night in the house and it still doesn't seem real to me. The stories and lies I still hear to this day are sickening. I get angry most of the time I hear those stories and instead of people coming to me to ask me what happened that awful night, they make up stories or listen to people who weren't even there that night. You and I know the truth, and thats what matters. I past the house where the shooting happened every now and then, and it brings me back to that night everytime.

Morgan is getting so big now, I can't believe she is almost a year. I remember when I first found out I was pregnant. I knew it I was having a girl. The name was already picked, Morgan LaToya. She is such a joy, and your mom and Raven just love her. Raven has a God sister and your mom is her Godmother. I miss you so much I still smile when I think about the good times we had. No one will ever understand the relationship you and I had, as my partner, and the sister I never had. If I was having a bad day, you always would say something to make laugh, and you know that wasn't easy to do. God blessed me by putting you in my life if only for a short time, the memory of you will last a lifetime.

There is a song that I always think about when you come to mind:
Though I'm missing you
I'll find a way to get through
Living without you
'Cause you were my sister, my friend, and my pride
Only God may why, still I will get by.

Who would've known that you have to go
So suddenly so fast
How could be that a sweet memory
Would be all, all that we have left

Now that you're gone, everyday I go on,
But life's just not the same,
I'm so empty inside, and my tears I can't hide,
But I'll try to face the pain.

Miss you Toy!

I MISS U MUFF!!!!

PO I Summer Turner
NOPD/ Partner

October 30, 2006

Toya i only knew you breifly but, you left a lasting impression on me. As i reflect on that horrible night i can't help but question god's will. All i can say is that you had a bigger purpuse that only god know's. Like everyone i get sad because i feel cheated for not having more time wiht you but, the time i had is cherished. God bless you and your family. P.S. You and Summer still owe me a drink! Missing you Big "D"

D. Williams
NOPD

October 29, 2006

Looking at your smile brings tears to my eyes for another year has flashed by so fast. I keep you and Raven and your Mom in my heart. She is definitely your mini-me. I just wanted to say that I miss you still, forever, and always. When we were at UNO you were like the sister I never had. I was so siked when I found out that we were in the same academy class cause we were going to have some more fun all over again. see u on the flip side...

Valencia
NOPD

October 27, 2006

HELLO TO ALL WHO MISS AND LOVE LATOYA, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS AND WORDS OF COMFORT. MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS AND KEEP YOU ALL SAFE. LATOYA'S MOM.

October 12, 2006

It has been over two years since you were taken from us. I think about you and the men and women of the New Orleans Police Dept. all the time. Part of me wishes that I was still there running the street of the 1st Ditrict. Latoya I just want you to know that because of your death and the manner of which you were taken from us trying to serve a MIW that I became a CIT (crisses intervention team)officer. While going throught the training I told the story of you and your death. Not only was I crying but every officer in the room had tears in their eyes as well as the instructors. I will miss you always especially that smile. Just remeber that you owe me dinner still....... Miss you much Kitchen (former NOPD Badge 1380)

Officer Chris Kitchen
Louisville Metro Police

October 4, 2006

I love you and miss you so much. I think about you and your family often. You will always be in my heart and I cherish all the times we spent together.

Keep a watch over us Toya,
Love you,
Sharon

Sharon Roche
Friend

September 26, 2006

hey mom,

you wouldnt believe how much i miss you
not a day has gone by without me thinking about you.
i know your in a better place now,
and thats the ONLY reason i dont cry a river.
its usually just a puddle.
no i'm just kidding.
i keep thinking crying isnt gonna help
but that just makes it worse
cause yur never gonna come back
and live the rest of your wonderful joy filled life.
you made such a big impact on a lot of peoples lives.
its insane!
anyways school started.
im in the eighth grade.whoo hoo.i passed.
hehe i knew i was
but i thought i would tell you.
hehe.
put a good word in for me with The Big Guy
i wanna make sure i get to see you again.
love always,
raven

August 21, 2006

It seems like it just happened. I often think back to the academy, when you would do just some of the dumbest things. You were a clown. I was thinking back the other day, and a memory came back, Chris Russell's funeral. When you hugged Mrs. Russell and cried with her. I remember how we all couldn't hold back the tears. 3 years later and the same month it all came full circle. My Wife still tells people how in 12 years of marriage she had never seen me cry the way I did that night when I got home. Miss you Unit 122c, 10-19 10-7 ETOD …………..Class 146 we in da mix!!!!!!!!!!!!

J Navarro
NOPD Class # 146

August 17, 2006

LaToya, it seems that the thing that people remember most about you is your smile and laugh. You remain in my mind always. Keep smiling at Mrs. Linda and Raven. Raven's smile is you.

Police Officer I William Torres
New Orleans Police Department

August 11, 2006

LaToya I miss you dearly. It seems that everybody misses your laughter, myself included. I know you are in heaven. Your happy spirit shines down on your loved ones.

Police Officer I William Torres
NOPD

August 10, 2006

LaToya I miss you dearly. It seems that everybody misses your laughter, myself included. I know you are in heaven. Your happy spirit shines down on your loved ones.

Police Officer I William Torres
NOPD

August 10, 2006

Latoya,

We won't forget.

Nick

N. Gernon
N.O.P.D.

August 10, 2006

God bless you and may he bring comfort to your family and friends.

Anne (UK)

August 10, 2006

To the family and loved ones of Officer LaToya Nicole Johnson and her fellow officers with the New Orleans Police Department:

On this the second anniversary of LaToya's tragic death, I wanted to honor and remember her today. Although I never had the privilege of meeting LaToya, I feel as if I know her through the loving reflections left by loved ones and friends. This is especially true of her mother's reflections as I too share that anquish that only someone who has lost their precious baby can truly understand.

Her valor and courage will never be forgotten. I hope that God is holding her in the sweetest part of his heart and the most gentle part of his soul.

I am so sorry that LaToya was robbed of her life so tragically, but through her heroism and the profound sense of duty with which she lived her life, she made an immeasurable difference. May her spirit continue to soar and may her memory continue to inspire.

This reflection is sent with the utmost respect for the dedicated service LaToya gave to her community and the citizens of Lousiana, and for the supreme sacrifice she and her family made on August 9, 2004.

Phyllis L. Loya, mother of fallen officer Larry Lasater, PPD
eow 4/24/05

August 9, 2006

LaToya,

I just wanted you to know How much I miss you. Everyday that i come to work I see the board that we have up to remember you by and it just bring back some many memories. I know that you are in a better place and looking down on your Family as well as your Brothers and Sisters in Blue. I'm grateful that GOd gave me the chance to bless someone like you to come into my life as well as other. To Latoya's Family....You are in my prayers everyday. Keep you Head up and i know that God and Latoya similing Down at You.
MISS YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

N Powell
New Orleans Police Department

August 9, 2006

Hi MY Toy Joy, Just wanted to say I LOVE YOU. I miss you so much I cannot believe a whole two years and I have not hugged you. I do feel that you are with me always. Give DAD a big hug and kiss from me . See you both in my thoughts, my prayers, and dreams.I spent my birthday with Cory , I felt I had my Pride and Joy together, the day was wonderful. We laughed and had fun ,we remembered some of the times you and him got into trouble and got over on me and DAD. Loving you Forever and Always .... MOM

August 9, 2006

Another year has come and it still doesn't seem real we all miss you so much.Your beautiful smile,Your funny laugh,your caring ways.,but you left us real precious gift in Raven ! She is so much like you.She is the strenght your Mom needed to go on.Contnue to be her guardian angle, smiling down on all of us. I love and miss you Love AunteeLora

Auntee Lora
Aunt

August 8, 2006

I miss you so much, life is so hard everyday, I can't go a day without wearing something on of yours on my finger or arm I cherished everything, as I look back on every moment and good time we have shared I smile I haven't nor will forget. I really miss you, it's 2 years and it still don't seem real.

I remember the summers we spent together where ever you all were station we were there. As I look at Raven she is so much of you, we are proud and I know you are to looking down on her and us every day your our Angel. Your my strength everyday and everytime I look at your picture.

Keep your arms around the family keep watch over us, Your Mom especially send a spirit hug to her and Cory and Raven. Send peace to Dione, you couldn't have chosen a better Godmother.

Love ya,
and really really missing ya

Jewel
Cousin

August 8, 2006

My thoughts are with your loved ones with the 2nd anniversary of their loss. My family's is tomorrow, the 8th. I know your family will never forget you as you are a true hero and heroes never die. They are proud of you and what you stood for. Keep visiting them in their dreams so they know you are doing okay and keep a special watch over them.

Bob Gordon, father of fallen Chicago Officer
Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

Bob Gordon, Gold Star Father

August 7, 2006