Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

BSV~
Challenges, challenges, challenges. Life is full of them but you know how hard I am and have been working. Please give me the strength to continue to achieve new goals and dreams. Thank you for watching out for me.

I Love You
Your Wife

February 1, 2006

"Butterfly"

Mm mmm
In the morning I'll wake up with you
There's not anything I would rather do

You are more than you'll ever know
And your love teaches me to grow
You are more than my everything
And your love gives me wings

Like a butterfly
And I'll dance in the sunlight
Like a butterfly
From the day into the night

Your touch
Is the one thing I know is true
My mind
Is completely devoted to you

You are more than you'll ever know
And your love teaches me to grow
You are more than my everything
And your love gives me wings

Like a butterfly
And I'll dance in the sunlight
Like a butterfly
From the day into the night

And it mightn't last more than a day
But I'll take my chances anyway
'cause my heart is saying it's for real
No-one else has made me feel this way


Words and music copyrighted by Kylie Minogue

January 30, 2006

3 Libras


Through your the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name in your recollection
Down among a million, say,
Difficult not to feel a little bit
Disappointed, passed over.
When I've looked right through,
To see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me

Well I through your the obvious,
Just to see if there's more behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy.

Here I am expecting just a little bit
Too much from the wounded
But I see,
See through it all,
See through,
And see you.

Cuz I through your the obvious
Do you see what occurs behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy

Oh well, oh well..

Apparently nothing.
Apparently nothing at all.

You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me at all

Lyrics and Music Copyrighted by
A Perfect Circle, 2000 Virgin Records, "Mer de Noms" album

January 27, 2006

Officer Down


I approach the vehicle, as blue lights bounce around me,
It's not a matter of like and hate, it's the violation I saw.
As I get closer, the danger I do not see,
I'm thinking of enforcing the law.
I hear the shot, and feel the pain,
As I drop to the ground
The car speeds off driven by a man who has to be insane,
As I finally into my radio, mumble, "Officer Down!"
As I lay there, I thought of my wife,
I see the dreams we had made.
I ask the Lord to please spare my life,
Then I felt myself begin to fade.
I stopped him only for speeding,
Then I heard a sweet voice on my ear.
"Come with me son, to Heaven I am leading.
No more will you have to shed a tear."
I opened my eyes to see my Savior,
He said, "Follow me, my son.
He will pay for his behavior,
For you have performed a job well done!"


Poem Posted by Chief, rescuehouse.com

January 27, 2006

B.,

It seems that one of the challenges that I have had in the past I have actually hurdled past. I don't necessarily know exactly what the future holds for me, but I know one thing is for sure. It has made my life so much better for knowing you and to have been loved you. Being loved by you was the greates gift. I am a much better person for enduring the past few years alone than to never have had you in my life at all. I would do it ALL OVER again just to feel the joy of what we had.

This new year has taught me a lot in a short amount of time. The bottom line is; we never know just precisely WHERE we are going when we start on our grief journey. I know that I would have never in a million years dreamt that I would be where I am today. Adversity has made me who I am today, and your love has enlightened me. I know that I will never completely understand everything that happened that night, but I know that there are lessons that were learned. I will always and forever be "Your Wife".

Sending you My Love,
J.

January 24, 2006

"Even in the winter, even in the midst of the storm, the sun is still there.
Somewhere, up above the clouds,
it still shines and warms and pulls at the life buried deep inside the brown branches and frozen earth.
The sun is there! Spring will come!
The clouds cannot stay forever."

-Gloria Gaither

January 17, 2006

B.,
I saw you last night in my dream. We were together and it was wonderful. I woke up and it seemed so surreal. I knew that you were gone when I woke up, but it was a strange sensation, you had such urgency when you saw me. I will pay more attention to the signs you send me. Thank you for the quarter, the song and the "13" sign yesterday. No matter how much time elapses, it seems that nothing can interfere with our communication. For that, I am grateful.

I Love You
Jules

January 17, 2006

BSV~

As you know, yesterday was a VERY big day. I won't know for a little while what the outcome is, but I know I did my best. I am proud that I made it where I am today and I know that you are very proud of me as well.

I have done so much since you have gone and I am thankful that I made a lot of hard decisions a year or so ago. It has made a difference in my healing.

I love you and thank you for every ounce of strength and wisdom that you continually send.

I Love You
J.

January 12, 2006

Happy Birthday in Heaven Baby!

I know that today would have been your 30th, which makes me laugh because you always used to tease me about me "robbing the cradle" LOL :-}

Now, it seems strange that you will never have another birthday on Earth to share. I remember one of the last birthdays we had together, and how excited your were about your cake with the fish on it. You thought that that was the coolest.

I hope that you have a great day in Heaven celebrating with our Lord Jesus Christ. I know that today will always be a wonderous day and I will celebrate it with you, just in a different way.

I Love You
Jules

January 6, 2006

B, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAY UP THERE!

January 6, 2006

B,
With the onset of a new year, I am hopeful that perhaps it will bring more joy, peace and better days. Life hasn't been easy since you have been gone. I know that you are in a Heaven and that brings peace to me. I know that you know no hunger, pain, or sadness. I also know that in all liklihood it will be a very long time until I can take my place next to you in Heaven. I am trying to make my life here on Earth as good as I can make it. I hear a lot of people tell me that I have been strong, but sometimes I haven't felt so strong. The road hasn't ever been easy, but I hope that 2006 will bring great things. I know that this is Year 3 without you. Wow, I never thought I would make it this far after everything happened..but I put one foot in front of the other and here I am. Time will never change how I feel for you, or the love that we had. I no longer find myself questioning where we would be, what we would be doing if you were alive. I know that thinking that way only causes more pain and anguish. I think this year the major theme of life is acceptance. I wanted to leave you a reflection today just because.
I want you to know that I will always love you, with all of my heart and soul.

I Love You,
Your Wife

January 4, 2006

Bryan,
Wanted to wish you and your family a Happy New Year as well as Happy Early Birthday.
You are greatly missed!

January 4, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN 1/6!! THINKING OF YOU!!!

January 4, 2006

HAPPY SOON TO BE BIRTHDAY!

January 3, 2006

Remembered Joy

Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free!
I follow the plan God laid for me.
I saw His face, I heard His call,
I took His hand and left it all...
I could not stay another day,
To love, to laugh, to work or play;
Tasks left undone must stay that way.
And if my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss...
Ah yes, these things I, too, shall miss.
My life's been full, I've savoured much:
Good times, good friends, a loved-one's touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief—
Don't shorten yours with undue grief.
Be not burdened with tears of sorrow,
Enjoy the sunshine of the morrow.

January 2, 2006

May the road rise to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back,
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
The rains fall soft upon your fields and,
Until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of His hand

-Irish Blessing

January 2, 2006

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within."


Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

December 31, 2005

HAPPY NEW YEAR BRYAN!!!

December 31, 2005

Bryan, I have never left you a reflection, but I know my husband has. I didn't know you like he did and Im sorry for that. I did have the pleasure of meeting J.I only wish that I knew you too.It has taken me a long time for me to say THANK YOU for the sacrafice that you and Tommy had made that night. I ask that you forgive me for not writing sooner, but I have just not figured out what to say to you.I hope that you and Tommy are finding peace in heaven. I also hope that no matter who we are that you both will forgive us and watch over us and the MPD.I also want to say thank you for guiding your wife over the holidays and being with her at the most difficult time of her life. Thank you for hearing me out and may GOD be with us all.

December 30, 2005

Wishing You Near
by Nick Alcantara

To realize
That time is so dear
When you are no
Longer here

I cling to memories,
Sweet memories
That bring you near

If only
I could touch you again
Without bringing back the pain
Feeling your presence
That you are not really
Very far away
That would us bring back
The aura and magic
Of being again
Together

I know you are
Just a whisper away

December 29, 2005

Honey~
Thank you so much for the safe travel to and from our destination. I am especially thankful for the beauty that you bestowed upon us on Christmas Day when we saw the family of bighorn sheep and the red-shoulder hawk. It was absolutely breath-taking and I am so truly thankful that we were able to enjoy all that nature has to offer. I was thinking about how much you would have enjoyed the desert the whole time, but I was also thankful for the opportunity that we were given to see and do so much while we were there. I know you were laughing so hard when we videotaped outside of the Visitor's Center, I could almost hear your big belly laugh.

Thank you for the new "tradition" and I know that your Spirit will continue to live on inside of me.

I Love You, Now and Forever
J.

December 29, 2005

Merry Christmas Bryan

Holidays sure are not the same anymore... you can feel and see the void. What a glorious day it must have been in Heaven.

We LOVE YOU & MISS YOU SO MUCH!!

December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas Bryan, and also to your family. On these special holidays its hard for us that have been left behind as you are always in our thoughts. I'm sure at Christmas Dinner you were the highlight of the evening, everyone talking about past Christmas' It is our way to remember and honor you. We will never forget you guys. Wrap your wings around your family and protect them and try and ease some of their pain. You have not, nor will you ever, be forgotten.

Bob Gordon, father of fallen officer, Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

Bob Gordon

December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas Bryan!
We miss you.
Send Jules some love and hugs today.

Love,
Jessica Ruhl
Fiancee of Dan Starks

December 25, 2005

SCOTT, THINKING OF YOU DURING THE HOLIDAYS AND ALWAYS.

LG

December 24, 2005