Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

--------The final goodbye----------
It's been a while since you've been gone,
Guess I always hoped,deep inside,
that the facts werent true and someone lied,
and instead of goodbye,
I would be saying hello to you.

Now my life carries on without you,
though I can't say that is so,
because each and every day
you fill my thoughts and dreams
and most things I do lately,
involve you it seems,
So how can it be that this is goodbye?
There are so many things we have to share,

So many plans to be made,
I turn to call you,
I want to know you are home,
but you're not there,
you've already gone.
Im not ready to say goodbye.

Some say that it's time to move on ,
I know they are not wrong.
I move on, but I take you along.
I'm not ready yet,
to say goodbye.

It's been so hard to say goodbye,
and every time I try, I cry.
I just cant bring myself to believe,
that this is the final goodbye.

Scott,

It's been 2yrs, 2mos, 14days, 4hrs, and 14 minutes since you left and I still haven't been able to say good-bye fully. I don't think I ever will.

I just had a nice chat with one of our buddies about you. I always feel better after laughing about something you did or remembering your "other" ways.

I want you to know that people you've met through me still think about you and talk very fondly about the few times they had with you. I think it's wonderful how much your personality left an impact on those you only talked with once or twice.

Also, the signs you left others did not go unnoticed. A few were shared with me. The incidents sent chills through me, but also gave me that warm, fuzzy feeling. Kinda hard to explain that feeling because there are too many words to describe it.

Keep it up, the signs/incidents are wanted, welcomed, and helpful. :)

Brought your ornament last week. It's an icecube, police snowman. Sooooo Cute. I had to get it for you.

See you in my dreams,
Love you,
Monica
Fiancee

October 25, 2004

Hi Scotty
I went to the Parent Retreat it helped me so much being with other parents who have lost a son or daughter all the love, support, and hugs so many hugs. I went to a session that really helped me.
I plan on going again next year.

Your Dad and I have made alot of friends though Mi Cops what special people.

Not a day goes by that I don't think about and miss you.
Thanks for the pennies
Love and hugs
Mom

Audrey Stewart
Mother

October 12, 2004

We may never understand it,
the risks these brave ones take,
but occasionally we see a bit
of the difference their lives make.
Some do it for the action,
others find it a callin'.
All find the satisfaction,
and few become the fallen.
Being an officer is what he loved,
To him as good as it gets.
Law was what he dreamed of,
He would have no regrets.
And though it saddens all of us
to lose him in this way
He knew how an officer must
Live life to the fullest everyday.

October 10, 2004

Dont think of him as gone away, his journeys just begun
Life holds so many faucets, this earth is only one
Just think if him as resting from the sorrows and the tears
In a place of warmth and comfort where there are no days or years
Just think of how he must be wishing how you could know today
That nothing but your sadness can really pass away
Just think of him as living in the hearts of those he touched
For nothing loved is ever lost and he was loved so much

October 10, 2004

"Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifing rush
of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep."

October 10, 2004

I am not dead, I did not die,
I only passed from earth to sky.
From dark to light, my soul took flight,
Beautiful here, a wondrous sight.
The face of Jesus I can see,
Happy I'll be when you're with me.
The grief you feel will soon subside,
And in it's place in you abide.
Belief that I'm free from pain,
And joy that I am well again.
The sweetness of the times we shared,
The laughter, and tears together paired.
The dreams we dreamed, the prayers we prayed,
The "I love you's" so often said.
These memories ne'er fade away,
But grow brighter as day by day.
God gives you grace to bear the dross,
'till rejoined because of the cross.

October 7, 2004

Scotty,

Thank you. I was recently asked to think about the good thing that came from your death. I told the person that there was nothing. Absolutely nothing good. She looked at me and she told me to come up with one thing. After thinking for a little bit, I told her I guess it would be all of the friends I have made and the family has made. I told her that I would gladly trade them in for you to be alive again. I know that will never happen, so I want to thank you for sending us so many special people.

We miss you!
Andrea

October 6, 2004

Monica,

I got the reflection you left for my fiancee Joey. It was such a wonderful note that it brought tears to my eyes. You were certainly right when you said Joey must have been a wonderful man to have my love and devotion. I want to also express my sympathy to you. I know that it's a tough thing to go through but I promise you will come out stronger than ever. Please know that I am always here to chat ([email protected]). Also remember how blessed we were to be loved by heroes. Scott and Joey will always be remembered we will make sure of that. Take care and Stay strong.

Dana
Survivor of Deputy Joseph (Joey) Rodgers eow 4-9-97

October 5, 2004

Dear Uncle Scotty,
I wish you were here right now. I really miss you. I think about you alot.
Love, Jordan
XOXOXOXOXOXO

Niece of Scott Stewart

October 2, 2004

"Final Call"

An Angel In The Sky Must Leave His Place Of Rest,
Gently Tucking His Wings Beneath His Armored Vest.
For Duty Has Called, There Is Much Work To Do
Little Did He Know, This One Is Dressed In Blue.

Arriving On The Scene, He Knows Just What To Say,
"Follow Me, Fallen Brother, I'll Show You The Way."
"Your Duty Has Ended, Your Work Is Now Through."
"Come Hang Your Hat Beside Mine, I'm A Cop, Too."

Eric - author

Watch out over all of your families and brothers in blue

September 30, 2004

Dear Uncle Scotty,
I wish you were here right now. I really miss you. I think about you alot.
Love, Jordan
XOXOXOXOXOXO

Niece of Scott Stewart

September 28, 2004

They say memories are golden,
well, maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
A million times I've needed you,
A million times I've cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
No one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
And heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you back again.

Scott,
Another sleepless day. I couldn't stop thinking about you. I laid there thinking about all the times you made me laugh and smile.

I miss you soo much. I can't put it into words. It seems as though my whole being is consumed with this ache I cannot stop. Even when I'm happy, I'm sad.

I can't wait for that day when I close my eyes and find you standing there waiting for me.

Maybe then this will stop.

I love you,
Monica

September 28, 2004

Dear Uncle Scotty,
I wish you were here right now. I really miss you. I think about you alot.
Love, Jordan
XOXOXOXOXOXO

Niece of Scott Stewart

September 27, 2004

COME VISIT MY DREAMS
Cecelia Franklin

Come visit my dreams;
I only wish it could be as real as it seems.
When you are here, everything feels right,
Life is normal and my pain...completely out of sight.
Come visit my dreams;
We can laugh and talk just like before,
you and I, together once more.
How nice it always seems to be,
the times we share in my dreams,just you and me.
If I could have only one wish it would be,
having you back to never again leave me.
Though you are gone to return never,
My love,you will live in my heart and soul forever.
Please, come visit my dreams.

Monica

September 27, 2004

We thought of you with love today
But that is nothing new.

We thought about you yesterday
and days before that to.

We think of you in silence
we often speak your name.

Now all we have are memories
and your picture in a frame.

Your memory is our keepsake
with which we'll never part.

God has you in His keeping
we have you in our heart.

Author unknown

Thinking of you with love and hugs.
Mom

Audrey Stewart
Mother

September 21, 2004

Scotty,

Debbie and I went to the COPS sibling retreat again this year. It was such a great weekend for the both of us. We know that you were up on the ropes course with us on Sunday. We both were thinking of you the entire time we were climbing, you would love the place. It reminds me so much of you and the things you enjoyed to do. The support and encouragement are amazing. We met some wonderful people and will keep suppporting each other. Debbie and I have come a long way, but we still have a long road ahead of us and this weekend helps more than anything. I know that all of you were up there watching all of us helping each other and telling our stories of our brothers and sisters.

I know that you are watching over us and protecting us and that you are keeping the three girls safe. Jordan misses you and still talks about you constantly.

A big hug!

I miss you,
Andrea

September 20, 2004

Happy Anniversary,

This day will always have a special meaning for us. I know we weren't able to complete our dreams, but in my heart this day happened, and that's all that matters!

I miss you,
I love you,
Forever,

Monica

September 19, 2004

"Blood Upon the Shield"

Blood Upon The Shield
Confrontation in an alley. The Centurion does not yield.
But this time the good guy loses;
there is blood upon the shield.
And the mournful sounds of bagpipes
play out across the land,
drowned out by the sobs of a lonely young wife
and a child too young to understand.
While the killer pleads his case in court,
the thin blue line is one man short.
And we're one step closer to society's fall;
another cop's name is engraved on the wall.
Another state funeral, with an army in blue,
and we know it could've been me and it could've been you.
We all look ahead to what the future has in store,
front line troopers in a country that's at war.
At war with itself and at war with its cops and we're
out there every day 'cause the battle never stops.
It's not the way it is on TV shows or like
we learned in school; no cool music in the background,
no playing by the "rules;"
We're disillusioned warriors,
but for right we'll always strive.
We just pray that at the end of our stress-filled day
we'll get back home alive.
You stand out on the corner
ignoring the insults and the stares,
close to the point of believing that no one really cares,
when a six year-old boy walks over after watching
you for awhile, reaching out to shake your hand,
on his face a friendly smile.
To him you are a hero,
a protector of our land, and he wants
to learn about you,
as a cop and as a man.
And when he asks you why your badge is covered
by a black elastic band,
tell him about our Brother
A cop who made a stand.

August 27, 2004

Scott,

I was just flipping through American Police Beat when I came across an ad for police badge charms and your badge number was the one displayed for Detroit.

Kinda cool, but also very sad.


Love You,
Monica

August 27, 2004

Watch over your friends, some of them need you to be their Blue Angel!

August 26, 2004

Scott,

I went to the Sarah Maclachlan concert the other night. I couldn't help but think about you through the entire night. Her music conveys everything I feel and have felt.

Two songs stood out. I haven't been able to listen to "Hold On" since your death, and when she sang it I just broke down sobbing. She introed it with "You Are My Sunshine". It was beautiful.

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy
When times are gray

You'll never know how
much I love you
Please don't take
my sunshine away...

Hold on
Hold on to yourself
For this is going to hurt like
Hell

Hold on
Hold on to yourself
You know that only time will tell

What is it in me
That refuses to believe
This isn't easier than the real thing

My love
You know that you're my bestfriend
You know that I'd do anything for you
My love
Let nothing come between us
My love for you is strong and true

Am I in heaven here
or am I...
At the crossroads I'm standing

So, now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
You'll be strong tomorrow
And we'll see another day
And we will praise it

I love the light
that brings a smile
Across your face

Oooh God
If you're out there won't you hear me
I know that we've never talked before
Oooh God
The man I love is leaving
Will you take him
When he comes to your door

Am I in heaven here
Or am I in Hell
At the crossroads
I'm standing

So, now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
You'll be strong tomorrow
and we'll see another day
And we will praise it

I love the light that brings a smile

So, now your sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
That you'll be strong tomorrow
And we'll see another day
and we will praise it

I love the light
That brings a smile
Across your face

Hold on
Hold on to yourself
This is going to hurt like
Hell

After this song was over someone screamed "Icecream" and I started laughing and smiling remembering how much we loved that song, and how we thought about making it our wedding song. A silly song as our song.

Your love
is better than icecream
better than anything
else that I've tried

Your love
is better than icecream
everyone here knows how to cry

And it's a long way down
it's a long way down
a long way down
to the place we started from

Your love
is better than Chocolate
better than anything else
that I've tried

Your love
is better than Chocolate
Everyone here knows how to fall

And it's a long way down
It's a long way down
it's long way
down to the place where we started from

I miss you. I know you would have enjoyed her concert. You like her music as much as I do.

I hope your happy and having fun up there. I'm sure you are. How could you not. The whole world is open for you to explore. To me, that would be heaven. I'll join you one day and you'll be able to show me all the places you've been, just like before.

I love you,
Monica

August 26, 2004

To the Stewart Family, your son will never be forgotten. The days may be passing by, but the loss of your son and all of the other fine officers across this country remains fresh in our hearts. Our prayers and thoughts will be with you all forever. Peace be with you all. He will live on forever in the hearts of all who knew him, and even those that didn't!

Michigan Resident

August 13, 2004

Scotty its so hard to believe its been two years since I recieved that horrible phone call that changed my life forever.
With the help of family and friends we all made it through the day(Aug.11)I know you recieved all our thoughts, hugs and love on that day and every day.
Its still hard and we all miss you.
With love and Hugs
Mom
.

Audrey Stewart
mother

August 12, 2004

To all of our friends,

Thank you so much for the show of support that you have given our family over the past two years and especially the past couple of days. Your kind words, big hugs, and presence this past week has given us the strength to get through the day. We value the friendships that each of you have given us. You are all very special to us. Thank you again for everything that you have done.

A big hug,

The Stewart Family
Stay safe, remember Stewie has your back!

August 12, 2004

Scott,

Two years have gone by since you were taken from me. Time hasn't made the pain any easier. I've just learn to mask the sadness and pain better in the past year. I've thought about you constantly for the past 730 days.

730 days, 2 years, it seems only yesterday I heard the prep go off at our front door and Tony call my name. I'll never forget that horrid night. I'll never forget the look on his face, my frantic phone call to your mom, speeding down Gratiot, the nurse being overly blunt with me, because I'm an officer, telling me there was matter, seeing you there, holding your hand, praying to feel a pulse, crying for you not to leave me, telling you you're strong you can make it through this.

No, I'll never forget.

All of our dreams for "us" died that night with you. All the plans we had about building our family, gone. I still smile when I think about how you would tease me about having kids until the little prince came.

We love each other so deeply, I know you're still around. I got your messages. Thank you for giving me the little signs saying you are with me, and you are happy about how my life turned.

One day I'll be able to see you again. We'll be able to lie there and say "You know" about this or that, like we used to do.

I look forward to that day. It gives me hope, and helps make our separation somewhat tolerable, but never easy ,nor painless.

I love you,
I Miss you,

Monica
Fiancee

August 12, 2004