Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hey daddy, I am ok, been so busy. Sorry i have not got on here for a while. In about 9 days you will have been gone for 21 yrs... I miss you daddy. Please look after our family. I have not seen or spoke to any of them in a while. Let my baby boy and april know i love them and amber to. Never thought i would be living my life by my self . I love and miss you.

(RET) U.S ARMY MIKEL RAY KIDWELL
son

January 12, 2013

I wanted to say thank you on behalf of our family, for all the letters sent in on behalf of my father..Dads hearing was on the 19th, the board meet with dads killer on the 20th, the board called me shortly after their meeting...Just to let everyone know dads killer, was not granted parole, and he was giving another 60 months deferment.....Thank you all so much, and God Bless each and everyone of you......We love and miss you so much daddy.......

Kristi Kidwell McGuffey
Daughter

November 22, 2012

Gary,

I wrote a very personal letter to the Parole Board and sent it off yesterday. It was an honor to do so on your behalf. You were a hero then and are a hero now and will be forever.

RBM
Florida

November 21, 2012

My letter is going to be mailed today.

Christopher Durham
cousin

November 20, 2012

Thank each and everyone of you for your letters and support..May God bless each of you and with the Good Lords help this criminal will remaim in prison where he belongs..Rest in peace Gary we love you Ethan jusy turned 6 the 16th he is losing his first tooth now he's soo excited...we love you very much....

ethan n April
grandson n daughter in law

November 18, 2012

A "No parole" letter has been sent, so your cowardly killer remains locked up - and denied the pleasure of living in a world that you made safe for all of us.

Det. (Ret) Billy Russo
Nassau County Police Department, NY

October 23, 2012

I worked with Gary at the time of his death. He was a great man his killer should never be free.

Chief of Police Victor Keith Middleton
Stanford Police Department

October 19, 2012

I was honored to send off my 'No Parole' letter today for you, my brother in blue. Thank you for your sacrifice and may you forever, rest in peace. You are a true AMERICAN HERO !!!

My prayers are with your family, friends and co-workers.

HEROES NEVER DIE...

Sgt. Mitch Cheselka (Retired)
Orange County Sheriff, California
Polk County Sheriff, Oregon

October 15, 2012

God Bless

Dave
None

October 13, 2012

I just wanted to say that I also just sent my letter to the parole board. Hopefully you will rest in peace. Thank you for your service and the ultimate scarafice you paid for your community.

Special Agent
US Dept. of Homeland Security / HSI

October 12, 2012

ETHAN N APRIL,
I JUST SENT MY LETTER TO THE PAROLE BOARD AND WITH THE HELP OF THE GOOD LORD THIS PERSON WILL NEVER SEE THE STREETS AGAIN!
GOD BLESS GARY AND HIS BEAUTIFUL FAMILY!
TOM FAIRLEY

TOM FAIRLEY
FORMER POLICE OFFICER BAY ST LOUIS POLICE DEPT BAY ST LOUIS MS

October 12, 2012

Happy birthday Gary!!!! We love and miss you.

ethan n April
grandson n daughter in law

July 16, 2012

Gary, I just found this site. You have been gone for so many years and so many members of our family have gone on to be with you. There has been a great family reunion up there in heaven. Miss you cousin and all of our family! RIP Gary!!!

Beverly McKnight
Cousin

July 2, 2012

Happy Father's Day Gary!! We love you n miss you!!

April and Ethan Kidwell
grandson n daughter-in-law

June 17, 2012

Gary, I know you have wrapped us all up in your love today. Thank you and we love you.........

April and Ethan Kidwell
grandson n daughter-in-law

June 5, 2012

Gary, we love you, think of you daily......Your lil' grandson is so proud of you. He says he is going to be a cop just like you when he grows up, and I believe he will be too, he's just to headstrong about it........We love and miss you so much.

April and Ethan Kidwell
Grandson and daughter-in-law

June 5, 2012

Hey grandpa, sorry I havent wrote you since in 2007 i think about you all the time though. I went and got a tattoo of a badge with your initals, bday, badge number and roses. Im not sure if you would like it but i wanted something in memory of you. Alex is now a Junior in high school hurts more body parts than anyone i know of from football. mom and dad is doin great and im doin ok as well. we all miss you so much and love you

Brittany
Granddaughter

May 24, 2012

Your heroism and service is honored today, the 21rst anniversary year of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer who was murdered in the the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Time never diminishes respect. Your memory will always be honored and revered. I pray for the solace of all those who love and remember you.

Rest In Peace.

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05

January 20, 2012

Hey daddy, I was just setting here thinking about you and thinking about how many thanksgiving dinners we have missed. Its been over 20 yrs with you and 10 for mom.
Daddy i am getting old.. ha ha I was up in the hills the other day and just about didnt get back out. my knees and lungs are letting me down. I wish things was like the way it was back when i was little. I knew that you would fix anything. I try to do what i think is right, I dont have anybody any more. I think i did wrong by getting out of the army. My kids dont want anything to do with me because of what they hear from their moms. I tryed the other day with ethan , That didnt work. Amber has so much hate for me. I know it was hard on her while i was gone in the army. But why cant she have her own mind about me?
I miss you and love you. Please keep an eye out for my babies and let them know that i love them.

Mikel Kidwell
Son

November 27, 2011

gary it has been a while since ethan and I visited this for you, its not that we,ve not been thinking about you, just alot going on as you know. With all the bad things that have been wrote on here about me I really wasn't sure if I should but you are Ethan,s grandpa, of course as you know the truth it is all absolute lies and slander, and you deserve reflections from your grandson as well. He is growing so much. He's 4 now and so handsome. He talks about you everyday. He has your picture by his bed so you can watch over him. I really wish you were here with us I know things would be so different. Everything has been so so hard Gary. I tried so hard, but it just wasn't good enough, its hard seeing ethan going through it the most, he's the most precious little boy in this world and its so unfair to him he has to miss out on you,and his dad abandoned him. He is so tough though he has a constant smile and big dimples just like you, we may have lost you but you still carry on everyday in our hearts and Ethan is so proud of his pappaw Gary. Just the other day we were eating in a restaurant there was these 2 state troopers came in Ethan said look mommy there's my pappaw Gary and he wanted to go hug them tears began to stream down my face, oh Gary how I wish he could hug you and play with you, he loves you so so so very much. I know the two of you would have been the bestest of friends. He loves dogs tremendously just like they say you did. He's been trying to talk his other pappaw into taking him coonhunting imagine that...
It has been so hard' I know everything happens for a reason sometimes its hard to see that reason, I guess its like that song : we'll understand it in the sweet bye and bye: We love you Gary and SuE

april and ethan
grandson

June 12, 2011

Reading the various entries from this officer's son makes me realize the longterm and lasting effects of the loss of a parent. It makes the death of a beloved mother or father all that much harder to deal with when the punishment is not what was expected.

I truly hope this officer's loved ones can find themselves, find a way to carry on in a manner that would make their dad proud, and follow the straight and narrow as he did.

Gary, watch over your loved ones and guide them as best you can. Your loss has obviously devasted many lives.

RIP brother. You are not forgotten.

Constable Amanda Pandolfi
York Regional Police, Ontario Canada

March 15, 2011

I want to thank you Mr. Kidwell. Your service and sacrifice will never be forgot. I also want to thank your son for his service to our country. I have had the chance to met your son and he is so awsome. He once told me that he wants to be just like his dad.
It is hard on him not seeing his little boy, I dont know what happen, But i can ensure you if he felt like something was wrong he must have had a good reason. He talks about his family and his wife all the time. April i know with out a dought that he still loves you and cares deeply for you. He has cryed over and over again worrying about you and your heath. And also talks about the good times you guys had.
Mikel, i have not heard from you for days. Please becareful and let me know if you are ok. I was just setting here thinking about you and it came across my mind that today is when you lost your mom. I know you must be hurting and down, I wish the best for you and hope to hear from you soon.

Cristina

December 14, 2010

HEY DADDY, JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT I WAS IN CARTER CO. WENDSDAY. I TALKED TO A GUY WHO WORKS AT THE PRISON THAT THE GUY WHO KILLED YOU IS IN. HE TOLD ME THAT HE IS PAYING FOR IT EVERY DAY. SAID THAT HE IS AN OUT CAST IN THERE. AND THAT HE IS LOOKING LIKE HE IS 70 YEARS OLD.
BOBBY SAID NOT TO WORRY CAUSE HE IS NOT GOING ANY WHERE. I CPOULDNT BELIVE THAT I RAN IN TO A GUY WHO GAURDS HIM. I TOLD BOBBY TO LET HIM KNOW THAT HE RAN IN TO ME, AND THAT I AM NOT THAT LITTLE KID NO MORE. AND I HAVE NOT FORGOT...
I THINK GOD THAT THE GUY WHO KIILED MY DADDY IS HAVEING A HARD TIME. I LOST MY GRAND PAW , GRAND MAW AND MOMMY CAUSE OF WORRYING OVER WHAT HE DID TO MY DADDY. I WILL NEVER FORGET, NEVER. IT IS HARD ON A KID 13 YEARS OLD AND HIS DADDY GETS KILLED, HIS GRAND MAW AND GRAND PAW WORRY AND GRIVE THEIR SELF TODEATH AND THEN LOSE YOUR MOM ON TOP OF ALL THAT. OH NO... I'LL NEVER FORGET. NOT EVER. TO LISTEN TO MY LITTLE BOY ASK HOW COME PAW PAW GARY CANT COME PLAY WITH ME?
I MISS YOU DADDY AND LOVE YOU

MIKEL
SON

November 19, 2010

HEY DADDY, JUST SETTING HERE THINKING ABOUT YOU AND MOM. I'M DOING OK, I HAVE NOT HEARD ANYTHING FROM ANYBODY DOWN HOME. I WAS OUT IN THE WOODS THE OTHER DAY, MAN DEER ARE BIG UP HERE NEXT TO OHIO. I SEEN BUCKS THAT WOULD SCORE 170 AND 180+ OUT THERE. I GOT SOME BUDDYS THAT ARE FISH AND GAME OFFICERS AND STATE TROOPERS. THEY HAVE TOOK ME UNDER THEIR WINGS. THEY TELL ME THEY REMEMBER YOUR NAME.. I HONESTLY THINK THEY ARE TRYING TO GET ME LOST UP HERE. BUT THIS OLE FALL LICK CREEK BOY SHOWS THEM ALL UP.. HA HA LETS JUST SAY CRISTINA AND I DONT HAVE TO BUY ANY MEAT FOR AWHILE. HA HA I'M GOING ON A DEER DRIVE NEXT WEEK WITH THEM. UNCLE SAM LEARNED ME TO MUCH.... THEY HAVE NICKED NAMED ME BOONE. ONE OF THE FISH AND GAME OFFICER WAS IN ROCKCASTLE CO. FOR 5 YEARS. HIS NAME IS CORBY SMITH. HE MUST HAVE GOT ON HIS CUMPUTER AND CHECKED ME OUT,, HE SAID,, BOONE IF THE BUCK DONT MOVE, DONT SHOOT IT FULL OF HOLES LIKE YOU DID BEFORE.. HA HA I JUST SMILLED AT HIM CAUSE I KNEW HE KNEW ABOUT ME SHOOTING THAT DUMMY DEER UP ON SHELTON RIGDE. I HAD A GUY FROM THE BOW SHOP ASK ME TO GUIDE HIM ON A HUNT. HE HAD GOT A ELK TAG AND WANTED SOME BODY TO SHOW HIM WHERE TO GO. I COULD HAVE TOOK HIM UP IN HARLAN AND PIKE CO BUT I KNEW IF I WENT THAT FAR. I WOULD HAVE TO GO SEE IF I COULD FIND MY BABY BOY.
I KNOW IT IS HARD ON HIM, CAUSE I KNOW WHAT IS LIKE NOT TO HAVE YOU ANY MORE. MY CHILD HOOD WAS TOOK AWAY CAUSE I HAD TO GROW UP AND WACTH OVER MY MOM AND 2 SISTERS. SOME TIMES I THINK ABOUT GOING UP THERE TO HARLAN AND TRYING TO SEE HIM, BUT I TRYED TO WORK IT OUT LAST FALL WITH HIS MOMMY, BUT SHE JUST IS TO HARD TO GET ALONE WITH.
BUT I'VE FOUND CRISTINA NOW AND SHE LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM, JUST AN OLE BOY FROM FALL LICK. I FEEL SO LUCKY TO HAVE HER. EVEN WHEN I AM A JERK SHE STILL LOVES ME ANY WAY. WELL I LOVE YOU AND MOM . I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER.

MIKEL
SON

November 8, 2010

HEY DADDY, I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU I'M OK. IN OHIO, WEST VIRGINA, AND KY. I WORK FOR JOHN DEERE. IT IS NEVER THE SAME. ALWAYS BUSY. I THOUGHT OF YOU YESTERDAY, I WAS IN WAYNE WEST VIRGINA OUT ON A FARM CRISTINA'S DAD OWN'S. I GOT FEEDERS UP FOR THE DEER. I HAD 11 DOES AND 2 BUCKS FEEDING UNDER THE FEEDRS. I HEARD A NOISE BEHIND ME AND I SEEN A BIG OLE DARK COLORED COON WALKING DOWN THE CREEK GOING TOWARD THE FEEDERS. HE WAS SO FAT HE COULD HARDLY WALK. WELL I NEED TO GO BACK TO WORK. I LOVE AND MISS YOU. I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU DADDY. I'LL ALWAYS WRITE TO YOU. WATCH OVER MY BABY BOY AND LET HIM KNOW HIS DADDY LOVES HIM.

MIKEL RAY
SON

October 22, 2010