Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

hey jay
Its me Kaitlyn! I have missed you so much lately. Its like you are everywhere. Sometimes when im sitting at a red light i think i see you in the car or truck in front of me or i think ill see you in a restruant. its been really hard here lately sometimes i feel i cant go on and then i think of you and it gets harder because you aint here to listen to my problems and give me advice. Sometimes i just go and sit out there with you and talk for hours but i just still cant get enough. i cant wait to see you again. keep watching out for all us.
love always
Grapes

Grapes

December 3, 2005

We have made it thru our 3rd Thanksgiving without you here. You know its just not the same without you, we all miss you so much. It was a tough day, but I am thankful for the gathering of family that we had, we did have some funny moments. The Kids all had a good time, they played so hard and slept so good, and as usual, Margaux gets up and tells your picture "good morning Daddy" and then she giggles and runs off like you were chasing her. Noelle is growing so tall, she is so beautiful. I know you had a great Thanksgiving, I can only Imagine. I love you and miss u with all my heart. Iwalu Mom

Mom

November 28, 2005

You and your mother are strongly on my mind today. I know not why.

Thank you for making this world a better place. Six weeks after you and David went to heaven Glen joined you. Please give Glen my love.

Three young officers in our city under the age of 30 in 6 weeks--- Too much, too much

Kay Wood
Mother of Glen EOW 4/2/03

Kay Wood
Mother of Deputy Marshal Glen DeVanie, EOW 4/2/03

October 21, 2005

Jaybo,

I haven't written in a while, my life is so busy. I had a dream about you last night like I always do. I know it is you because they are so realistic and I remember every detail. It was just a simple dream, we were hanging out together just talking like we always did and it was so nice to feel like you were here again. I miss you everyday, but when I have dreams about you, the day after is so hard.

Sophie is turning 5 in a few weeks. She is so smart and TALL!! She said that she missed you the other day, I am so glad she remembers you.

We love you!!!!
Jill and Sophie

Jill Brown

September 26, 2005

Jay,
Thank you for getting together with Roy. I know that it was the two of you that brought your Mom and me together. As I spoke to her the other day, I realized that I was NOT alone. Everytime I told her that I did a certain thing when Roy was killed she would giggle and say...So did I. I know that time will heal but it is so very hard. I do not know exactly how she feels and God knows that I would never want to feel that pain. Fortunately, she doesn't know exactly how I feel, either. But, together we feel each other's pain. And,hopefully we are going to heal together. She and I will be great friends. Jay, I want everyone to know that you made the ultimate sacrifice for us all. And for this...YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. We forget to tell Police Officers THANK YOU for what they do everyday...But, I know the sacrifice that my husband made and hope that he knew how much his son and I appreciated him everyday. And for those of you still on the beat...Thank you and May God Bless you...Please,BE SAFE!! Remember, there is NO routine call...
Shelley Gonzalez,
Wife of Sgt. Roy Gonzalez,
Franklin Parish Sheriff's Office
EOW: 7/15/2005

Shelley Gonzalez

September 25, 2005

hey jaybird

i went to the graveyard the other day and stayed out there for a couple hours just talking. I graduated the youth challenge program and i am probably going to join the national gaurd this week. I always told you I wanted to be just like you and now I am making it happen. I cant express how much i love and miss you. I cant wait to see you one day and for you to give me a hard time again. I guess thats all for now.

I love you so much

grapes

September 12, 2005

miss you brother... we know you will always be here with us.

M Bozeman
RPSO

July 13, 2005

Dear Jay:
My heart was full of pride on May 19, 2005 as the Police Heroes Memorial was dedicated. The idea of the Memorial was conceived right after you and David lost your lives. The community donated funds and money was raised to build this beautiful tribute. The eternal flame, the granite and the water symbolizes Heroism, Strength and Peace. So appropriate for both you and David. Your mother and I requested that the Obelisks representing you and David be placed "side by side" in the water and they also to us represent friendship and loyalty. She and I have become very good friends and share and support each other on our grief journey. This is exactly what I feel you and David would do. Now you are blessed to be sharing Heaven with Jesus, the ultimate achievement. You will always be special to our family, Jay, and know that we miss you also, along with your family, friends and fellow officers. Please watch over us and protect us. Love, David's Mom

June 1, 2005

Thinking of you everyday and missing you always.

Kim

April 29, 2005

The fish are biting, missing you

Mom

April 18, 2005

You are not forgotten. God bless your family.

PFC Joey Hawkins
Monroe Police Dept.

April 12, 2005

HAPPY EASTER JAY

March 27, 2005

Sunni,

I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you. I thought I might meet up with you at Police Week last year but somehow our paths never seemed to cross. I recently tried emailing and calling you, but my emails have been returned and the number I have for you is out of service. I hope things are going "okay" for you. I have wondered how you've been doing, especially since the two year anniversary has recently come and gone. Anniversaries are always tough, I hope that you have somehow been able to find some peace in your life. If you still have my email address and phone number feel free to call or write anytime. If you don't have it the Davis County Law Center will be more than happy to provide it to you. Hope to hear from you. Take care of yourself and keep in touch. Love ya!

Wishing you brighter and better days,

Jocelyne :)

PS: An online support group for the significant others of fallen officers has been created recently. A number of us "survivors" have found it a great place to connect with others in similar circumstances. If you go searching for it, it's a "Yahoo" group. If you have trouble finding let me know.

Jocelyne Brar (Winnipeg, MB Canada)
Fiancée of Deputy Sheriff Dennis Ray McElderry - EOW (01/03/03)

March 14, 2005

Hey Jaybo,

I was looking through pictures today and ran across some of you. My memories of you are still so vivid that I feel like I could pick up the phone today and call you and you would be there. Sophie is sitting here with me and wanted me to tell you...."I love you and I think I can make you feel better and then you can talk about it to Jesus". She is so sweet and thoughtful and so full of love and so smart for her age (4 1/2 now!). I bet your girls are big too, they all grow up so fast. I miss you daily and will love you always!

Love,
Jill and Sophie

Jill

March 2, 2005

It's been two years since you've been gone. So much has changed and time seems to have crept by. I hope time passes quickly for you in heaven. The girls have grown so much. You would be so proud of Noelle. At nine years old, she is so mature, respectful, and intuitive. Margaux keeps us all on our toes. She is you made over - funny, energetic, loud, cute as a button, and can light up a room in a heartbeat! She would be a perfect little side-kick for you. She talks about you alot. Nana and PawPaw miss you. We reminisce about you all the time. Life will never be the same without you. We all miss you so much and can't wait to be with you again!

Kim

February 21, 2005

Missing you so much on this 2nd anniversary, I can't say it has gotten easier or better, I have read and heard of parents dying of broken hearts, I am praying for God to fill my broken heart with good things to share with others, I know that I am so blessed to have the family and friends that I have.
There always seems to be someone there when I need to talk or a hug. I know that is not by accident. I have to say you have some pretty neat friends Too, The last 2 years has been tough on them too. Missing you and loving you as always with all my heart.
Mom

MOM

February 21, 2005

I remember sitting in my car on my lunch hour, hearing on the radio about you and David and I just couldn't believe it. Even though I didn't know you, my heart still broke for your family. I met your mom March 20th,last year, 6 days after my nephew was killed at a traffic stop and she is such an incredible lady, along with Ms. June. They both helped me more than they will ever know. I just wanted to tell you that I am thinking about you and David today.

Shirley Roberts
Aunt of Fallen Officer John Logan EOW-March 14, 2004

February 20, 2005

I thought this was supposed to get easier with time. It hasn't.

Still missing you.

Chris Cooper
Alexandria Police Dept

February 17, 2005

Dear Jay,
It's February and as the 20th day of the month nears of course emotions are hard to bear for your family, friends and co-workers. Your Mom and I talk of course every day, all day long. It's really tough and how she makes it sometimes I wonder. She is really a remarkable and exceptional person.. (I don't know what I'd do without her as my friend.... Yeah, she stays on all of us checking vest, making sure everyone knows she cares about them. We have another academy starting on the 14th. New cadets!!! Ha!! Your buds are doing o.k. I think!!! You know I worry about them all of them. If they only knew. As the days go by you are always thought about every day. Jarred's football banquet was last Monday night he recieved the trenchman award. He loves your Mom & Dad. Jarred was really excited that they were there to see him recieve that award. His senior year next year Northwestern. Your Mom and I are going to have a blast going to the football games. I don't have to worry about Jarred at college cause I know your Mom will be watching him more than I will. He doesn't have a chance. HA!!! Well, I just felt like I needed to write. Thanks for the SIGN to your Dad. He needed it.
Love Ya and Miss Ya.
June

Lieutenant G. June Murdock P266
Alexandria, Louisiana Police Department

February 7, 2005

To Mom, Grapes, and whoever else knew and loved Officer Carruth; our prayers are with you. I too have lost friends in this job, although I cannot fathom losing a child. Please take some solace in the knowledge that God holds a special place for those who give their lives in the service of others. You WILL see Jeremy again, and I feel confident I'll meet him myself when I cross that divide. You are all part of the family of police officers, and your pain is shared by many. May Jeremy rest in God's peace, and watch over the rest of us, until we meet in His Kingdom. You are all in our prayers. God Bless You.

Sgt. Bill Richardson
Anchorage, Alaska PD

January 16, 2005

And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain, for the former things are passed away. Revelation 21:4

Think of a place where there will be no sin, no sorrow, no quarrels, no misunderstandings, no hurt feelings,no pain, no sickness, no death. That is Heaven! Soak up the Son
Loving you and missing you always. Mom

Mom

December 30, 2004

ALWAYS LOVING YOU AND MISSING YOU TERRIBLY..........

LOVE,

JILL

JILL

December 22, 2004

Jay- Just wanted to let you know that you are missed always. I am sure I will see your mom tomorrow night at Jarrod's Christmas party and I make sure to give her a hug for you. Miss you brother.

Dep. M Bozeman
RPSO

December 10, 2004

Getting to know your mom has been a blessing since Glen was killed. She has helped me in many ways. I know you are smiling upon her.
Kay Wood, Glen's mother (EOW: 4/2/03)

Kay Wood

November 18, 2004

The holidays are here again. We have been so blessed, God continues to give, what I consider to be the greatest gift of all, Grandchildren, we have a new baby Boy, Jeremi Easton, named after you. I promise to make sure he gets all the Boy Toys(noisy toys) that you liked to buy. We have another Boy on the way in March and that will probably be all our Grandchildren(9), That should keep us busy until Great Grandchildren( I can't imagine anything greater than grandchildren). We continue to miss you and even more as the holidays approach, I have permission from above to miss you and to cry when I need to, God knows exactly how I feel, And as Jesus is with his father in Heaven, I too will someday be in Heaven with Jesus and my Son. I am so thankful for Gods perfect plan and for his daily doses of Grace to follow him, for I know I could not handle life wihout him. Loving and missing you always. Mom

Mom

November 17, 2004