Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Shane, has been awhile since I have had a chance to stop by. The computer has been acting up. We gave out the first Shane Miller Memorial Scholarship. I think you would be proud of the young man who received it. He is a police officer in a local town, a firefighter and works rescue, sounds familiar right? Now it is time again for another Scholarship Dinner and the committee is working very hard to get everything ready. Your Dad and I are very proud of this committee and how devoted they are. Shane I don't have to tell you how proud all these friends are of you, and how much they loved you, you already know that. AS I was traveling around today posting flyers for the dinner so many friends of your and people who knew you spoke very highly of you, we talked laughed and cried together. We all miss you so much. You brought alot of laughter,fun and smiles to your family and many more. At one time today I thought I was going to have to just stop and come home but I could hear you say, "Mom be strong hold your head up and keep going". Shane, I thank God and You for giving me the strength to make it each day of my life. The pain is still so intense and I know this is the way life will be for your Dad and I, but as the song says, "father along we'll know all about it, father along we'll understand why". When Jesus comes, that will be the time when we will understand why. Won't it be wonderful when we are joined as a family again? Shane, when Jesus is ready, I will be ready for him, so just watch over your Dad and I and we'll see you again. There is no way that I can put in words how much we miss you. Lot's of Love til we meet again.

Momma and Daddy

October 27, 2006

Hey Shane. I am at work and reading all the reports about 5704, Fallen Tar Heel Firefighter. As I sit and read I think of you, your Mama and Daddy. You were thought alot about today and mentioned several times. As we were standing in front of the bay doors at the fire department today we stood and watched as they raised the flag and hung it over the roadway. I thought about the flag that was raised for you, as did your Daddy. Jerry and I stood there with him for a minute then we broke down. Your Daddy gave me a hug and everything seemed alright. I know you were there with him walking side by side. You have such a wonderful Mama and Daddy and I know you and the Lord are with them each second of everyday.

Rose W. Gore Columbus Co 911

September 26, 2006

Listen to my heart, Shane.
What words cannot say my heart will.

CBW
PARAMEDIC

September 18, 2006

Hi Shane,

Just had to drop by and talk with you for awhile. Your Dad and I miss you very much. We have been traveling with your Dad's company for 3 weeks now. I have had some time to do alot of thinking and reading. The days have been long especially not being able to go see you and have our little talks. Maybe we can go home before long.
Shane we plan to give out the first scholarship just as soon as we get back home. The guy who has qualified seems to be very deserving of it, we think you would be proud.
He is already working with the force.
Don't know if we will be making the Cops Walk this year, if we can't, maybe next year we will.
We will be having alot of meetings when we get home, have to plan The Shane Miller Scholarship Dinner. We are hoping it will be as great as usual. The support has always been wonderful. The Committee really works hard and we have wonderful help. Your Dad and I can't begin to thank them and everyone enough. The Lord really blesses this occasion and we thank him always. He has helped your Dad and I in so many ways, had it not been for him I know we would not be able to face another day. Can't thank him enough!!!!

September 6, 2006

Just got back last week from Pigeon Forge, TN with Mom and Chloe. We had a wonderful time. I thought about you a lot while I was gone. I've been really busy this week with Chloe starting school and I'm expecting a good friend of mine and her son this weekend. I haven't seen her in 7 years. It's gonna be great to see her. I miss you, I guess I can never say that enough. Love you......

CBW
Paramedic

August 25, 2006

Our Dear Son Shane,

Tomorrow August 15th will be 2 years and 8 months that your life was taken away, it may as well been yesterday because the pain still remains the same. I know life for your Daddy and I will never be the same. We go to see you all the time. It makes us feel alot better knowing that you are not so far down from us. When we visit you now it's like we are so much closer to you. Maybe this may sound weird but just knowing that there is only one wall between us helps us alot. We know that the soul goes to heaven, and only the body remains. I quess this is hard to explain to someone who has never lost a loved one, anyway what ever makes us feel better is what counts, right?
Shane we just can't begin to tell you how much we miss you.
Our life is so incomplete now, part of both of us is missing. Every where we go, every thing we do, there are so many reminders of you. People every where talk about you alot and that let's us know you are not forgotten.
We are so very proud of you and what you stood for. You will always be remembered as being the guy who wanted to protect and serve his fellow man, so know that you are missed more than you will ever know.
Until we meet again, watch over us!
DADDY & MOMMA

August 14, 2006

You were honored on the website once again. Time has not diminished your sacrifice. God bless all those
who still miss you. There will be a void until they see
you again ( if their name is written in the Lamb's Book of Life). Mine is so I'll meet you when my time is up! I know it's getting closer every day and we must be ready for Christ's return.
Lynn Kole
Washington State

August 10, 2006

Dear Brother,
It has been a long time since I have wrote to you but I have never forgot the time we spent together as friends.I do the job everyday that we both so longed to do and just wish we could be together to swap war storys together around the grill and spend time together again. I felt you with me the other night when my pager went off and I got called in to serve a high risk search warrent with the SRT team,I knew you were there with me keeping me sake like we always said we would do for each other. Things are going good for me and the family is doing good to. You sould see my little boy he is growing up to be a mess,just like we were. Well brother I am gonna have to go now, another long day at work looms ahead. With your help I will again bear the badge and help keep everyone safe and long to see you again in the near future. LATER BROTHER.

Senior Patrolman Robert Worley
Whiteville Police Dept./Friend

August 9, 2006

Shane,

I haven't forgotten, not for one minute. I have been extremely busy, almost too busy, but that's my own fault. Thanks for the phone call in my dream last night. It was soooo good to hear your voice. It was so real. Although I did not see you and only heard your voice....wow it was great. Remember how we used to talk for hours? That dream reminded me of just how much I still miss you. I know I usually write something on the 15th of every month. I kind of feel like you were trying to let me know that maybe I was slacking off some. I promise my heart will never forget you, no matter what. You see, people deal with grief in many different ways, Shane. I guess I'm going through the distancing stage. Your "visit" last night kind of made me realize there is no way to distance myself from my own feelings. Sounds weird, but I'm sure you know what I mean. I spent a couple of days in Winston Salem for class with the bank and it was so nice. Nice to be able to go somewhere and no one knows who you are. I was not up to meaness, I promise. It just felt new and fresh. It felt good to be by myself, alone to gather my thoughts about various things. I don't get too much time to reflect these days. Help me to keep my feet grounded. You've done such a great job so far. XOXOXOXOXOXOXO Always......

CBW
Paramedic

July 20, 2006

I still miss you terribly. This week has been kind of tough for me, Shane. Father's Day is coming up and I'm struggling. This is the first one without my dad. I know you and him have become well acquainted since January. Can you do me a favor? Will you give my dad a hug and tell him Happy Father's Day for me? I'll be out of town on Sunday, but I'll give your dad a call for you. Ironic isn't it? Oh, how I wish you could be here. Watch over us, guide our steps, love you.....

CBW
PARAMEDIC

June 16, 2006

Hey Shane i havent wrote you in awhile. My life is changing more and more everyday. The best it has been in a long time.Sure i have obstacles i have to work through everyday. But I have learned that it makes me a stronger person. I know you are aware of what is going on and i know you have helped me on the decisions i have made along wih the help of God. I have proved alot to myself the past few months.There is alot of people that tells me they are so proud of me. I hope you are to.I am finally going to nursing school and doing what i always wanted to do.Well I guess i will go now until we meet again.

May 21, 2006

It's been two years today. But instead of mourning, I'm celebrating the memories of your time on this earth. You left everyone with happy memories of love & laughter. Your smile was contagious. I remember our Explorer times (& adventures!). I credit my own Law Enforcement career to you by you telling me about the Explorer program TCPD was starting up. I caught "the bug". We had fun. Remember when we turned the courthouse into a haunted house? Some fundraiser that turned out to be!! We ended up having to pay for damage to the courthouse!! Those are the memories I try to recall when you cross my mind. This is the part of the job that never gets easier, but the memories of the good times helps to get us through. You & your family will be in my thoughts & prayers, always.

May 15, 2006

It's been two years today. But instead of mourning, I'm celebrating the memories of your time on this earth. You left everyone with happy memories of love & laughter. Your smile was contagious. I remember our Explorer times (& adventures!). I credit my own Law Enforcement career to you by you telling me about the Explorer program TCPD was starting up. I caught "the bug". We had fun. Remember when we turned the courthouse into a haunted house? Some fundraiser that turned out to be!! We ended up having to pay for damage to the courthouse!! Those are the memories I try to recall when you cross my mind. This is the part of the job that never gets easier, but the memories of the good times helps to get us through. You & your family will be in my thoughts & prayers, always.

May 15, 2006

You were unable to serve us for long but we thank you for being a Patrolman.May you Rest in peace and may Our Lord comfortyour family.

May 15, 2006

"Lonely Day"
System of A Down

Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life

Such a lonely day
And its mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived.



I've heard this song several times on the radio and everytime I hear it, I just cry. Not only do the words reflect how I have felt, but the music is right up your alley (mine too). Today marks 2 years, 2 long, miserable years, Shane. 2 years of "why's and what if's" and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. I still miss everything about you. Last night, lying in bed unable to sleep, I relived the night of your accident all over again. I am glad I survived, sometimes I just don't know how. There is a void in my life without you. My heart aches.......XOXOXOXOXOXO

CBW
EMT-Paramedic

May 15, 2006

You are honored today, this Peace Officers Memorial Day and second anniversary of your tragic death, and always. Thank you for your dedication and sacrifice. You will always be rememebered as a hero.

Linda Lamm - LEO wife and sister of
Jay Balchunas EOW 11.05.04

May 15, 2006

Two years today...I can still remember the whole thing like it was yesterday, but I know how long it has been. We know that you're in a better place, but we still miss you. We will see you again someday!!! We love you!

Cassie

May 15, 2006

It will be 2 years that your tour of duty ended. I know the pain your loved ones feel every day and what they have to deal with. The constant asking of ones self, "Why?" None of us can answer that question and I know when we leave this world it will be the first question we ask. You are a true hero and I thankyou for your dedication to law enforcement. Keep your loved ones safe and wrap your wings around them and help them with their grief. You will never be forgotten.

Bob Gordon, father of fallen officer
Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

Bob Gordon, Asst. Chief, Retired
Riverside PD, IL

May 13, 2006

Shane, I sure miss you, if I could only talk with you for just a little while, if I could see you for just a moment. Can I close my eyes and just imagine that you are here? Can I just talk to you and hope that you will hear me? Life is so hard. There is not a minute that goes by that I don't think of you. I wish so much that you were here, but I know that you would not want to come back to this earth. I also know that you are waiting for us. Please watch over us and tell Jesus to give us alot of strength.
Love you dearly,
Miss you more than words can describe,
MS

May 11, 2006

Happy Birthday!!! You were the subject of discussion today at TCRS. Lots of wonderful memories. I miss you and love you so much more than anyone will ever know.
XOXOXOXO

CBW
EMT-Paramedic

April 30, 2006

Happy 29th Birthday, Shane! We miss and love you!

Cassie

April 30, 2006

SHANE, JORDAN AND I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SWEETIE. AND WE LOVE AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH.

DURINA KEEFER
FRIEND

April 29, 2006

Shane, We are comming up with your 29TH birthday this month and with the horrible tragic that took your life May 15, 2004.Those of us who you left behind go through some tough times, but this time of year is so hard for us.
Would you and Jesus spread your arms around us and hold us for awhile. We are depending on both of you to keep us going, and Lord please help us as we attend the different memorials IN HONOR OF SHANE. We still can't understand why such a wonderful person who only wanted to help and protect his fellow man had to lose his life. WE know you must have had some wonderful plans for him in Heaven. Lord will you please just save us a place beside him PLEASE, we miss him so much and Lord only you could know how much we love him. Until we meet again!!!
MS,PT&FRIENDS

April 25, 2006

Friday, April 14th, 2006. I know you must shed tears in Heaven for those of us who are left here without you. When the 14th falls on Friday, things are so tough Shane. I'm very sorry and I hope that when you see our tears it only lets you know just how much we care, just how much we love you, and Oh!, how much we miss you!! There is not one day that passes that I don't think of you. I want you to know that your memory lives on in all of us.

I've kind of given up on passing you on the road or thinking I saw you somewhere. I know you're in a much better place. There is nothing more I would love to do than to run my hands across that head and feel your hair poking my palm. I know I won't be able to do that until we meet again. I try, Shane, I try really hard to do what is right and only hope that I get the opportunity to see you again.

Please watch over us and keep us sane. Sometimes it's hard to face a reality without you.

Happy Easter, Shane!! XOXOXOXOXO

CBW
2189/Paramedic

April 14, 2006

Shane, you know when we get on this website and just pour our heart out it may look and sound a little off to some people but believe me it helps alot. It just in my own way makes me feel closer to you. This website is a blessing for family and friends of our fallen heroes. It's a little hard to explain, but I am sure anyone who has lost a hero can relate to what I am saying.

Just wanted to tell you HAPPY EASTER!
I know you and Jesus will have a wonderful time. Just think, you are in heaven with the one who gave his life for all of us. If everyone will just stop and think, he did not have to die for us, but with the love that he had for us he gave the ultimate sacrifice. Can you imagine nails being pounded in you hands and spikes in your feet, thorns being pressed down on your head, beaten to death. I know the pain Mary felt. THERE MUST HAVE BEEN A TRAIL OF TEARS TO THE TOMB WHERE JESUS LAY.

THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR MERCY AND LOVE AND FOR THE ONE SET OF FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND, YOU HAVE CARRIED ME MANY A TIME BECAUSE I COULD NOT MAKE IT ON MY OWN!

Shane want it be a wonderful time when we all get to heaven and can be together forever. We won't cry anymore, there will be no more heartache, sleepness nights and no pain.
We won't have to worry about the bad guys. It will be so peaceful.
Heaven is there for us all!

Goodnight and I love you!!
MS

April 12, 2006