Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

It's Christmas time again. I'll never forget the first Christmas without you... driving home from church sobbing the whole way...wondering if I could ever be "merry" again without you on this planet. I still can't believe you're gone. The events of April 25th, 2011 seem lightyears away at times, and yet sometimes feel as fresh as if they just happened yesterday. I know the passing time doesn't make your absence any easier on your parents. I can't even begin to imagine. I do miss you and still feel a hole in my heart.

~J

December 22, 2011

I miss you Cole.

Lynn

December 15, 2011

Happy Halloween Cole....I love you!

Lynn

October 31, 2011

Cole,

You have all of them now, watch over them and let my babies know how much I loved them and will miss them. I look forward to the day that I can be with all of you again. I love you.

Lynn

Lynn

August 20, 2011

I wish you and Momma were here. I wish both of you so much.

Love you both,
Lynn

Lynn

August 6, 2011

I miss you so very much Cole. I wish you were here for me to have someone to talk to and make everything better again.

I love you!

Lynn

Lynn

July 10, 2011

Hey Cole,

I love you. Please give my Momma a hug & kiss for me. I miss both of you terribly.
Love,
Lynn

Lynn

May 8, 2011

Hey Cole: It has hurt so bad today. I am not sure what the deal is I guess Mothers Day Sunday. So much talk about it. Sometimes I don't think I can take another breath without you the hurt is so heavy. I love you beautiful boy, young man. I am so proud of you and so proud you are my son. Thank you for all the love you gave while you were here. You were always loving even as a little baby and boy. So sweet and kind. I will never understand this never. I love you. always and forever

Anonymous

May 6, 2011

I never had the privilege of meeting you but I know Jessi. My husband was killed in the line of duty on 04/25/98. Just thinking about you and your family today as well as my own officer. We love you all and miss you terribly. Send some strength down our way.

Laura Gibson-Szerokman, Surviving Spouse
to Ofc. Allen W. Gibson, Jr.
EOW: 04/25/98

Laura

April 25, 2011

Hey Cole, another year has passed and I still keeping hoping I will wake up one morning from this nightmare. I know it isn't going to happen though. I sat and thought yesterday on Easter how I am left here to celebrate special occasions and holidays with total strangers, people who have not got a clue as to who you were or how special you were or what dreams you had and what you did for all of us. It absolutely sucks and I have no other way of explaining it. I may only have been your cousin but I loved like a little brother and my life changed on April 25, 2003 and it will never ever be the same without you. I miss you and love you and look forward to the day that we will be together once again. It will be a glorious day.

Love,
Lynn

Anonymous

April 25, 2011

Hey Cole my baby boy. I have struggled with this day it seems all my life. It is here again. The day that I wish had never been. It seems like if we could just elemenate this one day it all could be changed. Every thing would be all right. But we cannot can we....We put new flowers on your grave for easter and today and police week. We put flowers at your memorial down town as well for police week. They all look nice. I love you Cole you are tbe best son in the whole world. I would not change a thing about you. I wish so hard that we could see you just for a moment but that would not be enough time would it. Death is such a unforgiving ordeal absouletly unrelenting. I think about you always. You are always there. I love you so very much. It is hard to believe that it is 8 years. That is such a long, long time. You will be 29 your birthday that is unbelieveable. Scarlett is here by my side she can tell I am upset. She has been with me since you died watching over me. I am not really saying anything other than I miss you horribly and not a day goes by that you are not in my mind. I love you Cole with all my heart. Watch after Uncle Gary I would say death is not easy for him. I love you and Pa and Gary. I will see you guys one day don;t forget about me.

Anonymous

April 25, 2011

April is always a hard month, because thoughts and memories flood my mind. I can't believe it's been 8 years. That's insane when you think of how I used to not be able to think past about 8 seconds of life without you. I'm so very thankful for the time we had together. Apparently it wasn't in God's plan for us to grow old together. I know that without you, I would've never become the person I am today and wouldn't have the relationship with the Lord that I do now. It's no consolation and I can't imagine being in your parents' shoes, but I loved every minute and know that for some strange reason, your life was only supposed to last about 20 years. Thank you for loving me and teaching me how to love. Thank you for laying down your life so that others may live more safely. Thank you for being you, so sweet, so thoughtful, so genuine. I miss you.

~J

Anonymous

April 25, 2011

Hey Cole, have had you on my mind all day today...took a ride with the top down with a friend and went to visit your Mom and show my friend all her animals. It was so relaxing just sitting on the porch staring at the animals but still wishing you were here to share such a beautiful day with us all. What a perfect day that would be... Still struggling with Sophie's diabetes but I know this is a test and I have to believe my love for her will carry me thru this and what will be will be.
Love you,
Lynn

Anonymous

April 10, 2011

Hey Cole, Sophie has been very sick...please put in a good word for her. She needs all the help she can get. I've learned a lot of hard lessons these last few years but the saddest lesson is never count on anyone but yourself because no one really cares. At least I knew where I stood with you. You never let me down or disappointed me ever and I love you for that and miss you so very much.

Anonymous

April 4, 2011

Hey Cole,
you, your sweet Momma and your lovely Jess are always in my heart and prayers. I know how much your mom loves and misses you. When you carry a baby growing inside you for nine months, well that gives you an unbreakable bond. Debbie, that bond between you and Cole just keeps getting stronger and stronger as does the love.
God Bless you and may the angels smile on you.

KJC

Anonymous

March 18, 2011

I'll never understand why...

Anonymous

March 8, 2011

Hey Baby. Just me Lynn, Momma and Judy are left that is my immediate family and the only family I count on and love. PLEASE watch over them and keep them safe. PLEASE do not let anything happen to them. I love you with all my heart.

Anonymous

February 24, 2011

Hey you all have left me. It is just me and Ronnie Robinson left. The rest is all with you now. Cole I cannot go through another funeral I just cannot. I could handle everything if I just had you. Cole I miss you so much it hurts so very much. I buried Uncle Gary in the grave over from you. I will be in between you and Uncle Gary. I just want to make sure that I am with you. This whole thing with Uncle Gary just hit me so unexpectably. I do not think I am going to handle this well. Too many of you have been taken away from me. I just do not understand. I love you do not forget me. I never forget not even for a second.

Anonymous

February 21, 2011

You now have another person to shoot skeets with, please save me place.

Dad

Anonymous

February 17, 2011

It has been a difficult week, anniversary of Powder Puff's death, Momma's birthday and Snoopy's birthday. It is a bit much for one week but it still doesn't compare to losing you. You know I had everything all planned out in my head and then God surprised me by helping me get back the job I loved so much. It isn't quite the same but I will adjust, thats all one can do is just adjust and move on I suppose. The last 6 months I got to spend alot of time with your Mom and that probably has been the happiest I've been in 8yrs and I wouldn't trade that time for all the money in the world. All good things always come to an end though as we all know so well. The plan is still in my head and I guess only time will tell as to when to carry thru with it. I feel it growing closer and closer.

I love you so very much and I miss you more than words can ever describe. I won't ever forget I promise.

Love,
Lynn

Anonymous

January 26, 2011

Visited your grave today... looked absolutely stunning and peaceful as it was still snow-covered... no matter how much time passes, the memories of that day still stab me like a knife. I cleared off your stone so that your name and badge could be seen. I can't believe in a few short months it'll be 8 years that you've been gone from this world. That's close to 10 years...it just seems unreal. As always I'm thankful for the time we shared and I have no doubt we were together so that you could teach me how to love, live, and work passionately and without regret.
Love
~J

Anonymous

January 17, 2011

I miss you terribly today Cole. I love you.

Lynn

Anonymous

January 4, 2011

Hi Baby: Today is Christmas day. It snowed today. It is the first Christmas I can remember it snowing on. They say it has before. I remember the blizzard of 93 you and I had a good time. I remember another snow and you were about 16 and we made a snowman. Merry Christmas I love you

Anonymous

December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas Cole, I love you!
Lynn

Anonymous

December 25, 2010

Hey Cole,
Today has been 2 years since my baby Snoopy died, I so hope he is with you and Momma. He was always so fragile but I loved him so much. He was the best little dog in the world. Some reason the best things are always what is taken away from us. I miss you so much, I keep wanting everything to be the way it use to be but that isn't ever going to be again. I know I need to accept what is now and it is so hard but I have to or I am going to lose what is most important to me here and now. I loved every single moment I had with you and I will never ever forget. I have no way of knowing when we will be together again but I know that it will be the best time ever. I promise I will do better here. I love you Cole, hug Snoopy for me and kiss Momma.
Love,
Lynn

Anonymous

December 5, 2010