Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Thank u so much! This day I have imagined over and over again but I know that once it comes Bella's song will touch the hearts.

February 26, 2006

what a beautiful poem! thank-u!

sfpd-bayview mids

February 26, 2006

I also lost a special person, my beloved classmate, in 2004. I think Isaac's friends and family will like this poem. It was written by an anonymous person who cares about Police Officers.

Her hair up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her, that she should probably stay home.
Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates, on this Daddy's Day.
But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school, eager to tell them all,
About a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats.
One by one the teacher called, a student from the class,
To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed,
At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare...
Each of them were searching, for a man who wasn't there.
"where's her daddy at?" she heard a boy call out,
"She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout!
And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offend her, as she smiled at her friends,
And looked back at her teacher, who told her to begin...
And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak,
And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique.
"My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so faraway,
But I know he wishes he could be with me on this day.
And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know,
All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories, he taught me to ride my bike,
He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite,
We used to share fudge sundaes and ice cream in a cone,
And though you cannot see him, I'm not standing all alone.
'Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart.
I know because he told me, he'll forever be here in my heart".
With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest,
Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress.
From somewhere in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears,
Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years.
She stood up for the love of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her, doing what was right.
When she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd,
She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud."I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star,
If he could he'd be here, but heaven's just too far.
Sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away."
Then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day.
To her mother's amazement, she witnessed with surprise,
A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for a second, they saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me daddy," to the silence she called out-
What happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt,
No one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed,
But there placed on her desktop, was a beautiful fragrant pink rose.
A child was blessed, if only a moment, by the love of her shining bright star.
And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never to FAR!

LAPD FAMILY

February 24, 2006

Zak,

there is absolutely nothing that i can do to help bring u back. i can only remind u and yours that we think of u every day, at all times...i will never forget that night, i was there, i responded, with all your brothers and sisters...Zak, we love u soooo much, i'm sorry we lost u, we did everything possible...its not fair. i was one of the very last to see u before...i'm sorry.

ofc. brown, bayview mids
sfpd

February 23, 2006

It was a nice day today...the sun was out and it wasn't too cold. I went to see you and there were flowers from Renata and Isabella that still looked beautiful after a week! Miss you very much....always thinking of you and will never forget you....

February 22, 2006

My dearest cousin,
I think about you all the time especially during trying times at the academy. The halfway mark has come and gone for the 210 with only fourteen weeks left. Some of the most diffcult events are coming up soon. I hope that God with give me the strength to continue to fight during such challenging time.

About a month ago, Derrick and Barry were at the academy for training. I can't tell you how embrassed I was wearing that light blue recruit uniform. Both Derrick and Barry wore smiles across their faces as soon as I appeared in the doorway. I am proud and honored to be apart of SFPD and at the academy. Most importantly, I am proud that you were cousin. You were an incredible human being loved, cherished, admired, and respected by many. I love you.

Cousin KC

February 20, 2006

Dave came home this morning and said it was a crazy night last night. He said there was a shooting at a SF nightclub, and every avail cop in SF was called to the scene. Its scary Iz. Please remind them to always request back-up, and remind them of the what if's.......

You taught me alot Iz. You taught me what a real man was, and you even gave me one to call my own. Now, I thank God everyday when Dave comes home because I know tomorrow is not certain. If it weren't for you, I may have taken love for granted but I don't......I never will.

Cousin

February 19, 2006

Iz,
Your cousin's special day came and went, but with your spirit woven in every second of it. I thought of you throughout the day, especially through hilarious moments wondering if you were laughing too. I'm almost positive you were. It's very hard to be around your family and not think of you. You were a shining light and a thunder of laughter. I miss your smile, jokes, and comforting spirit. We all miss you very much.

February 17, 2006

Yes, you were there with us at the wedding and all of us missed you, we could not forgot you, and will never forget you. Looking at the wedding party I noticed you were missing, because I know you would of been up there with all the ushers.

You would of been proud because your cousin Adele honored you in everyway she could. I could see her holding back her tears everytime your name was mentioned. In fact I too had to hold back my tears everytime your name was metioned.

Your family misses you, we honor you, we love you, I love you, Auntie

February 16, 2006

Iz, you would of been so proud of your cousin(s), but I know you were there with us the entire day, we felt your spirt with us. The whole day was as Auntie called it, Bitter Sweet, one min we were laughing, one min, crying, and it was because of you the wedding couple had reunited after so many years. It was because of you, that we had the strength to laugh, sing, dance and love each other even more dearly on this day. Yes we miss you, and that will never change. Every time you name was mentioned it set us into tears, but the blooper was too funny and broke the ice for the whole church. I bet you had a hand in that too, you jokester, if not you were up there craking up. They day could of only been more perfect if you were there in body vs. spirit. No matter where we go, what we do, we carry you in our hearts! Love Always,

Big Cousin

February 15, 2006

Thinking about you with much love. Mom

February 14, 2006

"Try to be at peace with everyone, and try to live a holy life, because no one will see the Lord without it." HEBREWS 12 Isaac, you see the Lord! Bless you brother...may your family and friends feel your love on this day, and everyday.

bayview-mids
sfpd

February 14, 2006

I loved you not for your look
but for the beauty you held within
I loved you not for your eyes
but for the flickering light that shined inside
I loved you not for your smile
but for the meaning it contained
I loved you not for your words
but for the meaning behind them
I love you today
but not as much as tomorrow
I loved you for those loving moments that came in times of silence.....
long quiet walks, hand in hand...
doing things for each other...
or simply holding each other close
So when I said I love you, it was more than just words....
It was something I did with every breath I took, every beat of my heart...
because you were the only one in this whole wide world for me...

I loved you in so many ways that there were no words to explain
But most of all I loved you
for just the way you were.

I love you Isaac, Always have, Always will..

Happy Valentine's Day!

Renata

February 14, 2006

Zak,
I saw a personalized license plate yesterday and thought of u, it was: 64ANGL (64 Angel). How appropriate...we miss u! -Patty

bayview officer
sfpd

February 13, 2006

Officer Isaac Espinoza, May God Bless You and Your Family. Thank you for keeping all of us safe. We think about you often. You are in our thoughts and our prayers.

Corrections Officer Jimmy Ratel, P# 5392
Las Vegas Metropolitan Police Dept.

February 12, 2006

Hi Isaac,

It’s been a while since I’ve written. In fact it was Christmas Eve. Once again it’s another tough year for me. In the past 5 years I’ve gone through a divorce, I lost my brother, and this year I lost my mother. Its tough loosing loved ones. I still can’t imagine the feelings Renata is going through. I continue to look at your reflections to update myself in the progress of your family. I will continue to pray for their comfort.

You continue to inspire me. Your family inspires me. Continue to watch over Class 12!

Thank you Isaac and God Bless you and your Family.

Ray Valeros

February 10, 2006

I miss you Isaac. I miss your laugh, your smile, your handsome face. I miss seeing you sit with Renata and seeing how happy you were when you were with her. I miss seeing you hold Bella and how proud you were when she was in your arms. I miss how you would hug everyone when you would walk into the room. I miss how you would brighten up a room. I miss your positive outlook on life. I miss your outspoken drive for your job. I miss your stories. I miss you driving by by the house.............. I miss you!

Cousin

February 6, 2006

As i sit here and read your reflections icannot help but to embrace my children,family,surroundings.It breaks my heart that our worlrd is so corrupted.i cant help but to be angry for what has occured.I Wish that everyone had acces to this site so that lives can be inspired the way that you have inspired all of ours.You are alegacy ISSAC.I hope that one day you will be reunited with those who love you.Renata and the rest of the espinoza family keep your heads up.Issac is with all of you.....god bless

February 6, 2006

You and Renata were in my dreams last night and it was so real, your little jokes and pranks were very much welcomed, it was wonderful, even John Gighia (remember him)was in my dreams, I just wish it would happen more often. It was a wonderful to have you in my dreams. You will always hold a part of our hearts. Sonia

February 3, 2006

Hi Son: I picked up Isabella from her kindergarten class today and was bringing her to my house. It was raining. I stopped at a stop light. I remembered when it was raining and I was picking you up from kindergarten. I stopped at the grocery store and my car stalled and I could not get it to go. I knew I had to pick you up from school. I left the car at the grocery store and started running to your school. You were walking up the long school block by yourself in the rain. You were carrying a poster picture you painted at school for me. You were all wet. Your face was wet. Your raincoat was not buttoned. Your picture was blowing in the wind. I started to cry. I told you how sorry I was for being late. I wiped your face, buttoned your coat and rolled up your picture and walked you home. I cried all the way. I was so frustrated and disappointed in myself. You were so cute and consoling. You kept telling me, "It's okay mom, it's okay, it's okay." I keep seeing your precious little face. I miss you son. I love you, Mom.

February 2, 2006

Last night RJ laid on the floor and shook his body all about! Like a fish out of water. It reminded me of when you were a kid, you did the same thing. I used to think it was wierd, and that you were just crazy. As a mother, I think its what you had to do, just like RJ has to.

February 1, 2006

ZAK-
We sat in your garden the other nite, how ironic that on this particular nite, one officer wore your b-ball hat and sweatshirt. Another officer walked in and said that it was his first time in the garden. I was mad at him at first, but from the look on his face, I understood why it was his first time. You mean sooo much to us, and know that you are still thought of and brought up often- and always will be. Your video is watched in the lunchroom, I can hear the music and know...no one looks away, their eyes focused on the screen. You always could hold an audience. Love you brother, and please take care of those who have gone before us. God bless, your sister in blue.

Ofc. Bayview Station
SFPD

February 1, 2006

DEAR ISSAC,I READ ALL YOUR THOUGHTS FROM EVERYONE AND I AM SAD.I COULDNT SLEEP THE OTHER NIGHT AFTE READING FOR TWO HOURS.YOU ARE MISSED SO MUCH.YOU MEANT SO MUCH TO SO MANY PEOPLE.EVERYPNE HAS A SPECIALEST FRIEND AND THE GODFATEHER TO MY GRANDAUGHTER ATHENA.YOU HELPED ME THAT DAY AT THE CHURCH ALOT.THE PAIN IS SO BAD YOU WERE LIKE A SON AND I MISS U IN OUR LIVES. LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.WATCH OVER US ISSAC AND TILL WE ALL MEET IN HEAVEN YOU ARE LOVED. MARIAN
MEMORY AND IT ALWAYS FEELS LIKE ITS THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE.WE ALL MISS YOU VERY MUCH. I WISH YOU BOYS WERE4 SMALL AGAIN AND ALWAYS AT MY HOUSE.I CHERISH THOSE DAYS AND HOW SPECIAL U WERE TO MICHAEL. YOU WERE HIS BE. I COULNT

January 31, 2006

Today we hung out at my parents house and reminiced on when we first bought our house. We were laughing so hard just thinking on h0w da back yard gave us sooo much trouble. How you were determined on taking down the tree that was in the middle of the yard and how frustrated u got when the root was so deep u thought the tree was gonna have to stay there. I believe it took u two or three days but y0u did it and where so happy. My dad was talking about how u borrowed his weed wacker and burned the motor out. We were laughing so hard but at the same time we sat there wishin u were there. We talked about your determination to fix our house. My brother talked about the time u went down n hired x tra help (remember) he just smiled and remembered the good times u 2 shared. We miss you sooo much Isaac.

Bella made a beautiful drawing of you in between these two big green trees. She put glitter and sparkles all over it. She wrote to dad, from bella love. all by herself. You should see how good she is at reading n writing now. She is very creative and determined just like you were. She wants to bring her drawing to you. I told her that we could bring it to the cemetary and put it on ur headstone, but she said she wanted to tie it on a ballon and let it fly up 2 u. She has been talking so much about u lately. Remembering da good times she had with u. and asking me why u had to go up to heaven. She is so smart. She loves it when I tell her stories of you and her when she was a baby n how u used to take care of her. I see it in her eyes, it makes her happy. We will never stop talking about you, she will never forget u, she is you.

Two years are coming up and I wish time would just stand still for a minute while I catch my breath. It still feels like it was yesterday that u where here. Sometimes I wish I could just stop my brain from thinking about u every second of every day just so that my heart can stop hurting. At times I still go numb with disbelief and even though I wish I could move forward and forgive GOD for taking u away, I cant not yet! and it kills me inside.

I guess Im not really ready to accept the fact that you are not here, Maybe I never will.

Everything is so different inside me. N even though I feel like now that u r gone theres no purpose in my life......I take a deep breath and hold her tight.......

See you soon

January 29, 2006

dear issac, you are never forgotten.our lives have never been the same.we have spent just wonderful times with your family.you will never be forgotten.time doenst heal the pain.with our love always MARIAN AND FAMILY

January 28, 2006