Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

I visit this Nicks reflections often. I also have a husband and brother in law enforcement and I could not imagin your pain. I hurt so much for your family. Reading all the reflection for Nick from his parents to his sisters and Kirsten and Gavin break my heart,The love you have for Nick is remarkable. Please take care and take care of that little boy Gavin.

leaving love from New Jersey

April 22, 2005

Nick:

Please take care of Ralph as he is your latest friend to arrive in heaven. Mom and I spent yesterday with Ralph's family. It is so hard to lose a friend that you have known for so many years. Mom has been a great comfort to Debra and Mary Ann. They are all in so much pain.

Mom and I will try to help them during their time of need. The next few days will be the worst days of their lives.

I know that you are called on to help so many people, but I know that you are tough and strong and that you can handle it.

Love you forever,

DAD

DAD

April 21, 2005

Nick-
I just miss you so much. We have our landscaping almost done. I know that you were still there to help me because I could hear your voice giving me advice.

I hope Gavin is feeling better soon. We missed seeing him this weekend. We had a BBQ at our house and had our family over and some of our friends. Dad still makes the best BBQ cheeseburgers. It seemed like you were there sitting with us on the patio.

I went to the cemetery today to see you and while I was there a grandma came to visit her granddaughter with other members of the family. The grandma said that her granddaughter must get scared being in the cememtery by herself and someone else in the family said that she is not alone, she is in the best part of the cemetery, she has Officer Stanze and Officer Sloan here to protect her. Then the grandma noticed me standing by you and said "Are you related to Officer Sloan?" I said that I was and that she didn't have to worry about her granddaughter that you would watch over her and protect her. She said thank you. Nick, I have always been very proud to be your sister and I know that you are still helping everyone so much.

I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you and miss you so much.

See you soon!
I love you little brother,
Kel

P.S. Heather and I will do everything that we can to make sure that your wishes are met. We will never forget the day that you asked us.

Kel
Nick's sister

April 17, 2005

Nick,

I miss you so much! I am thinking about you all of the time! Joe is sitting right next to me at this time! I don't even know where to start... I rememeber my 21st birthday and you were in the back of Stepahnie's car with Kirsten and found Bill's 'pouches!' Oh my God! That was so funny! You were all about the pouches! I never knew anything about the "pouches" but it was funny how you said it! I hope everything is going okay in Heaven for you! I really miss you and miss seeing you laugh and joke about people! You were so funny and always had the biggest heart in the world! I wish the best for Kirsten, Gavin, and your family! I love all of them and I always will! This website is the best thing in the world because I feel like I am talking directly to you. I wish you were still here and I wish things could have been totally different that day, but I know they couldn't. You gave all that you could and I know you loved your job. I remember talking to you one hour before all of this stuff happend. I honestly didn't believe it when EJ called me. I had to call Brad because I did not want it to be true. You have touched so many lives and I can't evn explain that to you. I just hope you keep looking out for all of your friends and family all of the time. I know you already know I am moving to Phoenix in July; but I want you to make sure and reasure me that this is the right thing to do. I know it is a 'crazy' thing to do, but I need to do it. I will still talk to Kirsten and Gavin when I move. I just want to see him grow up and live his life like we did when we grew up. I know he won't fight over the tractor like we did because I'm sure it has a seat on it by now. I still have the picture up in my house of you and Gavin, your little baby, and the little tractor that you have with you. I put a little tractor in your casket so you could always remember the good times in your life. I know there were plenty, but I wanted you to always remember that one! I will talk to you later! I want you to know that I miss you and I will always be thinking of you! You have touched so many lives!

Tracie

April 17, 2005

HEY NICK,
SORRY I HAVENT TALKED TO YOU IN AWHILE, THERE HAS BEEN ALOT GOING ON, IM STILL KEEPING AN EYE ON YOUR BEAUTIFUL SON AND GIRLFRIEND, I JUST WANTED TO SAY WE ALL MISS YOU VERY MUCH AND WE ALL LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, IM SITTING HERE TEARING UP AS I WRITE THIS TO YOU. IM TRYING TO BE STRONG FOR YOUR FAMILY THAT YOU HAVE STARTED. I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT EVERYTHING IS BEING TAKEN CARE OF, AND THERE IS NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT. YOU ARE THE BIGGEST INSPERATION ANYONE COULD HAVE AS A FATHER, A OFFICER, AND THE MOST IMPORTANT A FRIEND. JUST THOUGHT YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT.
WITH ALL OUR LOVE
YOUR FRIENDS AG JD

FRIENDS

April 15, 2005

Nick,
Here is the song that reminds me of you. I hope you enjoy it.

Once In A While
By Billy Dean

Once in a while
Someone comes along
That one in a million heart
So pure and so strong
They can face up to the tears
And somehow still find a smile
We only get it
Every once in a while

Once in a while
Someone has the eyes
That one in a million look
That never tells lies
They can get you on your feet
To walk that extra mile
We only see it
Every once in a while

That's why we call them heroes
That's why we know their names
And once you've heard their stories
You're never quite the same

That's why we call them heroes
The best thing they ever do
Is point to the best in us all
And say, "If I can you can too."

Once in a while
I still hear his voice
That one in a million sound
Like to laughin' boys
He would hate it if we cried
That never was his style
Oh, we still miss him
Every once in a while

Oh, they can face up to the tears
And somehow still find a smile
But we only get it
Every once in a while

Oh, how I miss him
Every once in a while

I love you Nick.

Love,
Heather

Heather
Nicks Sister

April 13, 2005

Nick,
Just checking in to thank you for watching over us all at the hockey game on Saturday night. It was an honor playing the game in your name. It was a great sucess and we're already talking about how we can top it for next years game. It was great seeing your mom and pop and meeting your sisters, you are truly blessed with an incredible family. On behalf of your friends on the team you were sorley missed in the locker room that night. Saying that I want you to know that we will do whatever we can, as long as we can to help provide for Gavin in the years to come. So long for just awhile.

Vince

Vince
slpd

April 12, 2005

NICK:

How have you been? I know that you had a good time participating in the hockey game Saturday night in your honor. I could have sworn I saw you skating on the ice with your team. I know that you had a big smile and probably enjoyed a few laughs.

Members of your team donated a lot of time and hard work organizing the event. The benefit was a huge success. The monies that were raised were deposited in the trust fund for Gavin. As Gavin gets older he will have a lot of friends to thank. We got to see Gavin for a few minutes at the game, and I am sure that you were nearby.

There are not words to describe how much I miss and love you. I am and always will be very proud of you.

I will talk to you soon.....

DAD

DAD

April 11, 2005

Nick,
Hey little brother, how are you doing. I hope you are doing great. I have felt you all around me. I'm so glad you are still here to protect me and to give me the strength to keep going. Well as my promise to you, I have been working out, almost everyday, for a month and a half. As of today, I have lost ten pounds. I know that you are very proud of me.
On Saturday, they had a hockey game in your honor. It was amazing to see all the people at the game. It shows how much you mean to everyone. It was hard to watch the game, without you playing in it. Everyone loves you so much. It was great to see Gavin. He is so cute, at one time Gavin was very upset, when he saw Bobby he leaned to give him a hug and said, "Oh Bobby!", in the saddest little voice. They are so cute together. I will do all I can to make sure they are as close as brothers, not cousins, just as you wished. They will grow up to be best friends, you don't have to worry.
I love and miss you so much. I will do all I can to fulfill all your dreams and wishes.
Love you so much,
Heather

Heather
Nicks Sister

April 11, 2005

Nick,
We all had a great time at the hockey game,it had a great turn out! They framed a jersey in your honor and everyone stood and cheered for you.
It gives me goose bumps,I am so proud to be your cousin. I can't believe the impact you made on so many people. Almost a year in a half later you are still being honored and truly missed,even by strangers. It was pretty awesome Bryan caught the puck!
I heard Chris hid behind Holly when he saw it coming. Bobby and Gavin are getting so big they got their picture taken with some players. Gavin calls me "Me-sel" it is the cutest thing to hear those little voices. I know you were there with us! Miss you! Michelle

April 10, 2005

Nick,
I pray every day that everyone who was affected by your death may continue to heal. I hope every family that experienced the loss of a loved one may be filled with loving memories of them. I wish that I could prevent any other police family or any one else from going through type of a loss. I love and miss you so much Nick. Please watch over everyone.
Love, Mom

Mom

April 4, 2005

Hey Nick! I hope you are doing okay in Heaven! I was over at your house on Monday because I brought Gravin a few presents for Easter. Let me just tell you; he looks so much like you. He looks like Kirsten too, but he looks more and more like you as he is getting older. She is doing such a great job raising him. I swear he is growing up so fast. It had been a while since I had seen him because I have had a lot going on. We played outside for awhile with his new bubble gun. I am sure you were laughing at us while we were playing; it was so funny. I was leaving and Gavin kept saying, "I'll walk you out! I'll be right back!" I would ask him where he was going, but he just kept repeating himself. This was so cute! I looked at Kirsten and started laguhing because it was so cute! He is so adorable! Way to go you two!! I hope you continue to guide all of your loved ones and friends when they need you! I just wanted to share that story with you because I had a blast on Monday! I will talk to you later! Miss ya!

Tracie

March 31, 2005

Happy Easter! I'm sure you were helping Gav find all the eggs! We miss you! Mike,Michelle, and the girls

March 27, 2005

Nick,
Well, it is the second Easter since your death. Thank you so much for all of the signs this weekend. As you know we were all at the lake. We all felt a very strong feeling that you were with us. We know how much you loved going there with your sisters. You learned how to ski, tube, and even bought the wave runner that little Gavin took his first ride on when he was only seven months old. The plywood boards are still propped up in the woods from all of the times you and Dad played paintball. Many people came up and enjoyed all of the activities over the years. I remember you and Dad taking off for the day and riding your four wheelers. You always enjoyed and cherished the time we all spent together. We all miss you so much, but the pain is eased by the signs that you send all of us especially Gavin and Bobby. We are trying our very best everyday to help your sisters and they are always so brave and strong helping us. We learned a lot about people after you died. So many of your friends continue to share what you meant to them in their lives. We are so happy that you come to us and we know that we will be reunited with you when we die. Dad never believed that people come back to you after death, but you made a true believer when you came to him the night you died. We are so proud of you and consider ourselves very fortunate to be blessed with three very loving and giving children.

MOM and DAD

Mom and Dad

March 27, 2005

hello my love!! happy easter. i hope you are ok up there. another holiday is always hard. we will make it through just as we do everyday. gav and i love you so much and miss you every second of the day and night. the easter bunny brought gav lots of goodies. lots and lots of kisses and huggs to you!!! love ya always and always forever and ever.

kir and gav

March 27, 2005

Just thinking of you today and hoping everything is going well.

friend

March 26, 2005

I was walking home from school on a cold winter day
Took a shortcut through the woods, and I lost my way
It was getting late, and I was scared and alone
But then a kind old man took my hand and led me home
Mama couldn't see him, oh but he was standing there
And I knew in my heart, he was the answer to my prayers

Chorus:
Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live, to teach us how to give
To guide us with the light of love

When life held troubled times, and had me down on my knees
There's always been someone to come along and comfort me
A kind word from a stranger, to lend a helping hand
A phone call from a friend, just to say I understand
And ain't it kind of funny at the dark end of the road
That someone lights the way with just a single ray of hope

They wear so many faces, show up in the strangest places
To grace us with their mercy, in our time of need

To guide us with a light of love

Alabama - Angels Among Us

March 23, 2005

MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!
WE LOVE YOU

kirsten and gavin

March 23, 2005

Nick,
I know exactly what Joe's sister is saying. There is so many times without even realizing I think, when Nick gets back he is not going to believe what has been going on. Then I remember you won't be back. And that almost hurts now, as much as the first time I figured that out. I think of you a hundred times a day. Love,Michelle

March 22, 2005

Nick,
I know that you helped so many people in your short life and continue helping people everyday. It would be so nice if everyone did just one good thing everyday for someone else. So many people rush through life and never think about anyone else. The other day we were at the gas station and a man in a wheelchair paid for the things he bought and attempted to leave. He carefully lined up his wheelchair to open the door. On his second attempt he was able to get the door open. Many people were in line but no one helped him. I know he could manage to do it himself, but maybe it would be nice if someone could have held the door open for him and maybe even smiled at him, his day might have gone a little smoother. I know after you died so many people have shared stories of how you had helped and touched their lives. I always try to do something positive each day to help someone. It is a very peaceful and good feeling to know you might have brightened someone's day. I now call it my NICK ACT!! I know God has put everyone on this earth for a reason. I may not understand why something happened, or what someone does but I can only do my best and think and do positive things. Thank you for all of your help and guidance during this past year. Love,
Mom

Mom

March 20, 2005

Nick,
Keep taking care of us like you have been. Please, please, please help Bill's dad to be strong through this difficult time! Please help him recover and get through the pain. I hope everything is going okay in Heaven. Take care! I will talk to you later!

Tracie

March 19, 2005

Thank you for being you.

March 18, 2005

Nick,
I hope you, Kevin, and Grandma are celebrating St. Patrick's day today. I know Grandma's Irish eyes are smiling and you and Kevin are celebrating too with everyone in heaven and on earth. I Love you so much. Please keep watching over all of us. Hang in there, don't be sad.
Love forever and a day
Mom

MOM

March 17, 2005

Nick,

Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. Although you probably never knew how much of an impact that you had made on my life, you truly did. You not only cared for my brother, but you also protected and loved me like your sister. It is so hard to believe that this is real. I know that it has been a year, but still in the back of my mind I feel like you had to fake your death and go undercover, without telling us, and that you will come back to us and be so sorry that you couldn't tell us. I know it sounds crazy, but I'm sure that I'm not the only one who has thought this.

I love and miss you so much, and it is so hard for me to deal with even to this day, but the hardest part for me is knowing that my pain does not even compare to the people that you were closest too. Everyday I look at my brother Joe, and I just see a lost soul. It's funny because if something were to happen to him, I would be devastated, but I think he would be happier, because he would be with you. I think that Joe found his greatest happiness came from finding his best friend who was his soul mate. He misses you like you would not believe, but he does not show it because he is being brave and taking care of your family.

Kirsten and Gavin are two of the most beautiful people I know. Kir is so strong, I honestly don't know how she does it. You were her soul mate in every way possible, and although she has lost the love of her life, she still manages to smile on her face everyday because your love still burns within her. She is such an amazing mom, and Gavin is the best little boy ever. I see a lot of you in him. When I see him I can't help but smile, he just brightens up a room.

You are one of the luckiest guys in heaven. You have some of the best people in the world who care for you. Your family and friends are amazing, Brad, Gabe, Hoosier, Swirve, and so many more look out for them everyday. Those guys deserve all the credit in the world, they are such good people.

I don't think you will ever fully understand the magnitude of love and commitment that everyone has for you. I have never seen someone who has so many people that know and love them before. But I guess that we have all been so very blessed to have had the oppurtunity to have gotten to know you in some way in the short amount of time you were here. You have touched each and everyone of us in very different, but special ways. I will never forget you, and you have my love forever!

Jamie

Jamie

March 16, 2005

We want the Sloan family and Kirsten and Gavin to know that you are all in our thoughts and prayers. Thank you Nick for always watching over us.

March 16, 2005