Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

You were honored at Law Enforcement Appreciation Day at AT&T Park yesterday. Your name was on the Giants billboard along with ten other officers from Northern California who were killed in the line of duty. It was nice talking to your police family at the Game and at the Mariposa Yacht Club. We had a good time. I love you. Mom

June 30, 2006

Isaac,

Happy Father's day. I was fortunate to spend some time with your beautiful Isabella. I know you are proud of her. She is so full of life and such a busy little girl. It was good to spend time with your wonderful family this past week. Isaac Sr. Happy Father's day to you and all the memories you have with your children. Thank you for sharing some of them with Damian and I this past week. God Bless you!

Fondly,
Shanon

Shanon Dreyer
Palomar College Police Academy

June 19, 2006

Thinking of you today and wanted you to know that you are and will always be a loving and terrific father. I just wish all parents could be as wonderful and as thoughtful as you were as a young dad. We certainly all know you had just as wonderful role models. Happy Father's Day Iz and Uncle Iz. Love you,

Big Cousin

June 18, 2006

Happy Father's Day, Son. You were such a great dad. You gave Isabella a sturdy foundation upon which to build her life. More than anything I was so in awe of your Fatherhood. You treated and talked to Isabella with such encouragement, nurturance, and respect. I saw that she trusted and relied on you. I remember the night she was born. You were so excited and proud to be her dad. I remember when I met you at Isabella's swimming lesson. She looked so proud and happy when she finished and looked at you sitting there waiting for her. I remember the night you gently admonished Isabella for playing with your dinner and sticking her hands in your plate. She was so sad about it. With tears in her eyes, she quietly pouted, sat on my Laz-y-boy rocker, kept looking at you from the corner of her eyes until you went to her. You told her you were sorry and that you loved her. You hugged each other, sat together on the rocker, and she was happy again. She loved you so much, and you loved her so much. So many times I was astonished and felt so warm witnessing your interactions and communications with Isabella. Thank you for the memories of being such a great and loving "papi" to Isabella, my precious granddaughter. I love you, Mom.

June 17, 2006

Happy Father's Day Issac. Thinking of you.

June 17, 2006

Isaac Happy Fathers, you must be so proud of your little angel, she is a beautiful and smart little girl with your charesmatic way and and sense of humor. We miss you.

Sonia

June 15, 2006

Wishing the Espinoza family and friends a blessed Father's Day and weekend filled with pleasant thoughts and happy memories! Zak, you always showed me new pics of Bella-the proud father who took time out to express his love and appreciation for creating a beautiful life...we miss u.

ofc. brown
sfpd, bayview mids

June 15, 2006

Iz, You would of been so proud of our baby cousin Joe graduating from High School, and receiving many awards, not to mention he was in his is local newspaper. He reminds me a lot of you, not only is he hansome and funny but truly wonderful person. He has a huge heart and when I look at him, it's like you are right there w/ us, you would crack up. It's sometimes scary how goofy you boys are, all comedians. He was telling a story, something sad and splashed water from the glass on his eyes like he was crying, I swear, that definately reminded me of you. A part of you is with us all and in our heart, funny how we notice this sometimes. You were and are obviously an inspiration that he has had to look up to! Love you and Miss you.

Big Cousin

June 5, 2006

Son: Krystal graduated tonight from the Police Academy Class 210. She is so happy and so excited about doing police work just like you were. We are all so proud of her and I know you are proud of her too. You are such an inspiration to her. Your Dad and I were asked to go on stage and give the Officer Isaac Espinoza Award. It was so hard to stand there and not cry. So much about the ceremony reminded me of you. One of the new Officers had his hair like yours and I saw you. An old friend of yours introduced himself to us who I hadn't met before who said he will never forget you and he showed us that he was wearing a blue cops wrist band. Another Officer introduced himself to me and said he aspired to be like you. It felt like family, son. I love you, Mom.

June 3, 2006

Isaac -

Thinking of you today, and always, as the sun dips down on this year's Memorial Day...a day for warriors and heroes. You are both.

Continue to keep all of us safe as we step out into the daily battle. Comfort and support your amazing family today and always. Be the breeze in their hair and the warmth on their shoulders. God bless, brother.

Officer Damian Jackson
Escondido PD / Palomar Police Academy

May 29, 2006

Zak,
You know what happened last night...Continue to watch over us with our fellow brothers above, we love and miss you! Thank-you, and we wish you and yours a blessed Memorial Day.

sfpd officer
bayview mids

May 29, 2006

Hi Isaac, you are still very fresh in our minds and hearts. I ran into one of your friends in blue, and it was so nice to talk about you. We miss your charasmatic smile and your jokes. Always in our hearts and prayers Love Sonia

May 25, 2006

dear issac,wish you could have been at your goddaughters communion. she looked like an angel.she asked her mon if you and her grandpa would see her in church. she waw told yes.you would be looking down at her. we missed you very much. your parents and regina were there. your parents came to the house. michael gave a great part and that friend of your sure can cook. you would be proud.he told us of when you guys would cook in his room. there is a wall in his house and your name zak is there forever.your parents are very important to my family and we love them as our own. god bless you always and i hope gil is there witn you take care of him for us. love marian

May 24, 2006

Isaac,

Thank you for all the guidance to Class 12 and the motiviation you gave them to persevere. We have dedicated a hallway at our academy to fallen hero's; the cadets of Class 13 painted it. It is dark blue with a black mourning band through it. We are calling it our "Hall of Warriors" and you will be the first officer honored on that wall.

As I sit here and see you looking back at me...a picture of you in your uniform, smiling like you had no worries; I find it hard to believe you were taken away from the very ones who love you and those who leave messages on this site. How hard it must be for them to do so; yet they have the strength to. I read the reflections from your mother and am brought to tears. She is such a special woman and you were so fortunate to be able to call her "mother"...just as she is fortunate to call you "son."

I have been blessed to know your incredibly gracious family. Not only have you forever imbedded yourself
in my heart...they have too.

Mrs. Espinoza, I will see you in June, until then...
blessings to all...

Love,
Shanon

Shanon Dreyer
Palomar College Police Academy

May 24, 2006

Lately I have been coming to this page everyday. Why, I don't exactly know. I guess it makes me feel close to you when I am here, reading what others have written and looking at your picture. It makes me think about you and how great a person you were. You are still missed.

I missed you yesterday when your cousin had a birthday party for her two boys. I know you, Renata and Isabella would have been there. It was a great day.

I go to court as much as I can while D28 is going through the 'motions' for your case. It is hard to sit in the courtroom with the same devil who took you away from us. Very hard indeed. Your mother is there each day. God Bless your mother, father, sister and wife during this most difficult time. And Thank you to those few cops who show up to sit with your mother. They are a blessing.
Auntie

May 22, 2006

Mrs. Espinoza,
I am sorry for the loss of your son. I have read your heart wrenching reflections that you have left for your son. My heart goes out to you and even though I don't know you or your family I often think about all of you and hope that you do find some comfort in the wonderful memories of your son.
It is evident that your son is a saint and continues to look down on you and the rest of his family, including his family in blue.
Take Care & God Bless

Denise Smith

May 22, 2006

Renata ,
I have visited this site many times and I am sorry I haven't written something sooner. First of all I am sorry for your loss. My friend Michelle and husband Colin lost their partner and husband, Officer Stephan Gray whom was murdered five days after Isaac. Your strength and courage is remarkable, and I am sure Isaac is so proud of you.

The reality of the possiblity of losing my husband is even greater and after being at the California Peace Officers Memorial in Sacramento for the last 2 years makes it that much clearer. It is evident that it takes a special kind of man/woman to do this job and that is what they love doing. Your husband is a hero he probably saved some other innocent person's life that night, he gave the ultimate sacrifice for his community. May God Bless you and your daughter. My prayers continue to go out to you and your entire family.

Denise Smith

May 22, 2006

Last night, a paramedic at SFGH asked me who my mourning band was for. I told him it was for you, and that I haven't taken if off since the night I saw you leave us- and I haven't taken it off! I can describe that night verbatim...and wish it upon no other family. We miss and love you Zak, please keep us safe, comfort your family and let them know you are here...Patty.

ofc. brown/sfpd
bayview mids

May 22, 2006

Police Officer's Prayer to St. Michael, the Archangel

Dear Saint Michael, Your name means, "Who is Like a God," and it indicates that You remained faithful when others rebelled against God. Help the police officers of our day who strive to stem the rebellion and evil that are rampant on all sides. Keep them faithful to their God as well as to their country and their fellow human beings. Amen

May 18, 2006

Well, Son, your aunt and I went to the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial in Washington, D.C. I have to tell you it was not the same for me the second time around. It all seemed so much bigger when your name was on the roll call last year. The National COPS Conference for famly survivors was pretty much the same. I was so happy to learn that Derrick's mother-in-law is the new National President for COPS. She's always so caring and helpful to me whenever I have an opportunity to talk with her.

Before the Candlelight Vigil, I was able to attend St. Patrick's Cathedral. The thought that came to me sitting there in that Holy place was that "I was chosen to be the mother of a Saint." You know that it was the eve of Mother's Day that I was at St. Patrick's and the Candlelight Vigil. I also concluded this week that you and all the other heroes killed in the line of duty are from the same pot of God's clay. Your traits and those for other honored officers that I heard about are mostly all the same. I am so honored, Son, to be your mother. I love you, Mom.

May 18, 2006

Hey Isaac,
I been thinking about you all morning. Dave, Marqez, and a few other cops went to Crystal Springs today to play golf. I can't help but to think that you would be there with them right now. Your mom told me you loved playing golf!!!! I'm sure Marqez knew that too. I'm just saddend by the fact that you never got a chance to bond with my husband. I just wish you could be there playing with them right now. I miss you Isaac. Adele

May 17, 2006

Carol and Renata,
Happy Mother's Day to you both and God bless. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers this day...it never diminishes.
All my love,

Damian Jackson
Escondido PD / Palomar Police Academy

May 13, 2006

Wishing the family and friends of Isaac Espinoza a blessed and safe Mother's Day!

bayview officer
sfpd

May 13, 2006

Hello Isaac,

It’s been a while! Just a little note to say you and your family were in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you!

Ray Valeros
Class 12

May 9, 2006

The California Peace Officers Memorial in Sacramento was good for me, Son. One of the speakers said the memorial helps families gain strength from one another and it is so true. It is such a privilege to talk to other mothers and to wives and to hear their stories. Then, I was on the elevator with a beautiful young widow whose eyes only looked down and who said nothing. Her pain was so deep it penetrated right through me. It was hard seeing all the precious children and teens who are now fatherless. What good can come from all this shock and loneliness? Everyone was so brave as they honored their loved one. It was comforting for your Dad and I to have family there to support us and to meet with friends like Val and Damien and Collin. We remembered the 300 SFPD and almost 90 of our family and friends who attended last year when your name was on the roll call. I miss you. Mom

May 8, 2006