Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Dear Jeff,
Christmas is almost here and life is so busy around us. I know you are preparing for the most beautiful Christmas ever with your heavenly family and friends. The selfish side of me still wants you to spend it with us. I will also participate in the Blue Light Project, for you, those with you and those who continue their duties here on earth. I will see your face in every decoration and see your smile in every shining light. Please comfort us as our lives are so very different without you. It is so hard to miss you so much. Your picture in your dress blues sits beside the tree. You looked so handsome in them. I couldn't have known when I received that picture along with the many I have and cherish, just how much I would treasure each and every one. Your time here with us was so short. You always made us so proud, You still do and always will. I am thankful that we never parted, or hung up the phone without telling each other we loved them. Now I see how important that is to do. Thank-you for being all you are to me. Help me to make you just as proud. I know you will be at mamaw's Christmas, but that is a long time to wait, so please be with me now too. I know I'm just one of so many that still needs you, and misses you, but you are a hero and I know you can figure out how to visit us all. I'm thinking of you brother, please hug Aunt Mae for me, okay. Love Susan

Susan Hewitt
Sister

December 13, 2004

Jeff,
Yesterday I was talking with someone and sharing with them the time me and you spent 3hrs over at Lake Julian park, just talking. I know you remember because you kept making the comment about how stubborn I was and would laugh that laugh of yours that no one in the world could ever stay mad at no matter what the situation. To say the least I was unable to finish the story with this person, because all I kept hearing was you saying those words over and over again, the one you kept saying on that day...The word that changed my life, and brought me PEACE, so one day would you finish the conversation for me to that one individual. Jeff, you made all the wrongs right and my goodness how it shows. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I hope you have a Merry Christmas, and please come by and put your arms around Tracie and Taylor, to get them through a christmas without you. I love you partner.. Heaven has now in it's posession, the finest we here on earth have to offer.

FOREVER IN DEBT,
TY

TY

December 13, 2004

Dearest Jeff,
I've been reading thru your reflections and the warmth and love I find for you there gives me so much comfort. Thanksgiving was a very difficult time for us, but I want you to know that you were very much a part of our day. Your picture was placed by the table and as the blessing was given by your grandmother we felt your presence as we all joined hands in prayer. We missed you so very much. Your dad and I went by the Sheriff's Dept. after dinner and spent some quiet time viewing the beautiful plaque that has been placed in the briefing room. The engraved picture of you and the tribute that accompanies it reflects the love of those who placed it there. Now we face Christmas without you and we're just trying to take it a day at a time. This year there will be no tree in our living room, just two bright twinkling stars on our porch and blue lights around the railing. The stars are for you and blue lights are our way of honoring all of you who are spending Christmas in heaven this year and all of those still left behind that are now carrying on your watch here on earth. Honey, our pain is still as great today as it was when we received that horrible phone call, letting us know you had been taken from us. Everyday we look for signs from you and everyday you're on our minds and in our hearts as we try to cope. Just as we gathered at your grandparents for Thanksgiving, we will gather there for Christmas. Our love for you and our knowledge that one day we will all spend Christmas with you in Heaven will help us get thru the day. We'll be with you at the cemetery before the day ends. You'll never be alone because our love will always surround you. We know you'll have a glorious celebration with Jesus and we know you'll be looking down on us with a smile and a happy heart. Just be patient with us and save us a place. We love you honey. Hope to hear from you soon.
Love,
Mom

Patricia Hewitt

December 12, 2004

Hi Jeff,

It's almost the end of the year, and I am glad to see it come. What a year it has been, hasn't it? I have read what Tracie has written to you, and it makes me so sad for her..what an emptiness she must feel without you..I can't even imagine. I thought of you recently as I made a big decision in my life. I'm letting go of a job I have had for 8 years now to move on to something new. You know, I wouldn't want another night like April 4th EVER again, but at the same time, I am glad I was on the radio that night, because it opened up my eyes to so so many things. I remember one of my best friends in the world telling me he was taking heavy fire..I still hear it sometimes, and remember how I felt at the time. So helpless..praying and trying to keep my senses about me. And when my friend told me you were gone. It was unbelieveable..unthinkable. It was like nothing I have ever experienced. I may not have known you, but it didn't matter. You were every officer, every friend at that point. So now, I have decided that I can't go through that again, and I have to move on. The end of the year is here, and I have to let go of a lot of things. I wish you were still here..I wish that night had never happened. There will never be a time in my life that I forget it. And Jeff, I thank you every day for making me realize so many things I took for granted in my life before.
Tracy - You are in my thoughts. I wish you the best this holiday and into the new year. You are a strong woman.

December 10, 2004

With the holidays approaching, I just wanted to let Jeff's family and friends know that we'll be praying for them. It will be a hard time, but I pray that God will comfort you all in your pain. God Bless you....

K.Houston

December 8, 2004

Hey Baby,
Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you. I miss you too pieces! I got some blue lights today for the window's. It's for Project Blue Light. You know it's crazy, there are so many things I didn't know about before. I'm learning so many new things about law enforcement stuff. Anyway, I hope you will see the blue lights shining for you. I love you so very much. I'll see you in my dreams.

Love,
Tra

See you in a minute 1-4-3

Tracie M. Hewitt
Jeff's wife

December 7, 2004

DEAR JEFF,
I WAS SITTING HERE READING THE REFLECTIONS OF YOU THAT PEOPLE LEAVE TO YOU AND WHILE READING IT BRINGS ALOT OF TEARS TO YOUR EYES. PEOPLE LEAVE SO MANY BEAUTIFUL MESSAGES TO YOU AND NOT JUST FAMILY. YOU WERE TRULY LOVED AND RESPECTED. THE BIBLE TELLS US THAT NO GREATER LOVE HAS A MAN THAN ONE WHO WOULD LAY DOWN HIS LIFE FOR ANOTHER. THAT IS WHAT YOU DID THAT TERRIBLE DAY IN APRIL THAT WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. YOU WERE WILLING TO GO AHEAD OF YOUR FELLOW OFFICERS AND PROTECT THEM FROM ARMS WAY. YOU HAVE MADE EVERYONE WHO KNEW YOU AND THOSE MANY THAT DIDN'T VERY VERY PROUD.

WE MISSED YOU HERE AT THE HOUSE ON THANKSGIVING DAY. YOU WERE SUCH A PLEASURE TO HAVE WITH US ON HOLIDAYS AND JEFF DONE OF THEM WILL EVER BE THE SAME FOR US WHEN FAMILY GATHERS.

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR THOUGHTS, NEVER A DEPUTY CAR GOES BY THAT WE LOOK TO SEE IF YOUR NAME IS IN THE WINDOW AND OF COURSE IT IS.

WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU,

UNCLE JIM AND AUNT PAT

PATRICIA EARWOOD

December 3, 2004

DEAR JEFF,

IT'S HARD TO BELEIVE THAT THANKSGIVING JUST PASSED AND HOLIDAYS ARE HERE. IT IS SO HARD TO KEEP A SMILE ON OUR FACE WHEN THERE IS STILL SO MUCH HURT IN OUR HEARTS. YOU ARE MISSED SO MUCH BY FRIENDS AND FAMILY. THERE ISN'T A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT YOUR NOT THOUGHT OF.

WE KNOW YOUR STILL WITH US IN SPIRIT. YOU TOOK WITH YOU A PART OF OUR HEARTS.
THE PART THAT BELONGED TO YOU, AND YOU ALONE, THAT NO ONE COULD EVER FILL. I KNOW IT MUST BE GETTING EXCITING IN HEAVEN RIGHT NOW. YOUR GETTING READY TO SPEND YOUR FIRST CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN. CELEBRATING THE BIRTH OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR. WHAT REJOICING MUST BE GOING ON. JEFF WOULD YOU SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JESUS FOR ME.

JEFF, THE DAYS DON'T GET ANY EASIER FOR THOSE YOU LEFT BEHIND, BUT WE KNOW THAT GOD NEEDED YOU HOME WITH HIM. YOU JUST BEGAN TO LIVE ON 04-04-04, YOU SAILED ON THAT OLE SHIP OF ZION. AND STEPPED OVER JORDAN RIGHT INTO BUELALAND. I CAN JUST SEE THAT SMILE ON YOUR FACE. YOU NEVER SAW A STRANGER SO I KNOW YOU WERE WELCOMED WITH OPEN ARMS.

WE MISS YOU SO MUCH. OUR HEARTS WILL NEVER MEND. TIME WILL NOT ROB US OF YOUR MEMORY. BUT WE KNOW THAT GOD IN ALL HIS MERCY KNEW HIS PLAN FOR YOU. WE DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER, WE DON'T UNDERSTAND, BUT WE KNOW, HE NEEDED YOU.
MAYBE HE NEEDED YOU TO PATROL THE STREETS OF HEAVEN, ALTHOUGH WE ALL KNOW THAT HEAVEN IS A PLACE OF NO MORE HURTS, TEARS, SICKNESS OR SORROW. SO I KNOW YOUR JUST STROLLING OVER GOLDEN STREETS AND ENJOYING ALL THE BEAUTY THERE.

I LOVE YOU JEFF, THANK YOU AGAIN FOR ALL THE JOY YOU BROUGHT TO US EVERYDAY. NOT JUST ON HOLIDAYS. BECAUSE HAVING YOU IN OUR LIFE, EVERYDAY WAS A HOLIDAY. BECAUSE YOU BROUGHT SUNSHINE ON CLOUDY DAYS.

SEE YOU SOON. DON'T FORGET WE LOVE YOU.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS
CAROLYN MOORE

PS
I CAN'T STAND THE CHRISTMAS CAROLS, THEY ALWAYS BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES
ANYWAY. BUT THIS YEAR IT TRULY WILL BE A "BLUE BLUE CHRISTMAS" WITHOUT YOU.

CAROLYN MOORE

December 3, 2004

SUBMITTED TO ALL OF JEFF'S FAMILY AND FRIENDS ON BE HALF OF JEFF.

I'LL HAVE MY FIRST CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN

I'LL HAVE MY FIRST CHRISTMANS IN HEAVEN
A GLORIOUS WONDERFUL DAY.
I'LL STAND WITH THE SAINTS OF THE AGES.
WHO FOUND CHRIST, THE TRUTH AND THE WAY

I'LL SING WITH THE HEAVENLY CHOIR.
JUST THINK, "I WHO LONGED SO TO SING."
AND OH, WHAT CELESTIAL MUSIC,
WE'LL BRING TO OUR SAVIOUR AND KING.

WE'LL SING THE GLAD SONGS OF REDEMPTION
HOW JESUS TO BETHLEHEM CAME.
AND HOW THEY CALLED HIS NAME JESUS,
THAT ALL MIGHT BE SAVED THROUGH HIS NAME.

WE'LL SING ONCE AGAIN WITH THE ANGELS.
THE SONG THAT THEY SANG THAT BLEST MORN
WHEN SHEPHERDS FIRST HEARD THE GLAD STORY
THAT JESUS, THE SAVIOUR, WAS BORN.

MY FAMILY, I WISH YOU COULD BE HERE.
NO CHRISTMAS ON EARTH COULD COMPARE.
WITH ALL THE RAPTURE AND GLORY
WE'LL WITNESS IN HEAVEN SO FAIR.

YOU KNOW HOW I ALWAYS LOVED CHRISTMAS
IT SEEMED SUCH A WONDERFUL DAY.
WITH ALL OF LOVED ONES AROUND ME
THE CHILDREN SO HAPPY AND GAY.

YES, NOW I CAN SEE WHY I LOVED IT,
AND OH, WHAT A JOY IT WILL BE.
WHEN YOU AND MY LOVED ONES ARE WITH ME,
TO SHARE IN THE GLORIES I SEE.

SO DEAR ONES ON EARTH HERE'S MY GREETING,
LOOK UP TIL THE DAY DAWN APPEARS.
AND OH, WHAT A CHRISTMAS AWAITS US,
BEYOND ALL OUR PARTINGS AND TEARS.

AUTHOR UNKNOWN

LOVE TO ALL
CAROLYN MOORE
JEFF'S MOTHER-IN-LAW

CAROLYN MOORE

December 3, 2004

Happy Thanksgiving Jeff. Love you and miss you so. We'll be thinking of you when we cut the cheesecake.

November 25, 2004

Dear Jeff,
I've written you a poem. I hope you like it.

THE LEAVES ARE GONE, IT'S EARLY FALL,
NATURE SWEPT THEM AWAY, WITH GENTLE CALLS.
COLORED PASTURES, MAJESTIC FIELDS, A BEAUTIFUL LANDSCAPE , LIES QUIETLY STILL.

I SEE YOU SITTING IN THE DAWN,
VIEWING A RABBIT, A DOE WITH ITS FAWN.
THESE THINGS YOU EMBRACE,I CANNOT
HOLD,
THEY ARE WILD AND FREE, UNSPOKEN, UNTOLD.

I HOPE ONE DAY TO SHARE THEM WITH YOU,
OER THE BOUNTIFUL LAKES, FULL OF LIFE THAT'S ANEW.
TO TOUCH THE SUN, THE MOON, THE STARS,
I CANNOT YET FATHOM ALL THE RICHES THERE ARE.

UNTIL THEN, PLEASE SIT WITH ME,
AMIDST A WATERFALL,
HOLD MY HAND WHEN IN FEAR, KEEP ME TRUE AND TALL.

WHEN TEARS FALL FREELY, PLEASE MAKE THEM SMILES,
THEY HOLD MEMORIES OF YOU AS A MAN; AS A CHILD.
WHEN I'M ENCUMBERED BY THE DAY, OVERWHELMED WITH GRIEF AND LOSS,
SPEAK TO ME, I'LL HEAR EACH WORD, YOUR VOICE ASSURED YET SOFT.

I DIDN'T GET TO SAY GOOD-BYE, PERHAPS.. I WOULDN'T IF I COULD,
I RATHER JUST REMEMBER YOU BY A STREAM, OR A TREE IN THE WOODS.

THESE THINGS YOU LOVE WILL HOLD YOU NOW,
REST PEACEFUL, YET GO PLAY,
FLY WITH EAGLES THAT GRACEFULLY SOAR,
YOUR WORK IS DONE TODAY.

THE WIND HAS WITHERED EVERY DOUBT,
IT'S WHISPERS US YOUR NAME,
IT'S BREEZE WILL BRING US COMFORT, FOR WE MUST STILL FEEL PAIN.
AS I LAY MY HEAD WITHIN MY HANDS,
AND I AM MISSING YOU AGAIN,
KNOW MY LOVE FOR YOU IS STRONG,
MY BROTHER..MY HERO..MY FRIEND....
LOVE,SUSAN
KNOW I'M ALWAYS MISSING YOU

Susan Hewitt
Sister

November 23, 2004

I know it's not Christmas yet! I just know this is how Jeff will be spending Christmas this year.

Christmas In Heaven


I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below with tiny lights like heaven's stars reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular please wipe away that tear
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear
but the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you of the joy their voices bring
for it is beyond description to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I can't tell you of the splendor or the peace here in this place Can you just imagine Christmas with our Savior face to face?

I'll ask him to lift your spirit as I tell you of your love
so then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful and let your spirit sing
for I am spending Christmas in heaven and I'm walking with the King.

Tracie M. Hewitt

November 22, 2004

Dear Jeff,
Just wanted you to know....today has been one of those really difficult days. You know, sometimes I can stay really busy and before I know it's bed time, but today has been one of those days where you consume my every thought ...every breath. The holidays are creeping up on me... I haven't even begun to shop. My heart just isn't in it. For the first time in my life, I hate Christmas music. I see everyone making christmas wreaths and decorations. I too am making decorations, but for your grave. It just doesn't seem right! You should be calling me on the phone right now saying that you, Ike, John and Mark are looking for another deer that has gotten away from you. Thanksgiving sure will be lonely! Your Mom has invited me to spent the day with them at your Grandma's house. I will probably try to spend a few minutes with them. It will be so hard to do....but it will also help me feel close to you. I'll never forget that Thanksgiving when Haven let the "cat out ot the bag" and told everyone you have a tatoo. That was so funny. You were so afraid of what your parents would say. Baby, there are some things going on...some questions I really need some answers to. I know in my heart that you are aware...Please help me decide what to do. Help me make the right decision. I know what you are probably saying... I never wanted your opinion on "serious" things before...Ha Ha , but it's different now...you have been perfected now. So how about a little assistance down here. I know you must be busy patrolling the streets of Heaven, but you aren't getting off that easy. I still need you here too. Come see me in my dreams!

I love you always,
Tra

See you in a minute 1-4-3

Tracie M. Hewitt
Jeff's Wife

November 22, 2004

Dear Jeff,
Just wanted to drop you a line this A.M.. Give you an update on the twins.
Levi and Logan will be a year old in January. They are just thrilled to be standing alone. They really keep Ruth and Justin on the go. I would say they will be walking by Christmas.
This will be our first Thanksgiving and
Christmas without you. It is so hard to believe. We all wish it was a bad dream that would just go away. We hope that Tracie and Taylor will be sharing the Holidays with us. I'm sure they will. I was over there a few days ago, having some Mcdonalds for supper, boy did that look good to Teddy. I remember how you always thought I was slipping him table food, but honestly, I didn't do it as much as you thought. Ha. Tracie asked him if he wanted a puppy bath and he actually did! She has the touch. I look back at the reflections I've written, realizing, they are rather long. I know you would rag me about that, so I'll keep this one short. I'll see you at the cheesecake, Thanksgiving. Love you,
Susan

susan/sister
waynesville resident

November 16, 2004

My deepest sympathy to the Hewitt family. Sgt Hewitt, you are a true hero that will never be forgotten by your brothers in blue. I know what your family is presently going through as I lost my son in the line of duty on 8/8/04. As parents, we would gladly trade places with you and take your place, but for some reason God has chosen you to meet with him face to face. My prayers are with you and your family and I know they will not forget you. Maybe you and my son are partners right now, if so, watch over both our families. God bless your you and yourfamily.

Robert Gordon, father of Chicago Officer Michael P. Gordon EOW 8/8/04

Robert Gordon, Asst. Chief (Retired)
Riverside PD, Illinois

November 12, 2004

hello Brother
I just wanted to talk to you for a minute or two, to tell you thank-you so much for your dedication to our country and our family. Whenever I really needed you, you were always there for me in spite of your busy schedule. How could I have known that so soon, I wouldn't be able to call you anymore. If I had I would have been calling to ask what I could do for you. It was so hard yesterday to stand in your backyard , seeing your deer and your target block. It seems like yesterday I was standing back there watching you shoot your bow while you were cooking us dinner on your grill. Tracie and I were talking about the day you got your new mower. How Justin weedeated by hand and I push mowed in the blazing sun, here you came riding circles around us, laughing. You were so proud of that mower. It also reminds me of the mountain of mulch we(Justin and I) hand shoveled and spread , again here you came, outdoing us once more with a bobcat and bucket. How funny. You still had all that energy at the end of the day, often going on duty that night. Justin and I would be so sore we could barely move, Tracie would feel sorry for us, washing our clothes,as we stayed the night, preparing a top of the line meal,making sure we had all accomodations for our baths, while preparing fresh clean beds for us to collapse into. The next morning at sunrise we would start again. These times make me laugh and smile, yet weep, just wanting to have those days back. I saved your first sign for your mowing service. It was so hard to see it, but these memories I'll have forever. We all love and miss you so much, but know that you are with us. Every time I go to Asheville and see the patrol cars for the Sheriffs Dept. I wonder which one you are riding in that day. Keep your officers safe, and watch over Mom, Dad, Tracie, Taylor, Justin, The Twins, and the rest of your friends and family. Just the same as did here, only now you are able to do it all at once. Thinking of you always,
Love Susan

sister
waynesville resident

November 12, 2004

Our dearest son,
The weather is getting colder, the leaves have turned and are now falling and with the changes of seasons our thoughts are with you just as they are everyday, all day long. We know how much you loved this time of year; hunting season,just spending time outdoors, the holidays and spending time with family and friends. Times we all took for granted but have become such special memories. Your "8 pointer" hangs in our greatroom thanks to the kindness of the taxidermist, Tracie and your friends. This special gift means so much more to us than they'll ever know. We have the picture that was taken the day you "bagged" it, making it even more special.
We're just trying to take each day as it comes but there are days when the pain of losing you is so great that we wonder if the tears will ever stop flowing. As we approach the holidays we do so with a heavy heart because they will be celebrated without you by our side. Honey, just know that you are and will always be in our hearts and on our minds. We sit with you at the cemetary, knowing in our hearts that you're with God, but needing the contact with you here on earth. It's so quiet,peaceful and beautiful there and for just a little while we feel like you're with us again and we'll wake up from a very bad dream,but all to soon the pain and reality returns. Save alot of places in Heavn for us honey because so many of us here on earth are just waiting to be with you again. Watch over us and help us cope as we face each new day without you.
You are loved and missed so very much.
Love,
Mom and Dad

Patricia and Bill Hewitt

November 11, 2004

Jeff,
Thank you for your service to our country as a soldier,my freedom I hold dear, and I thank you for fighting for it. Most of all the ultimate sacrifice you gave as a Law Enforcement Officer. Heaven has now in it's possesion, the finest we here on earth have to offer.

Forever in debt,
TY

TY

November 11, 2004

I come to this website often, since our son lost his partner. I just want us to please remember the fallen officers we have lost. Remember the men and women who died trying to make this world a safer and better place for us all to live in. Thank you Deputy Hewitt for a job well done. Please continue to watch over us as only you can. You will forever be at our side and in our hearts.

Just this morning I was talking to our son. He was on his way back to the substation from taking a man into custody at mental health. The man had poured gasoline over his body and was talked out of igniting himself. This world can be such a sad place.

Thank you for all you did for us. We will meet you someday.

Grandma & Grandpa Hinkle
Parents of a Deputy Sheriff

November 10, 2004

Hello brother,
I've been up since 5:ooa.m. I know you find that extremely hard to believe!ha this is my quiet time to spend with you. Ive been reading about so many fallen officers and their stories. I know you have such a fine team in heaven with you. We have suffered great losses here, but are thankful for those above and those still here to protect us in such courageous ways each and every day. We are going to help Traci this week. She is such a wonderful decorator , cook, friend, mother and person, however she's not much with a saw zaw.ha. Veterens day is Thursday so we will have another opportunity to honor you and so many others. I'll be at the cemetary so please come and sit with me awhile. I love and miss you bubba, watch over me as I still need my "big brother" so much. love, susan

SUSAN HEWITT/ SISTER

November 10, 2004

Dear Jeff
As always you are heavy on my heart and thoughts this A.M. Mamaw and I went to the cemetary a few days ago. She looked like a little ant sitting in the Land Rover. I placed a stool even with the bottom of the door so she could get in it. God bless her. They miss you so much too. Your loss has deeply affected our lives. My reflections should be positive but I also must be honest. Some days I just miss you so much it hurts. My heart feels as if there is a heavy weight on it that takes my breath. I close my eyes and see you laughing and picking on me. You always knew exactly how to ruffle my feathers just so you could see how mad I'd get before I threatened to leave. Of course I never did. There are so many great memories of us and our family. I remember the dress mom was wearing she went to the hospital to have you and how disappointed I was that I couldn't go too. So to make up for it I called the local radio station (with Mrs. Crosby,{the babysitter's} help. I asked them to sing happy birthday to my new baby brother, they asked me to do it myself, However, you had not even been officially named so I took care of that myself! Jeffrey Todd Hewitt I sang proudly. Uncle Jay was on his way to work, heard it on the radio, turned around and headed to the hospital. You were my brother which I begged mom and dad for. I insisted that I needed a Big brother even tho me being older, that was not possible. That is exactly what I got. The biggest brother a sister could have. being all grown up doesn't change that. I still need you every day. It's like dad said, even though we were all so busy and didn't get to visit each other alot, we always knew you were there. Now you are here in spirit and that is what we hold on to. I talk to Tracie as often as I can. I loved her when you brought her and her family into our lives and I love them still. We all try to comfort each other the best we can. Reading these reflections are comforting in the fact that your friends show so much respect and admiration for you. Even those who didn't have the honor to meet you, praise you and offer comfort to our family. God Bless each one of them as their praises of you are so well deserved. We always search for signs of you and they always appear to us as what is free. A bird, a rabbit, butterfly wings which lay perfectly intact on the sidewalk. I saw Jennifer Mackey and she said your tree is doing well. She continues to keep you remembered as well as others. When I go to Asheville and see your name on vehicles and patrol cars I will wish that you were driving one, but I know that you are riding with us all. Heaven knows that's a good thing for me;Ha, ha. Oh yeah before I go, I just want to say "whatever"! With all my love always, Sissy.

Susan Hewitt/sister

November 8, 2004

Dear Jeff,
It's November 1st. I can't believe that in just a few days you will have been gone 7 months. I know winter is just around the corner and I must say I will even miss you crawling into bed and rubbing your cold feet on my legs. You always wanted to put those freezing hands on me...you always said, "It will only be cold for a second" and you were right...only and second and then we were all warm and snuggly. I sure miss that. I would give anything in the world to just cuddle up to you and feel safe again for just one more second. Even during the hottest summer nights I never have felt quite warm enough since you've been gone. You know Jeff, I have to tell you and I'm sure you already know. I am so mad at you! I want to scream and yell so bad. I'm mad at you for leaving me. I'm mad at you for being the first man in that night. I'm mad at you for even going to work that night. I'm mad at you for unsettled issues. Just the same I'm also glad the other officer's lives were spared. I can't help feeling so selfish! I can't stand the way I feel and I can't stand that you were the only one who could make me feel better. Boy, am I being a big baby! I know I shouldn't feel this way. I know there is a reason for everything. Most of all I know how much you loved me! Despite the bumps in the road...I know you always had the best of intentions for me. I love you so very much! I miss you always!

Love,
Tracie

See you in a minute 143

Tracie Hewitt
Jeff's Wife

November 1, 2004

My dearest Jeffrey: My reflections have been few among the many I have read here, only because I haven't had a computer. However, I have written you so many letters in the car, in the house, on the steps and/or whenever I'm so overwhelmed that I must talk to you. Brother I miss you so very much. How proud I am and always have been of you. As the holidays approach, I know that you will be with us in spirit but who will race me to the desserts? I would gladly give you first pick if we could share just one more day together.
The twins are growing so quickly and Logan looks just like Justin. He is going to be the climber and Levi the runner. Please watch over them as well as us. Mom and Dad are strong but you know how much they miss you. Bubba we love you, keep loving us. I'll see you again someday, be with me as I carry on until then.
I LOVE YOU JEFF
SUSAN

susan hewitt
sister

October 30, 2004

Hey Partner,
As you already know bow season is almost 2 weeks old, and I can only imagine what you have seen so far. Man, Eddie shot a bear Thurs. 10/21/04. He was so excited. It weighed 250lbs. Pretty good with a bow huh? As me and Eddie stood and looked at it in the back of his truck, we talked about how you would get such a kick out of it, and about the time that one climbed the tree you were in on the Biltmore Estate!!! But, we knew you were there with us enjoying the same sense of accomplishment that all Bow hunters feel... What did you think about Taylor's B-Day party?? He had a good time, it just didn't seem the same.. The whole day I kept looking for you to go to the grill and fight the smoke just to cook for everyone. Man, I have such a hard time somedays I'm at a loss for what to do? Just anything to make it all go back to the way it was. I love you, pal. See ya soon!!! Heaven has now in it's posession, the finest we here on earth have to offer!
Forever in debt to you,
TY

TY

October 25, 2004

The reflections keep coming, I have never seen so many and that says alot about the person that you are. I never meet you personaly but through the honor of having spoken to Tracie and knowing "TY" for years i still feel like i lost a close friend. I know its been said time and again but thank you for doing what you did and being who you were and ARE. A greatful nation and community will be forever in your debt.

CPL Gary Mintz, Director Traffic Enf
Henderson Co Sheriff's Office NC

October 22, 2004