Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Happy Birthday! I just wanted to say I was thinking about you. Keep a special eye on your family and Kirsten. I know each important day, anniversary, or holiday that passes just makes it harder for all of them to deal with your absence. You were the "oil" that made everything run so smoothly. You are greatly missed! I Love You!

Michelle

June 25, 2004

Nick:

Happy 25th Birthday.... Mom and I can not tell you how much we miss and love you. We are both missing a large part of our heart and soul. Life will continue to go on, but it will never be the same without you being there with us. We will be picking up Gavin later today and keeping him for the weekend. Every time we look and hold Gavin, we know that we are holding a part of you. Gavin continues to make us smile and laugh, and we know that you are always with him.

We have always been very proud to have you as our son.....

WE WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER......

MOM and DAD

June 25, 2004

Nick- Happy birthday! Today is going to be a very hard day for everyone. I think about you all the time and always wonder, what if? You are missed so much and I wish you were here! I'll be thinking of you today, like always.

Tracie
Friend

June 25, 2004

Nick, Happy 25th Birthday - 6/25/2004. We all miss you so much - I can't even explain the hollow feeling in our lives. I have your picture and a SOS Bumper Sticker up in the store. People always ask how I know "Officer Sloan" and I'm so proud to tell them you're my nephew. I have always been proud of you and always will be. It's hard to talk about what happened with customers and other people I run into but we always end with the fact that you loved what you were doing and everybody can feel safer knowing there are so many other officers out there that feel like you do. I always wear your badge on my chain and touch it a hundred times a day and think about you. Gavin is so cute and loves his Daddy so much. We will always be there for him and when he is old enough we'll tell him some really good stories about his Daddy.

Love Always
Aunt Joan

Aunt Joan

June 24, 2004

Yet another death of a true freedom fighter. In my eyes Officer Sloan died for the safety and freedom of the United States and not just for the City of St. Louis. Thank you for your commitment and courage.

Brent
civilian - Josephine County, Oregon

June 20, 2004

To the family and friends of Nick Sloan, I want to say that I am very sorry for your loss. I too lost a very close friend and brother in blue to gunfire in the line of duty and know your pain. It's a horrible tragedy for someone to take down such an honorable person who only wants to make this world a better place. I did not know Nick, but from the reflections that I've read, I wish I could have had the opportunity to see the light that he shined on everyone who knew him. He sounded like he was quite a character that could always make you smile. God must have had better plans Nick, to take him away so soon. My deepest sympathy to the family and friends of Nick Sloan. May God hear your prayers and help ease your pain.

Dispatcher
A Northeast Kansas Police Department

June 17, 2004

Nick:

You are greatly missed, but will never be forgotten. I will remember you as not only a fine young police officer but more importantly a terrific young man. You will always be an inspiration to me, and when I get a little down about the job I just think about the sacrifice that you gave. God bless!!!

Lt. Kenneth Kegel
St. Louis Police Department

June 12, 2004

Nick,
I have read all the reflections the last 4 months. Everytime I want to leave a message. It is so hard to put into words the things I feel. I still don't believe this is forever. You took a little piece of my heart with you when you left. Some days I seem to be back to "normal". Then the thought that your gone pops into my head and the tears come again. There are so many things left undone and unsaid. I hope you knew how proud I was to have you as my cousin. Not only were you HOT! But you had an awesome personality to match. I don't know how we can ever do you justice desribing you to the kids. I wear your badge # on a necklace everyday. When the girls look at it they point and say "NICK".
This weekend I was remembering last year at this time at the girls baptism.
We had a party and one of your buddies came in his cop car. All the kids thought it was so cool! I think about all the times you invited us down for bar-b-Qs and I said we were to busy. It just breaks my heart. I thought we had all the time in the world to hang out and watch our kids grow up! Well I guess I should go. I hope you hear me up there because I talk to you alot.
I promise to keep your spirit alive everyday! You will never be forgotten.
P.S. Grant Nicholas is here!
I love you & miss you!

Michelle

June 1, 2004

Nick- I just have to say that I miss you so much. I check this website everyday to remember you. I miss you so much and wish you were here. You should see Gavin; he's so cute and looks just like you. Kirsten looks great and is taking great care of Gavin. I know that your family misses you so much becaue they are always going somewhere in honor of you! You are such a great person and everyone misses you! My kids always ask me to go to this website so that they can see your picture. They are very concerned about you and how Gavin and Kirsten are. You have really made an impact on many people's lives. I wish I could talk to you on the phone. Who am I going to call;I could always talk to you about everything. You were such a great friend to everyone! You should be so proud of your family, Kirsten, and Gavin, they love you so much and miss you! I know you would be proud of all of them if you were here. I miss you so much and want you to keep watching over us everyday like you have been. I can't wait until I see you again! I miss you! Take care of all of us!

Tracie

May 23, 2004

Well Nick, Mom and I did not make it to Buffalo for the ceremony, we were stranded in Chicago. The memorial in Washington DC was unbelievable and you will be honored next year. The memorial breakfast downtown was very impressive and the conference room was packed with your friends.

It is very hard to describe how I feel about you and how much I miss you. The hurt is getting a lot worse as the days go on. Everyone keeps telling Mom and I that as time goes on we will feel better. That is not true.....

I wish that I could see you and touch you. I miss hearing your stories about who you locked up or other funny stories about work. I am driving your truck because I feel closer to you when I am in it. Yes, I am keeping it cleaned and washed.

Gavin loves you very much and he looks more like you everyday. I can't wait until the day that I see you again. I am very proud of you and love you very much....

Sergeant Terrence Sloan
St. Louis Metropolitan Police Department

May 20, 2004

Well Nick, the tributes continue. Your parents are in Buffalo where the Fed's are renaming an award in your honor. Gabe and your family are receiving the award. Nick, we all miss you and wish you could see how Gavin has grown. No one will ever let him forget who you were or want you stood for. We all wish we could have been the kind of officer you always were. Your dad is doing better but misses you so much, he never stops smiling when he speaks of you and Gavin.

Friend

May 18, 2004

Today I thought about the first time I saw you play ball, and I remember thinking, someday he will be in the Hall of Fame. I thought about you teaching yourself to skate, and I thought, someday he will skate holding the Stanley Cup. I remember when you graduated from the Academy, so full of promise, so anxious to make a difference, and I thought what a positive influence you will have on this City. And as I reflect on yesterday, as your name was immortalized near the steps of the civil courts building, your friends standing tearfully at attention nearby, with your greatest gift, Gavin, so much like you, looking thoughfully at the crowd, I know that you lived your life to the fullest, loved your family, made a huge difference in the community, made some awesome friends along the way, and I could never, ever be prouder.

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.
Henry David Thoreau (1817 - 1862)

anonymous

May 6, 2004

Nick-
Today we got back from Jefferson City. The memorial was wonderful. Things are not getting any easier for our family or for your friends. I just miss you so much. If it wasn't for the boys and all of the support from our family and friends we couldn't have gotten through any of this. It still is so hard. I just try to take one day at a time. We have put so many pictures of you and "g" and the family up at our house so that when he comes over he will see all of the pictures of you together. He will never forget what a great father you are and how much you love him. I miss you so much.
I love you

Kel
Nick's sister

May 2, 2004

This is who I am,
and this is all I know.
I have to choose to live,
and give all that I can give.
~
Stand for my dream if I can,
cuz’ of my faith in who I am.
I gotta take the road ahead,
which controls ~ my heart or head.
~
Not a chosen roll for me to play,
seems the storm won’t end.
Cross my badge I'll find my way,
even with my destiny ridin’ in the wind.
~
Every ounce of me,
has gotta’ see it through.
I have a dream,
a dream that must come true.
~
A vision and a fire inside,
filled with my love for you.
Feelin’s I never could hide,
whatever happens ~ you know I do.
~
Makin’ my journey through eternity,
promising we won't say good-bye.
Gotta’ make em’ all remember me,
remembering ~ will give me immortality.

Rest in Peace and Hopefully we all here can be as good as you.

John L.
Bridgeton Police Explorer Post 9182

May 1, 2004

Today is another sad day. It has been a few months now and it only seems like yesterday. Tomorrow we add your name to the wall in Jefferson City and soon in DC. Nick, you left a large following of friends that miss ya and always share the memories. Some are still having a hard time of it but they are strong and have lots of shoulders to cry on. We miss ya buddie. Just having you up there watching over us makes us feel safer.

SLMPD OFFICER

April 30, 2004

Nick,
It has been almost three months since your life was taken. I miss you so much, this is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I can't express how much I hurt and how much I miss you. The boys are the best, they are so cute together, they have really helped me get through each day. I tell "G" everytime I see him how much you love him and how much you miss. He is always saying dada,dada and looks around for you. I will make sure he never forgets you and he will be told all the time what a hero you are. You are a great dad and the best brother. I love you so much and I can't wait to see you again.
love you

Heather Claspill
nicks sister

April 22, 2004

To the Sloan family, friends, and the St. Louis Police Department. You have lost a beautiful soul, but heaven has one more shining star. Our thoughts and prays are with you all. Thanks Officer Sloan for all you have done for your brothers and sisters; rest in peace.

Patrol Officer
Prince George's County, Maryland

April 13, 2004

I am so saddened to see the death of another young Officer. I hate living in such a cruel world. My heart goes out to the family and friends of Officer Sloan.

I stop by this website often after the death of two dear friends with the NCSHP (Troopers Calvin Taylor E.O.W. October 3, 2001 and Anthony Cogdill E.O.W. May 30, 2003).

We all grieve over the lives lost in the line of duty. I hope you can find some comfort knowing that there are countless prayers that go out for your family.

These are senseless tragedies that never seem to stop. God Bless the men and women who continue to serve their communities in our great Nation.

...Gone, but never Forgotten....

Marti (EMT-Paramedic)
Haywood Co EMS (NC)

April 4, 2004

Officer,

I want to say that I have a baby son like you and I will Love him a little more in your honor. My heart is with your family and my prayers are that God has richly rewarded such a supreme sacrifice. My you rest in his peace and may God bless your little boy.

Brother In Arms,

Deputy Jeff Johnson Jefferson County Sheriff's Office
Louisville,Kentucky

Deputy Jeff Johnson
Jefferson County Kentucky

March 24, 2004

Please remember the fallen officers we have lost. Remember the men and women who died trying to make this world a safer and better place for us all to live in. Thank you Officer Sloan for a job well done. Please continue to watch over us and protect us as only you can. You will forever be at our side and in our hearts.

For those of you who still have loved ones with us please take the time to tell them how much you appreciate and care about them.

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

Anonymous

March 20, 2004

My family would like to extend our sympathy to the family & co-workers of P.O. Nick Sloan. May God give you comfort & the strength to go on. May he also watch over all the men & women in law enforcement.
(Aunt of Detroit P.O. Jennifer Fettig EOW 2/16/04)

Gail M Pabst

March 19, 2004

Nick,

I still don't know where to start. Things are rough right now for everyone. I just can't tell you how much you are missed. First of all, everyone misses you; I don't know how your family, Kirsten, and Gavin can go through this everyday. You mean so much to them. For all of your fellow officers like Marks, Brad, Schwerb, Nazetta, and everyone else, they all miss you. I saw Marks this weekend and things were really hard for me. I could see it in his eyes that things were not the same for him. I am really having a hard time with things right now; you meant so much to everyone of us. I pray for your family everyday. I wish things were so different. Your family is so strong and they know how awesome you were to everyone. Those of you who don't know Nick, he did everything he could for the community. He was an amazing police offficer for a little over two years. You would have thought he was a police officer for so much longer. I wish you all could have met him. I remember when we were little; we fought over who got to ride the tractor. That stupid tractor didn't have a seat, but we still found a way to ride it;, on the front. Those of you who never had a chance to meet Nick are really missing out. You are the best brother, son, father to Gavin, girlfriend to Kirsten, friend, and co-worker to everyone. I am so blessed with the memories that we all got to share together. Like I said before, you have really made an impact on everyone's llife. Nick, you are truly missed and will always be thought of. I pray for your family and loved ones everyday! Nick, You are the best! Please look over all of us!

Tracie
Nick's friend

March 17, 2004

Nick-
Hey I still can't believe that you are gone. This past weekend James and I had Gavin over to our house Friday night and Saturday morning. We took him shopping with us and he picked out a hat just like the one that you used to wear (the visor) and a baseball outfit. I wanted to call and tell you how excited Gavin was. He looks and acts like you more everyday. He can now say Kel and he called James "Ja". I miss you so much and just wanted to tell you that you are the best brother ever. Heather and I are so proud to be your sisters. You have so many friends that care about you. It is unbelievable all of the support that we have had from all of your friends.

Kelly
one of Nick's proud sisters

March 15, 2004

Nick,
I don't know where to start. First of all, you were a great friend to everyone. You are truly missed and are thought of everyday. I wish things were different that day and that things worked out with the deal. When I got the phone call about what happened, I didn't believe it. I can't tell you how hurt I was to hear that news. I hate that I can't just pick up the phone and talk to you. Please continue watching over your family, Kirsten, Gavin, friends, and other officers. You really made an impact on many people's lives. Gavin will know what an amazing father he had. I know that Kirsten and Gavin meant the world to you. You always said, "Gavin's the best thing that ever happened to me!" You are exactly right; he is a wonderful little boy. You are truly missed!

Tracie

March 14, 2004

Although we never had a chance to meet, we shared a common goal.
To make the world a better place, but now it's taken a toll.
Now I say to you in words of a prayer, I will remember what you've done.
Your death was the ultimate in sacrifice, how tragic that you're gone.
One day we'll meet and talk about our common goal and then,
The heartache that I 'm feeling now, will no longer have to mend.

The Men and Women of the Green Bay Polic
Green Bay P.D. Green Bay WI

March 12, 2004