Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hey Baby: I am struggling with the holidays. Every day is
hard but the holidays are the worse. My soul is in pain. You know you are 28 years old now. I wonder what life would be like if you were here. Would we be grandparents now? Would I be keeping the baby as I said I would always do when you had a baby. What kind of house would you have? How would you have changed in the last 7 1/2 years, I believe you would still be in law enforcement that I know for sure. Since that was always your dream. Would I see you everyday or just when you had time. I know we would talk everyday. Would you still be in Chatsworth, or would you be living in Rome. All who knows, right. I miss you like crazy it makes me crazy. I so much want to see you and put my arms around you. I just don't care if it is impossible, it is what I want. God I miss you. I do not care what all the positive things that people say. It just plain sucks that you are dead. Just sucks.

Anonymous

November 30, 2010

Another holiday has come and gone without you, so depressing to have to celebrate a holiday when really there isn't much to be happy about anymore. I love you and miss you Cole.

Lynn

Anonymous

November 25, 2010

Hey Baby, another Hollowen has come and gone again. I always think of our Hollowens together. It was one of our favorite holidays. I guess it still is for me. I miss you Cole it hurts so much to not have you here in life. Living without you is so hard but somehow I do. I love you Cole. Watch out for us all.

Anonymous

November 3, 2010

Happy Halloween Cole

Anonymous

October 31, 2010

Hey Cole, I sure do miss you. I have so many questions that I wish I could ask you and get an answer back but I suppose it will be a while before that will be able to happen. I wake up every day and wonder if you can see what is happening here and then I wonder what you, Momma and Uncle JC are doing. I know I should be thinking of other things but I don't. I've seemed to notice these last few weeks that I see more of you in your Mother than I have ever noticed before, especially when she smiles. You always made me feel better when you smiled because I enjoyed seeing you happy and you were definitely a happy young man there was no doubt in that. I love you!
Lynn

Anonymous

October 7, 2010

Just thinking of you and your family... so hard to think so much time has passed, yet it sometimes seems like just yesterday. It's unbelievable that we've made it this far without you in our lives... it seemed unthinkable. Somehow, we've picked up the pieces, and as (I believe) your mom once told me - they'll never be put back in the same pattern, but we've kept going because that's all anyone can do. The holidays are quickly approaching again, and I can only imagine how difficult it still is and always will be for your Momma, Daddy, and Nan. I hope you'll visit them in their dreams and let them know they're getting closer to the day they will be with you again. Thank you for our time together and all the wonderful memories that flood my mind when I allow them. I could never repay you for teaching me how to love completely and whole-heartedly and do what I do with passion.

Anonymous

October 7, 2010

Hi Cole, just popping in to say Hi and that I know you are always with your sweet Momma. She has more courage and strength than she knows and I am sure it comes from you so stay with her buddy.

Anonymous

September 24, 2010

Hey Cole, it is early in the morning. I was just reading over your meesages. I love you Cole so very much. What can I say?

Anonymous

September 10, 2010

Hey Cole, it's my Cole's birthday today and every time I think of him, I think of you , Jessi and your sweet Mom, so that's every day.

Debbi,
Cole has only left you physically . I know he is always watching ovr you and will always be loving you. May the angels stay with you.
J.

Anonymous

September 2, 2010

Hey Angel. I wanted to say hello and tell you how very much I love you. You have been with me all day today. Thanks for the inspiration. love Mom

Anonymous

August 29, 2010

I miss you Cole.

Lynn

Anonymous

August 25, 2010

Thought of you all day on my birthday...wondered what we would have done if you had been here. I know...we would have went to Outback and had a bloomin onion and laughed our butts off while we waited for our steaks to come. Oh what wonderful memories...I will never forget not a one of them. I saw the dragon fly while I was at my friends...I knew you were saying hello. I miss you very much my sweet cousin. Think of you every single day!!!!

Love you,
Lynn

Anonymous

August 11, 2010

Hey Baby: Just wanted to say thinking of you as always. You know what happened this week. Take good care of him, he is sweet and very gentle. I love you and miss you every moment of every day.

Anonymous

August 1, 2010

Miss you more than words can ever express. Wish you were here, better yet wish I was there. I've dreamed the most awful dreams of Mom this last week. I keep thinking if I go to sleep thinking about you that maybe I could have just one good dream of us hanging out and talking but it is just the same crappy dream every night. Tell Mom if she is going to visit me in my dreams then at least give me a decent one. I've had enough hell during waking hours here lately I don't need anymore torture during sleep too. Oh guess what Cory is going to be a daddy to a little baby girl soon. Hard to believe, huh? Well, I've put off falling asleep long enough I guess. I love you Cole. SYOTOS

Lynn

Anonymous

July 15, 2010

Hey Angel, thinking of you as always. I miss you and it hurts beyond belief.I love you always and forever.

Anonymous

July 1, 2010

I keep asking myself why this had to happen. I won't ever have that answer in this lifetime. Everything would be so different if you were still here...so many lifes effected by one horrible tradegy. I think of you every single day and I don't ever intend on stopping. I love you with all my heart and soul.

Lynn

Anonymous

June 19, 2010

i remember you first birthday after you died... i sat at the cemetery all day long and got sunburned. now another birthday is here, but there's not much to celebrate about it. thank you for loving me and inspiring me to keep going, somehow, someway. thank you for your sacrifice altho none of us could've guessed it'd come so soon. miss you dearly.

love, jessi

Anonymous

June 4, 2010

Happy Birthday Cole, I love you!

Lynn

Anonymous

June 4, 2010

Hi Baby
I am so horribly sad today. I keep wondering why all this happened. You could have made such a difference to so many people. I just do not understand and I never will. Tomarrow is your birthday Happy 28th Birthday. Nan got you 28 red roses and put them at your grave. I wish we were celebrating a real birthday. I love you so much and I think of you all day every day. I miss you and it hurts beyond belief so much pain. I love you.

Anonymous

June 3, 2010

Hey Angel: Missing you lots today. The same wishs as every other day. I wish I could talk to you. I miss you so very much. I love you more than life. Send me a dragon fly today. I will watch for one.

Anonymous

May 18, 2010

Some may think that I have forgotten, but I have not. Sure, life has continued, and I'm in a different place now than I was the day I lost you, but the hole is still there. My heart has been rebuilt, but completely differently than it was before you died. I still can't believe it. The police ride in Atlanta continued on this year in spite of the storms and rain. Dad rode on the back of a bike and flew your flag. Your words of inspiration to go after my dreams will always keep me pushing onward and upward. Send your family some love from above and please know that I will never forget.

I loved the time we shared, even though it didn't seem long enough,
~Jessi

Anonymous

April 30, 2010

hey debbie ..

thought of you sunday. i was blue all day. 7 years. unbelievable.

love you.

Anonymous

April 29, 2010

Well it is here, the 7th anniversary of your EOW. I am not sure how I have continued this long without you and I cannot image 7 more years without you. My beautiful son what I would not give for just a moment with you. You are greatly missed by your Mom and Dad we never forget you and you are the first thing on our minds in the mornings and the last at night and for most of the moments of the day. I love you so very much it actually is a physical hurt. I love you and never forget.

Anonymous

April 25, 2010

Thinking of you and your family as the 7th anniversary of you being called away from duty arrives. I know that those that love you dearly carry your precious memories in their hearts. Every morning when they awake the first thought of the day is of you and at night just before they drift off to sleep the last thought of the day is of you. You will never be forgotten as true heroes never die. Continue to keep watch over all of your loved ones.

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

April 24, 2010

I sure do miss you my sweet adorable cousin. Life absolutely stinks without you! It has been a very trying time these past few weeks not sure how much more I can take. Always helps when I can talk to your Mom...I just don't know what I'd do if I didn't have her. I love you Baby Cole & miss you each and every day.

Lynn

Anonymous

April 16, 2010