Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

My dearest brother,
As my daughter sleeps peacefully, I sit here staring out my window thinking of you. I'm looking up at the sky one minute smiling as I see your face and the next minute crying. I miss you so much. The pain continues. The joy of my daughter is better than what I imagined it would be, but the sadness continues. Spending time with Isabella fills my heart with laughter and joy, but again the sadness continues. You were a blessing to all of us. I'll go back to staring at my daughter and staring out the window thinking of you. Stare back at us when you get a chance.
I love you
Regina

October 17, 2007

The holidays are coming and all I can think about is you. You will be missed as you are every holiday since you were taken from us. There is always a void in my life when it comes to you. I wished spent more time with you, called you more often, hugged you harder each time we said good-bye. If I had only known that you would be taken from me as such a young life. If only......

I love you my little angel and I miss you dearly.
A

October 16, 2007

It has been a pleasure and an honor to have met and getting to know your family, wife, and beautiful daughter Bella. You have inspired the lives of many, including your childhood friend, Hans. We met 3 years ago and I will never forget the first night we met. All he would talk about was you. Your family and friends keep your memory alive. They talk about all the funny pranks you would pull. I even saw the video of the whole gang when you guys were in high school. LOL. You guys were great actors by the way, especially you. I feel like I know you through them and it would have been a pleasure to have met you in person. Now you are in heaven with God and his family and I ask that you please watch over my Hans as he will be graduating from the San Francisco Policy Academy in only 3 weeks. Thanks Isaac. Our prayers go out to you and your family.

~Gabriela~

Gabriela
Friend

October 2, 2007

You are my little angel.
A

September 28, 2007

I logged onto ODMP and you were the featured officer. I have been to your pages in the past and figured I would stop in and pay a visit. By the numerous pages I see that your loved ones and friends have not forgotten you and they never will. Their love for you will forever burn within their hearts. Continue to watch over all of them.

Bob Gordon
Father of Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

September 25, 2007

I hope you are as proud of me as I am of you!

I hope you know that I am forever grateful for what you brought into my life. You gave me a new start! A new beginning. If it wasn't for you, I would have never found such a amazing wonderful husband, who is my BEST friend. I would have never had had such a beautiful LOVING daughter. I am thankful for the gifts your brought me.

I will be forever thankful.

I love you!

Forever in my Heart.

September 20, 2007

"The Badge"
He starts his shift each day
To respond to calls unknown.
He drives a marked patrol car.
A police officer he is known.
He's paid by the citizens' taxes
To make it safe on the streets.
But he usually has a second job
'Cause a waitress has his salary beat.
Now he doesn't know a holiday
'Cause he works all year round.
And when Thanksgiving and Christmas finally arrive
At his home he cannot be found.
He's cursed and assaulted often,
The one whos blood runs blue.
He seldom ever gets a thanks,
To some he's just a fool.
His friends are always other cops
'Cause people just don't understand
That underneath his badge and gun,
He's just another man.
He knows there might not be a tomorrow
In this world of drugs and crime.
And he gets so mad at the court system
'Cause the crooks don't get any time.
And each day when he leaves for work,
He prays to God above.
Please bring me home after my shift
So I can see the ones I love.
But tonight he stops a speeding car,
He's alone down this ole' highway.
It's just a little traffic infraction.
He does it everyday.
Well, he walks up to the driver's window,
And his badge is shining bright.
He asked the guy for a driver's license,
When a shot rang through the night.
Yes, the bullet hit its mark,
Striking the officer in the chest.
But the Department's budget didn't buy
Each officer a bullet-proof vest.
So he lay on the ground bleeding.
His blood wasn't blue - His blood was red.
And briefly he thought of his loved ones
'Cause in a moment the officer was dead.
In the news they told the story
Of how this officer had died.
And some who listened cared less,
But those who loved him cried.
Well, they buried him in uniform
With his badge pinned on his chest.
He even had his revolver,
He died doing his best.
Written By:
David L. Bell
Sergeant
Richland County Sheriff's Department
Columbia, South Carolina
Used with Special Permission of the Author
Copyright © 1999 - All Rights Reserved
and may not be duplicated without permission

Investigator David L Bell
Richland County Sheriff's Dept., Columbia, SC

September 20, 2007

If I could go back and change everything I would
If I could go back and hold you more I would
If I could go back and love you more I would
My heart aches for you right now, I long to hear your voice. To feel your touch. If I could make this pain inside me dissapear I would. No matter what I do I can't let go. No matter how hard I try I can't forgive. No matter how big I smile I cannot hide. If I could, I would give all I have to have you here. It's not easy to live with this pain. It's not easy to live this life sane. It's much harder than anyone could bare. But I do it each day that goes by. Even when I have days like these were I can't pretend, were I miss you so even after so long. My life is not perfect I know, but Im trying the best that I can to live my life without you.
If I could go back and make it alright I would
If I could go back and take your place......... I would!

September 15, 2007

Brother,
Your niece is here. I think about you everyday but as her birth neared it was difficult to hold back the pain. The day before your niece made it clear she was on her way, I walked around work barely able to hold back the tears. All I thought about was how wonderful it would be to finally see her little face and to hold her in my arms, yet at the same time I thought how painful it was going to be knowing that she would never feel the arms of her uncle wrapped around her. She would never hear her uncle's words of encouragement. She would never hear her uncle's laugh. She will know about you because I will talk about you always, but I sit hear crying because she will only know you through stories and not through actual experience. She's beautiful just like your daughter. I have two beautiful angels here on earth and one in heaven. I love you brother and I miss you. I know your here with us in spirit, I just wish you were here with us on earth.

regina espinoza
sister

September 13, 2007

I come to this page every few weeks. It is my time to spend with you. To remember the man you were, the hero you became. It makes me feel closer to you when I come to this page. I see your face, I feel you near me. I come to this page because I miss you.
A

September 4, 2007

What up Iz,
I have to let you know how proud of your sister you would have been this weekend. She had a healthy baby girl and she was so strong and a trooper, not even one whimper. Your niece is beautiful. Just beautiful! I know you were there in spirit. We all miss you everyday and even more with every moment and experience that passes us by.
Love ya Iz

September 3, 2007

Your sister gave birth to a beautiful baby girl! You are an uncle! So many memories came to mind as I watched her, so small, so beautiful, so innocent. It's hard to believe that you were not there as she was born, as I sat there and saw how this perfect angel brought smiles to everyones face, it was hard not to think that a big part of us was missing and should of been there.

You will forever live in our hearts sweetheart! Now there's another precious soul to watch out for. We miss you so much. We will always love you.

September 3, 2007

You still live Isaac I now that for a fact. You live in eternity, and we will all live there some day. Some day we might see you. Where ever you are I now you still think about us.

September 1, 2007

I write to make me feel better, not because I want to.
I write now to pass time since I cant fall asleep, I toss and turn and visions of our life won't let me shut my eyes. I try to get you out of my head, I don't want to think about you, not because I want to forget you but because the pain is too much. The thought of you gone is unbearable tonight! Oh God not tonight!! I write because my prayer wont get answered!! I can't get you out of my head tonight. So I cry quietly so she won't wake up. So she won't ask if Im okay.

No Im not okay, is what I want to say but I can't she needs me to be strong, to stay strong for the two of us. There are days when I feel happy with myself and my life now after you. But not tonight! Tonight I feel sad and lonely, tonight I want you here with me, tonight I ask why?? If you were only here things would be so different. Tonight I want to give up!!! Tonight I am not strong!

I write not because I want to but because I have to...Tonight I write for my sanity, tonight I write because I miss you!!!

August 27, 2007

Isaac,

I found myself daydreaming today...about my husband and the danger he faces every day in this tour of duty. I thought about you and the sacrifice you made. Wow...you are truly a HERO. I took a moment to count my blessings and I wanted to take a moment to THANK YOU AGAIN...from the bottom of my heart. I think about your family and their sacrifices. I pray for them. You WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.

An Officer's Wife

August 24, 2007

On August 18, your family, officers and friends got together for the 4th baseball tournament in honor of your memory. As a family memeber I was so proud to see all those baseball players playing. Their smiles showed their deep pleasure of the game. My smile showed the honor I felt in seeing all your friends and family. Your memory lives on. I want to thank "M" for all the work he and his family did to support this on going event in honor of Isaac.
A

August 19, 2007

we miss you Zak!!1

August 16, 2007

Renata!!!!!!!

I have some words for you from Isaac.

I wanted to tell you a long time ago, I just didn't know how.
I saw you only a couple of times but never got to know you in deep.
I always admired you and your family, your beautiful daughter and handsome husband.

I could of told you this 3 years ago, but now i have the chance through this reflections.

Months before your husband past away, the lord revealed to me through prayer that Isaac's life was in danger and that it waas through his job.
I told the lord i couldn't tell you guys this because you didn't know me that well, that i wasn't comfortable.
I asked him to reveal the same message to someone closer to you guys, perhaps from your same church.

That same night Isaac past away, 3 relatives and I got together for prayer because we had shared a same dream about a man who had past away. We join together in prayer for that reason and it was around the time Isaac got shot.

When I heard the bad news i started to pray for strenght for each relative and family member.

About 4 months after, I had a vision were Isaac told me to tell you this...

He said tell Renata I want her to go to church,
I want her to teach Isabella about the word of God.
I want Isabella seeking God and her as well.
Tell her to continue in church and not to stop.
Tell her she is going in the right direccion.
Tell her to ask God for strengh and he will give
her the strenght. I want everyone in my family to
seek God for he is real.

I am sorry I didn't give you this words before, please for give me.

Renata you are not alone always remember that.

anonymus

August 16, 2007

Isaac,

I have been so delinquent in leaving a reflection. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and your family. I thought of you on your birthday...my mom's birthday as well. At least I will never forget, huh? I needed to leave a reflection and the day got away from me. So many times I have meant to leave one, but life is busy and before you know it...it's been a few weeks. I called your mom the other day. She is such a great woman. I love her dearly, she is a gift and I am so blessed to have met her and that she is in my life. Recently Damian lost his mother, (give her a hug for him) and your mom sent him a card. It mean a lot to him. I was able to put him on the phone to speak with her because he too has been so busy he didn't have a chance to have a decent coversation with her...until then. She told me about Regina's baby shower and how big it was...I'm sure you were thought about and brought up in conversations. I know how much everyone misses you. I read the reflections they leave and they bring me to tears...especially Regina's recent one. May God bless all those missing you so much. You know, your mom was telling me how beautiful and adorable Isabella is and she truly is beautiful. I am so fortunate that I was able to see her in June when I was up there. Isaac, it was very cold and we went to the seashore in Burlingame by the hotel I was staying at. The wind was blowing, it was cold and Isabella didn't want to leave. She asked many questions and could not stop watching the water. I bet if she had a towel and a change of clothes...she would have jumped in!!! I wish I could spend more time with them, they truly are special.

Blessings,

Shanon Dreyer
Palomar College Police Academy

August 10, 2007

Hi Isaac, I today is a hard day for me. I can't stop thinking about how you can't be with us for all our family gatherings like before. We are having a little something for my moms birthday at your house and how I wish you would be there.In a way you will because not one day goes by that we don't talk about the good times with you. I miss you Isaac!! I...can't believe everything that has happend. I miss everything!!! My only comfort is that you left us a huge part of you witch is Isabella and I thank God for that. She is a replica of you and she keeps you alive always.

Rudy

August 6, 2007

Thinking of you.
Auntie

August 5, 2007

Hey Cousin Isaac,

Went to your house today for Regina's baby shower and this was the first time I've been back to your house since your death. I love the 49er room it came out great and the rest of the house looks wonderful! Your brothers did a wonderful job. We miss you and miss you coming by Auntie Lupe's house once in awhile. See you in the next life when our time comes.

Love Cousin Carmen :-)

Carmen
Cousin

July 29, 2007

i still think of you time to time. Eventho, we met one time but i see your bulletin of you in my classroom at city college of san francisco and i sigh and say "i met this wonderful man"
and think i am blessed. We sometimes talk about you in class.

i still regret not saying bye to you. You're my role model. On my graduation day at city college, I will put your name on my gown and graduate in the honor of you.

July 26, 2007

Ok Zak,

I can just laugh at how Birco is talking your ear off about his 1 year and how messed up (that's not really the word he used) it is he can't be here with us. Your 33rd. passed and you need to know you are thought of often and the quirky things that go on around the station are probably a result of you! That smile, that hair, that head nod up and down...priceless. Love ya brother, bless u. PB

PB, USMC
SFPD, Bayview MIDS

July 26, 2007

Our family Chain is broken, and nothing seems the same; but as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.

Cousin, I found this today and thought of you, Lucy, and Paula and all the others that have gone before us.

Love you

Big Cousin

July 23, 2007