Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Merry Christmas Scotty. We miss you and thank you for keepin watch over all of us.

The Canoe Crew

December 25, 2004

Merry Christmas to you in Heaven.
Thinking of you and missing you.
With Love and Hugs,
Mom

Audrey Stewart
Mother

December 25, 2004

Christmas Eve is not the same without you. Mom and I had our Egg Nog in your memory, I will never forget that night we had to get more before we went home on Christmas Eve. You were on all of our minds tonight and as always we miss you.

Love,
Andrea

December 25, 2004

Saw this on another memorial site and felt it so very much worth sharing:

Merry Christmas From Heaven

I still hear the songs
I still see the lights
I still feel your love
on a cold wintry nights

I still share your hopes
and all of your cares
I"ll even remind you
to please say your prayers

I just want to tell you
you still make me proud
You stand head and shoulders
above all the crowd

Keep trying each moment
to stay in His grace
I came here before you
to help set your place

You don"t have to be
perfect all of the time
He forgives you the slip
If you continue the climb

To my family and friends
please be thankful today
I"m still close beside you
in a new special way

I love you all dearly
now don"t shed a tear
cause I"m spending my
Christmas with Jesus this year

Poem by John Wm. Mooney Jr.

Anon

December 18, 2004

Thinking of you, remembering your family in our thoughts and prayers as another holiday season quickly approaches. May their thoughts of you bring miles of smiles, and tears of only happiness as they recall the wonderful time they had with you while you were here. Rest in peace.

Up North Michigan

December 13, 2004

2

You left me, sweet, two legacies,—
A legacy of love
A Heavenly Father would content,
Had He the offer of;

You left me boundaries of pain
Capacious as the sea,
Between eternity and time,
Your consciousness and me.

December 8, 2004

I watched a movie about heaven tonight. It was suggested a person in heaven can feel when those on earth are loving them. I hope it's true. I wonder how the love reaches you. Would it be like me invisibly attacking you, kissing you all over, saying "love you, love you" just like I use to do.

Or is it like an over-whelming feeling making you drunk and giddy?

It was a good movie, but it made me miss you even more, and it made me think. Which, can be a very dangerous thing! -:)

It made me wonder about our next meeting. I know I'm going to cry from happiness and guilt. Guilt about my moving forward and my relationship with your family. I know I shouldn't feel this way because life continues to roll whether you like it or not, and things happen whether we mean it or not.

It was suggested in heaven you don't feel anger or hatred anymore. Nor do you look down on earth and feel those feelings by what you see. I hope that's true. It would be nice if it could be completely accomplished here. Maybe there wouldn't be so much nastiness between people. Unfortunately, forgiving others and letting the anger and hatred go is the hardest thing to do.

I think about the change in me since your death, and how much the anger about your death and other things has changed me. I don't like it. It's not me.

This movie made me think to much. I haven't sobbed uncontrollably in a long time. I stood there thinking about our daily activity and realized how much I miss that daily moment of comfort and warmth.

It would be nice if our piece of heaven could be enjoying the above always.

I love you,
I miss you,
Monica

December 8, 2004

Hi Scotty,
Another Thanksgiving without you but you were in our heart and thoughts. I would think of other Thanksgivings, thanks for all the memories.Again the blue candle was burning in your memory.
I know you were watching over us, laughing at some of the things that were said.
I know you had a great one up in Heaven.
With hugs and all my love Mom.

Audrey Stewart
Mother

November 25, 2004

Happy Thanksgiving Sweetie!!!

Another holiday season has officially begun. I decided to put more effort into enjoying the season this year. I think you will like the family room tree very, very colorful and fun.

I miss you. I wish we could have had the opportunity to enjoy many, many holiday's. I'm very grateful for the one, and will always treasure that year.

I know you will be around today. I'll have a place waiting for you. All night I've been thinking about how you would sit at the counter right before dinner with that eager, boyish grin. I love those memories.

I know you'll be sitting at a few tables tonight, the invisible guest. :) The only things you need to bring are good memories, smiles, and laughter for everyone else. (but, the boyish grin is reserved for only me!!! :) Hey, I can be a little selfish today (jk) )

See you at dinner,
Love ya,

Monica

November 25, 2004

Happy Thanksgiving to a Blue Angel in Heaven.
Love you

November 24, 2004

HAPPY THANKSGIVING, WISH YOU WERE HERE!

November 24, 2004

Scotty,

The Detroit Police Department gave you another medal. It is a Memorial Medal and they presented it during the Academy Graduation. It helps the family to know that the department has not forgotten you. It has been two years and I still have tears in my eyes when they tell your story. They told it to the graduating class and their families. A mom of a cadet spoke with mom and dad after the ceremony. The department makes us feel so welcome whenever we attend one of these functions. The chief is always so kind to the family. I just want you to know that we will not let people forget about you and the ultimate price you paid.

You will be with us on Thursday, as you are everyday. There is not a day that goes by that we all do not think about you. You are constantly on our minds and in our hearts. I saw the bird and know that you were with Jordan at the competition, you were with her when she was on top of the world. I know you were so proud of her! They did good!

I miss you,
Andrea

November 18, 2004

Hi Scotty,
Yesterday we celebrated Haley's 5th birthday. It brought back a memory of her 3rd birthday when you called me from Toys R Us and asked me what you could get her for her birthday. I gave you a few ideas. When you came to the party you brought her a BIG stuffed dog (which she still has)I can remember thinking why did you call me you did great on your own.
With the Holidays upon us alot of memories keep coming up.The family will miss you but we will get through them thinking of you.

Thinking of you the only way I get through this is rememering that you are in a better place and you are happy.
With lots of Love and Hugs,
Mom

Audrey Stewart
Mother

November 14, 2004

Scott, you were lucky to be loved so dearly by so many people! The tribute page Monica created for you is truly beautiful - as I am sure you know, because you are looking down over her, your family and friends. Rest in peace, blue angel, and thank you once again for making the ultimate sacrifice. A true hero here on earth, and certainly in heaven!

Michigan Res

November 8, 2004

Scott,

I got your sign. Thank You. I needed it. I was thinking about a lot of things and reached a decision on a few.

It was wonderful to get your sign after I made my decisions.

When I least expect it your sign appears, and it always appears when I'm wondering if I made the right decision or not.

Hershey's Baking Cocoa. Your scent. At times like the above I smell it and find the can open. I don't use it, no one uses it. I always seal it correctly after I find it open, but always at those moments I can smell it and find it open in the cupboard.

It makes me feel real good. I know you are with me and I know I've made a good decision.

It's either that or you want some chocolate milk and that's your way of flicking me to bring you some!!!! :)

I'll bring you some soon. You know my thing about cemetaries.

I found the poem "I'll Carry You in My Heart" today. I loved it. No matter what I do, or where I go you are with me in my heart. It's always nice to be around people who know you and listen to them talk about you. Keeps you here (it seems that way), but when I'm not around those people it's fine because you are still here with me as long as my heart is still beating, and when my heart stops I'll be with you again.

Calming.

To Everyone,
For about two years now I've been reading everything left here. A lot made me smile, a couple cry, and some brought out other emotions.

In all, the constant is our love, admiration, and respect for a great, wonderful man. No matter how long he was known to each (some never met him) it is obvious he left a lasting impression on everyone.

Thank you for all the tributes and support. This has been a wonderful way to connect to him yourtributecom/stewart hope you enjoy.

Hugs to everyone,

Scott I love you, I miss you

Monica

November 7, 2004

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

e.e. cummings

November 7, 2004

The Road Not Taken - Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

November 7, 2004

To the Stewart Family,

You may not have been able to say goodbye to Scott but he is watching over you everyday. I am positive that he is watching out over his three nieces in everything they do and he is also watching them grow up. He is with each of you everyday in your hearts and minds. Your family is an inspiration for all of his friends, you have welcomed us so warmly.

God Bless your family,
Scott's Proud Friend

November 5, 2004

Scotty,

You must have been one exceptional hero!! I read your posts and see the love from your friends and family, left behind to mourn you. I have met your two beautiful sisters at the Sibling Retreat and I've been blessed to meet two others who share my loss and understand all those conflicting emotions and that I can lean on. I'm sure you're so proud of them and your nieces.

Rest in peace,

Romaine Cheney
Sibling of Tpr. II Jessica J. Cheney
VA State Police, EOW 1-17-98

Romaine Cheney

November 5, 2004

Scott, Your beautiful fiancee Monica speaks so highly of you and her love for you endures to this day. So much so that I feel as though I knew you. You lived a life worthy of respect, and you are loved and missed by so very many. Watch over Monica, and send her messages of your own love for her. Watch over your family and friends, and please watch over all of our officers out there.

Fellow Survivor

November 5, 2004

The Presence of Love

And in Life's noisiest hour,
There whispers still the ceaseless Love of Thee,
The heart's Self-solace and soliloquy.

You mould my Hopes, you fashion me within;
And to the leading Love-throb in the Heart
Thro' all my Being, thro' my pulse's beat;
You lie in all my many Thoughts, like Light,
Like the fair light of Dawn, or summer Eve
On rippling Stream, or cloud-reflecting Lake.

And looking to the Heaven, that bends above you,
How oft! I bless the Lot that made me love you.

November 4, 2004

To Monica and Scotty's family, you don't have to say goodbye. "See you later!" will do. You all will be reunited some day in a much better place. Scotty was so lucky to have been loved by all of you, who remain in our hearts and prayers and thoughts every day. Rest in peace, Scotty. Your family will see you again, in God's time!

Friend

November 3, 2004

Mom, I see you shedding so many tears,
With pain in your eyes that seem to grow with the years.
Dad, you certainly have changed after my death,
I know there’s so much grief with each and every breath.

My sisters, you struggle to live out each day,
I watch from above and hear what you say.
Each niece remembers, honors me with her love,
I will always protect and be your angel above.

My friends, thank you for helping them out,
Who knew that’s what our friendship would be all about.
I know that you too have so much pain to bare,
Your tears I can see and I know how you care.

My family I miss you, I never said goodbye,
I want you to be happy, please say you’ll at least try.
From above I watch as you continue to suffer,
I am so sorry my death has made your life tougher.

I have gone and although it will be rough,
My family and friends you have been through enough.
You make me so proud in what you have done
To see that I am not forgotten with each rising sun.

Mom and Dad, your loss was the hardest I ‘m sure,
To bury your child is something no one should endure.
Sisters, it is time to think of me and smile,
Enjoy your life, you know it’s been awhile.

Jordan, Haley, and Shelby, oh how much I have missed,
When you feel the wind on your cheek, consider yourself kissed.
My friends you have touched me with your love for my family,
In return I will protect yours for all eternity.

Now is the time to say those words left unsaid
Goodbye to you, my family and friends.
I know that your sad although you’ve tried,
For when I was taken away a part of you died.

With love,
Andrea

October 28, 2004

If tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind;
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life,
I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way,
There's no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things,
You knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven,
and now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take My hand,
and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.
Love always Scott

October 28, 2004

Scotty,

I have been thinking a lot about the last time I saw you and the last conversation I had with you. I only wish that I would have been able to see you before you died, I was one day late. We were suppose to have a good heart to heart talk and that never happened. I do regret that I was not able to visit in July, but I thought I had time, who knew. I try not to do that anymore, if I want to see someone, I will go and see them or call them. I think that the only regret I have in everything that has happened is that we didn't get a chance to have that talk. I know that you are happy where you are and mom knows too. There is still alot of pain, but we try to think of you in a good place watching down over us. Keep your friends and family safe. We miss you!

Love,
Andrea

October 26, 2004