Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hello my hero!!! Yesterdaycame and went as a very busy day.... and for the first time since you were take from me and your family nearly a year ago I did not have time to cry until last night when I was too tired to do so. Momma has been so sick and is now in rehab so she can come back to our home to live with me where I can care for her!!!
I cannot tell U how much U R misse by your son's and me!!! Never does a day goby that I do not remember you smile, your chuckle, your sweet embrace, your soft whisper in my ear telling me U love me!!!
I only wish U knew how much I wish I could tap into your wisdom and knowledge to help me though so many days.....
ILU,IWY,INY, 4ever,and ever, Trisha

Trisha Tucker, Mark's Wife

January 13, 2006

Hey there Uncle Mark!! I was just sitting here at work thinking about you, as I so often do. It's so hard to believe that yesterday marked the one year, 11 month anniversary of your untimely death. It still seems like it was just a few short months ago, as the events of that day and the months that followed are so fresh in my mind. I'm often haunted by dreams of you that take me days to get over... but the dreams do help me to know that you are still with all of us, watching over us and helping us to make it through the days, especially the rough ones. I try so hard to keep on my strong hat and at least try to be a rock for everyone else - but the pressure of seeing people you love fall apart is enough to break me down to tiny little pieces... It's not fair. And I can't help but ask the inevitable question "WHY" over and over again. Why you? Why then? Why him? Why us? why why why... I sound like a 4 year old, I know... Give me some insight, something that makes sense... How can someone be so cruel? You spent your life giving to others, spreading love, protecting others... Why is that not sufficient justification for you to still be here with us? I know your days in Heaven are probably much better than ours down here on earth --- until that day...

Know that you are loved and missed beyond measure....

Angela Tucker
Mark's niece

January 13, 2006

Hello! My Hero! I wanted 2 wish U a Happy New Year, however, Moma was so sick while we were at the condo at the beach; she did not let me sleep but about an hour from Friday before New Year's day until tonight! For many nites I was afraid she would not live to leave the hospital!!! She really got sub-optimal care and I have called the CEO and the Nursing Director of Care to let them know! I need your arms around me tonight to reassure me that Moma will live until tomorrow, but you R not here for me except in SPIRIT!!!! ILU, INU, IWLU forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trisha, Mark's wife

January 6, 2006

Mark, I miss you. Nannie is in the hospital, she's sick, and moma is there with her. It makes it very lonely, not to have your parents here at the house. I wish you could have been here this Christmas. It's just not right for anyone else to hand out the presents, but moma did a great job lol. I miss your guidence, your love, your smile and your hard knox you always gave me. I plan on going back to school in the summer and I'm not giving up this time. I want more out of live and you can't get more w/o a degree, just like you said lol. Be with us all, we all miss you Mark. Be with with Chad he's having a rough time right now b/c of his g/f. Well, Let melet you go. I need some sleep. I Love You Mark w/ all my heart and my soul.

Love Always,
Your Son,
Matthew

PS: Daytona 500 Feb. 19, heck yeah. later

Matthew A. Tucker/ Mark's youngest son
One of the Tucker boys

January 6, 2006

O' Hero!!How do I reflect on the past year!!! I miss U more than a honey bee can miss the HONEY .....from the FORBIDDEN tree!!!! I Wish I only knew somrthing, I waz your favortie Lover or buy
man

Trisha Tucker, Mark's WIFE
Survivor

December 29, 2005

Merry Christmas Darling, Happy New Year too!! Sounds like a Carpenter's song,butI want you to know how much I miss you tonight!! As always I have many surprises for our boys. At yur Momand Dad's house tonight Kristina did a very special powerpoint presentation about the family. I had to leave in tears during the slide show...I just am having a very hard time MISSING YOU!!! Honey, ask God to help heal my broken heart and help me to enjoy life again! I dread every new day knowing I must face it without you to help me through. ILU, IMU, INU always.....Trisha

Trisha, Mark's wife

December 25, 2005

On the Eve of Christmas Eve I am sitting at this computer wishing U would walk through your Mama's door and say 'MERRY CHRISTMAS everybody', however that will never happen again since U were taken from us before You were due to leave us!!! I can not tell you of the tears I have cried since U left us or What your son's have suffered since your death!!!I want U home, I want U with me and our boys!!I want to touch U and know that U feel my soul reaching out to U and giving your Son's all that you have to offer them!!
I hope my love 4 U shines thru so U can understand HOW MUCH ILU!!!!!!!!!!BE With our Sons and give them Peace for the New Year!!!!!ILU Trisha

Trisha Tucker, survivor/wife

December 23, 2005

Happy Anniversary my Hero!!!! Do you remember back 28 years ago when we drove to SC to get married only to find out we had a 24hr "cooling off" period before the ceremony could be performed? So you also remember hwo we broke every speeding law and laws of gravity to get back to NC to a courthouse in Richmond Co. before 5:00 p.m.?? I will never forget that day or how happy you made me in the ensuing years. How I miss you... there are no words to express how painful your loss has been to me or the boys. Chad really struggles, but then so does Matthew. I just keep on plodding along...You will always be the light that lit up my life. ILU forever yours Trisha

Trisha Tucker
wife

December 14, 2005

AS our 28th Anniversity looms, I miss you more than words can express! I feel you near me so often, yet I cannot touch you! I so want to hold you close to my heart and know that you feel my LOVE 4 U!!!! I remember our 25th, when you bought me this HEAVY KIRBY vacuum cleaner/carpet cleaner!! Some anniversary present, except U cleaned the carpets!!! Who cleans the carpets now!!! I DO!! I know that you are aware of how much I love you!!! Keepyour steady watch over your family, as we need you close! ILU, INY, IWY, forever Trisha

Trisha Tucker
Survivor

December 12, 2005

Mark,
I love you Mark. I miss you, and I raise my head everyday to remember the man that I called my Father "AKA: Mark", you still give me my strength. I love you.

Love,
Matthew A. Tucker

Matthew A. Tucker
Mark's Younset son/ One of the Tucker Boys

November 17, 2005

Hello, my Hero!! i miss you so much tonight!. I have almost completed my first week working for Dr. Newell, do you believe that??!! He has treated me like royality since I joined his staff and is so trying to protect me from himself and Dr. Kaplan" wrath, but you know me.... I can take care of myself if need be. Lisa Price called several nights ago and told me that NCAGV had named me Citizen of the Year for my filing a suit against the pawn shop owner who sold the gun that took you away from us all! I know you would be so proud of me, but I feel a deep sense of loss as I know you loved your community, but disliked and distrusted cheaters. May you smile on us as Thanksgiving approaches and bless us with good cheer! ILU, IMU, lovingly,Trisha

Trisha, Mark's wife

November 17, 2005

Hey Uncle Mark! Happy late birthday!!!...one of our youth joined you on Tuesday afternoon in heaven, Grant Reningberg...tragically killed by a senseless act...way too early, only 18 years old. I'm sure you've chatted with him already!!
Uncle Mark - please be with ALL of the Tucker family...you know whats going on in all of our hearts, I'm sure. Everyday, no matter where we are, we're reminded of you...even several times a day...we're all reminded of you somehow... Please watch over us and be with us during this difficult time and as the holidays approach and we go another Thanksgiving and Christmas with an empty chair at the table...and also watch over the Reningberg family along with Grant...they've lost a player now. Uncle Mark - we miss you so much...everyday, every minute...always reminded of you!! I've decided to get my EMT-I and go into nursing!!! I know, I've changed my mind so many times, but this is it!
I miss you, Uncle Mark...I wish you were here so I could get a BIG BEAR HUG!!!!!!!! Love and miss you always..

Your Niece,
Kristina
aka: Giggles :)

Kristina Tucker

November 10, 2005

Happy belated birthday my Hero!!! You are all that has been onmy mind for days! I kept wondering why you were so much in front of me for these past days until I wrote your birthday on a chart and realized again I would be able to wish you a Happy Birthday in person. My heart aches every day I drive out of our neighborhood and look out upon where you died. Know that I am a survivor and will continue to go on without you, but I don't have to like it, (which I don't) ILU so much! I always will!

Trisha, Mark's Wife

November 9, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE MARK! I MISS MY FAVORITE UNCLE AND ALL OF YOUR WISDOM. I STILL CANT BELIEVE YOU ARE NOT HERE WITH US BUT YOU ARE IN THE BEST PLACE, IN HEAVEN. IM SURE BY NOW YOU HAVE SEEN ALYSSA AND TOUCHED HER WITH YOUR GENTLE HAND. PLEASE WATCH OVER HER AND THE REST OF THE FAMILY. WE NEED YOU NOW MORE THAN EVER. I HAD A HARD TIME SLEEPING LAST NIGHT AT THE FIRE STATION. YOU WERE ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT. THEN TODAY I REMEMBERD IT IS YOUR BIRTHDAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN UNCLE MARK. I MISS YOU VERY MUCH. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH! AND BY THE WAY, ALYSSA LOOKS JUST LIKE YOU WHEN SHE POKES HER BOTTOM LIP OUT WHEN SHE IS HUNGRY. SHE HAS YOUR BIG SMILE TOO. HELP ME AND NATALIE RAISE HER TO BE AN OUTSTANDING PERSON LIKE YOURSELF. SEE YA LATER. CHRIS

CHRIS TUCKER
MARKS NEPHEW

November 7, 2005

Hey Hero! Today I was nominated tobe the NC COPS Executive Director....in other words I the Woman In Charge!!!!! Don't you just hate knowing I'm finally IN CHARGE!!!! Only three who were not one the board showed up for the meeting today so we were elected to positions we were not ready to accept! I am also taking a job with Dr. Newell! Iknow, I know, wehave sorted out our differences and truly LIKE each other! He needs someone like me to keep him from taking himself too seriously! DO I FIT THAT BILL?????? Everyday seems so much harder to face without you here to help me.... I so want to joion you in God's Country but, He is not yet ready for me to join you! I know you know that my love is greater today than yesterday but not as much as tomorrow!! ILU keep me safe and watch over our sons!!!Trisha

Trisha
Mark's wife

October 29, 2005

Thank you, Tricia for your kind words on the reflection left for Larry. I noticed that Judge Stephens was the trial judge in your husband's case. I never refer to the cases as being about the defendants, for it is about what they did to our loved ones that is paramount to us so I hope I am not offending you by referring to it that way.

Many years ago I went to high school (I was one grade behind, I think) with the judge and his twin brother, both of whom became attorneys. I too became an attorney but after over 23 years of practice, my son's death has made it much harder for me to practice law. I hope to transition into something that will honor my son's law enforcement and military careers.

At the second hearing in my son's case, one of the defendants came into court represented by a long time friend of mine. I would never have represented the murderer of my friend's child, so I was so angry and hurt by that action. He now is off the case and that defendant has another attorney. I never want the defendants to walk into the court room without some of Larry's friends and family being there, not even if it is for a five minute continuance. I want them to know they will have to face us each step of the legal proceedings, and I will be vigilent about our quest for justice.
I hope you and your family made it through the proceedings o.k. as I know they can be torturous.
Thanks again for your words of inspiration and caring, and for listening.

Phyllis L. Loya, mother of fallen officer Larry Lasater, PPD 4/24/05

October 6, 2005

My hero...how are things in Heaven? The sheriff unveiled a beautiful memorial honoring all of the WCSO fallen heroes last night. Members from each officer's families were present. It was such a touching ceremony. Many of the district court judges, and supreme court judges were present as was Judge Stephens who heard the cases against the boys who killed you. Life moves on and sometimes passes me by, but like the tortoise I just keep pluggin along. I love and miss you so much. The pain sometimes feels more intense now than it did just a few months ago. Watch ove us and protect us. ILU Trisha

Trisha Tucker wife

October 4, 2005

To the family and friends of Investigator Mark Reid Tucker and his fellow deputies with the Wake County Sheriff's Office:

On behalf of our entire family, I wanted to extend our sincerest condolences on the grievous loss you suffered when Investigator Tucker was so brutally murdered. It is so infuriating to read of yet another murder by a criminal who would rather kill to evade arrest than pay the consequence for the criminal conduct he chose to commit. This was such a senseless and cowardly act, but I am glad that some justice has been rendered for this murder.

May you continue to find comfort in the warm embrace of support and love from your law enforcement community. Undergoing a devastating experience like this forges bonds between blood families and police families that can never be broken.

Our family lost our beloved Larry Lasater of the Pittsburg Police Department when he was fatally shot on April 23rd during a foot pursuit of two bank robbers. Larry left a loving wife and his son, born 2 1/2 months after Larry's murder, as well as all his extended family and friends who loved him so much. It is so heartbreaking that all these children are being deprived of their parents. My heart goes out to your family, but I know that God and Mark are watching over all of you. I know that Heaven has another hero, but how I wish this had not happened to your Mark. My son Larry and I were both born in Durham, and I was sorry to learn of this fallen Carolina hero.

This reflection is sent with the utmost respect for the many years of service Mark gave to his community and the citizens of the state of North Carolina, and for the supreme sacrifice he and his family made on February 12, 2004.

Phyllis Loya, mother of fallen officer
Larry Lasater, Pittsburg, CA PD eow 4/24/05

September 11, 2005

Mark,
I was just thinking of you and I'm at the house alone and it feels to empty. I work for the Wake County ABC Board, in the local liquor stores, or as you would call it "the Amerinca Boys Club" lol. I miss you, I have been staying out of trouble. I always think of you before I do anything. I wish I could see you in my dreams or something, your face brings a smile to mine. I want to go back to school and get into Law Enforcement, I would do anything to be like you. I can't fill your shoes I have a pair of my own to fill. I hope I fill them well. I will finish school and make you proud that I am your son. I know you were proud of me while you were here, I just want to make you proud while you are there. Oh yeah, quit messing with my wind-shield wipers. Look after all of us, and as God to protect us with a ready sword. I love you Daddy, and I missed you with all my heart. I'll talk to you later pops lol.

Love your son,
Matthew

Matthew A. Tucker
One of the Tucker boys/ Mark's younest Son

August 29, 2005

How is MY HERO tonight? I miss you so vey much.... there are never enough words to describe the emptinees in my heart that you used to fill daily with your smile, your chuckle, your embrace, your love!!! Your son's miss you more than either will ever tell others, but a mother knows....You will forever be my hero...my love...my life...my all. I miss you with a fierceness of a mother tiger protecting her young, with a prayer that one day sonn we willbe together! No I'm not contemplating hurting myself, I'm just grieving myself to an early grave right now. I am seeking purpose for my life and how best to live it. ILU Trisha.....

Trisha, wife and survivor

August 17, 2005

How I miss you tonite! I have never felt more alone in my life until now! I need you to "bounce ideas and concern off of". I need you to hold me and tell me that we(I) will make it through the tough times to come!! I need you to comfort me when I don't feel like I can carry on! I need you to be near me as I try to sleep at night, but just cannot! I need you to show me I still am the only 1 for you, but I know our Lord takes taht place in your eyes as He is so omnipotent but not overbearing! I just need you near me!!!!! ILU Trisha

Trisha Tucker, Survivor

July 29, 2005

You're an uncle all over again. Alissa Tucker was born to Chris and Natalie on July 14th. That's right on my birthday. I truly am a "Great Aunt" as many years as there are between mine and her birthday. I just called to say I Love YOu from the bottom of my heart!!! ILU my sweet!!!!!!!

Trisha

July 20, 2005

Tonight I am missing you so very much! I keep hearing the forlorn and sad country music songs that bring terars to my eyes... Mark Will's song "Wish you were here", or Andy Griggs song " If Heaven", or Diamond Rio's song "One more DAY", What would I do with one more day with you. I would hold you and never let go, I would tell you I love you a million times, I'd listen to you heart beat under my ear as I held you close to me.I'd wish for 1 more day. I love you so much and some days I am so miserable without you. But I know you are in a far better place and one day I will join you there, until then please keep a watch over me and the boys. We may not have told you a million times we loved you, but we do!!! I wish you could have been with me at the beach house, you woul really like the place. Help me find a boat for Matt so we can fish and ride. ILU Trisha

Patricia Tucker, wife

July 11, 2005

Mark,
I hadn't been 24 hrs left that place and speaking with a concerned citizen about the suspicious people in that park. If had only known what was going to happen I would have stood there for the next 24 hrs to assist you in changing the events of that day. I never worked beside you at work except for a couple of times and the times you would stop to check on me while I was enforcing the laws. I just wish again from my heart that I could have been there that dredful day to check on you and changed the outcome of that day to a more peaceful solution where we were all safe when we left. Thank you so much for checking on me and trying to keep me safe. Now that you were stolen from us I will do my sincere best to make sure I return the favor and make sure your family, freinds and fellow citizens are safe.

Deputy Sheriff Ashley Pierce A1-617
Wake County Sheriff's Office

June 16, 2005

Mark,
Its was nice working with you at the Shreiff's Office. You always treated with me with respect and even when you made US Marshal you Still Had time to stop in Apex to visit the officers. Of your un timely death may your soul rest in peace. Take care Tucker and god bless to your family.

Ofc. Greg W. Bailey
Greensboro PD, EX- Apex PD

June 12, 2005