Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

For me to live is Christ,and to die is gain.
Philippians 1:21

Jesus Christ said: "I am the resurrection and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: and whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die"
(John 11:25-26). Our hope of immortality is based on Christ alone.

Mom

October 21, 2004

I miss you Jaybird

grapes

October 13, 2004

In the blink of an eye for the way that he tried, he paid the ultimate price.... Along with all others whom we honor each spring with words that we speak and the songs that we sing. Lies the question we all ask, which no one can say.....Jay gave his all....Did I come close today?


I never had the honor of meeting you or David, but during a recent SRT school in Alexandria, I did have the honor of meeting your mom and many of your friends. I can tell you this my brother, as you walk your beat above, your friends and especially your mom carry on your memory with the greatest of love and compassion.

Hopefully where you are now the shifts are short, the calls are few and the pay is better.....rest easy....we'll take it from here.....

May god bless and keep your family.....(Ms. Pat I Love the t-shirt and wear it with pride.)

Patrol Officer Larry Moss
Lake Charles Police Department

October 6, 2004

JAY, I AM JUST WRITING TO SAY THAT I STILL MISS YOU AND YOU ARE WITH ME EVERYDAY. LOVE YOUR BROTHER.

CPL J. KING
ALEXANDRIA P.D.

September 21, 2004

Jay,
I met a partner of yours last week. After talking to him, I felt that I knew a little of you. I am sorry that I did not meet you in person, but one day I will.

May God Bless you and keep your family and friends in His arms. Keep us in mind down here as we continue your work.

Thank you for your service friend.

SGT Phil Abdoo
Macomb County Sheriff's Office (MI)

September 5, 2004

JAY,

YESTERDAY I SAW ROBERT, HE WAS IN MY OFFICE AND WE TALKED FOR A WHILE. JUST TALKING TO HIM REMINDED ME OF YOU AND HOW MUCH YOU ALWAYS MADE ME LAUGH. I MISS YOU SO MUCH EVERYDAY. THIS MORNING WHEN I GOT TO WORK, WE HAD A FALSE ALARM AND ABOUT 4 OR 5 OFFICERS WERE THERE. I WANTED SO BADLY FOR YOU TO GET OUT OF ONE OF THOSE CARS, JUST TO BE ABLE TO TALK TO YOU ONE MORE TIME AND SEE WHAT KIND OF SARCASTIC REMARK YOU WOULD HAVE MADE (LOL). SOMETIMES IT OVERWHELMS ME AND I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH IT, BUT I THINK OF HOW HAPPY YOU MUST BE NOW AND IT PASSES.
SOPHIE IS ALMOST 4 YEARS OLD AND SHE IS SO TALL. SHE STILL TALKS ABOUT YOU AND TELLS ME YOU ARE AN ANGEL. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND WILL ALWAYS KEEP YOUR MEMORY ALIVE!
LOVE,
JILL AND SOPHIE

August 24, 2004

As I woke up this morning to the phone calls from the girls and MaMa Hall singing and wishing me a Happy Birthday, I knew I would miss you a little extra today.
God gave me a few things to be so happy about and the day was great, I missed you, but it was ok, I knew you were near. You are forever in my heart and I have the most wonderful memories a mother could possibly have. I will continue to thank God for the time we had here on this earth, and I am assured that we will be together again, I trust in God's Plan and I know it is perfect. Loving you always.
MOM

Mom

August 15, 2004

hey jay its grapes again i got accepted to youth challenge im going August 29th. im so excited. i wish you were here.
love always
grapes

grapes

August 4, 2004

hey jay
happy late birthday i went for an interview for youth challenge program last tuesday and hopefully i am in i have thought about you so much lately i went fishin early and i thought about you i wonna follow the same foot steps as you cant wait to see you soon
love always
grapes

grapes

July 19, 2004

Today is Margaux's 4th birthday, she was so excited when I picked her up. We asked her where we would eat, and of course, it was Semolina's. She finally got her Baby Born Doll and she named it Baby Sarah, just like Noelle's and Hannah's doll. She thanked me all the way to the restraunt and all the way back. I told her now that she was 4 she couldn't throw fits anymore, she said she didn't know about that. She is growing up so fast and as always she will always be my Sunshine, sometimes I wonder if God put her here to take your place, she is so much like you. She brings a smile to everyone, I have to thank you for her Sunshine in my life.
It has been a tough summer, with all the rain, we finally got to go fishing last week and the Girls caught all the brim and turtles on the bank of Cane River, we had a blast. Noelle enjoys catching fish and throwing them back, but Margaux has to play with them first.
We have made it through your 31 Birthday on the 8th, I was looking through some papers and found your certificate of Baptism(August 9, 1987), you were 14 and I can remember you telling Brother David you might want to be a preacher. I am so thankful for your decision to accept Jesus as your Savior, Noelle made that same decision last week at GA Camp and I know the Angels leaped with Joy and Heaven rejoiced. Another ticket on the train to Heaven. We will all be there before you know it. Loving you and Missing you and of course Never Forgetting You.
Mom

Mom

July 15, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....someone had to sing it to you! loving you lots and missing you more!

Carey

July 8, 2004

jay, it's been a long 16 months without you. i miss your laugh most of all, i can still hear it in my mind like it was yesterday. i saw some canoe pictures that i just developed of our last canoe trip, made me really sad. i saw kim the other day, she seems happy, but i know she hurts inside. brian misses noelle so much. he's so scared for me to go to work jay, it makes me sad that he worries about that so much, but he's getting better. well, i could go on forever, but i really just wanted to tell you that we all miss you and love you...gary, mandie, brian and addison

gary
apd

July 1, 2004

THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS.

LOVE,

JILL AND SOPHIE

JILL

July 1, 2004

i love and miss you so much still
love always
Grapes

grapes

June 25, 2004

Still missing you.

CPL CHRIS COOPER
ALEXANDRIA POLICE DEPT

June 19, 2004

I miss you so much. Mom

Mom

June 17, 2004

Hey Jay,

Just thinking about you today. As I'm sure you already know from watching out for us from above, that the Chief has started the Street Team back up. It's me, Coop, Bradley, King and Wolf. What a team, huh? I couldn't ask for any better guys on it, except for you and David. But you ARE ON IT!!! You're there with us every day and night. Capt. Cardwell and Sgt. Terry are our supervisors. You can't get much better than that, now can you? We hope to make a difference in the city...we're sure trying. You're mom and sister had us tending to baby ducks the other night. Your mom said the mama duck is walking down the middle of the street and since we are the "street" team, we needed to come catch her. Well, who can say no to your mom, ha. But we never caught the mother duck...only 11 "quack heads" as we were calling them. I miss you. Me and Coop and the team ate in B.K. the other morning for breakfast. It was the first time me and Coop had eaten together there since we all used to eat there and we ate in the kiddy play room and talked about you and how we missed you. Please take care of us down here and watch our backs as you have always done. We love you.

Carla

June 12, 2004

Jay,
I havent wrote you in a while. Im about to go off to boot camp and then enlist in the Military Police. Im trying to follow your foot steps I guess. You really inspired me Jay and I will always love you for that. Well its my last couple of days left for school and I havent yet been fishing with anybody. I passed your house the other night and thought of all our times we spent together. I have been having a very rough rough time. Sunni and Kim came back from Washington for the Police Memorial and when we picked Sunni up from the airport I saw Noelle and it was like being around you all over again. I love you sooooo very much Jay and I really miss you its really hard. Watch out for me
Love always
Grapes

Grapes (Kaitlyn Hammond)

May 26, 2004

Dear Jay,

It has been about 15 months since your death. I think about you every day. I miss you but most of all Noelle and Margaux miss you so much.

The girls are really growing. You would be so proud of them. Noelle is such a good student. You would be proud of the work she does in school. Margaux is bouncy and bubbly with so much life. She reminds me of you.

Your death has been such a tragedy to all of us. Kim and the girls have grieved so much.

I wanted to tell you and assure you that I will be there 100% for the girls. I love them so much. I will always be the grandmother you would want me to be. In life or death you will never have to worry about them.

I know if you can look down from heaven how proud you are of Noelle and Margaux. They are bright, beautiful, children. Kim is doing a good job. Noelle and I are already talking about her relationship with the Lord. I think God is preparing her heart for salvation. Also I think she is thinking about how one day she will see you again.

In closing I want you to know you have a special place in my heart. I love you, miss you, and one day we will meet again.

Love,
Linda Neal (Nana)

May 26, 2004

On Thursday May 13,2004, it was with great pride and emotion that I presented a NLEOM bracelet to Jay's daughter Noelle and his mother at the Candlelight Vigil after wearing them on the Police Unity Tour bicyle ride.

You will forever be in my thoughts.

As it reads on each and every riders jersey "We Ride For Those Who Died".

God Bless

MPO Dana W. Johnson
VA Beach Police,VA Beach,VA.

May 19, 2004

We miss you so very much. Some of us are just going through the motions. It gets a little easier as the days come and go. We need to keep our minds on the important things in life, and not take things for granted. We all love you and David and will never forget what you both gave for all of us. I just wish some of us would try to remember the importance of why this tragedy happend. It can happen to any of us each day we put this uniform on.
We will never forget either of you.
Take care of each other up there, but don't forget to watch over all of us down here. We need it most. Love ya'll

A Friend
Alexandria PD

May 17, 2004

JAY,

Sophie has been talking about you alot lately and naturally it makes me think of you more and miss you. She asks me if you are in the white part or the blue part of heaven (the sky or clouds), and if you went there with Jesus. Yesterday she told me she had an imaginary friend named Jeremy and that he came from heaven, it makes me wonder. We miss you and talk about you everyday, you will always be with us.

We love you,

Jill and Sophie

JILL

May 12, 2004

It's Mothers Day again, I decided I would praise God for the gift of motherhood, it has been such a blessing and as I remember back in my life, that is all I ever wanted to be. I can remember playing with dolls as a little girl and feeling like those babies were real, and then as a teenager loving to babysit. Then having you and your sisters and what a joy you all have been. The greatest Joy being Grandchildren of course,Hannah, Noelle,Justin, Lane, Margaux, Mallori, and Jaci and Fetus(Amy's baby). The Lord has been good to me and each of these children have their own light to shine and I will always be warmed by the light they shine, just as I am by yours and your sisters. Your light will forever shine in my heart and I will always be warm. Missing you today, but always loving you. Iwalu, Mom

MOM

May 9, 2004

Jay,
I dreamed of you last night. It was the first in a very long time. I've prayed many times to see you, talk to you, touch you just one more time. In a way my prayer was answered last night. You came to me in such a real sense. I could actually feel you and smell you. I remember vividly what you were wearing, how you looked, and the things we talked about. I read a book on grieving that states that if you have a dream that seems so real and you can remember everything in minute detail, that it wasn't a dream at all, but an experience with your loved one. I believe, Jay, that you visited me last night to rest my mind, comfort me, and give me the remembrance and closeness that I needed from you. I love you, miss you, can't wait to see you again.

Kim

Kim

April 29, 2004

Hey Jay,

It is 6am and I was fixing to go fishing and was missing you and wished you were going fishing with me. I still think about you and miss you so much. We are preparing to go to Washington D.C. for the police memorial in May. I know it is going to be hard, but you are truly a hero to this nation and to me. I hope I have done right by you in the decisions I have made recently. I know how you felt about certain things because we would talk about them almost everyday. We went through so much the year before you left us. I am so honored that I got to spend that whole year with you. I was only without you for that week I left ahead of you in Cuba. I remember how we worked so hard to get you home. How we went to the "IG" begging. Your mom was so worried about you during that time. That's how I first got to know her. She would call Janet everyday just to see if Janet had heard from me and to see how you were. I don't know how many times I had to tell you to, "call your mom, Jay." Remember that time we went to the movies together in Cuba. I was on crutches and I was using you in everyway I could, Ha. You went and bought me two hotdogs and fixed them for me and brought them to me...And don't forget your folding my chair out for me. Normally we would have to walk from the NEX to the outside theater, which was a little ways and I said I was gonna ask the bus driver if he could drive us all the way and you said he wasn't gonna do it (cause they were on a schedule and couldn't go off their route). I asked and since I was on crutches, he drove us right up to the theater. I laughed when I got off and you just had that look on you face (cause you always thought you were right). Even though you were going through the roughest time of your life, we still had a smile there and again. I'm glad I got to be there for you. I wouldn't trade that year for anything. I truly knew how you felt from our long talks. You only left this world about three months after I left Ft. Polk. I knew how you felt then and then we worked on the same shift until I got transferred. I remember our talks when we would work the housing authority together. We worked it together approximately 2 weeks before Feb. 20th and we talked about everything again then also. I regret not taking you up on that inventation to go hang at your house and watch movies that night. I remember when you moved into Thorton Ct. You took me on the grand tour and you were talking about everything you was going to do with it. You really wanted to fix that back up with a hot tub. And who can forget when the Schwann's man showed up. I remember all the stuff you were buying...You bought most of the stuff because Margaux and Noelle like it and that's what you would say. Oh, and I couldn't leave there without a box full of stuff myself (mostly ice cream) and don't forget the bird cage you gave me. I miss you buddy. I'm glad I have your family to talk to and I hope that everyone understands some of my decisions the past month or so. It's not to make anyone mad or to pick sides (cause I'm not like that). It's remembering all those talks and cries we've had and remembering how you were and what you would've wanted. I love you brother and I love your family. "stone"

Carla

April 24, 2004