Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Jules,
You are in my thoughts and prayers, always!
Saying thank you to Bryan for his dedication and service just somehow will never express what it is intended to. I am filled with overwhelming emotion by your entries in here. We all seem to take for granted all that we have....this is a reminder to love every minute and love every person in your life with all that you have. You just never know....

Shannon
friend

April 27, 2007

Julie, as another one of our officers is now joining your husband, my thoughts turn to you as well. You know the pain of the call that comes in and I am so very sorry. I know days like today bring it back more then ever. I still remember your husband so he is not and will not ever be forgotten as with all our officers who gave the sacrifice to make us all safe. I know Bryan, Robert, Paul & Sev are up there with smiles welcoming Nick into their home.

citizen

April 24, 2007

I'm sure you've already welcomed Nick to the Other Side...please let him know his family, friends and law enforcement family will be held close in our hearts and minds...

April 24, 2007

Sadly, another officer of our community is joining you. As soon as I heard the news, I thought of you. This world can be such a senseless place! The SBPD was marking the first anniversary of losing a brother, and hours later lost another. I just don't understand! You, and the other people sworn to protect us, will never be forgotten.
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33

April 24, 2007

"She's Everything"

She's a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She's I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She's I can't find a thing to wear
Now and then she's moody

She's a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowing
She's a soft place to land
And a good feeling knowing
She's a warm conversation
That I wouldn't miss for nothing
She's a fighter when she's mad
And she's a lover when she's loving

[Chorus]
And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
'Cause she's everything to me

She's a Saturday out on the town
And a church girl on Sunday
She's a cross around her neck
And a cuss word 'cause its Monday
She's a bubble bath and candles
Baby come and kiss me
She's a one glass of wine
And she's feeling kinda tipsy

She's the giver I wish I could be
And the stealer of the covers
She's a picture in my wallet
Of my unborn children's mother
She's the hand that I'm holding
When I'm on my knees and praying
She's the answer to my prayer
And she's the song that I'm playing

[Repeat chorus]

She's the voice I love to hear
Someday when I'm ninety
She's that wooden rocking chair
I want rocking right beside me
Everyday that passes
I only love her more
Yeah, she's the one
That I'd lay down my own life for

And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me
Yeah she's everything to me

Everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She's everything to me

Words and music ASCAP by Brad Paisley

April 22, 2007

COLLIN RAYE
"I Can Still Feel You"

It's that feeling that someone is standing behind me
then I turn around and there's no one there.
And it's the sensation that someone just whispered,
yeah I still hear your voice but you're not really here.
Your memory's like a ghost,
and my heart is its host.

(Chorus)
I can still feel you just as close as skin, every now and then.
All by myself, in a crowded room, on my empty bed.
There's a place you've touched with your love no one gets close to...
I can still feel you, I can still feel you, I can still feel you.
I can still feel you...


In every thing that moves,
in every thing I do...

(repeat Chorus)

April 22, 2007

Jules, read "I Love You, Mean it" What a wonderful book! It
helps!!! I know your at a different level of grief and I
think this is a great book to read now.

April 13, 2007

You are my muse, the wind, the earth, the air, the water and fire to me...always. No one can take our memories or the love that we shared away from me.

April 10, 2007

Life is such a bizarre road of twists and turns. One moment you think you are surfing towards a lifetime of happiness because you have found the man that you have always sought, and one minute you are cremating him, from ashes to ashes to dust to dust. Life is not certain. There are no certainties. There are no certain give and takes in life. Remember this, and conduct yourselves accordingly.

April 10, 2007

Thank you for such a wonderful time the past week. It was more than I ever imagined and so much more.....Thank you for the gifts of nature and adventure. I love you.

April 9, 2007

been thinking about you...kids were on spring break last week..ali went to muncie to stay with her sister, so we took beth to indy. we took her to the memorial for police & fire & showed her where your name was etched. she wants to be a cop....i told her she could only do it if she was a k-9 office, so i would know she had a partner with her all the time! :)
2 days ago another tragedy hit your hometown. the kids lost another fellow classmate in a car crash. beth is having a hard time with it. i hold her until she cries herself to sleep. so many deaths of young people have hit this town in the last few years.
on a lighter note... when dee works at the gas station, your brother gives her a hard time & telling tales about me lol
anyways...patrol those young ones up there! :)

~Dale~

April 3, 2007

Julie, your story will get easier and easier, when this first happens its a raw opened wound that you think will NEVER heal, but it does, it always does, it sometimes takes people longer then others but eventually it does get better with memories only good =) Bless you Sweetie, you are making it through this horrible journey with pride and devotion to Bryan!

March 31, 2007

Thank you for helping a kind soul return something that is so precious to me. There are still some awesome people in this world.
xoxo

March 30, 2007

Everytime I tell my story it seems a little bit easier. I love you and I miss you.

March 22, 2007

Happy St. Patricks Day Bryan!!!!

March 17, 2007

Julie, I am so happy to see you are moving forward with your life!! I guess you realized that Brian would move with
you!! You are such a wonderful person and I am so happy you are finding happiness now.

smg

March 17, 2007

The weather is awesome and as things get warmer, I am trying to do some new things in life. I am so stoked for our new adventure the first week of April. I hope to catch my first wave! I love you and miss you.

March 15, 2007

"Never Let Go"
(feat. Deep Forest)

I can't understand it.
The search for an answer is met with a darker day.
And we've been handed these moments forever.
But I'm reassured there's another way.
You don't have to close your eyes.
There is room for love again.
Ease the pain to realize
All that love can be.
Forced apart by time and sand.
Take a step and take my hand.
And don't let it go.
Never let go.

Broken, once connected,
We were so strong and so blessed in a simple way.
So don't let me go it alone.
Turn your head up to the sky.
Nothing down below but me.
Face the truth to realize
All that we could be.
Torn apart by rage and fear.
Hold onto what brought you here.
Don't let it go.
Never let go.

Turn your head up to the sky.
Nothing down below.
Don't let go.

ASCAP Josh Groban, from the album "Closer", 2003.

March 9, 2007

Wow, seems like there is some controversy sparking within my family. I hope it all is resolved soon. I know you know I am right...I love you!

March 9, 2007

Juli,
I am so deeply sad for your loss. It has been 4 years and yet I am just now contacting you to say I am so sorry- I knew nothing of Bryan 'til the accident through family. But I read your reflections and I just sit here and cry. I was going through family pictures last night and saw one of you - just a little girl. I was so happy when you were born and wanted to hang out with you whenever I could at Grandma and Grandpas. You always were and still are special. I would love to get back in touch.

Wendy Deken
cousin

March 5, 2007

I was so thinking of you this weekend, especially Sunday when I planted some more veggies in my garden. I miss you.

March 5, 2007

God Bless you Julie Verkler you are going to one day have
that great reunion in the lords house and it will be a day to look to, you have not finished your job here!

March 2, 2007

Julie, the dedication you have for your husband is beautiful, I met a widow the other day, she stayed faithful to her husband after 20 years and said that she wanted to be the same person he left when they were so very young. I admire your faithfulness, I never can understand some women who can move on so quickly after their husbands die. You are a wonderful humanbeing. I'm not saying that if you did one day meet someone who you can grow old with would be unfaithful, I am just saying that your love and faithfulness after almost 4 years is still so fresh in your heart and soul

February 28, 2007

In my heart and mind I am still so very married to you and I will always love you my dearest husband.

February 27, 2007

I saw you last night, we kissed and it was wonderful. The worst part was waking up and feeling the pain of you being gone...again.

February 26, 2007