Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

ISAAC!!! where do i start with you!! You were someone who always made me laugh and smile!! you were always the person to spark up the crowd with not only your sense of humor but also your smile! Isaac i miss you sooo much!! We all miss you and will never forget you!! i treasure and hold close all of my memories with you and your beautiful family! Isaac you truely were a guardian angel! you were an angel within our reach! now you are home in heaven with god! a borrowed angel is who you are! Isaac i will never forget you and yer undying faith!! say hi to my brother derek up there! i want you both to know that i love you guys so much! For you have touched mine and so many souls! I LOVE YOU ISAAC!!
FINA NEWBECK

Fina

May 23, 2004

Hey bro, its me Eggy. I just wanted to let you know that I love you and miss you . Not one day has gone by that I don't ask why this had to happen to you and to our families. Yesterday the POA dedicated a wall in their building to you. It was really hard for all of us to see your picture and your uniform on that wall but at the same time we all felt proud. Renata, Isabella, your parents, my parents, your sister and me were there. I am and will always be proud of you. I will never forget you as long as I live. I know that you are with our Lord and Saviour and that the promise that we will see you again in his presence again will endure.

Your BRO: Edgar

May 22, 2004

Officer Isaac Espinoza
Scared to death we raced to my sisters house,
when we first heard the news,
Hearts pounding, souls begging,
for God to have mercy on you,
Told to stay put at home with the family,
We Couldn't bare to stay still,
helpless and unable to do anything,
praying to God to not let this be his will,
Finally unable to stay no more,
To the hospital we drove,
We get there and are rushed to the door,
to me everything looked cold,
Walking I could feel my heart beating 20 times its normality,
entering the door, afraid of what i would hear,
walking and seeing the whole family,
They confirmed my worst fear,
No, No this just cant be...
Gasping for air...Ok Rudy just breath....Breath don't fall....Breath... Get control.
"He's gone" they said, "He didn't pull through." All of a sudden I saw Pictures of you.
That moment is frozen in time,
never to be erased.
Angry, confused, betrayed and hate,
All feelings that i have to replace.
Isaac i love you
Please never Forget,
That the moment you left,
everyone will always regret.

© Ruth Mendez
18 May 2004


Dedication: To My brother
Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza SFPD

I miss you EYEZ

May 21, 2004

Isaac, we will forever keep you in our hearts. God grant your family the strength through this difficult time. Rest assured our heavenly Father will protect your loved ones. Thank you for being a hero and protecting those that could not, for doing what others would not ever dare do, for serving those that often didn't deserve it, it is honorable. Be Blessed!

Julie, Luis & Khristian Molina

May 20, 2004

to renata and issabella... may the love issac had for you 2 .always be in your heart! hes love for your 2 will always be forever lasting! with our father..

mother

May 19, 2004

I miss you so much Iss. I been strong for the last few days, but the pain doesn't go away. You were not only my cousin but my brother. I respected you. When I would get in fights with your friends, you would never take sides. If it wasn't for you, R-Ranch would have never been the same. We had a blast. You really turned out to be a a true Hero! Also you were Great Man, Father, Husband, Brother, Son, Cousin, and Friend. We all looked up to you. Until we meet again, please stay with us. I love you. Your cous.

May 19, 2004

Cous, I miss you so much! I still can't get it. I think about you everyday, and I just want you back with us. I want this bad dream to go away. Why you?? You had big dreams... I love you cous. I look at bella, and I see you. Her eyes are yours. It hurts, but I'm so glad you blessed us with her You wanted a big family and a beautiful house. You were honestly the true definition of a man! When I do get married some day, I hope the man I marry is as loving as a husband and father as as you were. You are my hero. Thank you for always protecting me.

I know I told you to not flash your light on my bedroom window while working, but you know I was kidding. Thank you for looking after me and reg everyday while you worked. You will never be forgotten. I will miss your drive bye. For everyday that passes, I think of you...I love you Cous, Adele

Adele

May 19, 2004

There is something about the death of Officer Espinoza that really touched me and got me thinking about mortality, the people in our lives that we love so much, and the fact that every day is a new day and we just never really know when it's time to go. Officer Espinoza was too young to go and it just doesn't seem fair that he was taken from his family and friends in such a brutal way. I did not know Officer Espinoza personally, but I'm sure that if there is a life after death, and there's got to be, then there's no doubt he's with his family everyday.

Anonymous

May 19, 2004

Isaac, I wasn't fortunate enough to know you, but you touched the life of someone very dear to me and for that I thank you. From what I can gather, you touched so many lives for the better and you will be greatly missed but forever remembered. My thoughts & prayers are with the loving family you left behind. May God bless you & keep your loved ones in His care.

O. Nolan

May 19, 2004

I'm thinking about you Isaac!! You will never be forgotten. I like coming on this web site, and reading what people feel about you. It is still unbelieveable to me that you are not here. You are still on my caller Id, because I don't want to forget you. Miss you and I'm thinking of you.

May 19, 2004

In the sunlight that's where I'll be
In the moon light close your eyes, you will see me
In the sunrise in the twilight
I'll be the morning and the evening star
I will be there with you wherever you are...To Rae(taken from "Wherever You Are" by Celeste Prince)

sister of SFPD officer

May 18, 2004

Dearest Isaac, It is said life is measured by it's quality not by it's length. Certainly your life was filled with love and self sacrifice, therefore your life was enviable in it's giving. Bless our SFPD Family with your prayers before the throne of God. A Peace Officer's Mom

Mother of an SF Peace officer

May 18, 2004

051604

dear isaac,
how are you doing? I hope that your doing good. sorry i havent written to you in a very long time, but you know that i pray to you every night, so it makes up. how am i doing? well okay i guess, trying to stay strong, and trying not to break down. but its hard i miss you and so does everybody else. the other day BELLA came over to play with CHIPPY. shes so cute, she was sitting on my lap and she was singing her little way on, and i was playing with her hair. gosh it made me cry when i was playing with her, because she looks so much like you, then she asked me " MONICA WHY YOU CRYING?" i go " OHH BELLA, YOU JUST WOULDNT UNDERSTAND" SHE SAID " OH MONICA i UNDERSTAND" " DONT CRY MONICA". each day she reminds me of you. just know what shes doing good, shes away from harm. we were upstairs in my room and we were just playing. so just know what we are taking care of her. gosh she eats alot! haha =) well yess. days have been getting better. we all miss you. i miss you oh so much. everyday i think about you. i just remininse on the times when you would be so mean to me and my sister. i miss you isaac. well im going to go just wanted to write in here, to tell you this. hope your doing good. be good up there ISAAC, please dont be too mean! miss you isaac, and i love you. save a spot for me up there will you? love you.

Monica

May 17, 2004

god bless you and your family.i miss seeing you at gideons gym, training for the ironman, holding court.i remember you told me that you would be fit and do the entire ironman after shattering your ankle. i thought in the back of my head that you were crazy that your injury would hold you back.i was so wrong.you not only finished, you kicked ass.

ofc.kevin moylan
sfpd

May 16, 2004

HEY ISAAC I KNOW YOU ARE NO LONGER WITH US BUT, I HAVE HOPE THAT OUR GOD JEHOVAH WILL BRING YOU BACK IN THE RESSURECTION AND WE WILL SEE YOU AGAIN ,SO TO YOUR FAMILY : GOD KNOWS ISAAC WAS A WONDERFUL PERSON AND WE WILL SEE HIM AGAIN HERE ON EARTH LIVING FOREVER IN PARADISE JUST LIKE HE PROMISES IN HIS WORD THE BIBLE. LOVE ALWAYS LYDIA.B

YOUR FRIEND LYDIA

May 15, 2004

OH ISAAC WHAT CAN I SAY, I ALWAYS KNEW THAT YOU WERE A GREAT PERSON YOU RESPECTED YOUR WIFE SO MUCH AND I KNEW YOU LOVED HER SO DEEPLY EVEN KNOWING THAT I LOVED YOU SO MUCH ,I RESPECTED YOU FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT PERSON AND PUTING YOUR FAMILY FIRST, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART. YOUR FRIEND

LYDIA.B
FRIEND

May 15, 2004

It is very difficult to write words of comfort on this site. Law Enforcement is a large family and when one is lost it has an impact on all of us. You seemed like a good guy to know and one who loved his job. I recently served in the California Officers Memeorial to honor all of the fallen officers. I would proudly do it again to honor you. God bless your family and friends.

We have the watch from here my friend. May you rest in peace.

Officer
Burbank PD

May 13, 2004

I think about you everyday and it still hurts me so much that you are gone. I am so sorry that I was so angry at you the night before you died. I know that you didn't mean to hurt me, but living with never telling you that I understood kills me. I hope you knew that I did understand. I knew that you never meant to hurt me. If I had known that that was going to be the last time that I was ever going to see you I would've told you everything that I had ever wanted to tell you. I have always respected you and thought highly of you. I am so glad for the times we did share together, even if our time together was short. I think about you everyday, I can still hear your laugh and see you smile. You were such an amazing person with a huge heart. I know how much it hurts for me that you are gone, but I can't even begin to imagine the pain that it has caused your wife and family. I know that I never got to meet them, but my heart goes out to them and I pray for them everyday. Please know that I love you and always will. I miss you.

Your "Little Carmen"

A Friend,

May 13, 2004

So long, but never goodbye.
We will not forget you, brother.

Phoenix PD

May 12, 2004

Isaac....this is so hard! If only you knew how this is not only on me but on all of us. I miss you so much. Its like everyday that I come home I see your car there and think your inside but your not. Your not here with us anymore. Why Isaac? Saturday was my birthday and I know that you would have told me that you were going to have extra police in that area to make sure I dont drive home drunk. You always lectured me about that...come one Isaac I would never do that. Last night when I was driving home I just lost it. It hurts even more when I get home and see your car there. I wish you could come home. You know everyone says that you are in a better place but I dont. I think the better place is here with us, with Bella and Renata, with your mom and dad and sister. The better place is here!!! We want you to come back and I cant get it through me that your not. Isaac we miss you so much and dont you ever forget it. I was telling my mom the other day that I wish we could have more memories to share together. More times to make fun of you, see you working hard in your yard, see you get your impalla fixed up, and even take me on a ride on your Harley. Isaac you are always in my heart no matter where I go and remember we miss you a lot and wish you were here and though you aren't we still think of how you would react or say to us. You are never forgotten!

Veronica

May 12, 2004

Dear Isaac, where do I begin!!We miss you so very much. My husband misses not seeing you in the mornings when he goes to work and you were just getting home. I miss not seeing you 3 or 4 times a day and chatting with you, and you telling me about your plans with your house, or how very much you loved Renata and Bella, and how you talked about your dad and what he was going to help you with in the house.All the jokes you played on us for the last four and half years. Remember when you did your old deck and you were in the little pool with Bella trying to tan your legs because we use tell you "tan those legs Isaac". Working in the back or front yard without a shirt was another one of your specialties, gosh how we miss you. Football season will be hard, you will not be here to take down our Raiders flag so that you can put your 49er flag, or when I knew you were home watching the game I would go past your door and yell "Go Raiders, and you would come to the door and say hey, hey, hey watch that. Your life was cut short, and I sit and wonder why God works in such mysterious ways. You had so much to give and live. You have some wonderful and true friends, they have been here working on your house and looking out for your family.Your deck and fence look really nice. There is not one day that goes by that our family does not talk about you. I see your car outside and when I go to get in my car I can almost hear you calling me" hey Sonia" with that happy and charismatic way you had, but you know I like seeing your car there because its like oh, Isaac is home, just like old times. I know you are in a better place and that you are a very especial angel up there, looking and taking care of Bella and Renata. We will always talk to Bella about her daddy, and what a wonderful and great daddy she had, and how very much he loved her. How he took her to the park, let her play in the water outside, ride her little jeep, get ice-cream when the ice-cream truck came around and when you played with her.We are next door and we will always look out for Bella and Renata. You know nothing beautiful and loved in this world is ever really lost, all the things that we really love live in our hearts forever. We love and miss you so very much, you will not be forgotten and you will never be forgotten in our prayers.Love you Isaac -Sonia

Sonia/Neighbor-Friend

May 12, 2004

Not one day goes without me going on this website to see and read about how people feel about you. I think about you everyday! I still can't believe you are gone. It's not right. I want to see you again, but I know it will be in 50 years from now. Man Isaac, even in death you are still popular! Great personality. I'm thinking of you...rest in peace..watch over us.

May 11, 2004

DEAR ISSAC,
IT'S ME AGAIN. I FEEL SO LOST AT THIS VERY MOMENT. LOST BECAUSE YOUR GONE. I KNOW THAT YOUR IN A BETTER PALCE AND I JUST CAME BACK FROM SCHOOL AND I KNOW THAT IM SUPPOSED TO WRITE IN HERE, MY PRAYERS AND REFLECTIONS, BUT I FEEL LIKE I CAN EXPRESS MYSELF IN HERE AND THAT YOUR READING IT. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. TODAY AT SCHOOL WAS REALLY HARD FOR ME. I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU THE WHOLE DAY. WE HAD A MEMORIAL THING AT SCHOOL FOR THE PEOPPLE THAT HAVE PASSED AWAY, AND SURE ENOUGH I WAS UP THERE, MADE A PRAYER AND EVEN DID SOME ART WORK, A PICTURE OF YOU! AND EVERYTHING. ITS SO HARD TO COME HOME EVERYDAY AND SEE YOUR CAR THERE, NOT YET MOVED FROM IT'S SAME SPOT. PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO GO ON, DONT PULL ME BACK. I MISS YOU ISAAC. I HOPE YOUR DOING GOOD UP THERE. SAVE A SPOT FOR ME IN HEAVEN TO BE BESIDES YOU. I HAVE YOU IN MY PRARYERS EVERY DAY. TODAY WE ARE HOLDING A VIGIL FOR YOU. EVERYONE WILL BE THERE. I KNOW YOU LOVED THE ATTENTION. TOMORROWS ANOTHER DAY. I MISS YOU ISAAC AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

MoNiCA

May 10, 2004

Isaac, not one day goes by that I dont miss you. You were the brother I never had.I will make sure that Isabella is always reminded of what a great father,husband, son and brother you were.I still feel as if this is a dream and that soon I will wake up and you will be there. Everytime I go to the house I expect to see you there. I miss your advise and your friendship. I regret not joining the gym with you earlier so that you can give my work outschedule like you said you would. Iam proud to tell people that you were my brother in law and an SF police officer. Thanks for motivationg me to get into construction trade. I am working with a contractor who is mentoring me in the trade. I know that
that evrything is going to work out well in that aspect of my life. Iam also greatfull to your SFPD family for there support to Renata and Isabella
I pray to our Lord that he protects and blesses there lives. Iam great full to your family for giving me the oppotunty
to represent them during this difficult time. All of your friends have been awsome in showing nothing but love to my sister and my niece. I will never forget you brother and will make sure your daughter never forgets who her daddy was either.

Your little Bro: Egg

May 10, 2004

Dear Isaac,
Even though I didn't live next door, you always made sure I felt like I did.You would always look over when you would see me pull up and say "not another mendoza sister".You were always plotting some kind of joke to pull on us. In the five years that I have known you, you have managed to leave a deep impact in my life. You will be really missed but we have alot of wonderful memories to remind us of how special you were.

Neighbor/ana

May 8, 2004