Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

To the family and friends of Officer Nick Sloan and his fellow officers, and most especially to Officer Sloan:

Today I wanted to send a reflection to honor this fine young officer. On behalf of our entire family, we extend our sincerest condolences on the grievous loss you suffered when Nick was so brutally murdered. His bravery and dedication will never be forgotten.

May his family continue to be comforted by the caring and support of their law enforcement family, and other police survivors. How proud his father must have been to see Nick follow in his footsteps. I know this is an immeasurable loss and our family grieves with you and for you.

This reflection is sent with the utmost respect for the service Officer Sloan gave to his community and the citizens of Missouri, and for the supreme sacrifice he and his family made on January 30, 2004.

Phyllis Loya, mother of Larry Lasater,
Pittsburg PD eow 4/24/05

November 1, 2005

Hey Nick,
Just wanted to say Happy Halloween.
This weekend I found the picture of Gavins first Halloween, when Tony Twist was all dressed up holding Gavin. He was so cute, I can't believe this is the boys third Halloween. I bet he will be as cute as ever tonight. I wish we could see him.
Bobby is going to be Buzz Lightyear. He is so excited about Trick or Treating, but a little scared of scary costumes. Last night mom, dad and I took Bobby Trick or Treating in Gerald. He had a good time, they had a special thing for younger kids.
As always I wish you were here, I love you and miss you so much.

Love you,
Heather

Heather
Nicks Very Proud Sister

October 31, 2005

Nick,

I just got back from Washington, DC because I had to go there for a conference for school. When I was asked to go to this conference, the first thing that crossed my mind was, "Yes! I will get to go to the National Law Enforcement Memorial." Well, I went there earlier today and it was so amazing. I found your name and I got the piece of paper and pencil and colored over it so I could always remember that. It was so touching and just amazing to see how you're still being remembered. I did not know what to expect or know how hard it would be to go there and actually see your name on the wall. It makes me feel so proud of you for all of your accomplishments! I am honored to have been one of your friends. There is not one day that goes by that I don't think about that day you were taken away from everything and everyone.

While I was at the memorial in DC, I went to the Visitor's Center to look around and see what they had. Well, I was there with two other teachers, one from St. Louis and one from Arizona. There was this one area that had the Officer of the Month pictures posted and then a book about them underneath them. I just saw the pictures at the time because something else had caught my eye, so I went to look at that. Well, one of my friends was just walking around looking and she said, "Tracie, oh my God, you have to come here!" I walked over there and the book was open to Gabe's story about him being the Office of the Month. The book was not open to that page when we walked in because I think I would have noticed it. We were the only people in the Visitor's Center at the time except for these other two ladies who were at the back. This was so weird and made me realize that you were there or had something to do with that. I don't think weird is the right word, but I couldn't figure out what would be a better word to use.

Well, I just wanted to share that story with you and let you know, as if you didn't already, that I went to visit the memorial in DC. I think it is so awesome how the nation recognizes all of the fallen officers. It is so heartbreaking to see all of those names on the wall. You are a tru hero and we will never forget that. Continue keeping us safe and protect us from above. I will talk to you later.

I fogot to tell you something. I also bought one of those bracelets that has all of your information on it like your name, end of watch, department, and location of you name on the wall. Just thought I would let you know. See ya! Say hi to Joe! We all miss you two!

Tracie

October 29, 2005

The Badge

- It is polished and shiny and looks so fine.
Once you earn it you have to tow the line.
- The minute you wear it upon your chest
it becomes a symbol that you are the best.
- It means honesty, integrity, and fairness to all.
Your life is never your own, but at the publics call.
- Night or day, any hour, it makes you a mark.
It doesn't protect you from a shot in the dark.
- Over the years the shine starts to fade,
but brighter still is the man its made.
- It is often what seperates you from the crowd.
It is a second family of which you are proud.
- So now comes your time, you can't be denied.
When you pin on your badge, wear it with pride
- The minute you wear it upon your chest
it becomes a symbol that you are the best.

....unknown author

October 23, 2005

Nick,

I can't believe it has been one month without my brother. I live in a daze that I just can't seem to get out of. I miss Joe with every beat of my heart and every ounce of my soul. Losing you was so hard for me and I was not even over your death yet, and now this. It's funny everything you remember, and all the little things you miss. I'm scared because I don't think I can live without him. He was my best friend. But as I told Joe, I think that Joe was happiest when he was with you, and now your together in heaven for eternity. I find peace in knowing that he is finally happy again, and that although my pain grows deep within me, Joe has you again. I hope that both of you are doing well and having fun like always. Please never leave me, I will love you both till the end of time and farther.

Love always,
your sister
Jamie

October 20, 2005

Nick,
Please be with Jen and her family, after the loss of her father. When you get a chance sit down and have a beer with him.

Thank you for visiting me, Bobby and Josh on Saturday night, it was great to get that big hug. I love you so much, thanks for everything you do. You are the best brother anyone could ever have. The bond we share, no one can ever take away.
Miss you and love you,
Heather


The other day in the car we were listening to Kenny Chesney's new song, and when it was over Bobby said "I'll see my Uncle Nick again someday." He is so sweet. He makes me smile everyday. He loves and misses you so much. I wish he could have known you longer.

Heather
Nicks Very Proud Sister

October 20, 2005

It probably wouldn't be this way. It probably wouldn't hurt so bad.
I never pictured every minute without you in it -Oh you left so fast.
Sometimes I see you standing there.
Sometimes I feel an angel's touch.
Sometimes I think that I'm so lucky to of had the chance to love this much.
God give me a moments grace.
Cause if I'd never seen your face-
It probably wouldn't be this way.
Leann Rhymes

Nick- this is one of my new favorites that makes me think of you! Thanks for October 8th! Luv Ya! Michelle

October 19, 2005

Nick- Just wanted to drop by to say hi and let you know I was thinking about you. I hope you are enjoying Heaven. I'll talk to you later. Say hi to Joe for me. I miss you both!

Tracie

October 12, 2005

Who You'd Be Today
By Kenny Chesney

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughin' in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone

It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today

Would you see the world, would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you'd name your babies
Somedays the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy

It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know
I'll see you again someday
Someday, someday

Nick we love you and miss you so much.

Love,
Dad, Mom and Gavin
James, Kelly and Baby
Josh, Heather and Bobby

Nicks Family
We Love You

October 9, 2005

Nick,
I know that you and all the other guys are up there welcoming all the new folks into Heaven. I only wish that this didn't have to happen again to Kir and Gavin. Please watch over them even more as I know they need you by their side. If you need some help, just grab Cole...I'm sure he's just sittin around and relaxin as usual! ;P

Love, Jessi

September 29, 2005

Nick,
Please be with Gavin and give him alot of extra love. He needs his daddy to be with him even more now than ever.

September 27, 2005

Nick- I hope you and Joe are having a great time- I can't imagine you two not enjoying each other's company. I am so sad that you two had to go so soon, everyone misses you both like crazy! When I was at Joe's funeral, I kept thinking about you and him and why you two were chosen to be in heaven at such a young age. I only wish that life could be so different. It seems like yesterday I was at your funeral, and now here we are burying another close friend. Why? Why? Why? I miss you and Joe so much!

We were at B. Donovan's the other night and either EJ or Barner made a comment that I know was probably true. I was asking what they thought you two were doing up in heaven. I know we really don't know, but I always wonder. Which ever one it was said, "They're sitting on a nice leather couch, Nick has a 30 pack of High Life and Joe's drinking vodka. And they're watching football and hockey on a big screen." I totally agreed with them. I am sure that is what you two were doing while we were all sitting at B. Donovan's sharing stories about you guys. We will all have so many stories to share with Gavin and all of his friends when he is older. I will never forget you or Joe. You have all of your friends here to share so many stories about what a wonderful, caring, and compassionate guy you are and always will be. I miss you and I will talk to you later.

PS- I know you had something to do with me tripping over the stake that was in the ground at the grave, thanks!!!

Tracie

September 26, 2005

Hi Nick,
I hope you and Joe are taking care of each other up there. Michelle said it best when she said she would pay to see the reunion between you two. During such a sad time, you two being together again is the only positive thing to comfort people. I can't begin to understand the pain that Kirsten, Gavin, your friends, and Joe's family are facing once again. Joe's wake was all to familiar, it was the same group of friends and loved ones that were there to lay you to rest less than two years ago. No one could have ever imagined that they would have to bury another friend so soon. I hope you continue to give Kirsten strength as she has to explain to Gavin why someone else he loves is gone. I know that handsome son of yours will do his best to keep a smile on her face. Well I know you guys will be very busy trying to watch over everyone. Take good care of each other, you both are deeply missed. Love, Nicole, Josiah, & Grant

September 26, 2005

Hi Nick,
I was briefly at the funeral parlor last night to pay my respects to Joe, one of the most stand-up people I have ever met. There were pictures of him through all stages of his life, wonderful fun pictures, loving family pictures, and many pictures of the many friends that Joe had met through the years. There were pictures of Joe with Kirsten and Gavin, where he looked like a proud guardian of your legacy. Joe and Kirsten have always been lucky to have each other as friends. And as I looked around at the many people that had also come to pay their respect, I realized how much impact an ordinary man with an extraordinary gift of love and a generous soul can have on others. I then continued looking at the pictures, and there it was, a picture of you and Joe, just having fun. I know it was just a picture, but it became 3 dimensional, and the light that showed from those billion dollar smiles comforted me. Who would have thought just a few years ago, that you and Joe would now be together, forever friends, enjoying the splendor of the kingdom of Heaven. And although it is said to be a perfect place, I can't help but think that it is an even better place with both of you there. I won't end by asking anything of you, I know you are watching over all the people who love you, because I feel you with me every moment of every day. Thanks to both you and Grandma for that, you both have really helped me through some dark and confusing times. Going to Bryan's graduation party today...I know you are so proud of him too, that is quite an accomplishment!!Take care! Love always, Aunt Teresa

Aunt Teresa

September 24, 2005

Please help all of us during this time. We miss both of you so much. Even though we don't quite understand why, we know that you and Joe are in a better place, and that the two of you are watching over us. Please give B and EJ strength to handle all of this. We miss you! G is doing great (as you know)!

friend

September 24, 2005

Please help all of us during this time. We miss both of you so much. Even though we don't quite understand why, we know that you and Joe are in a better place, and that the two of you are watching over us. Please give B and EJ strength to handle all of this. We miss you! G is doing great (as you know)!

friend

September 24, 2005

Hey nick just wanted to say that i miss ya. I wanted to let you know that i'm working real hard to get on the STLPD. I'm still waiting from about two years ago when i first told you i was trying to get on. Well since then i've joined the United States Army, part of the Special Operations Command. I'm due to deploy in about another year and a half. Take care bro.... Miss ya and love ya. Make sure to take care of our brother Joe.. God Bless

ADOGG

adogg

September 21, 2005

Nick you watch over Joe and make sure you show him the ropes. I bet you two are having way too much fun and I know that Joe has missed you so badly. Behave you guys!!

Jessi

September 21, 2005

Well Nick, it seems you have a friend up there with you now. We are all going to miss Joe down here but the one thing that is getting me through this is knowing he has you. People do not get much better than Joe was. So you take care of him. He gave his all to Gavin because he knew you needed him too. I am so sorry to see him go, but glad that he is not alone. You take care Nick.

Friend

September 21, 2005

Nick- I am so hurt all over again. I know you heard what happened to Joe. I know you were there to welcome him to heaven. You and your best friend are two amazing people that will never be forgotten. I miss you and Joe so much. I keep asking myself why this happens to the best people. I now have two really close friends watching out for me and all of our friends. I will stop by to see you this weekend since I will be home for Joe's funeral. I miss you.

Tracie

September 20, 2005

You and your family are always in our thoughts you touched so many people in such positive ways . Thank you for that and please always watch over all of us. You will never be forgotten!!!

September 19, 2005

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Bobby

Bobby
Nicks Nephew

September 18, 2005

Hey Nick,
I hope you are doing good. I really miss you. I wish you were physically here to experience all the milestones of our children. To keep you up to date, Bobby is completely potty trained. He is such a big boy. Mom says he is just like you, when he is concentrating on coloring or a puzzle, he sticks his tongue out just like is Uncle Nick. Everytime he hears police sirens he stops and says here comes Uncle Nick. He love you so much. Bobby also started soccer last week, he is so good at it. During stretching, they did ten jumping jacks and when they were done he said "Ah man" and his coach said they could do two more just for Bobby. He was so excited. He loved the whole class, he ran around kicking the ball and scored a bunch of goals, he was so cute. I wish you and Gavin could be in the class with us.

Bobby and Gavin are so cute together. They love playing trains. It is their new favorite pasttime together. Gavin always brings a smile to my face when I pick him up, he is always so happy to see us. Bobby always wants to go pick up Gavin so they can play together. I wish they could see each other more often.

I wish everyday that you were not taken from us. I would do anything to have you back. Thank you for always being here with us. You are the best brother ever. I'll talk to you soon. I love you.

Love you always,
Heather

Heather
Nicks Very Proud Sister

September 18, 2005

Hi Nick,
I hope your doing o.k. up there, we still miss you like crazy . Thanks for being with us today, I knew you were there. Love you and miss you every minute. love, nicole

September 16, 2005

AMAZING GRACE: The Policeman's Tribute

A man in blue has lost his life
in service of the law.
The love that makes this sacrifice
is the greatest love of all.

A police man was killed today,
the reason why I cannot say.
I don't know why he had to die.
The man in blue died for me and you;
we must remember him too.

Flags fly low, let us bow in prayer
for fallen police men everywhere;
and remember this:
that they are missed.
The badge burns bright like an evening star free from a world of war

I just wanted to stay I am sorry for your lost. I also lost my best friend Adam R Fleshner e.o.w 01/13/03 just know that god only takes the best!!

May the lord keep watch between you and me when we are away from each other.' Gen.31:49

Holly Spikes
Chalton County SO

September 12, 2005