Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Brian,
It doesn't seem like a year has passed but here we are, honoring you in a candlelight memorial, remembering the hero and man you are. We'll hold Lorrie, Brandon and Corey tight tonight!
They will know that we are there with them, supporting them, even though their hurt is so much more than most of us will ever know.
I know everyone had hoped the trial would be over, but as difficult as it has been, Lorrie has been so strong!
She is the hero's woman! and you would be so proud of her strength! Your sister's were telling us stories about you catching them with their pagers the other day.... they had us in stitches!
I talked to Duke today too and asked him as I'm asking you... keep all our brothers and sisters safe that no other family has to go through what your family is going through. I promise we'll be there to hold her hand when she needs it, cry with her when she needs it, support her when she needs it.
Brian, I know you didn't want it... but you are our Hero! Thanks for being you.

July 3, 2005

Remembering you on the first anniversary of your Home Going.
You are missed down here on
earth. Wish we could experience
the peace you are experiencing. I
guess we will when those in Christ
will one day be reunited. God bless
your families, both at work and at
home and all the others missing
you still. See you one fine day.
With love from one coast of America
to another.
Lynn Kole
Washington State
P.S. Happy Birthday , America

July 3, 2005

Hey B., I try not to leave messages here because I know how you are and you probaly would not want me to. But I just wanted to let you know regardless of all of the hell that has transpired through these trying days of the trial, I am trying my best to continue to be there for your family. I am trying to remain strong, eventhough it appears that I am on the outside everyday, as I struggle to hold your family up, I am buckling at my knees and on the inside I feel so lost. Once I am home it is a different story. I am doing all that I can for your family for you, because your were my family. When one falls the other steps in to continue on. B, this is a task I wish never had to happen. I miss you so much. Your partner and friend forever.
T.

P/O L. Powell
Baltimore City Police

July 1, 2005

hello my little bear. it has been a while since i have been on this web site. it is hard to write you like this. we missed you once again on the most important day for you. i can't happy father day to you. it was not happy for me brandon, corey or kim. we did set your plate at the table and will continue to do so every holiday. we did have a few laughs about your temper and ways. i miss you so much brian words could never express the depth of my feelings. i know you know how i feel and i know you are with me every second of the day and night. your 1st year is coming fast and soon and so is the trial. i know God knows the out come and this persons sentence with him is already written know matter what the out come with the court is. i know you continue to carry me as you have done so far. only by the grace of God that i am here today at this time able to write you in sound mind. i don't know how sound i will be on july 3rd. i do know you will never leave me and i will never walk this earth alone. come to your son brandon and let him know he will be o.k because you will never leave his side and you will fill he empty space that he said he has with your love and protection. he needs to hear from you. i love you my little bear and best friend. i am trying to take care of things as you would. love u forever lulu

lorrie
spouse

June 24, 2005

Happy Father's Day Brian. Please continue to watch over your children and grandchildren from above.

Jennifer Aaron
Wife of Ofc. Duke G. Aaron, III (EOW 07/20/04)

June 19, 2005

HAPPY FATHERS DAY… THE DAY I MET YOU BRIAN, I FOUND A FRIEND AND A FRIENDSHIP THAT WILL NEVER END.ALTHOUGH YOU’VE LEFT AND NOW WALK ABOVE I’M NEVER ALONE. YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME, AND I KNEW I COULD COUNT ON YOU. YOU GAVE ME ADVICE AND ENCOURAGEMENT WHENEVER I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO. MISSING YOU DEEPLY AND ALWAYS IN MY HEART.

SHANTELE RUSSELL

SHANTELE RUSSELL

June 17, 2005

B, I was getting back into the swing of things at work. Everything was starting to feel natural again. I want you and your family to know that my thoughts are with you everyday in that courtroom. With July 3 coming so soon, It still just is not real. My memories are so fresh. I can not go by the liquor store at night, not with the air so hot and muggy. Brian I miss you. Please help us be strong. Jen *****Pray for justice*****

P.O. Rollhauser
BPD

June 15, 2005

Lorrie,

I have been keeping up with what happened in court last week. I am so sorry that you, your family and BPD have to go through what you have all endured this past week. Everyone just keep putting your faith in God for we know he will give the final judgment.

Jenn

Jennifer Aaron
Wife of Ofc. Duke G. Aaron, III (EOW 7/20/04)

June 15, 2005

YOU MAY NOT BE ABLE TO SEE US BUT WE ARE THEIR IN SPIRIT. PRAY FOR JUSTICE

Anon
SISTER IN BLUE

June 13, 2005

Lorrie,

Sorry I am late on this, but I just wanted to thank you for the time I got to spend with you in DC although I know it was an overwhelming experience for all of us. I still think about Cory and how much he looks like Brian when he smiles. And Brandon. My how that boy can put away some pizza :) You have a lot of support from BPD it seems as well and that is truly wonderful to have. I got to meet some of Baltimore's finest that week and they were all exceptional people who I am sure will do their best to look out for you and your family like I know Brian would have wanted them to do. If you need me, you know how to get me day or night. I will always be there for you.

And to Brian, please continue to look after your entire family, both related and police, from above. They all need your guidance now more than ever. Keep them all safe.

Jennifer Aaron
Wife of Duke G. Aaron, III (EOW 07/20/04)

June 1, 2005

I stopped to see your mom today, I was hoping she could cheer me up with some B talk. She was out so I talked with the family for a few untill dispatch started yelling for 15. Please watch over us B It is getting bad out here. With the 1 year mark coming up so quickly you would think things are getting easier...there not. certain things bring all those memories back just like it was yesterday. When someone asks for a unit or when the radio is quiet and the air feels so warm and calm it is so erie. I miss you B. Help us keep it together, because of you we all go on. Love Ya

P.O. Rollhauser
BPD

May 30, 2005

In the beginning of April I was headed back to Long Island after a short vacation with one of my twin boys. We had gone to see a NASCAR race in Bristol, Tenn.

We stopped in Baltimore City and ate Dinner in the Inner Harbor instead of driving on toward home. We had the chance to meet a Baltimore City PD Harbor Unit Sgt. We talked for about an 1 and 1/2 and he liked my idea of my emails promoting Police week and NLEOMF that I said I would send Him.

While researching his Dept. I found that one of Baltimore City's Officers had died in the line of Duty in 2004.

His Name is Brian D. Winder. I read the reflections left on Officer Downs site for Brian and made a page for him that was included in version for Baltimore City.
(With Officer Downs approval) and passed it along.

It also included information from FOP' s Grand lodges website in a section called Helping hands. This is a message board to post information about Officers and their families in need. The information for Brian was for a Fund set up to care for his children (3).One of the Officers that set up the fund is named Kevin Brown.

Brian was the first Officer, that I had thought to include in a Dept's information.

I went to a memorial Breakfast 05/01/05 on the Intrepid
( a retired Air Craft Carrier in the Hudson River) sponsored by the NYS Shields that honored all of the (10) NYS Officers survivors from 2004.

This gave me, first the Idea to makeup a version of all (10) officers and the to make a Concept Album to present to NYS FOP President ,Frank Ferreya on 05/07/05 at the NYS FOP Memorial service.

With the intent if approved to make albums for each of the surviving Families from NYS.

President Ferreya Loved the Idea and I made up the albums to be presented to the NYS Families in DC.

While putting them together at work, one of the Det. Sgt’s in my Pct. asked joking around,
"What’s this Arts & Crafts night?"
I explained that I was making up Albums for the Survivors of NYS' s Fallen Officers. I handed him one while I continued to work at laminating the pages. I heard him say Tim, thank you, I turned to accept the album back from him and saw his eyes...
They were all red and watery. I knew. I had gotten the same feeling when I made the first album and when I had first read all of the reflections left for Brian. I asked him if he wanted me to email him the electronic version.
He said ," No thank you, I don't want to go through that again"

The night of 05/14/05 while in front of the hotel I was staying at, I saw a silver car with Maryland FOP Plates, I wondered if they were from Baltimore. They were stuck in traffic trying to get thru all of the guys that were standing in the St.

I was able to get their attention and asked if they were with Baltimore City PD. They said they were and I told the driver that I had something for Brian's wife, I repeated this twice and then the driver said he would wait while I went and got the 3 different versions of the album I had made up.To explain the short history of the Concept album.

The last version is one of a kind ,I made up a version for Brian's family because Brian's Family and Friends are the inspiration behind changing my informative email into a personalized electronic memorial.I had thought it was the right thing to do,that I make one for them. They stood there stunned that I had actually found them in a crowd of thousands and that one of them was Kevin Brown, that had setup the fund for Brian’s Kids.
Kevin and the Driver had both been working the night Brian had died.
They loved what I had done and said they would give the album to Brian’s wife.

On the 15th of May I was at the Ceremony at the Capitol while I awaited the Survivors from NYS at the end of the isle before the Long walk to the Wreath.

You and your family passed by. I said a silent prayer.

I escorted the last NYS Survivors,
The Rivera Family up to the Wreath.

On the 16th I attended the DC ceremony for their Fallen Officers and found that they were Honoring their neighboring Officers also. I had wondered when I saw you if you had received the album I had made for you yet?

Hopefully the concept of this Album with grow into a national Journal of all Officers that have Passed before their time. Instead of just names on the wall, the wall will be alive with the pictures and stories of how they happened to be there.

I'm very sorry for your loss.
If the National Journal comes to be,it will be dedicated to the memory of
Brian D Winder, his family,and friends. The inspirations behind something long overdue...

Fraternally Yours
PO Tim Davies
4th Pct NCPD
Sgt @ Arms
FOP Nassau Police Lodge 69

PO Tim Davies
Nassau County Police Dept

May 23, 2005

Hi Winder, on Sunday I had the opportunity to attend the National Police Memorial... As your name was read I prayed that Lorrie, the kids and your parents along with the rest of your family continue to be strong. I am proud to have known you ... Thank you my friend for the years of advice and understanding. Thank you for your honesty and your care ... Thank you for being YOU ...

Continue to smile from HEAVEN

Disp 20 ~ Shawnta

PED Shawnta Privette
Baltimore City Police Department

May 18, 2005

One of the most beautiful qualities of true friendship is to understand and to be understood. Brian, I want to thank you for the years of friendship and comfort. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, missing your crazy smile and gentle laugh. True friends are hard to find and I was blessed to have you as true and caring friend. Missing you deeply and always in my heart, Shantele

Shantele Russell

May 10, 2005

Hey Brian, I see the girls beat me to ya. I guess we all have the same things in mind. Wow. Friday was tough, but the strength that Lorrie and the kids have shown is incredible.Your mother is a very caring woman, she shows so much concern for us all. Thank you for bringing an amazing family into my life. This is going to be a long week but on Sunday rest assure we will ALL be there to honor our hero. And dont worry about your boys we got this! We Love you!! Jen

P.O. Rollhauser
BPD

May 9, 2005

Brian,

Today is Mother's Day and I know for sure that you will keep watch over and comfort those mom's that are special in your life. If it weren't for you, Lorrie wouldn't have one of the most beautiful families I have ever met, and if it weren't for your mom, we wouldn't be honoring such a wonderful man here on ODMP. I spoke with your mom the other day at Dulaney Valley and I can surely tell you that she loves and misses you so much. My thoughts are with all of you today.

Jennifer Aaron
Wife of Ofc. Duke G. Aaron, III (EOW 07/20/04)

May 8, 2005

Hey B., today starts a tough time for me and alot of others who miss you. I have that tasks of again making sure that your family make it through all of the ceremonies that are upcoming in honor of Police Memorial Week. It has been so many times recently, that I just want to give up this duty of a peace officer because it has gotten that much more dangerous for us on the streets and the department is falling apart one by one. These are things that you and I spent countless times discussing, and even better you were here to see me through and I for you. But now you are gone and it's hard. My sister was attacked the other day by and unknown male and I told myself that I had to continue this job. I have to continue to see that my family and yours are safe and I know that you would want me to do so. I owe that much to you and yours. I just ask that you please stay by my side and help me to continue on the fight,even when I feel that I can't do it anymore.
Love Always, Your Friend and Partner, Le Tanya

P/O L. Powell
BCPD-SWD

May 6, 2005

Hey Winder,

It is hard to believe the time has gone by... everyday I thank God for your friendship... I miss our venting sessions (mostly me venting about dispatching and you listen)..I know you are looking down on your family and friends with a loving smile...I always pray for Lorrie, the kids and the rest of your family...

Your Friend and Dispatcher

PED Shawnta Privette
Baltimore City Police Department

April 13, 2005

You will always be in my heart. I truly miss you!
T.

P/O L. Washington
BCPD

April 10, 2005

B. the weather is getting warm and things are getting crazy, I think we are in for a dangerous summer. I can hardly believe that it is April already and in July you will have been gone for a year. We are holding up here. buisness as usual in the SW. Just sitting here thinking of you and Lorrie and the kids. Love ya Jen

P.O. Rollhauser
BPD

April 7, 2005

Lorrie and family, may you have a safe Easter. I hope the Easter Bunny brings all the kids something special. And Brian, please continue to keep watch over all your family, friends and co-workers this Easter day and always. God bless all of you.

Jennifer Aaron
Wife of Ofc. Duke G. Aaron, III (EOW 07/20/04)

March 27, 2005

Brian,

I talked to Lorrie a couple of times this past week. She has amazing will power and puts faith in God and you to guide her through life. She loves and misses you so much Brian. Please continue to give her support through this difficult time.

Jennifer Aaron
Wife of Ofc. Duke G. Aaron, III (EOW 07/20/04)

March 18, 2005

My kids ask me everyday, "Mommy tell me about Officer Winder" I miss you B!! Still thinkin of you..always.
LOVE YOU - Jen

P.O. Rollhauser
BPD

March 16, 2005

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.Missing you deeply, Shantele

Shantele Russell

March 9, 2005

you are a brave hero and a upstanding officer and you will never be forgotten officer winder .

high school student

February 28, 2005