Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hey B, I made it to see another birthday this year. This year hasnt been the best but I'm still pushing my way through. I wish you were still here to tell me how to make it through these obstacles. The job today would disgrace you. I miss your encouraging words that showed me how to deal. Everyday, I learn more and more how we as a people are our worst enemies. I just pray that I get the courage to handle my life the way God wants me to. It's way time that I pull through this much better and land on top where I know I should be. Just continue to watch over me B. I dont care anymore what they say! I miss you!!!!

Agent L. Powell
BCPD

September 8, 2009

Hello Bear, Just thinking about you today. Brandon doing pretty good in football. You would be proud of him. Love You, Lulu

lorrie
wife

August 16, 2009

Hey B! Was checking the wall and didn't realize it has been 5 years since you left. I keep forgetting you died on Dawn's bday. Everytime I see your dad in church, it reminds me of you. Just thinking back to the days when we were kids playing football Mt. Holly v. Lyndhurst Street, me, you, Sam and the rest of the crew! Crazy how the three of us ending up being cops after all the stuff we saw growing up in the Village! Just wanted to let you know, I carry your memory with me everyday, especially fighting this drug stuff! Just know you are our matyr and your heavenly triumph, is what every officer who knew you, worked with you, and loved you, carry with us each and every day. R.I.P. Bro! I will never forget you!

D/CPL. Larry Jackson, Jr
MTA Police/Childhood Friend

August 7, 2009

Hey B, I know that you were with me at work yesterday, when two of my squadmates were shot. I know that you acted as my guardian angel. I know you know what I'm feeling this morning as I set out to do it again. Please be with us Brian. Help us to continue to do the work that God wanted us to do. Please keep reminding me of all the things that you taught me on how to be a good, respected officer who does her best to helps those in need. Please help me to stay focused and to not lose sight of what it is I'm here to do. Thanks B.

Agent L. Powell
BCPD

July 19, 2009

Hello Bear,I don't know what happened to the message I left for you yesterday, but you know what I wrote and how I feel. Love and miss you always, Lulu

lorrie
wife

July 4, 2009

I MISS YOU....

Shantele

July 3, 2009

Brian,

You and your family and friends are always in my thoughts. The past five years have been hard on everyone, but I know that you are proud of them for their accomplishments and strength in being able to carry forward while keeping you always and forever in their hearts. Please keep Tanya and Jen safe on the streets. And please continue to keep watch over Lorrie and the entire family as I know you do so well every day.

Lorrie, I love ya! Stay strong!

Jenn

Anonymous

July 3, 2009

Today marks five years that you were taken away from the ones who love you. It doesnt seem like it has been so long because the pain still hurts like it was yesterday. I know you know how I feel right now so there's no need to elaborate. All I can ask at this point is that you continously be with me in spirit and stay by myside as I continue to try to live on your legacy. Do something to let your family know that your body may be gone but your spirit is still in their hearts. R.I.P. B!

Agent L. Powell
BCPD

July 3, 2009

Hello Bear, I'm not going to say I can't believe it has been 5 years since you left me, because I live it everyday of my life. My life without you to grow old with, to laugh with, to watch our children and grandchildren grow and mature, to have the talks with Brandon and Corey that you should have had, to take care of everything we shared alone. I can believe it has been 5 years because when I pull up in the drive way and know my key is the last key that I will hear turning the lock for the night, saying goodnight to a picture everynight, and keeping you forever in my thoughts without seeing you again. I love you and will forever miss you until we meet again. All My Love, Lulu

lorrie
wife

July 3, 2009

Hey B, I think I reached a point in my life where alot of reality is starting to set in me with full force. For a long time I've been wasting time focusing on the wrong things trying to overcome pain in my heart. The way I went about it was all wrong. Til this day my kindness is still being taken for granted and I end up feeling used. There are not many people in this world that really care about others nowadays. Its sad and it hurts to feel this way. That's one reason why I miss you so much. You were the true definition of a caring person who always had my back. I just wish I was able to have had yours more that night you left. I know im not perfect and I have made so many repeated mistakes that I'm angry with myself. People can be so harsh in this world and it seems like those are the ones that get away with doing wrong to others. I allowed myself to be put in this position but I just wanted to treat others how I wanted to be treated. I hope one day I can forgive and forget. Please stay by myside B. I need ya right now.
Your partner forever,
T.

Agent L. Powell
BCPD

June 17, 2009

So...man... I havent been here in awhile.Almost six months ago.. Well the academy is almost over. 6 business days to be exact. and I am always reminded of you and the other officers whos names I see on officers down memorial page every day. Its almost sickning. Its certainly angers me. But more importantly it encourages me to keep pushing. To stand up for justice, for good, and for whats equal under the law. What happend in new york... I dunno. But I know he's in heaven and god will take care of his family. So like you said " dont be a hero", I can only wish to be half the officer you were. I pray for your family, our fellow brothers and sisters who stand on the " thin blue line" everyday. These times are unbelieveable. Im all cried out.. Its time for action now. So.. with that said.. Please watch over me during my career, afford me your knowledge and wisdom. Ms. Lorrie God bless you, maybe I will meet you one day when I return to Baltimore for a weekend. I hope you and your family are being well taken care of.

Ofc.K.Walker
UMES PD

June 12, 2009

Hello Bear, It has been a while since I have written. Sometimes I am unable to get into this website. I wanted Kamierra to see this website and all the men and women who gave their lives for their cities and states all over the world. She wanted to leave you a message in her own words. One day she will be able to go on this website all by herself and leave you messages and show her children someday. Love and miss you, Lulu

lorrie
wife

April 26, 2009

10-23 Rest In Peace.

Former Officer Ed.Ramirez
SWD

April 20, 2009

Hi hon! Just thinking of you.. today... everyday! I have not forgot. I am doing the best I can here! The first stop for all my trainees is the spot were we found you... I need these young people to know the commitment you and your family has made to this city. I miss you B thngs are so different here!
Jen

Officer J Rollhauser
BPD

March 23, 2009

Hey B, I went to see you on saturday. I dont think that I have felt this low since July 3, 2004. While I was at your grave, one of Ofc. Byrd's family members stop by to visit his grave. You must have known that I really needed a hug cause he just opened his arms and hugged me, letting me know that eventually, this too shall pass. I know that you were looking out for me that day. I got some support from Lorrie which I needed so much. I thank her til this day for her kind words. Thanks for being there to listen to my heart. I miss you Bro.
Tanya

Agent L. Powell
BCPD

March 17, 2009

hi brian this is your cuz cynthia always think about you and your family and i know that you are in heaven looking down on all of us you are greatly missed we will always love you god bless

Anonymous

March 14, 2009

Hello Bear, Well, here we go again. It's another day that comes that seems to hurt alittle more. It's hard trying to put pieces of your life together without the partner that you thought you would grow old with. I know God carries us every second of the day and night. But as the humans God made us to be, the hardest part of coping with life is coping with the lost of a loved one. Can we go on? Yes. Is it hard? Yes. Does the hurt ever go away? No. So, we keep on holding on to Gods Hand for His Guidance, Love, Protection, and Forgiveness, and hopefully somewhere along the way of living we understand our purpose. I love you and miss you. Thinking of you this Valentine's Day, Lulu

lorrie
wife

February 13, 2009

Hey B, I know its been awhile that I left you a message on this board. I tried to stay away from it for awhile for my own personal reasons. But, I guess I couldnt stay away for long. I miss you B, nothing and I mean nothing is the same here anymore. It takes so much now to just keep my head above water that I'm starting to lose focus and hope in this place. I have been thinking of you so much lately and my heart just drops. I guess I'm reaching out to you for your help in reminding and guiding me in my day to day tasks here on the job. I guess a part of me still remembers the way things use to be. There will never be another role model in this police dept like you. You were one of a kind. I'm glad that God allowed me to meet you and your family. Please keep a close watch over Corey and all that he is trying to accomplish. Let Lorrie, Brandon and Kim know that you are still with them always. When your not busy doing that, try to be that protection that all of your brothers and sisters in blue need, to make it home safely. I know in my heart that you are still my partner out here going to every call with me. Please continue to guide me on the right path.
I miss you always B,
Tanya.

Agent L. Powell
BCPD

February 2, 2009

Hello Bear, I don't know why I haven't been able to sign on this website. I said tonight I would try it again and it worked. I miss sending you holiday messages and others. Well, I know you have my mother with you there now and she is o.k. healthy and whole again. Now I have so many angels looking out for me down here, I know I will be o.k until we all meet again. I love you and miss you both dearly.

To Recruit Walker: You wrote on 1/14/09 about meeting Brian and he gave you inspiring words. I know he will look out for you as you begain your career in Law Enforcement. I am happy that your paths crossed and you remembered the most important words you may ever hear during your career. Wear your uniform with pride and know that everyone you meet may not respect your uniform, but as long as you wear it with pride for what you do and how you carry yourself doing it, you will have respect without demanding it or having to enforce it. May you be safe wherever you work and you do have a special angel looking after you. Thank you for your wonderful comments about Brian. He was a very special person who cared about what he did and how he did it. He was special at home as well as on the job. It is nice to know that people think of the officers on this website who come from all around this country other than their family members. May God protect you and keep you safe so you may always be able to do the most important task at the end of your shift. THAT IS TO GO HOME SAFE! Peace Be With You Always Recruit Walker! Keep in touch! Lorrie Winder

lorrie
wife

January 23, 2009

So, Now is the time. We are at the point in the academy where we are talking about officer safety, and officers being killed and what our most important goal is at the end of the day and that's "GOING HOME". I remember those words because its still ringing in my ears from when i heard you say it. Yes, writing here pushes on that tender spot in my heart. You weren't my family, we had not connection what so ever; but it was the simple fact that you took the time to talk to me and give a young aspirant some words of wisdom that showed me that you care just as if you were family. So i finally begin my career after many hurdles and bumps. I really wish that I could come see you, and talk to you and let you know that you really made a difference in my life and i am certain so many others. But i ask this favor, for i pray every min of the day, please watch over my and our fellow brothers and sisters wearing the uniform. Ms.Lorrie, Words can't express how i feel. Surely if a few spoken words could bring Brian back, he would be here. I say that to say that your husband is a great man. He will always be. Just by saying those few words to me. I will wear the uniform with pride for my family, your family and the countless other families that have faced and face these atrocities all over the nation. I will never forget him. I will continues to return and write to you.

Recruit Officer Walker
UMES PD

January 14, 2009

Merry Christmas Brian, Lorrie, and family!

With love and hugs,
Jenn

Jennifer Aaron

December 25, 2008

Hello Bear, I haven't been able to write to you in a while because the computer has been having problems. I have missed writing to you. Another brave soul has been called home. Welcome him at the gates and continue to look after your fellow officers down here. I will be picking Corey up tomorrow. Ride with me and Brandon for a safe ride as you always do. I am thankful I have your boys to look to and see a part of you. That's a blessing to me. Well the holidays are coming and I will do my best not to get down. I can only control that feeling a little because you are dearly missed and your absence is overwhelming at times. I love and miss you dearly. I hope you are able to go to your mother and give her a sign that you are still with her on her B-Day on Thursday. Love and miss you, Lulu

lorrie
wife

November 26, 2008

Hey B! I have not stopped by here in a bit.. but know that you are always with me:) Please welcome Sam home! These things never get easier :( I love you all very much.. your sacrifices have made me the person and officer that I am today! I miss you three dearly! Please watch over us!

Till we meet again, J-rolls

Det J Rollhauser
BPD

November 20, 2008

Happy Birthday B. You have been in my thoughts so much lately and this is probably why. I miss you man!
Your partner forever,
Tanya

Agent L. Powell
BCPD

October 9, 2008

Happy Birthday Bear and Happy Anniversary. We shall see each other again when God is ready for me. I want to be here for Brandon, kim, and Corey for a while, but I do look forward to seeing your smile and getting a great bear hug once again. I love you forever and miss you dearly.

lorrie
wife

October 8, 2008