Tabor City Police Department, North Carolina
End of Watch Saturday, May 15, 2004
Reflections for Patrolman Shane Miller
I woke up this morning with tears in my eyes. It's gonna be a rough week as your birthday approaches. Please, some way or another, channel your strength to all of us who are left wondering how we've made it this long without you, especially your mom and dad. I stopped by to chat with you this morning, I have never seen such beautiful pansies. I've seen the same flowers numerous times, yet this morning they seemed more spectacular than any other. You are alive, Shane. You are in my heart, my mind, my dreams....
CBW
2189
April 25, 2005
Eleven months today. You're always in our hearts and minds. We miss you today as much as we ever had. We know you're in a better place. We will keep you in our hearts and memories forever. We love you!!
Cassie
April 15, 2005
WORDS LEFT UNSAID
by: Pamela Hall
I didn't get to say "goodbye",
And all the words I wanted you to hear.
I should have said them when I had my chance,
But I thought that you would always be near.
I ran out of time to let you know,
Just how much you meant to me.
I should have told you, but I thought you knew,
But now I will never know, if you really did see.
When I talk to you in my prayers at night,
I hope you can hear all I have to say.
I would have told you, if only I could
Have had you back for one more day.
Perhaps there were words you wanted to say also,
That were left unsaid by you.
But I do know that you loved me,
As you knew I loved you too.
We should always say what we feel in our heart,
As tomorrow may never come.
Speak those words today as you feel them,
And never lose your chance to tell someone.
CBW
2189
April 14, 2005
i know that i just wrote something,but as i was reading others i was so amazed. shane,everone misses you so much.i love you.imss seeing you when you wounld go get your hair cut.i still look for you. shane i have to tell sorry that i didn't stop to tell you that i was prond of you that day.i wish that i wounld have taking two mins. i'm soooo sorry.please forgive me. i loveyou durina aka shorty!
DURINA KEEFER
FRIEND
April 8, 2005
i met shane when he worked for the DOC from that point on i knew that shane was going to a great police officer. eevery time i seen him it was the firedepartment or recure calls or smething to do police or highway patrol. it didn't matter.shane is one of my bestfriends. and i miss him so much,but he has great parents, that care and love his friends just as much as he did. and they stay in touch with me.
DURINA KEEFER
FRIEND
April 8, 2005
Shane, I bought Ladder 49 this weekend. I had seen it once before, but had to own it. You would love it. I cried through the entire movie. There is a song at the end that completely reminded me of you, as if I need to be reminded. You are in my thoughts always. I miss you Shane. I miss your calls, your quirky laugh, everything about you. I would give anything to hear your voice or touch you. You know last year on this day, we were getting ready to go see Slipknot. I was so scared because of the way those guys looked. I will never forget the look on your face when you walked in my door or what you said. We had a tiring evening, then got up the next morning and went to Durham with Chloe. It was wonderful. I usually get bored when I'm around someone for so long, but I can honestly say, you kept me entertained. We are so much alike, unbelievable. I can replay every moment we have spent together in my mind and it's almost like I'm still there. You are everything I have ever wanted. I'll see you again someday, I just hope you don't forget me. If I am old and grey when I get there, I hope you recognize me, my heart will remain the same. Today's been a tough one. I know chin up, shoulders back, ready to take on the world......it's tougher to do without you.
CBW
2189
April 5, 2005
He is not always sure why they are dying but they are.
Could be a normal traffic stop or a drug bust, or something like that.
You never think about it, till it is too late, you lay there losing your life.
Your friends and co-workers stand around you, trying to help you.
You know they are doing their best but it is not enough.
As things grow dark you think of all your bad and good moments in your life.
You hear them say "hold on EMS is on the way they will be here in a few minutes."
But you know that will not be good enough,they are going to be too late, to save your life.
You try to tell them don't cry, you will be alright you are going to a better place, where you can't die.
If you must cry, let it only be a little, you don't want them hurting.
You know the end is here, as you try to tell your friends and co-workers good-bye, on the dark shoulders of the express way, but you can't say the words.
As things go dark you prepare yourself for the end of your life.
As a single tear falls down your cheek, as your only way to say good-bye to your friends and co-workers.
TO ALL OF YOU, MY LOVE
SHANE
"ONE BIRTH"
"ONE CHILD"
"ONE LIFE"
"ONE LOSS"
"FOREVER PAIN"
"HAPPY EASTER IN HEAVEN SWEETHEART, WE LOVE YOU"
MOMMA & DADDY
MS
March 26, 2005
Well Shane, I guess you know what's been happening over the last few weeks. It just seems that things have gone crazy. I would have never believed some of the things that are happening now would have ever happened. I really don't know what to think. I just pray and hope that things will turn out for the best.
I know I've said it before, but your parents are two extremely strong people. They proved that once again this week. It took courageous people to do what they did. We know that you were with them each step of the way. It was hard, but everyone made it through. Thanks for the help!
As it nears Easter, I think about how you are celebrating the way that we all want to celebrate like that one day. I know it was God's will or this never would have happened, but I can't help to still question why. I know that's wrong too and I ask for forgiveness for asking, but I know that it has to have a purpose. Nothing this tragic ever happens without something extraordinary coming out of it. We're just waiting. We know that some good things are already happening and want you to continue to help us carry those through. We know you're here with us, or we couldn't do any of it.
Keep watch over us as we do what we have to do and remember that we miss you and love you. We will always keep your memory alive! Happy Easter in heaven!!!
Cassie
March 25, 2005
WEBSTER'S DICTIONARY DEFINES A MAN AS " A HUMAN BEING, PARTICULARLY OF THE MALE RACE". WHAT WEBSTER DOESN'T SAY IS THAT CHARACTER, INTEGRITY, ACCOUNTABILITY, AND SELFLESSNESS PLAY AN INTRICATE PART IN DEFINING A MAN. THE WILLINGNESS TO GIVE OF YOURSELF AND SACRIFICE YOURSELF FOR THE GOOD OF OTHERS BE IT FAMILY, FRIENDS, OR MERE STRANGERS MAKES A MAN. SHANE, CAN YOU TELL I NEED TO VENT? HOW MUCH IS THE LIFE OF ONE SUCH MAN WORTH? 6 BUT NOT MORE THAT 8 MONTHS IN JAIL PLUS 75 DAYS FOR MISDAMEANORS WITH CREDIT FOR TIME SERVED? 3 YEARS OF SUPERVISED PROBATION? $1,000 PLUS THE COST OF COURT AND ATTORNEY FEES OF APPROXIMATELY $500? A STATE FUNDED TRIP TO TOUR A MAXIMUM SECURITY PRISON? WHAT THE.....?
Shane, I sat in the court room yesterday with your family and friends while 2 of the strongest people I know spoke of their son and the heartache this tragedy has caused. I know you were very proud of them. You had to get it from somewhere, right? Even through your death, you are having such an impact on people. There is no way you could have ever imagined that so many folks would step forward and acknowledge your contributions to this community. You never thought anyone noticed. Well, they did!!! Shane, I am so proud of you and everything you achieved. I am proud to have known you and been a part of your life. Thank you for giving me special memories that I will carry with me forever. Isn't it funny, I start out angry and end up calm. You've done this more than once, you know. Did I forget to mention, how much I miss you?
CBW
2189
March 22, 2005
Shane me beloved shane its been alomost a year that i could bring myself to come here to talk to you. You have given me more strentgh than i could ever thought i could have. i have found more inside of myself than i ever thought was possible in one person,I am the LUCKY ONE to have had you in my LIFE although it was for a short time you gave me enough to last me a life time........
YOU ARE AN ANGEL OUR ANGEL
MOOKIE STILL MISSES HER DADDY SHANE AND ALWAYS WILL
We have been blessed to have you in our lives you have tought us so much that will we will carry with us for ever. Your love peace and harmony will live in us ALWAYS. THANK YOU FOR LOVING US AND BEING A PART OF OUR LIVES AS YOU WILL ALWAYS BE!!!! SHE STILL WANTS TO BE A POLICE OFFICER.~!!!!!!!!
lOVE YOUR MOOKIE
mookie
March 20, 2005
i love you DADDY SHANE with all my heart. I'm glad that he was hard on me because that is what made me what I am today.My sister he love her with all his heart tooand she loves him with all her heart.I realy don't realy know how much "SHANE" loves us.I remember how much "FUN" we had together.That is one of the most special "MAN" that i know."MOMA SUE and "PAPA TONY" is preaty special too we had a lot of fun just like me and "SHANE". "SHANE my MOM my DAD step MOM three SISTERS TWO BROTHERS AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST MERLY THOSE ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN MY LITLE LIFE." "LOVE ALLWAYS KEVIN ETHAN THOMPSON."
hot rod
March 20, 2005
Dear Shane,
Man brother,what a crazy life this is.At the times I need you around the most for your advise and strenght that i was so use to to help me now you are not here. Not here in this world but always around in my heart and mind becouse I wouldn't want to bring you back to this god-forsaken place we call home.I couldn't bare to see you here knowing you left the greatest place we could ever hope to get to.I do truely hope that one day I will be blessed to walk beside you again in that great place and we can talk and tell our stories like it should have been down here.Brother I need you to send me your strenght and knolage to help me with I'm going through right know becouse you have know the problem for a while and maybe you can send me some strenght to help me get through.My kids are great and lil-shane is starting get so big. I can only hope that as he gets older that you will be with him also and help guide him to be a fraction of the man that you were and he can carry his head high and be proud becouse to me my friend and brother you are the one that I look up to and only wish that I could have been there with you.Brother come to me in my time of need and help me through this time of need becouse I do need that friend in deed that you so are to me. I hope to see you in my dreams so we can speak my brother.Untill next time my brother,the watch is safe and don't you worry brother I still do the job every day and carry your thoughts around with me and pray to make you proud.Watch over me and help me to do the job and keep everyone safe for this is the life we chose.With love and pain I end for now.Untill the next time my brother.
Patrolman Robert Worley
Whiteville Police Dept.
March 18, 2005
I never imagined that one day I would wake up and you would not be here.
I never imagined that it could hurt so much to lose what you've waited all your life for.
I never imagined I could be so weak at times and yet have your strength at the right moments.
I never imagined my life without you in it.
Shane,
Ten months seems so long, too long. There is not one day that passes that I don't have a wonderful thought of you. There are times when I can barely muster a smile when tears flow very freely. Then there are times when I just grin at the air in front of me, because I've felt you near. Memories of you flood my thoughts at some of the funniest times during my day. But, that is you, popping up unexpectedly as always. I miss that, I miss you....
CBW
2189
March 16, 2005
Shane, It has been ten months now since you were taken from us. The pain and hurt still remains. We know that you are in a better place but we would love to have the blessing of putting our arms around you and telling you again how much we love you. We have wonderful memories of you , but our hearts cry out for more than memories. You know as well as we do, this is one thing that we are never going to get over. We PRAY EVERDAY TO THE LORD for him to give us STRENGTH to make it through another day. We never knew life could be so hard, until you were taken away. Please keep watch over us.
Before I close, I have to tell you that you are still thought about and spoke of daily. The committee had some T-Shirts made in your honor. A lot of your friends and ours had to have one. They should be in this week. Shane WE are so thankful to have your friends and ours standing by us. WE know that we could not make it without them, THEY ARE WONDERFUL!!!.
I opened up a box one day
What treasures did I find
Letters and some photographs
Of days we left behind
I drifted back to yesterday
The thought was oh, so clear
For just a moment, anyway
It felt like you were here
I smile when I think of you
Sometimes I cry so much
I'm all alone without you now
I crave to see your here
But God had other plans for you
An Angel he did find
But now my box of memories
Is all that's left behind.
WE love and miss you !!!!!!!
MS&D
MS
March 14, 2005
My condolences to your family and fellow officers. Your courage and bravery are an example all officers can follow in their quest to perform their duty. Thank you. Rest now.
Sgt. Tracy A. Easterday
Lawrence Police Department - Indiana
March 12, 2005
I cannot imagine your family's grief. Your first shift on your first night and I can imagine how the excitement turned to horror in a flash. That is our life and unfortunately the way many of us die. You should have seen many years and answered many calls but god called you early and that is the call you must respond to in the end. To your family I send my sorrow for their loss and to you I send my respect and gratitude. Thanks for being out there for all of us, even if it ended too soon. God's speed brother!
Officer K. Smith
College Park Police Dept., GA
March 7, 2005
IF ONLY__________________.
IF ONLY__________________.
IF ONLY__________________.
THIS SHOULD HAVE NEVER HAPPENED.
March 2, 2005
Shane I know you are laughing at my first line that I typed last night.I did not check back over my typing.But you knew what I was saying. I am glad I typed a message to you,because I wanted you to know that you are with us everyday. Keep watching over everyone.
Kellie Soles
Kellie Soles
February 23, 2005
Shane I just amnt you to know Me and Jason think about you everyday.It was the worst night of my life,when I got the call you and Jason had been in a wreck.Shane I am sorry from the bottom of my heart what happened.I never knew growing up with you that your death would hit so close to home.I pray for your family each day that the Lord will give them strength.You will always be on my mind and in my heart.
Kellie Brook Soles
Wife of Jason Soles
Kellie Soles
February 23, 2005
Shane, I'm sitting here trying to think of how I can even begin to tell you things that have happened. OH, just let me back up for one minute, you already know what I'm talking about. I pray that strength and wisdom will be given to those who ask for it, so that they may do what's right and right the wrongs done around them. I also pray that they may live their life in such a way that they can really be a TRUE FRIEND AND BROTHER to the people who are suppose to be important to them. As we all know, life is to short, we should live it in a way that would be pleasing to the LORD.
Just had these things on my mind, and as you know, we would always talk to each other.
I miss you and as always LOVE YOU!!!!!!
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MS
February 22, 2005
Well, today makes nine months. You know, in a way, it doesn't seem like that long and then in another way, it seems like it has been an eternity. I know that you are better than we are and that you are watching over us.
Sorry I haven't been able to write to you to tell you , but your mom has been pretty sick with the flu. (I know you already knew that!) Thanks for staying with her through that time like you always did. I guess it's kind of my fault that she got it anyway! :) I sure have missed her! I know you're so proud of how well she does when she works with us. She's wonderful! It's no wonder you turned out so great. You couldn't help but to be great with the parents that you have.
Keep watching over us and keeping all of our friends in fire, rescue, and law safe. We miss you and until we meet again--we love you.
Cassie
February 15, 2005
Happy Valentine's Day, Shane.
There are some things you will own forever....I miss you will all my heart.
CBW
2189/1358
February 14, 2005
Hello Sweetheart, Just sitting here thinking about you and all the good times we had on Valentines Day. I always knew you had to have a box of Whitman's Candy. I know you remember the time you ate the whole box, Oh boy did I think you were going to be sick. And how could I ever forget going with you shopping to get that favorite some one that special gift. You would always spend so much time trying to find the perfect thing. I will really miss that this year. Shane, I have so many wonderful memories of you. I'm thankful and sad all at the same time. Thankful that we had a close relationship and sad that I'm having to even think of memories of you. It's just so unfair, I know that and so does everyone else. Tuesday will be 9 months since you were taken from us, it only seems like yesterday. Will time help, only
God can answer that question, but right now, well I don't think there is an answer. Maybe one day.................
I wish you a very HAPPY VALENTINES DAY IN HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WATCH OVER US AND PROTECT US THROUGH OUR DAYS AHEAD.
LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!
MS
February 13, 2005
Well Shane I'm here at TCRS again, it's February 5, 2005 and you're on my mind as you are so very often. The more I am here, the more I remember our special times. MS is right, I have been extremely busy. I'm trying to do my precepting for my paramedic, work, class, and still be super mommy. It's getting tough, but won't be much longer. I remember all the times you would tell me to hang in there and each time I question myself, I hear your voice telling me not to quit. I only have about a month of class left. We used to talk about how it would be when I finished. It's been so hard doing this without you. I sat through a month of trauma right after your accident. It's funny how some people endure a lot worse, yet are still going home to their families. No one knows how many nights I left SCC crying and screaming, but you. There were times in class I just didn't think I could do it, but I fought back the tears. I knew you would kick my butt if I quit. It's funny how you are there and I am here and you're still my hero. I hope when class is over my life will have some kind of normality to it. I want to be able to spend more time with the people I love, that includes you, but God had other plans. I'm still trying to figure out His reasoning behind this, however I'm sure He thought it through. I know we're not supposed to question, and Lord knows I try really hard, but sometimes.....You know my thoughts before I say them. You always did. Some friends and I are going to the HOB on the 16th to see Hoobestank. I get choked up thinking that the last time I was there was when I was with you. You were right, I will NEVER forget that night. I never told you how special you made me feel that night, and how proud I was to be there with you, especially after you threw that guy out. I was always proud to be anywhere with you. It's gonna be hard going back without you, but you know the connection with Hoobestank. I miss you so much. You will always be a part of my life.......
CBW
2189/1358
February 5, 2005
Hello Shane,
Just wanted to talk with you again. I know that you are here with me. I feel a little closer to you when I am sending you little notes, does that make sence to you?
I can never say it often enough how much I LOVE AND MISS YOU!!!!!!!!
Spending time alone is very hard for me. I try hard to stay busy as I can.
You already know what I spend my spare time doing, so I don't have to tell you.
Cassie and I talk about you alot.
she really misses you also. So I'm sending you a BIG HELLO from her.
Christy is very busy working and going to school. She will be finishing her classes in March, she is very excited.
We get together and go to lunch ocasionally. We enjoy spending time together.
It will soon be Valentines Day, don't worry I won't forget about you. Never have and never will.
You know who's birthday is coming up. I am going to try and make it special for him. It will never be the same without you to help celebrate, but we know you will be looking down with that sweet smile of yours. Then in two months you will be having your 28th birthday. I know Jesus will have something wonderful planned for you. We will put your gift in a special place in your room.
Well I guess I had better close for now. Have to get up early in the morning. So until I see you again, remember you are always on my mind and forever in my heart.
I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART!!!!!!!!!!!!
MS
February 3, 2005
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